A U T H O R' S N O T E

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Warning: emotional chappie ahead and this is not edited.

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❝It will all heal. You just have to let go, accept, and realize how to forgive yourself despite all the faults and mistakes you made.❞
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Chapter 21
Nolan Blackwell

"No! Avalynn!" I heard Mason shout loudly. I look at him as he ran towards Avalynn. Mason hovered and grabbed her face to check for breathing. My wolf on the other hand, was going crazy inside of me, so I did the same. I ran after her and pushed Mason out of the way.

I took her in my arms, shouting, "Avalynn! Don't close your eyes on me!" I shook her, yet there was no movement. "Please, don't give up on us, the pack, and for Easton." I can't believe that she did this. She sacrificed her life for my little brother's sake. I'm a pathetic Alpha.

I will be forever grateful to her.

I looked at Benjamin, still groaning from the silver dugged in deep into his flesh. Bastard can't shift now.

My men and Aiden's pack have defeated his army. My warriors took him away from my sight. That bastard does not deserve death. He should get hundreds and thousands of days filled with torture.

I looked down again and stroke her face. She had a lot of scratches here and there but still, she looked like an angel to me. Though, her unresponsive state worried me.

"Avalynn." I heard a voice whisper. Looking up, I see her father and brother staring me down.

Aiden approached, "Nolan, you have to get my sister to the pack doctor." His voice had cracked and he looked like he wanted to cry for her. Well, I don't blame him. Family is blood.

"Save her." He gave me a meaningful look. I nodded. 'Save mate!' My inner wolf exclaimed.

Without another word spoken, I picked up her delicate body and brought her back to the pack house. I had to get her to the pack doctor as fast as I could. Using my superspeed, I ran like the wind. I ran faster than I had never before.

We were almost there. Please, please, let her be fine. I thought, as I stared at her angelic face.

As I neared the territory, I noticed how disastrous the disintegration of the pack house was. Truly, that bastard Benjamin planned to attack the people while most of us were away.

I busted the door open, shouting, "Pack doctor!" Where is she? I need help right now. My Avalynn's life is on stake.

"Where are you? I need you!" There was no time for waiting, Avalynn needed medical attention immediately. She does not deserve to die like this! There must be another way to help her wake up.

I saw the pack doctor approaching us quickly after I called her.

"Emma." I sighed in relief. "Thank the goddess you're here. You have to save her!" I pointed out to Avalynn's unconscious state, placing her on the couch near me.

"What happened to her?" Emma looked worried, kneeling down, giving her physical examination.

My expression probably matched hers. It's just that my wolf was going crazy inside me. Brother wolf would rather be him hurt than his mate. He is feeling extreme emptiness, now that she's in an unresponsive state.

But, even for me, the human side, felt remorse and guilt. I hurt her a lot when we were bonded. I knew it because I felt it. Yet, she does these things, like these actions that make me so anxious. I guess, I don't deserve her kindness or loyalty at all.

"She was marked, I don't know why she isn't waking up. I don't know if it was Benjamin's intention to mark her or snap her neck." The moment I mentioned his name, I started to get angry. That disgusting bastard sure deserves more than a silver knife stuck deep into his leg.

"What? Let's bring her to the clinic!" She looked extremely shocked at the news.

"Faster! I have all my equipment there and I need to work on her now." She hurried.

I did what I was told, quickly carrying Avalynn bridal style, and entering the clinic just below. I placed her down to one of the hospitable beds we have in the clinic.

I watch as the pack doctor, Emma, got her equipment and put on some white coat.

"What about you? You need to get that wound check, Alpha." She looked worried.

I just growled in reply, not caring about my torn flesh. I can survive this shit. "No, I don't need that, I just need you to save my- her."

She then nodded her head in understanding.

"Okay. Alpha, I need you to step out-" She starts, yet I cut her off because brother wolf couldn't help but let out a growl out. Yes, my wolf and I was worried; wanting to ensure her safety. I couldn't let her out of my sight just yet.

"I'm sorry to say Alpha but if you could move out of the way, it would be more hygienic and better for her health. Something might happen to her the more time we waste." She states.

"I need to examine her now!"

Still, I didn't leave my Avalynn. I couldn't.

"I know she's your mate Alpha but if you don't decide quickly, we might not be able to save her. Especially, when she isn't healing her bleeding wounds and the bite mark."

I froze.

My wolf, worried, tensed at her words, wanting her to be treated right now.

Sighing, I nodded for I didn't want to waste time anymore. We needed Avalynn alive, healthy, and breathing.

