Keith's POV
       The few days with Shiro were amazing and I actually wished Lance would have been there. Maybe he would have been ok to be with Shiro as well. We were packing up as I felt something was wrong but I brushed it off. I was packing my bag when I saw a necklace fall. I bent down and picked it up. I smiled as I thought of the memory.
"Keith come on!" Lance yelled as he pulled me around the mall. I laugh and follow as he pulls me around. This was our second date. We passed a store and Lances eyes caught something. He stopped and looked at it and rushed in. I sighed and went in with a small smile. He was looking at a seashell. It was on a chain and it was honestly beautiful. I looked at the alien running the store.
"How much?" I asked.
"100 gac" he roughly growled out. I quickly reached into my pocket and handed him the money. He nodded and turned around. I looked back at Lance. His face was smiling and his eyes shone like the sea in the sun.
"What?" I snorted confused.
"Keith you didn't have to!-" He lunged at me and gave me a hug and looked up at me with his big eyes and gave me a peck. "-I honestly don't deserve you. You're too good." He whispered. I smile and sluggishly turned to pick up the shell. Lance hanging on still. I picked it up and looked at Lance and motioned for him to stand up and turn around. He did so and I got the shell out of the case and put the case down and slowly reached over Lance and placed the shell delicately on his neck.
"I'm getting you one now!" He sang as he ran off. I sighed and waited. I looked up a few minutes later and saw him coming over to me with a red ruby shaped like fire. He smiled.
"Like it?" He asked shyly.
"No" i said. He stopped smiling for a second. Then I grinned.
"Love it" I kissed his cheek and let him put it on me.
The memory faded out of my mind as though a cloud in the wind. I couldn't wait to get home now to make things right. I clutched the necklace and put it on. It perfectly fit beneath my shirt. I continued packing as Shiro came up behind me. He rubbed my bruised hips.
"Sorry i was so rough with you baby" he kissed my back. I hummed.
"It's ok. I enjoyed it. Now let's get home. I wanna make things right and I know you also have a thing for Lance." I teased him. He flushed red.
"Whatever" he mumbled and looked away. I giggled and zipped up my bag and picked it up. I hip checked Shiro and made my way to the space ship.
"Let's go slow poke!" I yelled at Shiro and he slapped my ass as he passed me. I squealed, he chuckled. "No fair!! Stop using your dominance against me!" He rolled his eyes and hopped inside. I followed and pouted in the passenger seat as he took off. I soon became to become sleepy and nod off until I fall into a dreamless slumber.
"Keith get up. We are back." Shiros voice sounded a bit worried. I got up and looked at Shiro. He was looking out the window. I followed his eyes and there was the whole team except for Lance. Pidge looked more than beyond pissed. Hunk was crying? And Coran seemed quiet as he hung his head and Allura glared at us. I opened up the cockpit.
"Hey guys what's wrong?" I asked. Concern written on my face for Lance as he wasn't here.
"WHAT. THE. FUCK. WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHATS WRONG?!?! YOU! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT. YOU HAD TO GO AND START CHEATING ON LANCE AND YOU CAUSED HIM SO MUCH FUCKING PAIN!" Pidge grabbed my jacket and cussed me out. She pushed me against the ship and started crying as she yelled. She eventually started crying into me and hitting my stomach. I tried to wrap my arms around her.
"NO! Don't fucking touch me you disgusting piece of shit!!" She ran away and into Hunks arms. Shiro looked at Pidge surprised. Panic rushed through me as what Pidge said sank in.
"Where's Lance??" My voice wavered. Hunk glared at me.
"Go check his room. This is both of your fucking fault!" His voice was rough and groggy like he was heartbroken. I quickly started running to Lances room. Shiro close behind. I opened his room door and the smell of blood hit me like a wall. I felt my stomach in my throat and my heart almost beat out of my body as I slowly approached the bed. Lance lado there pale and lifeless. I looked over his body and saw hundreds of cuts on his wrists and legs and I felt my body's collapse as I panic.
"No no no no Lance baby please wake up. Im so sorry. I never shoulda. No please i love you too much. Please don't leave me......" i fell to my knees and sobbed into his chest. He was so cold. So cold and stiff. I felt like a hole had ripped into my heart. I felt light headed as I quickly ran to the bathroom and threw up. I felt the bile in my mouth as I sobbed and looked around. I saw so much blood on and in the bathtub. Lances blood. I started to rock as I sobbed. Shiro slowly approached me.
"Keith you need to see this. Lance left something for you to watch...." He crouched in front of me and looked at me as he was crying. My breathing was still ragid as I slowly nodded. Shiro helped me to the desk and reached to play it. I sat in the spot Lance would sit. I felt so much pain.
Lances video
"Hey Keith Im not even sure if you'll watch this but that means I really killed myself. I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being enough. He started crying. His eyes turning red as the tears fell down his beautiful face. I Im sorry for not being big enough-strong enough. I'm sorry for boring you. I-I'm sorry for not being like him. He started to cover his face with his forearm as he spoke and tests still fell like a waterfall. Some still got passed his jacket forearm. I'm sorry for being a burden, for holding you back. His jacket fell off his shoulders and for the first time I noticed just how skinny he was. I felt myself choke and my heart break even more. I know now I'm the weakest link and that none of you guys really wanted me. Or even wanted to put up with me so I'm gonna end it. I'm a few. I hope I don't get stopped. I've wanted this too long. But I still love you. And I'm sorry a no good guy like me loves you so goodbye Keith. And Shiro- he looks right at Shiro as if he knew he'd be on my right-take care of him he's worth so much.
"No no Lance! You're worth so much too! LANCE YOU ARENT WEEK YOUR AMAZING ANS IM TO BLAME.........please come back" I screamed until my voice felt raw and broken. I felt broken myself. As I sat there I wanted to crawl back into a hole and die. I betrayed the one boy who truly loved me and I turned my back on him and left him. Not even properly. I cheated........Pidge was right Im to blame.

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Hey kids!
Sorry I've been gone for so long I've had a lot of medical things come up. But! I'm ok! And thanks for sticking with me all this time!!
Love you all, Mama C