"Dreams are like that. Until we come out of the dream they are real. Dreams are subconscious thinking." Menaka is relaxed now seeing me like this.

I sat on the bed and breathing deeply to relax myself. While hissing out I looked into the face of Menaka. "It is Nathaniel and Chuck. They came to take me with them."

"They both were dead. Were not they?"

"Yes they were dead. I don't know how they both know each other. Nathaniel died a long time back in a motor accident to my acquaintance with Chuck........."

"And Chuck died with heart attack. Anything is possible in dreams. Nathaniel and Chuck together is only your subconscious imagination." Menaka completed for me. "Quite a good riddance for you."

"I must agree to this." I nodded my head and am saying. "I just don't know why I have got a dream like this!"

"We never can say why do we get such type of dreams. Of course there is a science to study dreams. I think it is Sigmund Fruid experimented and analyzed on dreams."

"So if we read the books on dreams we may know why I have got this dream."

"May be. But I am not sure about that."

Then I have explained to her about the dream I have with my dad in it. How my dad asked me to save him and how I failed in that.

"That is also just a dream. Don't break your head for it."

"But there is a particular science for dreams....." I am saying but cut off by Menaka

"There is no necessity to go to such lengths with these dreams. In my opinion dreams prove nothing. They are just automatic and accidents. It is always better neglecting dreams."

"But I cannot convince myself so. May be there is some message in the dreams I have got."

"Never." With firmness in her voice Menaka is saying. "Even however many scientists say I do never believe that dreams bring messages. It is just automatic thinking of our subconscious. I shall prove how the dreams are not important at all now itself." She paused for a moment and curiosity picked in me and I am looking into her face interestingly.

"Whenever you have caught up yourself thinking about something you don't intend at all and surprised yourself why you are thinking about that?"

"Sometimes of course." I have to agree. "I find myself thinking about something which has no connection whatsoever with me and wonder myself why I have started thinking about it."

"If it happens while you are awaken you simply struck it as unnecessary thinking and don't probe in it. It is in fact your subconscious thinking without your intention. But your subconscious mind works more while you are not in deep sleep. It thinks this and that without your intention and without any logic and all those appear as pictures just like a movie. As your conscious mind is not awake at that time you take it as real."

"Good explanation! But why I am seeing pictures also. Why it does not just a conversation? Thoughts are just like inner conversation."

"Not at all." Menaka nodded her head in negation. "If you start thinking about something, after sometime you start seeing pictures. Suppose you start thinking about your father. After sometime you see him in flesh and blood in your mind. You can feel his presence. You cannot think without feeling the presence of the things in your mind. So it happens seeing things and feeling them in our dreams. But as the conscious mind completely disappears during dreams, they appear lifelike."

"Wonderful indeed! I must say you studied your graduation with psychology." Really her analyzing skills are admirable.

"No. I used to know a psychologist by name Niranjan. He was a great professor in psychology. I came to know all this from him."

"You are using past tense. What happened to him?"

"He committed suicide for certain reasons. It is indeed a long story."

"Even psychologists also commit suicide!"

"Don't think all those who committed suicide are low in intelligence or thinking. Sometimes very great people also commit suicide." Menaka is saying. "I have come to acquaint with him while I was helping my uncle with a suicide mystery. I do tell all about that later."

"All right." I nodded my head.

***

"I am positive to complete this assignment within the time I said I complete." There is confidence in the face of Smaran.

"But I just don't know how you are going to complete that fast. Already ten days or so passed. Have you found out anything so far?" I am feeling irritation. I just don't know how he is feeling confident like that.

"I keep my word Miss Dazzle. You just feel relaxed. Ask me if I don't complete the task within that time."

"That means you have come to hold of an important clue so far. Otherwise you don't feel confident like this." looking interestingly into his face I said.

"I am not going to say anything now Miss Dazzle. But I promise you I complete my assignment in the time I have promised to you."

"Alright then." I nodded my head.

"Now I have come here to discuss about the matters you shared with Menaka." Leaning back in the chair Smaran said.

"What matters?" I asked him with surprise.

"Those your experiences in bathroom and....with Nathaniel and Chuck....." Smaran is saying. "You told about those to me also but you did not describe them in full with me. You just gave some hints, little narration. You did not tell me in detail."

"Oh, Menaka said about those to you already!" I am feeling shame once again as I felt while I was discussing about them with Smaran previously.