I exited quickly and watched as the door closes in front of me. We didn't want to let go but we need to. I couldn't help the anxiety bubbling in my gut. I was hoping for a miracle but I only knew that the moon goddess can be my only source of hope now.

Please, let her be okay. I silently prayed. I don't know how my wolf will take it if I lose her.

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It's been a few hours since the examination of Avalynn. I was still here waiting for some news. Yet, the aura of the room was thick with anxiousness and sadness, that it made it difficult for me to breathe. Right now, no one can separate me from her. Even my wolf refused to leave her. Then her family started to show up, entering through the doors.

"Where is my daughter!" Alpha Johnson booms out loud with his mate beside him.

"What happened to our daughter?" Avalynn's mother asked me worriedly.

"She's inside the clinic, she is being examined by our pack doctor, Emma." I informed. "Where is Aiden or the others?" It was my turn to ask.

"Aiden is tending to his mate while the others are recovering from the attacks." Alpha Johnson stated. I nodded my head for it was great news to hear them be well again.

"I hope my baby girl is okay." Mrs. Johnson cried out.

"She'll be fine. I hope." I start. Avalynn was no weakling. She was tough. "She was brave to take the place of my baby brother. She'll make a great Luna someday." I whispered the last part. But ofcourse, her parents heard, agreeing with me.

"Let's just hope she finds the right one. She might never do that at her state." Her father said. I then felt guilty. They didn't know that we broke our bond to each other. It was also my fault that she took Easton's place.

"I am so proud of her." Mrs. Johnson had tears in her eyes. Turning to her mate, she spoke, "Do you know, she risked her life for me as well. I was cornered and was almost killed-" Alpha Johnson growled, but she continued, "If not for our only daughter, I wouldn't be able to stand here in front of you." Mrs. Johnson sniffles a bit.

I watch as Alpha Johnson hugged his mate. It pained me to watch them knowing that I'd never have that because I fucked up. I am a fuck up and I let someone as great as her, slip through my fingers. Though, hearing her mother say that, filled me with such pride. She was one amazing person who was selfless and showed her love through sacrifice and protection.

Like I said, she would make a great Luna. It would be a miracle if she ever forgives me.

'Are you finally accepting her?' My wolf suddenly asks. He always pops up unexpectedly.

Am I?

Maybe, with all of the fucked up things that passed, I think it would be great to settle down with her. Let's just hope that she gives me, us, a chance.

'Finally, you see things my way.' He eagerly stirred inside of me.

She deserves to be a Luna and I don't deserve her as a mate.

Why? Because throughout the heart ache that I caused, no bond and all, she showed me true loyalty and kindness, that maybe love was also present through out our contact.

I remember our last kiss, the one filled with intent feelings, such fervor. I never thought kissing someone you're destined with could feel this good. Just the thought of it filled me with warmth and passion. Now, all I could feel is the coldness seeping through my heart with my mate lying in her unconscious state. While she sits in an unresponsive condition, I just felt no warmth but the coldness and bitterness.

I didn't know that I zoned out from everyone till Mason put an arm on my shoulder. "Hey, man. What's with that look?"

"I am just worried about her, okay?" I snapped. I wasn't in a good mood ever since she was brought here.

"Well, what's the sudden change of heart? You never wanted a mate anyway, so basically your wish is being fulfilled." He whispered, not wanting to startle Avalynn's parents.

"Man, I honestly don't know but I'm going crazy right now." It pained me to hear his words but I had to accept it because it was true.

Now, I am filled with regrets.

Currently regretting all the shitty things that I have done to Avalynn.

"You should be. I don't know how someone can deny their mate for too long. Especially one as amazing as Ava." He shook his head whilst I narrowed my eyes at him.

Has he taken an interest at my mate? Or ex-mate?

Mason's looked at me, his eyes widened as if caught in the headlights. He was about to open his mouth to speak when someone interrupted.

I heard a voice being cleared.

We all look at the pack doctor, holding a clip board.

"Good evening, everyone. You're here for Avalynn, right?" There was a chorus of yes. Everyone then, remained silent.

I stood up saying, "Is she alright?" I had to break the ice. What can I say, I am a very straight-forward person.

"Well, yes. She is fine, we managed to stop the bleeding of her many wounds, especially her bite mark, But-"

Fucking hell there is always a but. Now, I felt like one of those people in those movies that I laughed about. Damn, my wolf started to panic and the room suddenly emitted anxiousness from her family members.

"She slipped into a coma." Emma glumly stated.

Then I heard a chorus of sobs and growls from the people present here to support Avalynn.

Whilst I, I felt nothing but despair rushing through my body. She's in a coma for Pete's sake! There is nothing to be happy about!

