I don't want any of these thoughts and I don't know how to escape from them either. I remembered what Viola often says to me to deal with unnecessary thoughts and I practiced that also and could get success to some extent. But now it seems no technique can be helpful or useful to me. I sat straight as I just cannot lie like that for long.

Then my cell phone draws my attention. There is Viola's picture. I am feeling so happy seeing Viola calling me. Why did not I get the idea to call Viola and talk with her? It would be indeed a great idea to escape from these terrific thoughts.

"Viola" I almost yelled with happiness.

"Why, it is I." I am hearing her beautiful laughter. "You sound completely different. What happened Dazzle?"

"Nothing happened. I am in fine fettle." I am trying to sound normal and jubilant to her.

"I don't believe it." Viola sounds doubtful. "Don't forget that I am having a psychic link with you and can know everything about you."

"Then tell me what exactly happened to me and what exactly I am feeling now?"

"I did not make that much deep into you yet." There is a pause "But sure I make deep and full psychic connection with you and know everything about you."

"Please do it like that. I shall feel more secure then."

"That means you are feeling not secured now. Why it is so?" I am seeing the gathered frowns on her forehead.

"Oh, my god!" I am feeling helpless. Viola doesn't leave me easily. She is too much concerned about me.

"I said just casually. I am feeling wonderful and don't worry about me."

There is some silence and I don't know what to talk with her then. I am feeling tempted to say everything to Viola. But I don't want to disturb her unnecessarily while she is such far away from me now.

"I shall be there just in one week or so. Even you don't tell me yourself, I myself know about everything. I cannot say why but I am strongly feeling that you are in a precarious condition there."

I am feeling shaken again. How Viola is knowing everything like that? Is her psychic link with me is really working?

"Oh, don't trouble yourself. First think about your professional commitments." I am cursing myself to talk like that with Viola. How much I do want her with me now?

"Shut up. I know what to do." She cut off the call as if she does not like what I said.

But I am feeling happy now. Viola is going to be with me very soon.

***

"It shall be really very good. It would be very different and enjoyable."

I heard Nathaniel saying that. I am remembering the same things again and again with more and more details in later parts. I think I was twelve years or so aged then. He already explained what it was. I too came to know about it to some extent from Viola. Some thrill feeling got in me.

"What if I get pregnancy?" I narrowed my eyes and looked straight into his face. In his fifteenth year itself, Nathaniel was appearing handsome to me.

"You don't get pregnancy. Until you get it, you would not get pregnancy."

"What I have to get to become pregnant?" I heard about that too but I asked just to hear what he would say.

"You have to become a woman to get pregnancy." There were frowns on his forehead with irritation.

"What is that becoming a woman? Am I not a woman now?" trying not to smile I asked him.

"No, you are not a woman yet. Becoming woman means....." he came near to me and said to me what it was

I felt utterly shame while hearing him so. "You have not become a woman yet, I think."

"No, I am not a woman yet." I said troublingly.

"Then don't feel fear. Your body mechanism cannot make a baby yet."

I wanted to deny but I was feeling very much thrill.

"It shall be so good, I can tell. We are just wasting our time here." Taking my hand into his, Nathaniel said.

"Our storeroom is the best place for it." I sounded myself strange.

"Better you lead us into that then. I don't know where it is." He said.

Our storeroom was in pitch dark by the time we entered into it and I switched on the light there. Immediately the whole room filled with yellow lighting and we could see everything in it clearly. It was filled with lot of junk and fortunately there was small clear place.

"It is going to be little uncomfortable to us." Nathaniel said observing the place carefully.

"Are you losing your mood seeing this place in this way?"

"Not at all." Nathaniel laughter also was beautiful. "People like us do get places only like these to satisfy our desires."

"What is the next step?" I was trying to keep my interest.

"Make ourselves completely naked."

"My god! I cannot." Many a time I became naked and in fact I love to be naked. But never I have become naked like that before someone.

"You may get inspiration if I make myself naked first."

Nathaniel started himself undressed. It surprised me that there was no awkward feeling in his face. He became naked in his upper part just in seconds. With the same irrelevance he unbuttoned and unzipped his pant also and it dropped onto the floor. My heart beat increased while I was seeing him completely naked like that. It was very first time to me to see a boy of his age completely naked like that.