"I understand you cannot freely discuss about them with me. That was the reason why you did not tell me about them fully and in detail in our first meeting." Smaran said.

"Thanks you understood." I am saying irritating in myself. "How you are thinking that I can discuss about those matters in detail with you now?"

"Miss Dazzle...." Smaran paused for a moment before continuing. "I am thinking they are very important part of our mysteries. You need not describe them in detail. I have come here for a confirmation. So you have such experiences....lifelike ....with that Nathaniel and Chusk..."

I am feeling terrible shame and I know my cheeks turned deep red.

"I am very sorry that I have to embarrass you like this.... But...." he is saying.

"Its alright Mr.Smaran. I can understand. I already but briefly explained about those incidents to you. Why do you want a confirmation again I don't know. Yes, those are true. I have such experiences with that Nathaniel and Chuck. I know they were not real but my imagination, but both of them raped me." And thinking hard I said again. "Not just Nathaniel and Chuck, but I was raped by some unknown person also in my imagination."

"So your imagining rape experiences were not just limited to Nathaniel and Chuck."

"You are right Mr.Smaran." I am feeling terribly shame.

"Are you sure you were not sleeping at that time?"

"I am hundred percent sure that I were not sleeping at that time. They were not at all my dreams." I am irritating once again.

"What after the said experiences? Any trace that they really happened on you? Proving that they were not just imagination but happened....."

Why did not he ask all these questions when I briefed him about these in the first meeting?

"No Mr.Smaran. No trace whatsoever. Nothing." Even in that irritation also I nodded my head vigorously. "I must say they were just my imagination but life-like. I did not feel them like my imagination while they were happening on me. Even now also...." I am saying again after giving a small pause. "I am feeling them as true. They are such life-like."

"I see." Smaran nodded his head.

"Now the very important point I want to hear from you and be confirmed by you. That Chuck's saying something to you ....after that thing and you cannot remember anything of that later and .....his talking sometimes in cell phone with you after you came to India but you cannot remember anything that he has talked...." He is saying clearly to my understanding.

"Yes Mr.Smaran it has happened like that. I am still feeling very much surprise for that." I am saying. "What you are thinking about these now Mr.Smaran?"

He perched his head up and saying with a serious expression in his face. "I am thinking something but I cannot say any until I probe even more into your matter. As I promised, you come to know about everything by the end of thirty days. Just be relaxed in the meanwhile. And...." He paused.

"Tell me Mr.Smaran. What it is?" once again my mood changed and I started feeling relaxed.

"Don't feel fear or awkward if such experiences happen again to you. I am thinking that there are chances that you may face such experiences in future also. Anyhow they are just your imaginations and no physical damage to you with them. Why do you worry about?"

"But they are so much embarrassing to me to have."

"I agree." Smaran nodded his head. "I do put a stop to all those in future. Just be prepared to suffer for some more days."

"Thank you Mr.Smaran. I am feeling confidence on you." I am smiling now. "I am thinking you really can solve my problem."

"I really can." There is confidence in his voice. "Unless I do feel confident I don't say like that." He is saying again. "Now Miss Dazzle. Please give me the leave. Just share anything that you feel important with Menaka. I forgot to ask. How you are feeling with Menaka?"

"You are absolutely right Mr.Smaran. Menaka proved herself to be a very good company to me. I am enjoying her company a lot." I am really feeling what I am saying "Thank you for giving me such a good company."

"I am happy that you are feeling like that." He got off from the chair. "I shall meet you two or three times before closing your assignment."

"I welcome you whenever you want to meet me." I am smiling again.

"What you did about the exercise I asked you to do?"

"What is that? I cannot remember." I really don't remember then what Smaran asked me to do.

"I asked you to make a list of those things which you don't believe even your dad said about them to you."

"Oh, I remember now. I made a small list in a notebook and that note book is now in my home." I am saying after a small pause. "But Mr.Smaran, it is indeed a very difficult exercise to me. I am feeling tortured myself thinking about the things I don't believe even my dad says about them to me."

"Please continue with that exercise Miss Dazzle. It is very important. Think about the things as much as you can which you don't believe even your father says them to you. It makes quite easier to me to solve your problem."

I just cannot understand how that is possible. "Alright. As you are saying so I sure do try once again. I try to make the list as much big as possible."

"Thank you for honoring my words. Good day."

Now I am looking at the retreating figure of Smaran.

(..........to be continued)

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