♦Alpha Adrian♦

"You trust me?"

My question literally stiffened her. Her face fell as if I asked her to rip her heart out for me. For a moment I started to regret asking her that question. It clearly had changed the environment of our moment. But to know the answer was more important for me.

"You'll hurt me." Her words felt like rubbing salt on my wounds. I didn't know I could feel this much defeated. She had my heart crying in just three and a half words. Her voice was so strong as if she was certain about it. As if she was sure I will most definitely hurt her. Why? Why would I hurt my own mate who is my soul?! Even though when I was doing every fucking thing for her, still? Really?

Is it too hard to trust me?!

I suddenly felt like breaking and destroying everything. My anger only kept building knowing she was like this because of that jerk. Because he broke her... that's why she couldn't trust me. I knew I was going to finish that fucker. I mentally noted to get all details about him and destroy his total existence.

How the fuck could anyone do that to a woman like her? I seriously wondered. She was a damn gem of a woman! So hard working, so smart and a badass beauty.

Oh her beauty!

That buttery smooth skin. Those long silky hair, oh my god! Her hands; those slender sexy fingers. And those long long legs. Yet she looked so small infront of me. I loved it like that. Everything about her was just very beautiful.

On top of that was her fierceness, the authoritative behaviour, and the confidence that she graciously walked with had me on my knees since the start. I didn't mind confessing, I was literally awestruck.

Though, she could be too stubborn and sassy sometimes as well. One moment she'd have me want to pull my hair out in frustration and on other have me want to kiss that cute attitude out of her. She never failed to make me go crazy. But I can try to handle her. Keyword: try.

I grazed the pad of my fingers on her cheek. She was so fragile. So soft. So pretty. I knew she was the only that I needed for my whole life. I knew I was hopelessly in love with everything about her already. She was mine. My mate!

I'm never letting you go no matter what! I promised her silently.

Her mesmerizing orbs focused on me. She stared at my face, longingly. She was vulnerable, unprotected, defenceless. She didn't care about putting her guards up once again like the night of her parents anniversary party. She was letting her walls down infront of me for one more time. She was giving me another chance.

I kissed her temple trying to reassure her she was always going to be safe with me and I'll never hurt her. Never.

I want you no matter what. I won't let you go ever.

"I want to trust you." My eyes shined listening to her words.

What?!

Did I heard right?

Did she just say that?

She wanted to trust me. Her words brought a new kind of joy to my soul. Instantly my heart felt like jumping with happiness. I didn't know I could be this happy just after hearing those five words from her.

She had so much power over how I felt. She could change my moods in just a beat.

Even Zedd started dancing and jumped with happiness inside my head. He had demanded to shift but I wasn't letting him have my moment with her. Not at all. I'll persuade him later. Yes, I had him blocked since a while so he can not manipulate me. I was aware I couldn't block him for long but he had done the same to me so it was tit for tat bitch.

I bring my focus back on the beautiful lady infront of me who was my mate. Moments like this made me so surprised sometimes. She was right infront of me. Her orbs had the same flaming desire as mine. And the icing on the cake was now she wanted to trust me too.

Ah lord moon! Am I dreaming? Even if I am just don't wake me up.

My gaze darted to her sweet smile on her beautiful face. I couldn't decide if I wanted to just keep watching her or to go on with what I planned to do in past?

I knew she was into me but how much? I had to find out, how far can she go for me? How much does she trust me?

I had endless questions inside my head and to find out the answers was essential for me.

"Tell me if it's too tight," I told her as I fasten the rope around her wrists. I knew it would surprise her and I had decided if she didn't liked it even a little I wouldn't do anything further.

"What are you doing?"She didn't sound afraid or scared. Good.

'Wait, has she done anything like this before with him?' Zedd's question brought a bitter taste in my mouth and I imagined her enjoying with him.

Stop!

I am not going to spoil our moment thinking about that fucker.

"These hands pulled my hair," I spoke while looking into her eyes deeply. "I'm just making sure they don't come in between my way anymore." My tone was slow and a smirk on my face. I didn't fail to notice how her breathing hitched while listening to my words.

'It will be a lot fun, mate.' Zedd stated excitedly. And he was back to annoy me. Ugh.

I knew he wouldn't let me enjoy with my mate. I didn't know why sharing her with even my wolf was making me jealous?

Because he's an ass of a wolf. Yes.