"Is there anything we can do?" I worriedly questioned.

"I am not sure yet but we should all wait patiently. I'll see to it that she is examined, observed, and well cared for." I sighed in relief that they will do their very best to save her. This is why I am proud of my pack members, hoping one day, Avalynn would be proud of my pack as well.

"But as of now, her life is on the hands of the moon goddess. We must pray for her sake." I nodded, thinking of ways to stay positive despite the tension.

"But what if she doesn't wake up?" I heard Mason say, behind me. His question caught me off guard, then made my heart sink. My wolf started to growl for he didn't want to hear those negative words. I turned so fast and pushed him against the wall, locking my hand around his neck, snarling, "She will wake up! So why don't you, shut the fuck up, and stop putting a damper to things!"

I was so livid that I couldn't control myself. Still, Mason's face was turning to a different shade, my wolf couldn't careless because all he saw was someone who's in the way.

Putting a hand on my shoulder, Aiden stepped in. "Nolan! Stop this! Do you think my sister would be happy seeing you hurt the people she's grown fond of? I suggest you drop your hand from his neck for the sake of my sister."

Processing his words, my wolf hung onto it like it was important, and dropped Mason like a rag doll. My Beta then bursted into a coughing fit, glaring at me afterwards.

I suddenly felt guilty. It wasn't Mason's fault. My wolf has been on the edge lately and hearing him say those words made him feel hopeless again.

"I am sorry." I looked down. Anything can piss my wolf off at the moment. I don't usually apologize but I somehow felt like I needed to. Mason's eyes softens and speaks, "It's okay, Alpha, I am sorry for my words. I was just voicing out what I thought and I swear, I mean no disrespect." I nodded for I couldn't find a way to respond to that.

"It's okay, Beta Mason." Then Alpha Johnson turned to me saying, " And you Alpha Blackwell, should calm your ass down. What has gotten you so angry? He was just stating an opinion!" He exclaimed.

I sighed dejectedly.

I guess it's time to tell truth. There was no use in hiding it anyway, they were soon to find out.

"She's my mate." I spoke nonchalantly and I watched as my mate's parents go into shock, jaws dropping and all.

"What!" Alpha Johnson bellowed.

I hung my head in shame.

"I am her mate. And we both broke our bond."

I hear Mrs. Johnson gasp. Aiden and Mason stayed silent for they knew that already. Avalynn's father seemed to fume up more. It didn't help that his daughter was in a coma.

"It's you! It's your fault she's in a coma. You didn't even protect her from the war!" Alpha Johnson shouted and pointed the blame on me. Wolf coming out, Alpha Johnson knew to protect his pups.

My wolf started to shake in anger, "I did protect her. I knew we broke our bond, but it was so that she would stay clear from me. Because I am danger. I would have even protected her with all my might. I didn't ask her to come look for me, didn't even ask her stay in that war zone, nor told her to leave the pack house. I did what I had to!" I bursted in fury and felt my face go hot. I had never been this angry.

"So don't put the fucking blame on me for it was your daughter's choice to become selfless!" I glared at my mate's father. He returned it back with an icy look.

"If my daughter is well again, I promise to bring her back home. Away from this pack and away from you." Alpha Johnson responded. My wolf snarled at the thought of them taking his mate away from him. He will fight for her for he refuses to give up.

I was about to open my mouth till the pack doctor cut in. I forgot that she was here.

"Regardless of who's at fault," She turned to me, "Your mate," then Alpha Johnson, "And your daughter will remain in a comatose state. So I suggest you settle your difference because I doubt she'd want to hear the problems going in between the neighboring packs, right?"

We didn't respond and just glared at each other, grumbling here and there.

I didn't care anymore. I will now be there for Avalynn while she's in a coma. I promise not to leave her again and do my best to care for her, and love her.

Though it might take time because I don't usually feel this way. I never had a mate before her so I don't know what to feel. Let's just hope she'll be patient with me because I am fucked up in the head. With a dark past, I might not give her the love that she deserves but I'll try everything I can. We need to take it slow as well, because I need to gain her trust, to accept me, and for me to give her all I am.

I fear losing her, and at this moment I'm regretting everything I have done upon her. I'm just stupid to realize what I had. And now that I got her back, the moment she opens her beautiful eyes, I will treat her the way she deserves to be treated. Like a princess who deserves to be cherished.

So be prepared Avalynn. I might not mean much, even as a powerful Alpha. But, I will give you everything, all of me. Let's just hope that you take me as I am and accept me because I will never ever let you go. Not now, not ever.

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L.E. March 12, 2016 3:44 pm