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❝ Sometimes the bad things
that happen in our lives put us
directly on the path to the most
wonderful things that will ever
happen to us. ❞
-Nicole Reed, Ruining You.

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Chapter 7
Avalynn Johnson

I woke up quite earlier than normal. It was probably 8 am or so since the sun was shining bright. Usually, I would wake up when it's 4 am. Yes, my body clock is really odd.

Anyway, as I was fixing my things, I heard a loud knock on my door.

That's strange. There isn't training today so I'm pretty sure everyone's taking advantage of it and resting, so why is someone up and early to knock on my door?

I opened the door to find Mason staring back at me.

"I figured you were awake." I smiled sheepishly.

"Are you ready?" He asks generally.

"Not at all. I don't know what to expect." I replied honestly because he was talking about it.

"I don't know as well but you better be ready, 10 o clock is just around the corner, waiting." He spoke sounding concerned.

"I know, dad." I smiled teasingly.

He then smacked my arm.

"Hey, I'm not that old! And I am certain that I don't look like your father!" Mason exclaimed.

"Unless... You roll that way. I can be your daddy." He winks. My mouth dropped open.

"Whatever, get out you fat oaf!" I pushed him out of the door. He just sniggered and put his arms up in surrender.

"Okay, okay."

Once he was out, I changed into my attire for today. Starting the morning out, I went to the kitchen and just stole a grilled cheese sandwich that was placed on the table. Yes, I am stealthy enough not to be noticed. Once I acquired the sandwich, I immediately devoured the food.

'Where are you? The bond breaker is already here.'

I hear my mate's voice through the link. He was awake already? Why was he such in a hurry anyway? I rolled my eyes at his statement.

Oh yeah, I forgot. He hates me and my wolf.

I stood up from the kitchen stool and made my way to his office.

His secretary, - who I came to know- Evangeline, had greeted me a well morning, I nicely returned her words as well. I do hope she does not stress herself over my hard headed mate.

As I entered his office, I noticed someone seated beside my mate. The person beside him looked extremely attractive if I must say. If I was mateless, I would've swooned. His violet-blue eyes were no doubt his best feature.

They both stood up once I entered.

"Avalynn, this is Rohan. He is the wizard that will break our bond." My mate said as his face was very grim looking. He was clearly not happy to see me today.

Wait— Isn't he always? Why am I even expecting something from him? I just know he loathes my whole being.

Anyway, looking back at Rohan, I never thought wizards could be that attractive. I always thought they were the grey-haired, bearded ones from TV shows. Well, werewolves are portrayed to shift during the full moon —which isn't true— so I couldn't really judge.

Rohan laughed out loud.

Did I —?

Oh my goodness, I said that out loud!

"You did." I blushed in embarrassment.

Looking abashed, I cleared my throat and managed to recovery my composure easily. I turned to face him with a bright smile, hoping that we will forget what happened earlier.

"Hello, Rohan. It's nice to meet you. My name is Avalynn and I really like your eyes." I smiled brightly.

He just chuckled and shook my hand.

"The pleasure is all mine, love. Let's get things started, shall we?"

"We shall." Nolan cut in rudely.

I rolled my eyes yet again at his impolite manner. He wasn't even in the conversation. Looking back at Rohan, I gazed at him expectantly. What are we going to do now?

"Okay so first, you have to grasp each other's hands."

Come again? I really do not want to hold hands! Especially with Nolan! I scoffed and refused to make contact with my idiot of a mate.

From the corner of my eye, I already see Rohan pull out a case filled with wizardly items. It made me think, what are those things for? Is it really necessary for us to use?

Refusing Rohan's instructions, my mate rolled his eyes at me. He fished out for my hands and grasped it for dear life. I guess he wants this to be done already. Cue the sighing and sobbing. Whatever. I glared at Nolan as harsh as I could but he just held my hands much tighter in a death grip. I let out a long sigh because I know that he wasn't going to let go anytime soon.

We did as we were told and Rohan tied our hands with one ribbon. Then he lit some odd looking candles. How strange this process works.

Rohan turned to me and asked, "Is it okay if I ask you out?"

What the hell? I am currently going through a bond breaking right now so why the hell would he even ask that? I observed Nolan giving him a dirty look and from what I observed, Rohan was currently grimacing from the glare he was receiving. Yeah, Alpha's can really be frightening.

"—I mean after the bond breaking of course." Rohan stuttered.

I just stared at him wide-eyed. If I wasn't so serious right now, I would have made fun of his reactions. But as of the moment, I was dead serious on this matter between my mate and I.

