not everyone is depressed.  sadness and depression are two equally different things. see, depression is clinically proved mental discomfort or disorientation well you're disoriented jittery and anxious. sadness is caused by an empty feeling in your heart and you feel the pain on your mind. just rethinking the awful memory of some sort kills you inside. I feel some-what like that . with me its feeling empty out of nowhere not even bipolar because its not a low to rise mood switch its a stupid piece of mind that feels the urge to ruin your day out of nowhere bc of nothing.

you get me now?

or not.

either way I understand,

im underestimated by the human population in my shit town.

I bought a fish to keep me company.

also bought a primrose plant.

fish named after a bestfriend, major.

plant after what I feel,

lesser.

quite beautiful and marvelous that two are.

full of life and no care, only awaiting a clean bowl, fresh food and water.

how I wish life was that easy.

then I'd actually want to live.

not saying I'd kill myself as clichè as that sounds but what's a life without a purpose? well, my purpose is to kill.