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Taeyong was freaking out, panicking to be exact. He was desperately cleaning around the house and checking if everything is neat and tidy. Looking in all the cabinets to make sure it was clean, putting toilet paper in the bathrooms and lighting candles wherever they sat.

The special occasion? Jaehyun comes home today.

Taeyong was sorta worried for the most part, he and Jaehyun lost connection during their 2nd month apart. Jaehyun was gone exactly 4 months and 2 weeks. He kept count. He felt so alone and so sad without Jaehyun; he tried to called Jaehyun every night, but no reply. He texted and called, even voiced called, still nothing. He felt left out, but he shrugged it off saying probably that he was just busy. At least, that what he tried to convince himself with.

Taeyong made the option of not telling Jaehyun that he has went through a rough journey without him. Such as, losing weight rapidly and talking to himself for no reason. Throughout the time Jaehyun was gone, Taeyong became drunken and lonely. Taeyong started talking to a old camera he found in storage, he talked about his daily life and what he was feeling. It was more like blogging to be exact. He didn't post anything on any social media, and he didn't tell anyone about the blogging. It was just his little secret, however, that secret suddenly turned to something more. He noticed he would talk to himself too often, and couldn't stop from blurting things out into nowhere. He even tried to duck tape his mouth, but that meant it would be hard to breath, and it would sometimes come off when he tried to sleep, which would hurt like hell. One day he decided to go to the doctors, and there his doctor told him he gained a rare disorder, TTY disorder. It practically stands for 'Talk to Yourself.' It was a rare disorder that very few caught, and it meant he couldn't control his thoughts from speaking themselves.

Taeyong dealt with that fact, and decided to just live with it. He kept it from everyone though, and stopped hanging out with his friends. Jaehyuns friends to be exact, as most of them were already drifting anyways. He began to notice a depressing mood that would keep him in bed in mornings, and that soon turned into not taking care of himself. He started eating less, and less, and got thinner by the days. He didn't do anything about it though. He knew that he would gain an ED, but he didn't care.

All he wanted was Jaehyun back, all he wanted was contact. He knew Jaehyun would understand, he would help him. He was sure of it, but unconvinced that anything could help.

A knock on the door sent Taeyong to freeze in shock, getting his mind back with another knock he quickly sped to open the door. Taeyong was so close to the door knob when he stopped and hovered his hand over the knob.

"He's here. He's here. Jaehyuns back. My Jae is back. He's back." Taeyong repeats in his mind.

"Tae?" A rough voice said on the other side of the door made Taeyong fling the door open and look up to meet eyes with Jaehyun. A tired, miserable looking Jaehyun at that. Well, that's not what Taeyong expected. He expected at least a smile, but no. Jaehyun was frowning; deeply.

"Jaehyun-" Taeyong started, but was cut off as Jaehyun shoved him out of the way and made his way in without a hello.

The smaller boy was taken back by the sudden rough action, and then scoffed in annoyance. Not even a smile, and now no hello.

'Who does he think he is?' Taeyong thought with furrowed eyebrows.

Taeyong closed the door and made his way over to where Jaehyun was placing his things down. Tae waited and watched as Jaehyun took off his blazer and let go of his business bags. Jaehyun then sat on the couch and leaned his head back while closing his heads, letting out a sigh.

"Ahem." Taeyong coughed to get Jaehyuns attention.

Jaehyun looked over to him with a questionable look.

"What?"

Taeyongs mouth dropped to the depths of the ocean where fish couldn't see light. Did Jaehyun just say that to him? No smile, no hug, no hello, and now he's questioning him out of all things. Taeyongs had enough, and is now outraged. He did not clean this house and wait for Jaehyun for 4 months and 2 weeks to get this type of interaction, or should he say 'disrespect.' All he wanted was a damn greeting.

"No hello? No hug? No smile? No greeting? What's wrong with you Jae?" He asked while throwing his hands around to show his distress.

"Nothing, I'm just tired! Leave me alone for a few days I need to settle in." The other spat as he stood up and walked to their room.

"No way are u going to walk away from me Jae! What happened?! Why are u acting this way towards me!" Taeyong asked desperately for an answer while following him, but in dissatisfaction he had a door slammed right on his face and a lock being locked.

"Jung Jaehyun! Talk to me!" Taeyong yells on the other side of the door, but no answer.

He was beyond angry by now, but more worried. Why was Jae acting like this towards him, Jae would always come home with a smile and a warming hug. A kiss and a sentence that would make Taeyong cringe, but he still loved him. Taeyong was confused, yet angry. He felt bubbles of anxiety rise in his stomach, and it made him sick.

'Maybe he's just tired out.' Taeyong tries to convince himself, but no use as the other males words repeated in his head.

Taeyong slowly walks away from the room Jaehyun was in to sit on the couch in thought. After a moment, the light under the door to the room Jaehyun was in turned off. Taeyong frowns deeply, Jaehyun didn't even want them to sleep together. He sighed as he shifted his body to lay on the couch, closing his eyes slowly. Minute by minute he drifted off and fell asleep. Having dreams about the memories him and Jaehyun made that didn't even feel like yesterday.