"Get on with it before I kill you." Nolan grumbled. Rohan not flinching anymore just chuckled and nodded his head. So, are we going to start now? I want to go back to my room.

Suddenly, Rohan shuts his eyes and he began to chant peculiar words,

Lover's quarrel.
Lover's heart.
These two mates have fallen apart.
No longer should they suffer forever.
From the bond that brought them together.
From this point, I sever ties with thee!

He then does the deed and eventually cuts the ribbon.

That's it. We were done. What I didn't expect was the amount of pain that washed through me.

Suddenly, it felt as if my whole world was crushing down in the blink of an eye.

Aching, my heart hurts; I fell to the ground screaming.

I gasped.

Something inside of me broke apart painfully.

It felt as if there was a hollow feeling being opened in my chest. The experience was no doubt the worse thing you could ever experience. I was clawing my heart, waiting for the pain— the madness to end.

This was all too much. Too deep.

Why must this hurt so badly? It felt as if every breath I took would kill me in seconds. The pain was unbearable and I heard my wolf's miserable howls. She was crying of relentless heartbreak. It hurt my ears and my head so much.

What about Nolan? How's he doing? I thought frantically in my head.

I turned to Nolan to check his well-being. He was on the ground, looking as if he was in pain as well. He was probably in the same state as me.

Broken, empty, and in pain.

Nolan couldn't even look me in the eye for he was in so much agony.

I wish I could be there for him as of the moment but I felt so weak.

I couldn't do anything but stare and feel hurt. This thing happening inside me feels like a thousand sufferings from beatings.

Suddenly, dark spots had clouded my vision and I knew I was going to pass out from the aching pain.

I had to fight it first. I needed to stay awake. I need to ask Rohan what's happening to me. Why am I reacting like this?

Then, I hear somebody went inside Nolan's office and started shouting. I could hear the vibrations of their growls as well as their words. Although, I couldn't really make out the verses that the person said but I knew I heard it. Who was it and what do they want from us? I felt useless; my body becoming much more weak and the discomfort grew.

I don't have the guts to get mad but I hope Nolan marks my words before we're truly disconnected.

I mind linked him for the last time.

'One day, I'll be what you need. And when you do want me, it may be the day that I've finally given up on you.'

Those were the final words that I could think of.

I just couldn't stay awake any longer.

I fought it but I just couldn't.

Giving up, I straightaway welcomed the darkness to take over me.

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"Ugh." I groaned, moving. My body hurts.

That's when I heard a shift beside me.

I felt someone watching me.

It was an uncomfortable feeling and it had given me uncanny chills on my back.

Open your eyes, Avalynn. Do it.

I snapped my eyes open to see Mason and my brother staring at me.

They're here? My eyes widened when they were creepily staring at me.

"What the hell!" I exclaimed and sat up straight with a following, "Ouch." My head started to throb painfully.

Groaning, I held my head for it hurts so damn bad.

As I woke up, I felt the feeling of something unexplainable. Like there was a void or a hole in my chest. Not only that but it felt as if I was shot multiple times in the body. What had happened to me?

"Don't stress yourself out too much. You'll hurt yourself when you overthink." Mason lectured as he noticed my thinking face.

"Yeah, going through a dissolving bond must of hurt." My brother nodded his head in agreement.

How the hell did my brother know?

That then I knew I was hit by the memories of earlier. I remember now!

That douche broke the bond with me.

I immediately recalled what happened earlier. This was supposed to hurt. Why am I feeling nothing but emptiness? My best friend and brother are here yet I felt so damn lonely to the bone.

I narrowed my eyes and questioned my brother, "How do you know about this?"

My brother then had pointed his fingers to Mason.

"We had bumped into each other earlier and managed to have a decent conversation. Until suddenly, we heard a scream come from Alpha Nolan's office. " Mason explained.

"We immediately rushed up to Alpha's office and saw you and Nolan lying on the floor." He pointed to Aiden and continued, "He still didn't know what was happening back there but your brother was frantic when he saw you unconscious. He looked like a scarred puppy to be honest." Mason snickered.

Aiden glared at his new friend and scoffed. "Yeah, I actually carried you here while Mason and that wizard took care of Alpha Nolan's unconscious form. Mason then came back to check on you and I asked for answers because I really wanted to know the truth about your strange behaviour. Ever since we arrived here, you have been a bit off and now I know why."

"More like demanded me." Mason grumbled.

"Anyway, I explained everything to him already."

He did? Oh no.

My brother turned to me. "Why didn't you tell me? I'd kick his Alpha bum for you." Here goes another protective wolf.

"This is why I didn't tell you. You would beat him up and I do not want that. It wouldn't even make a difference if you do that shit."

