JH

I'll help you

That's what I'm here for

"Jae?.." a small voice rang out in the empty house.

Taeyong had just woken up from his deep slumber and is now looking for his lover. All Taeyong remembered was that night with Jaehyun, he doesn't even know how long he's been out.

Taeyong walked around the echoing house, cold so he shivered. He walked into the living room and saw that it was clean, very clean. Jaehyun must've cleaned, he thought.

After he got a drink of water he went back up stairs into the warmth of his bedroom. He shoved himself under the covers of his bed and sighed as warmth filled his cold body. After awhile of just staring at the wall, his eyes started getting droopy. He slowly let sleep take over him, and dreamed about that someone holding him.

-

Jaehyun walked into his house while holding bags. He went shopping and went to the clinic to get Taeyongs medication since Taeyong had flushed them all. Jaehyun put the grocery's up and walked upstairs taking his coat off.

"Taeyong?" He yelled out, only to be met with silence.

Jaehyun walked into the bedroom and saw the small figure in bed. He smiled warmly as he let his dimples show. He then took off his shirt and threw it somewhere in the room, and changed his pants. He then slowly got into bed, but didn't hesitate to grab the small one into his arms. He heard a slight grunt from the other in dissatisfaction of being moved.

"Tae~" he whispered softly into the others ear.

The called boy only made a low growl from his throat. Jaehyun smiled at his little baby being grumpy. He kissed Taeyongs exposed shoulder from his large shirt over him,and then his neck. He heard a slight whimper from the smaller. Jaehyuns lips touched his burning hot skin and Taeyong felt on fire from his touch. Taeyong then felt Jaehyun start nipping at his skin. Taeyong lightly moaned but didn't let it out in fear of being heard, he shifted his pose and his himself in Jaehyuns neck.

"Not right now." Taeyong said softly.

Jaehyun only held the boys frame in his arms, never wanting to let go. He set his chin on top of Taeyongs head and closed his eyes as he smelled vanilla. Taeyong always smelled good, even when he didn't shower, it wasn't fair. He always told Jaehyun that he stunk even out of the shower after the gym and that's what got Taeyong a endless night of rounds, and Taeyong never said it again.

Jaehyun sighed as he ran his fingers through Taeyongs soft fluffy hair.

"You should take a shower." Taeyong whispered. Not adding the stinky part, or sweaty part, because he learned from that.

"Take one with me?~" Jaehyun teased.

"In your dreams." Taeyong said before he turned over out of Jaehyuns reach. Jaehyun whined for a moment because of the sudden loss of warmth, but got up non the less to take a shower. He slowly went into the bathroom and shut the door as he stripped himself from his clothes and got in.

-

I was in the shower now, Jaehyun had just gotten out. I was tired as hell, and my eyes gave up on me a few times, I tried so hard to just keep them open. As I walked out the mirror was covered and smoke was everywhere, I loved hot showers.

I thought I was forgetting something but I slowly just didn't care as I put on my underwear and a Jaehyuns big t shirts that got down to my mid thigh. I slowly walked out of the room drying my hair off.

"Taeyong I was wondering-" then I heard a huge gasp. I looked up to see Jaehyuns mouth wide open and concern and regret written all over it. I was confused until I looked to where he was looking.

My thighs.

My cuts, to be exact.

I felt my sleep fully wipe away as I felt nervous and guilt replacing it. My stomach did a twist and I didn't feel so good all the sudden. Jaehyun then put down his phone and opened his arms.

"Baby come here." He said in the softest voice I've ever heard come from his mouth. I felt tears pricking my eyes and dropped the towel as I slowly walked over. Once I got his arm distance he pulled me onto his waist and pulled me onto the bed. I felt so bad and deep down I wanted to run away, but I was trapped in Jaehyuns protective hold, and I liked it.

I closed my eyes tightly as he started roamed his hands over my cuts, old and new. I felt him hold me tighter as he lifted my shirt and saw the cuts on my waist. My eyes were glued shut, as I didn't wanna see any of it.

I was ashamed of it.

I hated myself for it.

"When did this start?"

I froze at the sudden question. He didn't sound mad, or annoyed. Instead his voice was unsteady and a little croaky. I felt horrible.

"When you left..." I whispered.

Jaehyun then developed me into the tightest hug and I felt his head in the crook of my neck. Isn't he mad at me?

"Jaehyun..." I said slowly. Not even thinking about what I'm about to say.

"What is it baby?" He said softly.

"You can hit me."

I then felt him froze. And then I felt him jerk his head up as if he's just realized what I've just said. He jerked me the other way to face him and I yelped at his sudden grip on my arms.

"What did u just say?" He said in unbelief.

"I-i said...you can h-hit me." I said cautiously.

I then looked into his eyes and found him looking into mine. He gave me such a sympathetic look and i felt my heart breaking at the sight. I wanted to hold him, but I wasn't the one to do it first.

Jaehyun embraced me again. His hugs were full of love and cherish. Full of emotion that I've never felt before from human contact. His skin felt like it was grabbing onto mine, for something to hold, and so I held back. I wrapped my lanky arms around his neck and hugged him back.

"Don't ever say that again." He said seriously. I could feel the tension in his voice.

"And please-" he started and I felt his hand go to my thigh, I also heard his voice crack. "Don't ever do this again." He said on the verge of tears, I could tell, and I was too.

Then he pulled away from the hug a bit to look into my eyes, he cupped my face and gave me a emotional kiss. I could feel his love through all these gestures, and I've never been so warm inside.

He pulled away and looked me straight into my eyes.

"Promise me." He said.

And so I promised him.

"I promise."