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I should feel happy you returned

But instead I feel scared

And not for you

The next morning Taeyong woke up to a pain in his lower back. He cursed as he rolled over on his side only to be met by a chest, that belonged to Jaehyun. Taeyongs face instantly flushed in a dark shade of red as he remembered last night. Taeyong slowly got out of bed but didn't even get out of the blankets when he felt a strong arm wrap around his waist, pulling him back in. His back was met with a chest and he could feel breathing against his ear.

"Don't go." He heard a hoarse voice behind him that belonged to Jaehyun.

"I need a shower." Taeyong whispered back softly.

"Later." Jae replied back tiredly.

Taeyong shrugged it off for once and closed his eyes as he embraced the warmth around him.

-

They were on the couch, cuddling eachother, long after they took their showers. They didn't bother getting dressed or going out, they just stayed home and watched funny movies to run the day by.

It was into the 2nd movie that Taeyong heard his thoughts speaking again, and he felt lightheaded. Taeyong tried to shrug it off but couldn't, he could feel they were getting louder as they took hold of his being. Taeyong then let out a small whimper, and that got Jaehyuns attention.

"You okay?" Jae asked, putting on concerned face.

"Yes-"

"No I'm not."

Taeyong then didn't even know what he was saying, he was so confused on why this was happening just now. Jaehyuns face went from concerned to shock.

"Tae-"

"I don't know what I'm talking about I'm fine I swear-"

"No I'm not Jaehyun help me please it hurts-"

Taeyong covered his face in his hands and tried to shush himself but none the less it didn't work.

"No I'm fine."

"Why don't you just tell him- he deserves to know-"

"Don't be foolish-"

"I don't think I'm the one being foolish-"

"You are too! Get out of my head!"

"Try and make me!"

"Shut up!"

Then silence.

Total silence.

Jaehyun was too shook out of his well being to talk, and Taeyong was panting as he just had an argument with himself.

Taeyong looked up and Jaehyun looked at him with a sad look, and Taeyong swore he heard a crack in his heart.

He should never have to see me like this. He should never have to deal with me being like this.

Then all the sudden Taeyong felt lightheaded. He leaned onto Jaehyun for support as he felt like passing out. The last thing he heard was Jaehyun calling out to him, before he fell into a deep darkness.

-

"He'll be fine by tomorrow, he should wake up in approximately 3 hours. But until then I suggest u keep a sharp eye on him, make sure when he wakes up he gets some water and food, he's very much underweight." A man in white clothing said to Jaehyun.

"Of course doc, thank you again." Jaehyun said before leading him out and closing the door. Jaehyun sighed in relief as he went back to his bedroom, where Taeyong was sleeping.

After Taeyong had passed out, Jaehyun had instantly panicked and called a home doctor. He was scared out of his life for Taeyong, he didn't know if he was fine or not. He worries about him not everyday, and his weight. He hates to see his beloved like this.

-

He watched Taeyong. He made sure that he was fine and safe all night.

And fell asleep, holding Taeyong small hand in his large ones, hoping not to get used to the feeling.

But little did he know that that feeling would come back sooner than expected.