(TW: swearing, mention of cutting, suicide and a little suggestive content )
(Jeremy's POV)

   I'm laying in my bed,  Michael has his arm around me I'm cuddled into his chest and he's running the fingers of his free hand though my hair.

    "If I could begin to be, half of what you think of me I could do about anything I could even learn how to love~" Michael's angelic voice sang. He was singing Love Like You by Rebbeca Sugar or... Steven Universe. Rich yelled that I needed Michael to protect me and everything's gone down hill. Rich apologized and for the most part we made up, but somehow the news about Michael cutting and his suicide attempt got out. People are doing things like giving him knives and writing "overdose,  blood loss, drowning" how he tried to do it, on everything, his locker , papers- everything! And some kids who heard him in the bathroom on Halloween, so not only the formally mentioned is being written but loser and crybaby followed  by emo is being written everywhere. Yet he's here worrying about my nightmares, and he's kept on a smile some how to. He's just the best.

    Michael's phone made a bing! Noise so he picked it up and checked the notification. I moved up to see it.

Rooster: Help you guys Jakey is crying!!!😥

What is he crying about?:You

Rooster: We found out Prince died!

I did the same about Marley 😓:You

    "Wait Bob Marley died!?" I asked.

    "Ya, he got cancer and said 'if this was his time then it shall be'." Michael explained.

    "Huh..." I replied. Michael continued to type for a minute more before plugging his phone up and putting his arm back around me.

    "Ok Jer time to go back to sleep." He said.

    "Ok" I mumbled cuddling back into him and falling back into a peaceful slumber.

    The next day was chaotic. We got to school and for the most part everything was normal being teased and called names, as has been happening. Michael and I were on our way to class but someone stood in front of us and we moved to go around them but they moved to block us.

    "What do you want?" Michael asked. The mystery guy held out a pocket knife. "No." Michael said as he tried to walk around him but I was suddenly grabbed.

   "Mich-" I tried to yell but was cut off by a hand over my mouth. Michael was about to run to get me but I felt a knife being pressed into my stomach.

    "One more step and he's gone. We don't want to hurt him we just want a show~" The mystery guy said. He walked up to Michael took his hand and pressed the pocket knife into his hand. I watched as Michael looked at it, as if considering it. I remembered that Rich and Jake had the same class on this hall. I bit the guys hand.

   "What the hell?!" The guy asked.

    "RICH Jake HELP-" I was cut off by someone throwing me to the ground.

    "Get him!" Someone yelled. Then Michael bolted for me swooping me up quickly and running with me in his arm's. We saw Rich, Jake and a security guard run past us, Rich turning with us, running with us after. We got around a corner and Michael sunk down against the wall with me still in his arm's. He wraped his arm's around me gently, like not tight as usual, which he has been doing a lot lately I don't know why I have my guess but I hope it's not for the reason I think it is. He buried his face in the crook of my neck.

    "You Ok Mikey?" I asked him.

    "Why the fuck are people so messed up?" He asked, his voice was quite and shaky, he was holding back tears.

    "Oh My God.What the hell is going on you guy?!" Rich asked.

    "Not now" I replied, as I began running my hand thought Michael's hair. (AN:It's 3:00AM) "You OK Mikey?" I asked he probably had a headache with all that's been going on lately, no response. I moved away a little making him move his head from the crook of my neck. I cupped his cheeks. "How you feeling Mon amour?" I asked him.

    Ok so I know  French so I say thing in that language while Michael says thing in Filipino but we both know Hebrew.

    "My head hurts and lots of guilt but other wise I'm fine." I have a little laugh, he just loves to make me laugh, I know this because a smile formed on his face right after. He nuzzled our noses together and I giggled.

    "Hey the th'ecurity guard and Jakey D are gonna be here th'oon so you guy'th should stop being gay so you don't get th'u'th'pended." (AN:How!?! help me!) Rich suggested. So I moved out of Michael's lap so I was next to him instead and leaned on him and he leaned on me, but he still looked like he could break into tears at any second.

    Then like Rich said, the security guard and Jake turned the corner.

    "Oh My God are you guys OK!? Are you hurt they had knifes! Michael why do look like your about to cry?!" Jake hugged Michael and he hugged back. Jake pulled away. "What the hell happened!?" Jake asked.

