im·por·tance
noun
the state or fact of being of great significance or value.

3 months later

sitting at the head of my bed i watched my daughter sleep while Miguel play with her fingers

"she's so small" he whispered i smiled

"i know" i whispered back with a smirk looking back at my phone rubbing her back as she slept

my phone pinged showing i got a text message from Ace

Ace: what is she doing now?

i rolled my eyes replying "she's sleeping as i told you 3 minutes ago"

Ace: doesn't she have to eat? it's almost her feeding time

"I know what i'm doing" i replied the three dots popped up but disappeared

Miguel watched coco melon as he laid with me it's been some weeks since i moved back into my apartment

i did have the help from my mom the first few weeks back home from the hospital

1 month ago

"Camila I told you not to season the chicken with the lemon pepper because we have- CAMILA DO YOU HEAR ME!?"

I heard her but I was still in shock by how much liquid was on my bed

the bedroom door swung open "Camila I know-"

"this isn't pee" I calmly told her

"get the hell up then girl! where is your bag let's go"

"I have it packed but it's in the closet" I slowly pulled myself from the bed

"Miguel! you got to put some clothes on!" my mother yelled grabbing my things

"I don't want to go to the hospital with my pajamas on-"

"Girl if you don't come on i am NOT letting you have this baby at home hurry up" she snapped

"I'm not having contractions-" spoke too soon it knocked the wind out of me

"that's exactly what i'm talking about" she pointed at me Miguel ran to my room door

"i'm ready mema where we going ?" he smiled

"'mommy is about to have your little sister" his eyes went wide

"LETS GO!" he screamed "YOU HAVE TO GET MOVING !" he clapped his little hands

"child i got to turn off the stove" my mother rushed down the stairs leaving me with Miguel who was grabbing small toys

"i'm going to let her play with these" he tried to fit them in the baby bag

"Miguel no-"

"why not? she's going to love them she-"

"I SAID NO!" oh gosh i yelled at him- "i'm sorry baby but no not right now" i tried to control my breathing making my way out of the room

Miguel pouted following behind me "watch your step mommy" he mumbled as he walked behind me with an attitude

"Camila let's go" my mother held my hand walking me to the car I looked back and saw Miguel closing the door making sure it's locked

putting my seat belt on another contraction hit me crying out I grabbing the handle closing my eyes

"can you move faster!" i yelled my mother looked at me with warning eyes as she strapped Miguel in

"i'm letting you pass because your ass is already in pain but when you push that baby out it's me and you" she threatened

rolling my eyes i grabbed my phone calling Ace he didn't pick up so i left a voice mail "I'm fucking having your fucking daughter where the fuck are you!?"

"Mommy that's a lot of bad words" Miguel mumbled kicking his legs not making eye contact with me

the contraction passed i unclenched my jaw and my hand as my mother sped to the hospital

we got through them doors and it hit me 'you might have another fatherless child' i started sobbing

I know I know 'Camila you told him you don't need him'

I don't but every child deserves a father figure a good one.

they prep me in the room my doctor came in with a smile on her brown face

"i knew it was going to be soon let's see how dilated you are" she looked down nodding "you're only 2 cm dilated"

"why the hell does it feel like 5 at least what the he-" I cried out as i got hit with another one

"Camila" my mother tried to calm me

the doctor asked if i wanted any Epidural I nodded because ain't no fucking way i'm only 2 cm dilated and this shit hurting-

so basically I was ready we waited and waited my mother checked my phone for me to see if there were any messages from Ace but nothing

Miguel sat next to my mother as i saw the son setting the phone rang making me jump

my mother answered the phone quickly all I can hear is yelling my mother rolled her eyes and quickly gave me the phone

"hello?" i answered he breathed out on the other end

"Camila i'm in Puerto Rico right now handling business i will be there i promise give me time" he begged "hold off keep her in there as long as-"

"that's not how shit works! it's been 4 hours already she isn't coming out right now and I don't know where you are but if you aren't here by the time she comes that's on you!" hanging up the phone

I gave the phone back to my mother who was rubbing sleeping Miguel back

waking up I felt it. I felt something move i don't know what it was but i'm pretty sure she's coming out I looked at the clock

It was midnight "Mom" I cried her eyes opened quickly

"she's ready?" I nodded my mother quickly removed Miguel from her lap getting up and quickly walking out the door

my doctor and a few others flooded in as they set me up once again i'm hearing the words all over again

