Sunday night
Evans pov

I had to film with delirious, Brian, Moo yesterday. It was weird because Delirious almost never films with us since red dead came out but it's cool cause he one of my closet and closeted friends but eh. So now my heads in a loop of reality's on who would I like to be with if I could.

I see my life with Jonathan, who was sleeping across from me on my sofa while friends played. My life with him would be... cute. His smile would always warm up my heart. The short bit of hair on his head that he had started to grow out. I feel like we could cuddle in bed for hours on end and never get bored of one another. Just us and a cute puppy, and my cat.
fuck maybe a kid.

With delirious a whole different story. Maybe we'd live in a giant house and record and play games all the time together. Probably can't go on dates cause I'm vanossgaming-well that's for both but with delirious someone could think something. We'd probably hang out with the bubble butt banana bottom boys. Ha.

but maybe Jonathan is um. Delirious. He sounds kinda like him. Just a little. He laughs like a psycho, I don't know why I like that about people but- oh and I would clap their cheeks h a r d. Um okay I'll stop.

But fuck me who do I even like anymore.