    "We were on our way to class and then they came up to us and we tried to go around them but the main guy blocked us, and held out a pocket knife we tried to go around him again but they grabbed Jer and threatened to hurt him in I didn't cut myself. But Jer bit the guys hand and yelled for you and Rich, they were about to beat him up but I picked him up and ran over here." Michael explained.

    "Ok thanks" they The security guard said. "I'll go see if they'll conform that but in the meantime think you two should go home OK?" The security guard suggested.

    "Ok". Michael conformed, with a still shaky voice.

    Michael and I were currently playing AOTD and I knew I had to cheek his arm somehow, but asking him straight up he probably wouldn't show me it and it would freak him out and he just got done with a panic attack and I don't want to put him though that again. But one way to do it is I could get his shirt off with maybe something not so pure.

    Michael found this creator called Cavetown and he loves there music and its really good, admittedly. And he play's there songs all the time now being one of those times, I can tell Michael's mood by what hes playing for instance if he's happy the album is is Lemon Boy or Animal Kingdom but if hes in a bad or annoyed mood its Cavetown the album and if hes sad its 16/04/16 and sometimes he'll play songs that aren't in albums that vary in emotions. And it took awhile for him to play me anything from 16/04/16 because he said there sorta depressing and he doesn't want me to worry. But right now he's playing Irrational. I like when he plays and all but he's been playing a lot from this album in specific a little before and ever since he's started being more careful with his left arm so I still have to cheek.

    "hey Mickey~?" I started to get his attention. OK  so all I have to do is not get to wrapped up in Michael and I should be fine.

    "Hmm?" He hummed in response, putting his guitar aside. I got in his lap and watched the smirk slide onto his face, and I smiled at him. I leaned in and our lips meet and locked. I didn't think what to do from here. OK... so I intertwined our fringes and leaned in more and felt him lick my bottom lip. He tasted like surge, but I mean he always tastes like that... but oh god this feels good-No NO I need to cheek his arm that why I'm doing this right? I  pulled our hands above our heads as Michael slipped his  tongue into my mouth. Fuck OK, just don't- I moaned. Why me?!?!? Ok so I could just get his shirt off right that counts... as long as I see his arm I'll be fine. So I changed plans.

    Michael and I were lying in bed cuddling we somehow had enough energy to take a bath but to only put on our boxer's. I remembered what I wanted to do by doing this and I realized that Michael's shirt was off. I reached over and gently picked up his arm, and felt tears gather in my eyes from what I saw.

    "Mi-Micha?" I said. He looked done at me and saw my tears. "Wha-" His head shot to look at the cut in his arm. 'LOSER' Was written in his arm in bold letters or not written, cut into his arm and I have no Idea how I haven't see it.

    "Oh I'm ImsosorryIdon'tknowwhatIwasthinkingJer-"I kissed him to shut him up.

    "Why Mikey?" I asked him.

    "it's just everyone at school is telling me and I used to use it to cope so that's what I turned to when it was bad you weren't there and I didn't want to bother you or anyone else so I did this and I'm so sorry." He explained looking down.

    "Hey, it's fine I just... Don't do it again I'm begging you Mike I don't want you to fall back into that, ok? And next time call don't be afraid, Ok?" He nodded now he was the one on the verge of tears.

    "I won't do it again Jer I promise." He said, I knew what he was doing.

    "And... " I said encouraging him to go on. He just looked down and stayed silent.

    "Come on Mikey." I said.

    "And next time I'll call." He mumbled.

    "Ok that's good enough for now only because I'm exhausted." I said cuddling back up into his chest. He chuckled.

   "Ok night Jer. Mahal Kita." He said.

   "Night, Je t'aime aussi" I replied, Micha and I have this thing where we say I love you and anything with love usually in Filipino, French, or Hebrew. I do French and Micha does Filipino we can both speak Hebrew. He leaned it because my dad taught me it and he got interested so we learned together, it heard to be and still kinda is our secret language. And so we fell asleep.

    We woke up to laughing.

    "Of my God did you guy'th th'eriously use your free time to fuck?" I hear a voice I could pin-point as Rich ask.