It's true. If he found out about my secret a few days back, he would have beaten Nolan to a pulp with no mercy or vise versa. Frankly, I really don't want to see my brother beat people for my sake's behalf.

"Why can't I? I could just go to his room and attack the shit out of him!" He stood up walking to the door but I grabbed his arm in a tight grip.

"We can't you dumb ass! We are in debt to him! He welcomed our pack, Aiden." I whispered.

"Besides, it might start war and our parents wouldn't appreciate that. With the whole 'Benjamin' fiasco going on, we can't afford to lose warriors and pack members."

"She has a point though." Mason agreed with me.

What time is it?

"How long was I out?" I asked out of nowhere.

"You were out for seven hours." Aiden said automatically. What? 7 whole hours? That's impossible! I'm a werewolf!

My eyes bulged. "That long?"

"Yes. Now you better freshen up. We will have pack dinner today. You need to eat, you're even skinnier that before in case you didn't know." Mason said as he and Aiden went to the door.

"Wait!" I called out.

They both turned around. I looked at the ground shyly.

"Um, is my ma- I m-mean- Is Nolan okay?"

They both studied me with their gazes. They looked concerned for me. What? Can't I be worried for my old mate? I was wondering how he's holding up, now that we aren't bonded.

"Yeah, he's okay. He woke up much earlier than you did, if you want to know." Aiden answers.

"Oh. Is that so? O-okay, thank you." I voiced. I'm glad he was okay. I can't speak ill of my old mate. I had to respect his decision.

Though what is he doing right now? Does he feel empty too? Does he miss us the way I miss our odd memories and encounters?

"You're welcome, now get ready. Please Avalynn, help yourself up." He said as they both exited the door.

Sighing, I stood up and paced to my bathroom. I immediately splashed my face with ice cold water and saw my reflection on the mirror. To say, I was really shocked to see my appearance.

Basically, I looked horrible. I could definitely compare myself to the scary monsters on Halloween night.

My eyes look tired; it was suffering from huge dark circles because of pressure and tiredness. My skin and lips look pale.

I look... Dead.

All in all, I'd say I could pass for a walking dead zombie.

It's just that something inside me felt dead. I don't know if I will get the alive feeling back into my system ever again.

I shook my head and went down the stairs.

People, who I passed on the way, gave me strange looks. I must really look terrible to the point where they notice, judge, and scrutinize my every move.

I know I'm a wreck but you don't need to stare and point it all out!

It's okay, calm yourself down. Nobody knows about the bond breakage so stay put. I thought to myself, needing encouraging words. Since I have no one, not even my wolf made an appearance, then I will just learn how to fight this in my own.

I brushed off their odd looks and made my way to the dining area, where Mason and my brother was settled in. I noticed that all of my people were happily seated and were thrilled to mingle with other pack members.

Even though they're there looking so damn happy, I was still currently here — stuck — feeling the horrifying pain and misery.

"Hey guys." I greeted them.

"Hey yourself. Here, dig in." Aiden handed me a plate full of food and as soon I got it, I began to dig into my food quietly.

I still don't feel well as to think, why am I still here?

I noticed that people around me were so blissful. It's actually bothering me. I couldn't even feel happiness right now. I don't feel it at all!

Why would I even think that I'll be joyful when my mate decides to go through a bond breaking process? It angers me to the point that I want to wreck things.

No one would understand me because not everyone experiences these things! The mate bond or fates are full of crap.

Now, I feel like there is something missing. Something part of me, and it hurts me knowing that there's a possibility that I can never be whole again.

But what about him?

Where was Nolan right now? How is he feeling?

Damn it.

I frantically searched for him, but I couldn't even see his face here. I felt a pang on my chest.

He must have gone somewhere. Maybe away from me.

Somehow, I felt gloomy.

I guess he doesn't want to see anybody. Not even me. I do hope he is doing and coping well.

I thank the moon goddess that I somewhat survived the not-so-survivable bond breaking. But somehow, after all the heart wrenching experiences that we went through, I think it's not Nolan who needs to cope well after the bond breaking.

It is me.

I'm sensitive. I think I'm the one who needs to learn how to cope with a mateless life. Not Nolan, not Mason, not anyone but— me.

I was the one who was hurt not him. I was the one who went through his constant rejections and insults. I was the one who was continuously hurt by loving him. Something he never seem to do with me.

I'm tired of wanting him to be mine when he wants his freedom from me. I do wish him a better life as we part ways. He's certainly going to need it.

I guess it's time for me to say goodbye to him. Forget him. Forget us.

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