"push Camila" my doctor cheered as my mother and Miguel waited in the hallway

a let out a scream holding on for dear life i shut my eyes so tight letting out a breath i opened them and looked to my right

Mateo was standing in the corner with a smile on his face I couldn't help but to cry harder

"push again baby you're almost there" my doctor cheered again

the hospital door flew open and Ace came in as my mother tried to grab him the nurses looked at him and my doctor kept her hands down by me but looked back

"Sir!-"

"i'm the father of the child please" he stepped in standing where Mateo was standing in the corner making Teo disappear

my head fell back as i cried harder "no" i mumbled

"Camila push she's right here she's right here !" I screamed one last time and heard nothing

"she's here" but i still hear nothing the nurses cleaned her off quickly giving her air through her nose and throat but I still hear nothing

"what's wrong!?" Ace quickly asked as my doctor my doctor watch the nurse try to help her breathe but she wasn't breathing

"what's wrong with my daughter-" a cry cut me off making me drop my head back and Ace sighed looking up thanking God

"she's alright she's a strong girl she is" my doctor reassured me i nodded and watch them take her out

"we are going to run some test on her okay?" as she reached up in me pulling my placenta out i cringed nodding

2 hours later that night

"i'm sorry I got on the flight with no bags no nothing i-"

"it's fine" i held the 7 pounds in my hand as if it was nothing looking down at her as she slept

"she's so beautiful" he looked at me and back at her i nodded in response

there was a knock at the door and my doctor came in with a clip board

"hey guys sorry to bother but i would like to give you the run down on the test we ran" I nodded it wasn't like this didn't happen before the test of course I had Miguel so I know the run down-

"one of her ears failed the hearing test-"

"what does that mean?" he asked cutting her off before she finished

"she can hear out of her right just not so well out of her left now she can hear-"

"I don't understand-" he cut her off again

"please let her finish!" i looked up at him but he didn't look like the fearless man that everyone sees he had full panic in his face

"she is fine and healthy it's just her reaction was delayed in her left ear that's all she's fine" he nodded to her response

"she's alright" he repeated nodding

"she's alright" my doctor smiled showing her white teeth

I looked down at her nodding

"did you figure out a name for her?" I nodded

"I want to name her-"

"Abigail" he spoke up "her name is going to be Abigail Phoenix Isabelle Savanah Dè Léon"

"that's too many names i'm not giving her-"

"Dè Lèon is my last name and Abigail is my mother's name she couldn't be here to see her born I want to be able to give her that" he looked at her again

"Abigail" i mumbled looking at the sleeping baby in my arms "okay"

"Abigail is her first name Phoenix Isabelle Savanah is her middle names Dè Lèon is her last" I looked at my doctor who nodded

"she has pretty names" I thanked her as she handed us the certificate

present day

Ace had to leave again once we left the hospital so he spent no real time with her which just pissed me off because my mother did more than him

"I want full custody" I said as I feed Abby looking at Taylor

"of what?" Taylor put her son down looking at me "of Phoenix?" she loves her middle name more than her first which isn't surprising because she's a x-men fan- a crazy one

"yes Taylor he isn't around why should he-"

"he signed her birth certificate?" I nodded and Taylor sighed "give him time"

"until when? until she's 18 and ready to go to college and he still ain't create a bond with her but he will be in and out of her life i don't want that for her" I rolled my eyes pulling my nipple out of her mouth

she closed her eyes ready to cry "you're being greedy stop munching on my boob-"

"so glad i used powder for Roe" I chuckled to Taylor comment

"she's about to get on it soon because I don't think i could do this much longer" Abby started crying

"she got some lungs boy and her little behind is only a month" i laughed as Taylor teased Abby

putting my boob back away i careful started to burp her "a father is a little girl first love he is supposed to show her what a real man is and if he is popping in and out of her life she's going to think that men and do that to her in the real world"

Taylor nodded as she watched Miguel play with Roe "talk to him"

"he barley answers the phone" i have her a straight face

"when he comes around talk to him about it" i sucked my teeth as Abby spat up quickly grabbing her blanket i tried to still get a burp out

"okay i see you don't want to burp" slowly getting up i handed her to Taylor

"i have to freshen up"

"use the pads i brought over girl" she smiled "they are in the freezer"

"okay"

"you're so cute oh my gosh look at you" I over heard her talking to Abby as Abby whimpered

AN

when i started this i didn't know how to make a book interesting but i think i have an idea

so let me know what you think

and forgive me i honestly didn't know where to go with this book

and hopefully i can end this on a positive note (the book ofc) 😌