    "Well it's better than getting it off in the stalls Rich." Michael retaliated. I opened my eyes to see all the girls giggling and Rich and Jakes faces bright red.

    "?Aloaim amshkapis" Michael asked.(Oh my God where are my glasses?)Michael asked.

    ".bdiock chan maveni" (Right here hun) I replied.

    "Thanks" He replied.

    "What the he'll are you guys talking in?!" Chloe asked, fuck I forgot the girls were here.

    "oh-fuck everyone out now!" Michael said as he realized everyone was in here. Everyone but Rich left. Jake popped his head in the door.

    "Hey babe come'on let'em chang." Jake called from up stairs. Rich suddenly lunged forward grabbing Micha's arm and looking at it.

    "What he fuck is this Mell!?" Rich asked. Micha ripped his arm away from Rich.

    "Richard get up here right now!" Jake yell.

    "this is not over" Rich growled at us, before turning and walking out. Michael's breathing picked up.

    "Mickey, hey, calm down ok?" I cooed. Tears began to pour down his face. "Mickey..." I said letting by my voice fade out as I cupped his cheeks.

    "He probably hates me now." He said inbetween tears. I began wiping his tears away with my thumbs.

    "Hey look," I gently used my thumb and pointer finger to move his chin to look at me. "Your gonna be ok, I'm sure he doesn't hate you." I assured him. "Just calm down so we can go talk to them." I told him.

    "Ok" He said with a sniff. He got up and got some pants on and a shirt while I took my time trying to get up. I was standing while he was ready to face the world. Micha chuckled as he walked over to me. "Your sore aren't you?" He asked an ass-eating grin on his face. I blushed but nodded. "Well, it felt good?" He said It was more of a question.

   "Yeah it was great ." I admitted my face going redder at what we did if that was possible as I let out a dreaming sigh. He chuckled,

   "Well I liked it a lot to, up" He said tapping my arms. I put my arms up and he slipped my shirt over my head. "Good job Jer-bear." He praised , before pecking my nose. "Wuv wou" He said using his baby voice. I giggled.

    "I love you too." I said nuzzling our noses together. He smiled brightly as was I.

    "Now let's put your pants on!" He said.

    "Ok" I said chuckling. I sat down slowly, and he said my pants on.

    "To think I was taking theses off earlier." He joked, he knew what he was doing.

    "Michael -uh*cough* Michael that's uh, uncal-led f-for. " I stuttered, my face flushing up to my ears. He chuckled, and pulled me up.

    "Look who came to visit." He said in a goofy voice as he buttoned up me pants for me. "Mr.tomato face." He said pinching my cheek. I

    "Shut up" I mumbled my face going redder.

    He chuckled. And leaned in so our noses were touching. And we just sat there staring at each other.

    "You have a lot of freckles." He said after a minute, with a dorky grin on his face.

    "You think I haven't noticed, I have to look at them everyday." I said giggling a little.
    "You say that like a bad thing." He pointed out.

    "Well it is it means my skin is shit." I said giggling again I couldn't help myself around him.

    "Well there one of the infinite reasons I love you Mahal ko." He said as his hand dropped a little lower then my hips. I blushed.

    "Infinite? That sounds unhealthy." I said.

    "It is Mahal, your like a drug..." His voice faded out as his hand went lower. Then suddenly he dropped his hand to the bend of my knees and the other flew to my upper back and he swooped me off my feet holding me bridle style while spinning me around in circles, while I giggled.

    "That I can't get enough of!" He said. He slowed to a stop and I looked at him.

    "Your stalling aren't you?" I questioned.

    "Yeah..." He admitted with a sigh, I giggled.

    "We gotta go up there some time Mickey" I reminded him.

    "Yeah I know" He said.

    "Now put me down!" I said squirming.

    "No your sore so I will carry you." He stated with confidence.

    "Not in front of evryone." I said.

    "No I'll put you down at the top of the stairs." He said.

     "Ok, fine." I said, he did this ass-eating grin.

    "Ok so I have this friend in school we smoke in the bathrooms together sometimes ok, and something he actually told me after I chickened out on confessing to you is 'You need to lower me into me into the ground when I die so you can let me down one last time'.But you see he has this crush named Evan and He's chickened out on telling him multiple times too, and turns out this other friend of mine also has a crush on Evan, and actually dis-likes Conner, so a weird love triangle."Michael ranted as we walked across his room and up the sairs he put me down at the door."But conner and evan recently got together though so Jared is not having a good time." Michael explained as we walked out of his room and into the living room.

