TW: death, self harm, and cheating
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Lances POV
I was in the pod for a month and I come out and my boyfriend Keith comes running up and hugs me and I smile and hug back.
"Miss me?" I asked and cupped his face. He smiled and kissed me. I smiled into the kiss and held him.
"Of course I did dumbass!" He defended. I smiled and then felt a bit woozy. I stumbled a bit backwards and Keith caught me. "Careful Lance!" He warned, I nodded and leaned against him. He slowly brought me to my room and laid me down. He smiled and kissed my forehead and left. I slowly fell asleep.
       I woke up and noticed it was later. I sat up and swung my legs over the bed and got up. I slowly walked out. I heard noise in the training room and peered in. There was Shiro pinning someone to the wall. I looked closer and saw Keith kissing Shiro. My heart shattered as I watched as Keith moaned into the kiss. Tears started to fall from my eyes as I stood frozen. I turned and ran to my room. I sat on my bed as I tried to realize what I just saw. I had two options. Stay with Kieth and pretend I didn't know or leave him. Then things will be awkward. The first option is better.
        It's been two months already. I've come across them kissing and moaning more than I can count. Every time I just walk away as I cry. Keith cuddles with me every night. Until about midnight then he leaves and comes back hours later. During that time I've gone to the bathroom and cried. Tonight was another one of those nights. I felt him slip away as he silently snuck out. I laid there and felt so much hate for myself. It was like a hurricane and a black hole fighting for dominance. I sat up slowly as tears ran down my face. I got up and shuffled over to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I slid down the door and I sobbed. I reached under the sink and pulled out my razor. My best friend and absolute worst enemy. I took off my shirt and pants, I was just left in my boxers. I slowly slid the razor across my wrist as I applied pressure to the blade. I sighed as I saw drops of blood collecting and drip off my wrist. I slowly did the next, then the next, then the next. Until there was a good slow stream of blood. I looked down as I saw how much blood I had lost. My head spun as I reached for the gauze. I applied it to the cuts and wrapped it. I then cleaned up my skin and razor. I slid the razor back into place. I heard Keith's footsteps, I panicked and threw on my clothes and washed my hands. I looked myself over and nodded. I let my eyes droop and I walked out.
        "Lance! When did you get up?" He asked concerned. I rubbed my eyes and looked at him.
        "I woke up a few minutes ago. Where did you go? I was worried." I countered.
         "I got some water and I'm back now so let's go to bed ok?" He asked. He looked exhausted. 'Probably from Shiro banging him. I knew. They are pretty loud....' the thought saddens me but I pretend to shuffle tiredly back. I lay down my back facing Keith. He scoots in next to me and wraps his arm around me. I try not to cry as I remember when we would always be yelled at for being too loud.
        "Keith......how come you haven't kissed me or so much as have sex with me? Ever since I came out of the pod you seem...off." I whispered softly. He tensed and then relaxed.
           "Well considering what the galra could have done I didn't want to trigger anything bad. I didn't want you to be put into a panic and freeze up." He rushed. I nodded and pretended to go to sleep. I felt him hug me tighter and breathe into my shoulder.
"Shiro...." I heard him whisper as he smelled me. I tried to hold back a sob. My cuts stung and I felt my heart tighten as I hurt. I forced my eyes shut and slowly fell asleep.
In the morning I woke up to no Keith and I saw a note.
Dear Lance,
I've gone on a mission with Shiro. Don't worry we will be back in a few days. I'm the meantime Allura is gonna train you guys and stay out of harms way. Shiro and I are tracking someone down and we are the best equipped to do it. See you in a few days.
-Keith
I felt my throat tighten. A sob escaped me as I fell to the ground. My head hug heavy. I stared at my wrists as tears splashed onto my bandages. My cuts stung as my salty tears soaked through. I sobbed harder as my heart hurt more as I cried. I heard someone walk in my door. "Lance what's wrong?" It was Hunk. I looked up at him as my eyes dropped and tears slid down and my bandages were out in the open. Hunk gasped and ran and kneeled down.
"Where's Kieth? who hurt you?" Hunk grabbed my wrists and slowly started to unwrap them. I didn't care anymore. I slumped into myself as I prepared myself for a lecture. Hunk gasped and tears welled up in his eyes.
"Lance.....what happened to make you do this?"
"Kieth.....he he.....Shiro.....they...they..." I babble as I sob. Hunk glared.
"What the hell did they do?" His voice grew menacing as I cried harder. I threw myself into Hunks arms and sobbed out one word.
"Cheated" I cried as Hunk hugged me. Hunks eyes widened as I cried more. "He's out on a 'mission' with Shiro! I bet they they are just banging each other so so so I don't bother bother them!!" I sobbed harder as I clawed my sides. Hunk scooped me up and held me close. He petted my hair as I sobbed. He slowly started to hum as I slowly calmed down. I became exhausted and my eyes fluttered close as one last tear of despair fell down my face.
           I cracked my eyes open and noticed I was alone in my bed. I sighed sadly and slowly sat up.
      "He never cared....did he? I should have known I'd get my heart broken again...." I got up and sat at my desk and spent the next hour recording something for Keith.
        After I was finished I got up and went to the bathroom and pulled out my blade. I started the water as it filled up the tub I stripped to my underwear and got in. I sighed in relief at the warm water lapping at my skin. I  unraveled my bandages and dug my blade into my old cuts, reopening them. My arm stung as I dung the blade further in. I gasped as my hand started to go numb and more blood flowed out. I pulled out my blade, bits of skin and blood clinging onto it. I washed it off and moved onto my arms and thighs. I felt lightheaded and dizzy. The water was slowly turning red and overflowing. I smiled and cried in relief as I went under and took a breath. Water and blood flooded my lungs as I struggled to breath. 'No going back.' I sucked in more. I started to loose focus as I started to have a seizure. My eyes closed as I inhaled blood and water the metallic taste on my tongue for the last time. I opened my arms to death. Then there was nothing.

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