'No, we're not doing anything extreme,' I reminded him.

'Lets see how you control your wildness.' Zedd's tone was challenging. He knew how rough I could get and how sick I have been in past to satisfy my hunger and get my pleasures. I wasn't really proud of it now but it doesn't mean I regret any of it. Everyone I had been with had equally wanted and enjoyed it. So I don't have anything to feel guilty about. I was not letting my dear wolf spoil my mood. I was well aware how he loved to annoy me since he was born in my head.

So I just ignored his comment and paid extra attention to see if she had even a hint of fear on her face but she was clearly not. But yes, she definately was nervous... yet not anxious. The look on her face told me she was excited to see what I was going to do next.

It was surprising.

After getting done fastening the knot, I shifted my gaze to her face as she questioned in a much evil tone.

"Come in between what way of yours precisely?" She raised her brows in attitude. I was beyond surprised by her response and couldn't form any better answer. Knowing she had me shut, she shamelessly smiled looking at me.

Her boldness was also making me want to submit to her. To let her have it her way. She can happily use me however she wanted.

'And I thought Alpha didn't submit.' Zedd spoke up reminding me who I was.

You see now!

"Ofcourse, you have zero idea of what way I am talking about."

I don't wait for her to respond as I lean in her neck and bite on it, not very hard but enough to have her quivering. She wasn't any innocent. She chained her legs around my hips, while pinning me down on her core. The contact just scattered any last sane thought remaining in my head.

Hell lord!

Standing on my legs in a beat, I throw her on my shoulder and headed straight toward my bedroom. And that instantly reminded me to work on her eating habits. I hated how she was so light weight.

"What the hell?! Put me down!" She yelled. Ofcourse she was going to protest.

She gasped as a sharp smack lands on her rear.

"Did you bloody just?!"

Before I could think, she did something literally unexpected and mind-fucking-blowing.

Swiftly straightening up, she balanced her hands on my shoulder and slided downwards and wrapped her legs around my hips. Instinctively my hand held het waist to keep her from sliding any down. Lastly her tied wrist slipped around my neck totally changing the position.

Wow.

Her eyes told me not to mess with her.

"How dare y-" I cut her and tightened my grip around her waist pushing her further into my body. A sexy low gasp escaped from her.

"Shhh! You don't want to be punished? Do you?" I said in devious low tone.

She was unbothered and narrowed her eyes in fury.

Uff! How can I not mess with this fuming angel.

Her pony tail was already messed up and few stands were now falling on her face. I bring up my hand and tuck that lazy strand, falling infront of her beautiful orb, behind her ear. As my skin grazed with hers, boom! I was experiencing all those delicious electric shocks.

She gazed into my eyes for a second but couldn't help drop them down to my lips. Her eyes staring hungrily as if saying she would hunt me down if I didn't kiss her right away.

Aww!

Just a second, mate.

As I ran to my room her soft cheeks brushed with my neck and she slept on my shoulder more like hiding her face into my neck. I felt her limbs lightened around my body. She held me as if her life depended on it. Her heart was beating madly.

Why is she this nervous suddenly?

I was already entering my room, I strode towards my bed and sat down with diya in my lap still wrapped around me not allowing herself to move. Her behaviour was making me uneasy slowly.

'How stupid can you be? You think she rides on rollercoaster everyday?' Zedd scolded. Why is he mad on me?

'Come to the point Zedd!'

He sighed.

'You scared her, dumbass! She's a human! You think it's common for her, you running like that?'

Oh.

Shit!

"Diya?" I tried to speak as softly as I could. I need to know what happened.

She pulled away in a jerk stealing eyes from me but I hold her back in place when she tried to get off from me.

"Don't." I told her as she was awkwardly trying to get off from my lap. She kept on staring at the blue ropes tied around her wrists laying in between us.

No. No. No. Don't be scared of me again!

"The reminder that you're not a-" she suddenly stopped speaking, slowly looked up and meet my gaze. In her eyes I saw hesitation and something I couldn't recognise. Sadness?

"Human." I completed her sentence looking into her eyes deeply.

She blinked and shook her head once to which I furrowed my brows in confusion.

"You're different. Special." I don't interrupt her as I wanted to hear what was going on inside her head. "I'm not like you. I don't think I am who you think I am." Her voice had pain. She instantly broke the eye contact and looked down.