"Now it is your turn." Looking into my face he said.

"No, I cannot. It is difficult to me to become naked like that." I still could not dare myself to become completely naked.

"If you , yourself cannot, I do that for you." He came near to me and put his hands on me. I felt a pleasure wave just like a current shock. He slowly unbuttoned my shirt and peeled it off from my body. I wore nothing inside of it. I just remained calm while he was making me completely naked. Then he laid me gently in the small clear place there. How much time passed I just did not know and all the time he was quite busy on me. When we were completely immersed in that pleasure-some sexual acrobat, I just forgot about the narrow place we were stationed. He also appeared quite irrelevant about everything else and just busy in giving and taking.

***

I sat bolt straight on the bed. I am feeling terribly thirsty. Surprisingly I am not feeling any desire. I just cannot understand why I have remembered all that in such detail. With difficulty I got off from the bed and went near to the fridge there. I opened the door of it and about to take a bottle from it. Then I am feeling suddenly as if someone is hugging me from my back.

The whole room is enlightened with bed-light lighting. I can see everything so clearly. But I cannot see any hands on my front or anyone near to me. But I am hugged strongly and I am trying to take steps but I cannot move.

"Who, who it is?" my voice shivered. Fear gripped whole of my heart and I cannot understand how I am talking.

"Don't you remember me at all?"

Nathaniel Zimbra! Once again! He died long back! How he came back again.

"You were dead." I hear my voice strange. I am feeling surprise that I can manage to speak.

"Yes I dead. But I came again for you." He kissed on my cheek. The same kiss. I still can remember the taste of his kiss.

"Leave me please."

"No, I cannot. I have come specifically for you."

My god! What should I do now? His hold around me is tightening. My throat is aching and heart is burning with thirst but I don't know what to do. I just cannot manage to drink water. His hold around me is very tight and I cannot move my hands at all.

I understood that there is no use in my feeling fear. I breathed deeply, hissed out heavily and relaxed myself. I try to wriggle my body with all my strength to free myself from his hold. Then to my surprise, very easily I can move my body. Is it is just my imagination? Nothing more than that?

I ran towards the bed with the bottle in my hand and slumped on it. I am drinking the water without stopping and it is easing my throat ache and heart burning. Once the water emptied I threw the bottle away while falling flat on the bed. My god! What an experience! But why and how?

It is not a dream. Surely it cannot be a dream. It did not happen to me while I was on the bed and sleeping. It happened when I am at the fridge, took the bottle out and about to drink the water. It is Nathaniel Zimbra. Why he remembered me after such a long time? He was dead. How a dead person came like this? He became a devil. Nathaniel became a devil and he came to me as a devil.

I have no belief whatsoever in devils till the moment. I am religious I believe in god but I never believed in devils etcetera but the present experience forcing me to believe in devils too. Nathaniel was a good friend to me and we enjoyed sex together many a time in that young and tender age. But we did not have any hard or deep feelings on each other. I must say that there was no love like thing to us on each other.

I am now remembering that I have thought about Nathaniel before the experience. I have remembered every tiny detail of my first experience with him. Because of that I imagined him like that? No, imagination would not be so. It is not at all just imagination. It cannot be. It is more lifelike. I still can remember how hard I have tried to wriggle myself free from his grip. Thoughts once again invaded on me mercilessly. I know that there is no easy escape to me from them then. No sleeping technique taught by Viola works out.

I am now remembering my dad. Oh, how nice it would have been if he is alive on this day! I just run into his room, wake him up, put my both hands around his neck and tell him that I am scared to my bones. Then I can think what he would do. He just pats on my back, settles me on the bed and tells me not to feel fear and sleep peacefully. But there is no dad now. He is dead. The very feeling that there is no dad to me is making me feel fear than the bizarre experience I have got just minutes before.

Now I am seeing my dad's dead body. He is appearing quite peacefully just like he is sleeping. On that day when I have seen my dad's dead body he just appeared to me like that. I still can remember how I have reacted on that day.

"Dad wake up." I went near to my dad's dead body and said.

"He cannot wake up. He is dead." My ears caught those words from the back of me but they were not registered in my mind.

(..........to be continued)

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