    We walked out and sat down on the couch.

    "So what the fuck did I see on your arm Mell?" Rich asked once we sat down.

    "Look, I had a bad night ok-?" Rich cut Michael off.

    "Yea Mell then one night turns to 2 to 3 and before ya know it your having had nights every night Mell!" Rich yelled causing me to jump a little and hug Michael a bit more.

    "Ok that is not an excuse!-" Michael cut him off

    "And I never said it was! " He said keeping his cool.

    "Well it better not be because I can not to though that again!" Rich yelled. I

    "So it's about you huh?" Michael asked. Rich stayed silent.

     "Ya know that's your problem Rich, your there till it effects you. Like the dare, it was fine for us cuss we've went though it. But then it happens to you and because your reputation being better than ours for a year or two more it's not ok for you! And so you help me out of my depression once because I don't know you had nothing better to do, it helps your reputation, I saved you live once, -and I didn't even come out of it all the way ether- but now you feel you have to do it again so it's not Ok I don't know why you feel like that but apparently you do but you don't Rich! You don't! If you don't want to do it again you can leave! You can go! I know that I'm a hassle and I know that I'm a hand full to deal with! But you can leave! And you want to know why I did this"- Michael pulled up his sleeve to reveal the word loser cut in red on his arm-" Because 200 people everyday are reminding me of my darkest moment! A period of time I felt so worthless I wanted to die! And thought the world would be better with me dead Rich! And it's worse because one of the people who helped me mostly out of that kind space caused it.... I saw it Rich, the post... And it hurts like hell and ya know, I trusted you, which was so hard to do in the first place, but I don't know if I can any more Rich." Michael was crying, which he doesn't do in front of people.

     I hugged him and he hugged back.

    "I'm going down stairs." Michael said getting up and walking to the basement door, me following behind him. I stoped before going down stairs, patting Michael's back telling him I'll be down in a minute.

    "Come down in ten to twenty minutes." I told Rich before turning and walking down stairs .

    When I opened the door Michael was on the bed in a ball hugging a pillow. I walked over to him an removed the pillow and replaced it with my self. He hugged me from behind so we were spooning.

    "I'm sorry Jer" Michael said.

    "For what?" I asked.

    "Being so overly emotional... I don't know I'm just sorry- I feel like I should be apologizing, uh I don't know just... Sorry" He ranted. I squirmed a bit telling him I wanted to change potions. I turned so I was facing him.

    "Don't be." I said, he was crying. I put my hand closest to the bed up and under his hoodie which was up and ran my hand though his hair using my other hand to rub his side. "Don't cry it's ok Mikey." I cooed.

    "He probably hates me now, and they all probably think I'm a wiredo." He cried.

    "Shh" I tried calming him down. I leaned on and gently pressed a kiss to his lips, he  kissed back. After a little while he calmed down.

    "I don't deserve you." He said.

    "Your wrong, I'm the one who doesn't deserve you." I argued, barring my head in his neck.

    "Hey can we come down yet? Rich wants wants to apologize." Jake explained.

    "Uh... Give us like a minute or two." I called back. I got Michael to sit up and I sat next to him. "Ok now!" I called to Jake then Rich came down stairs. He sat on the bed across from Michael and I.I

    "I wanted to say I'm sorry, I was being selfish and should not have done that." Rich said.

     "And I'm sorry too that was a lot of emotional baggage and I shouldn't have dropped all that on you. I forgive you." Michael said before sticking his hand out, Rich took it and they shook hands.

    "So was everything you said ture?.. Like you never came out of it?" Rich asked.I

    "Yeah I still tend to over anninzlys faces and still have... Thoughts, but it's more bearable." Michael said. Rich nodded.

   "So who wants pizza?!" Jake yelled from upstairs. I

   "Me!!!" Everyone yelled. So we got pizza.

    I can't wait for what will happen next.

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AN: Hey so long a ass chapter! Whew... My fingers are dead. Help.And 56 reads! Thank you!!!(they used a dido on Jeremy)

Word count:3607