Izuku's POV

"Dear God what happened to him?" Ura says as she and Tsu walk up to us while we arrive at the front gates of school.

"He's going to be putting Midobro through an intense five hours of training after school today. I think this is him being excited?" Kiri explains as we begin up the UA hill.

"You make it sound like I'm a sadist." Kacchan says. I run through my brain trying to remember what that means.

"Are you not?" Todoroki asks. Ugh this is going to kill me, what does it mean?

Kacchan tries to sound offended, but kinda fails when he says, "No, I'm not a psychopath. Jeez you guys really think that low of me, huh."

"No of course not Bakubro, it's just funny how you say 'DIE DIE DIE! And clearly think it'll be fun to see Midobro try and keep up with your crazy amount of training." Kiri explains and I'm still confused.

"Am I the only one who doesn't know what being a sadist means?" I had wondered enough, now I needed clarification.

Uraraka bursts out laughing. "Th- that's a good one Deku. How are you so damn funny?" She stutters out between laughs.

"I'm not trying to be funny. I don't know what it means."

"It means someone who takes pleasure in witnessing pain and inflicting pain. That can also be in a s-" Todoroki gets cut off from his explanation.

"Oh look at that, we're already at the school building, kero. Hey Midoriya who is that?" Tsu points over to a group of girls talking. And of course one was looking right towards me. She had purple wavy hair down to her waist. Her glittering yellow eyes pierced my soul. She was talking to a girl with light blue hair and one other who I can barely see from her angle. The blue haired girl had her arms wrapped around the third mystery girl and talking to the purple haired girl.

"I'm not sure. But that one girl has a death glare at me. What did I do?" Her eyes seem familiar but her face seems so foreign to me. Who is she?

"Wait a second. Her blue hair looks familiar, isn't that who you were talking with in Hot Topic? The girl from the party?" Ura so helpfully points out. Ah shoot. She's right too, which means the purple hair is Kuro and the third one must be Toga? But what's wrong with her?

"Deku? Deku! Earth to Deku! Snap out of your damn thoughts, nerd." Kacchan was saying while Kirishima waved his hand in front of my face.

Snapping out of my thoughts and staring at them I stutter out, "huh? O-oh sorry. Lost in th-thought, I guess."

"About...?" Todoroki urged on.

"Nothing. Um, I'll see you guys in class. I just have to go do.. something." I turn on my heels and start to walk over to Toga. What? I'm a naturally caring person.

"Oh no you don't." Kacchan saw where I was going and grabbed my arm before I went too far.

"Kacchan let go!" I struggle to free my arm. Unfortunately I am much weaker than him. "Why can I not go talk to my friend?" This made him let go.

"She's clearly crying over there. Do you really think it's not because of you?" He glares at me. At me! What did I even do?!

"How can you tell she's crying?" Todoroki cuts.

"She's the one lying of Raisin's shoulder. Her own shoulders are shaking up and down and Mystogan is patting her head. They're obviously comforting her." He looks at me, "this is your fault. You realize that, right?"

I'm perplexed. "How is it my fault? I said I just want to be friends."

"Big mistake there Deku." Ura chimes in. "Friend-zoning can be a million times worse than normal rejection."

"Then what did you want me to do?"

Ura and Kacchan shout at the same time, "not friend-zone her!" "Rejected her so badly she forgets you!"

Everyone turns to Kacchan for his remark. "What?! That's literally the only thing that works in life!"

"But a few days ago you said rejection won't work. You said you knew from experience that rejection won't make them forget." A few eyebrows quirked up from me saying he knew from experience, but that didn't matter. I was conflicted between advice from friends and how I want to approach the situation. It's not like my mom taught me what to do when someone loves me and I don't love them.

Kacchan so helpfully makes sure everyone is thoroughly confused, "That's because some people don't know how to reject someone thoughtfully. If you're going to reject them do it hard and fast."

"Bakubro, since when do you know anything about love?" Kiri asks while I contemplate the whole situation while I inch towards the three girls.

"I'm not a dumbass. I know how love works. Now rip off the bandaid and text her a hard rejection!" He swings his head to look at me for that last part.

Too late for him. I already was jogging over to where Toga and the other two were.

"Toga?" I say calmly as I walk up to them. Waving a shy hand at Kuro as I do so.

Clearly I caught them off guard because I immediately saw Toga use her arm and wipe off her face. If I had to guess I would say tears. But did wanting to be friends really cause that? Does she really want- er, need that extra step?

"Go away Izuku." Toga's voice was shaky and fragile. If I were to take another step the ice would crack for the last time and I would get caught underneath a thick sheet of ice. Unable to break it and unable to repair the cracks made, I would slowly die from lack of oxygen.

Or maybe it was fragile in the sense that if I were to say anything else the frequency could shatter the glass. The tiny shards scattering across the room. Impossible to locate again, impossible. And even if it was possible, it wouldn't look the same, it can't be put back together perfectly. You can't just unbreak a heart, unbreak a glass, unbreak the ice, unbreak the words. They were said, that was it.

"Can we talk?" I slow my approach as if she's an injured animal, needing help but still puts up a fight.

Toga snaps her head back to look at me, "No. Your friend did a good enough job explaining everything." She must have seen the confusion that spread across my face. "Just go. I don't want to be your friend. It's worse to have to see you and know your not available, than see you and know your not taunting me. So please just go."

Hello?

I know it's been 2 whole weeks and I know my WiFi sucked for a whole 1 and a half of those. But understand that wattpad isn't the only thing in my life and that school finals suck. So glad I got this out. Even if no one commented. *sadness*

Shout out to YoYoSans because they've been talking to me throughout quarantine.