'She thinks so much.' Zedd commented to which I agreed.

'Overthinks,' I told him.

I untied her hands as I had clearly scared her and I don't wanna start anything scaring her.

I noticed red marks and the uneasy feeling crawled up under my skin.

"Why didn't you tell me it was tight?" I asked her softly as I grazed my fingers over her wrists as if that would get it back to normal.

'If she doesn't say when something is hurting her, it won't work like that.' Zedd was right.

"Never realised," she whispered. I didn't like her reply but I didn't wanna stretch it at this moment.

'Is she for real!' He was angry now and he's angry was also passing to me.

Silently, I strode towards the bedside table and took out the aid box.

"Come here," I told diya as I sit with the box on the bed and looked for the specific cream.

"You come here," came her sassy response.

'Sometimes her responses makes me want to spank her.' Zedd stated.

Ofcourse.

Right now her sassy ass would definitely be thinking I was ordering and Miss Diya Sen, the famous buisness tycoon and the world bike race winner, don't take orders.

I smiled to myself.

"Okay, madam." I whispered under my breath.

Grabbing the cream I went and sat beside her.

"Would you give me your hand or I myself should do the honour?" I asked while hiding my smile.

She didn't show any emotion on her face. Okay no jokes.

"Diya." I forwarded my palm for her.

"Why?" she looked up slowly and held my gaze not letting any emotion to show on her face. Her guards were up again.

"It's turned red. I will apply this." I showed her the tube.

'Something is troubling her, don't you think so?' Zedd questioned

'We need to make her speak.' He agreed with me.

"You always want to aid my wounds... Why?" Her question felt as if had some hidden meaning behind it.

"It's my duty to aways take care of you." I told her proudly.

Suddenly I noticed the sadness in her brown eyes and I started feeling unsettled.

"No, I have always taken care of myself and I still can do it own my own," she said rudely.

"Ofcourse you can." I lifted my hand to caress her cheek but she stood up and stepped away.

I was shocked with her response. I stood up as well.

"Pls, don't," she said with a hint of guilt.

She rejected my touch. I felt something breaking inside me.

What is happening to her suddenly why is she behaving like this way? Did I do something wrong?

"Okay I won't, but let me apply the cream?" I requested.

'We need to know what she's thinking again.' Zedd stated.

"No I'm fine." She turned away from me. "Stop acting like you care too much."

"Really?!" I grabbed her arm and make her face me. "You think I'm acting?"

"Or maybe because you keep on hurting me and you're guilty why you do all this." Her words kept stabbing me.

"Diya you're my mate-"

"I am not your mate!" She screamed suddenly and jerked my hand off her arm.

I just stared at her because I couldn't digest what she just screamed on my face.

She was breathing heavy just like me. I had her gaze locked with mine. I couldn't understand what just happened and why was she so mad.

Suddenly her eyes became glossy and she had tears collected in the corner of her eyes. She was fighting very hard not to let it flow out.

I felt helpless and tried to go near her but she stopped me.

"I'm not your mate. Leave me alone." There was so much pain in her voice. I could feel the anger and pain mixed in each word.

I anyway walked close to her. She needed me. No what what she said I could see she clearly need me to hold her.

"Dont-" I wrapped my arms around her and held her tightly in my embrace. And as if she was just waiting for me, her tears started falling out and she started sobbing. I caressed her back trying to make her feel better.

Is this behaviour of hers again because of that guy? Is she scared of anything because of him? Why is she crying? All the questions kept popping in my head and I was totally puzzled how to get her back to normal.

Listening her crying like this made me feel so much weak. I was feeling angry on myself for not being able to do anything to help her.

I kiss on her head and her hand came up and held my blazer. Her face was hidden into my chest and she was literally shaking.

"I won't leave you. Ever."

Hearing me, she turned her head up to look at me. Her nose and cheeks had turned red and eyes were bloodshot. My hand lift up and wiped off tears from her cheeks.

Her eyes never left mine.

"I- I'm," her voice broke as she tried to speak. "I am falling in love with you."

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Updateeeeeeee!!!

What???!! Diya is falling in love?! Isn't that so exciting??

Geeezzz I'm super excited to know what's gonna happen next! Anyone else?

Btw how are you guys?? I missed you all so much! I was busy with few of my close cousins marriages; total 3 marriages yes that was exhausting. But I'm back again!

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