I panted as I sat up and pushed back my now sweaty hair. Four was by my side in seconds, I was shaking uncontrollably and my cheeks were wet.
"Shh, E it's okay." He mumbled kneeling beside the bed and rubbing my back.
"I'm fine, I just need a second.." I said turning away from him and wiping my eyes and cheeks. He sighed and held my back against his hand.
"You don't..," he hesitated at first. "You don't have to be tough around me, I'm not your instructor right now, I'm your friend."
"Friends don't kiss each other," I whispered.
"So what? Am I your boyfriend?" I ingnored the last part and looked up at him and instantly put my wall down and let the dam break. I was crying so hard it took me an hour until I finally calmed down and breathed.
"I'm just, afraid of what I've become, I'm afraid of who I am." I mumbled looking down and putting a strand of hair behind my ear.
"You can't let that effect who you are, one way or another, you will change-it's just who you are, there's no changing that." His hand found my arm and rubbed it softly. I looked down at his arm then back up into his eyes.
"Can we just..," I heard my voice crack before I swallowed, "can we just lay here, together?" I whispered. Four nodded at me and I turned back over and laid my head against the pillows. He laid beside me and wrapped his arm around me, and we stayed like that talking, until the sun came up.

I had never been this nervous before. So nervous I wanted to throw up and scream at the same time.
"Stephanie Grayson," I heard Jeanine's voice as I walked into the training room.
Today was our last day of initiation, our final exam, they had only moved the metal chair into the training room and Tori would be there with the syringe. Some Vampire-Born would sit on the sides and watch. I hadn't seen Four all day, I was sort of... I didn't know how I was feeling.
Will, Fallon, Dillon, Drew, Peter, and Molly had already gone plus the other 6 initiates I never got to actually talk to. I was the last one, Vampire-Born had gotten a different Exam. Everyone had drunk their blood slowly, no one talked, everyone was pretty nervous.
I smiled back at Jeanine and ignored the chill her green and orange eyes gave me. I peeled out of my black jacket and ran my hands over my two braids Fallon had given me earlier today. I slid into the metal chair and closed my eyes. I opened one of them and looked at Tori, she smiled. I smiled back as she got the syringe ready.
"This time the simulations will be different," she whispered down to me, "after you face one fear you go to the next. And in this simulation it will be digging deep into your memory, finding out your deepest fears." I didn't say a word.
"Good luck," she mumbled after I felt a prick in the side of my neck and my eyes closed for what seemed like forever.

It started out in the field again, and the exact same thing happened with the exact same outcome. But I didn't wake up, instead, when I opened my eyes I was inside of the glass box. The glass was broken just as the whole box filled up with water. Then a new one came. I was back in my old house. It was dark outside and before I knew it I saw it; lightning. I ducked and covered my ears right before the clack of thunder shook the ground. I had almost forgotten how scared I was of thunder. I heard myself hyperventilating and I squeezed my eyes shut. Another bolt of lighting. The sound of thunder rung in my ears. Normal thunder was fine, but this, was worse. I squeezed my wet eyes shut and breathed slowly.
Inhale... Exhale.. Inhale.. Exhale
When I opened my eyes I was in the same place, but the thunder was gone. I looked down and noticed I was laying in my old pajama set.
Was this the fear of being doppelgänger again?
Then I felt myself sit up. I listened closely, was that a growl I heard? I slowly sat up further and stepped out of bed. I tiptoed down the familiar stairs looked around the kitchen. There was nothing.
I furrowed my eyebrows and went around the island in the kitchen. I tripped over what felt like a sack of potatoes and fell on my elbow. I looked over and saw my mother, her eyes barley opened, there was a gash in her neck. And it was bloody. I screamed and when I looked over I came face to face with a jet black wolf, it's bloody teeth exposed as it continued to growl. I squeezed my eyes shut and opened them back up. I was standing in the hallway, I was at Vampire HQ. I looked up as the eerie light flickered and I looked back as a figure swooshed behind me. I turned back, no one was there, when I turned back around, it was Peter. I gasped, but just as he swung his left hand and it hit me right on the left side of my face. This time, when he swung, I hit him back. He stumbled back, but came at me. When I rose my leg to kick, he held it and began to drag me.
I could already hear the rushing water, but not over his dark and cold laugh.
Not again..
I shook my other leg and eventually got it to kick his other leg from beneath him, I kicked him hard again, once more. But this time, he fell back and over the railing.
I might've killed him, but at least I had gotten over my fear.
I opened my eyes and looked around it was only me and Jeanine in the room.
"Bring them forward." She said, her voice stern.
A woman and a man and a teenage boy emerged. It was my family. I gasped and smiled at them.
"Mom," I breathed. She looked digested. I took a step back, hurt.
"Kill them." Jeanine said.
"What?"
"Kill. Them." She said again and walked beside my mother, then behind her. She pulled out a butter knife.
"N-no... What... What are you doing!?" I asked sprinting over to my mom.
Jeanine raised the knife and sliced her neck, the scent of blood filled the room. I stopped. My mother slowly fell to the ground, and I watched as the blood poured out of her neck. The black veins crept around and under my eyes and before I knew it my white teeth were cascaded in the dark liquid.
I opened my eyes.