kill.

such a dark word.

yet childern run telling other young kids "i"ll kill you"

im truly afraid.

as kids we joked, seeing a person dressed in complete black "they're emo we assumed, extremely depressed" when jokes on us, the worst stares they get the more they distance from the norm. the "emo" set they're fashion apart from most society's members. setting them that attention seeking reputation.  truly they are seeking affection anf attention. love and compassion. craving a nice family and pretty chill life. if you're lucky enough to have any of those become aware of how much jealousy i have for you. my mother lives 5,000 miles in another country. with a dad and two younger siblings my dad is much too worried about the rent rather than my scarred wrists. even as cutting is a trendy fad I quite enjoy hurting myself as nobody cares as selfish as it sounds, I want to be found on the floor coughing up blood. a drop for each time I brought hate upon myself . from myself .