Lances POV
      I was in the middle of training with the team and my binder started to constrict my breathing and I was getting sloppy. I watch the drone race towards me and I quickly shoot it. It flinched back but still came towards me. I started to panic. I quickly changed my blaster to my Altean broadsword and start to sword fight. Kieth soon interferes and takes down the bot.
       "Good job Kieth! That was awesome!" Pidge yelled. I sighed and put away my bayard.
        "Keith you've improved a lot. I'm proud!" Shiro slapped him on the back and smiled. My shoulders started to slump.
         "That was awesome buddy! I knew we could always count on you!" Hunk my best friend fawned over him. I slowly started to back up and turn around to leave. I left and sighed. "Need to get this thing off." I muttered and went to my room. I stripped and looked at myself in the mirror. I slowly took off my binder and I sighed sadly. I looked at my breasts and felt hate build up inside me. I threw my binder down and grabbed a sports bra and slid it on and sat down on my bed. I grabbed my phone and looked at the family that kicked me out. I frowned and set it down. I laid down and sighed, "good job Lance! Making Keith help you and then you don't even get a good try Lance!" I frown to myself and teared up. "I thought they were gonna be my family......guess not" I looked at the clock and gasped. 'I'm late for dinner!' I quickly get up and throw on my shirt and zip up my jacket. I run down the hall and stop at the door. It opens and I slowly walk in. Allura glares at me and I smile as I stride in. I silently pick up my goo and sit down. I open my mouth to tell Hunk something.
"Lance you better not open your mouth. Your jokes are annoying" Allura growled and glared. I quickly shut my mouth and looked down. The others stared and then went back to what they were doing. I sighed and pushed my chair back. I got up took my plate and left. I put my goo back since I didn't touch it and I put my plate away. I sighed again and slowly walked to my room I pulled up my hood and stuffed my hands in my pockets. I start to sniffle as tears run down my face. I heard the teams laughter reach my ears and I bite my lip trying to hold in my sob. I quicken my pace and finally made it to my room and lock the door. I grab my mattress and lift it up. I look and see my best friend and worst enemy. My razor blade. I grab it and I hold it in my hand, it was light but felt so so heavy due to how much I have used it. I walk into my bathroom and sit in the tub. I grab the gauze and place it on the floor. I place the razor on my skin and cry harder. I push down and slide it across my wrist. I pull off my hoodie quickly. I watch the blood slowly drip out of the wound. I feel just a little bit lighter. I start to cut more. I cut my arm 15 times and stop. I wrap them up and pull off my shirt and look at my breasts. I start to cut my stomach. 'I'm too wide for a guy! My chest too big! My arms not muscular enough!'
I start to sob and stop after I cut my stomach 20 times. I move to the other arm but stop when I feel light headed. I put my razor down and start to wrap my stomach. I slowly stand up and I grunt from the pain. I get out and silently put away my gauze. I limp a bit into my main room and lay on my bed. I turn my back to the door and start to sob. I cover my face with my hands and pull my legs up into me. I start to black out. I let the darkness take over me.
I woke up and looked at the clock. It was 6 am in the morning I slowly got up and winced when I touched my arm or stomach. I pulled off my sports bra and put on my binder. I smiled slightly and finished getting dressed. I made my way to the dining room and heard everyone already chatting and laughing. I entered and everyone stopped and looked at me. Allura and Pidge glared at me. Keith scowled as usual. Shiro looked disappointed at me, like usual still. Though it was Hunks expression that broke me. He was looking away and pouting angrily almost. I grabbed my plate and left. I sat outside the door.
"I'm glad he's gone now. He's so annoying. I swear all he's useful for is getting his ass kicked." Keith grunted and I looked down.
"All he does is come in and annoy me when I'm trying to find my dad! Matt, Hunk, and I all hate when he's around." Pidge snarled. I felt my stomach lurch when she mentioned Hunk.
"All he does is slack off and try not to do work. He needs to start being able to handle himself in battle." Shiro the one who I thought I could rely on would leave me for dead. I've heard enough. I got up and went to my room and started to eat. I was writing out massages. I ate and pushed away my dishes and went to train. I made sure to get into my Paladin armor. The team came in a few moments later and looked at me surprised I was there. I had my bayard out and ready. I didn't speak and waited. Shiro gave me a pointed look and had me start on one. I scoffed lightly I could pass this with my eyes closed.
       After I cleared the level I looked at my team and they looked shocked. I scoffed and started to go out the door.
"What the hell was that McClain?!?!" Keith yelled. I shrugged and left. Guess I will always know I'm not enough and that maybe just maybe my secret is gonna forever stay a secret I hope till the day I die.
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