TW: Mention of abuse, cursing and cutting.

    (Michael's POV)

    "Well come over here! I want cuddles!" Jeremy begged. I chuckled.

     "Fine." I said. Jer seemed lost in thought as we cuddled looking out at the ocean.

    "Hey Mike?" Jer started.

    "Hm?" I hummed.
 
    "What was going on last year? You seemed sad and really out of it, you didn't even say till I made you and I swear- wait why were you crying!?" He asked seemingly remembering the events of last year.

    "I was just in a bad head space." I told him. He nuzzled into my side,as we looked out at the sea, and the sun reflecting off of it. It looked really pretty, we already went swimming It was fun getting Evan in, Conner had to push him in. I kissed the top of Jer's head happy I could do that now.

    "Mickey why were you crying?" He asked again. "You didn't answer."Jeremy pointed out. I looked down not knowing what to say.I didn't have a reason, cuss I couldn't say exactly why, it was him not noticing but thats cuss I was in the basement the whole time and I can't expect him to chase after me.

    "I wasn't happy." I half lied, and it was true I wasn't happy but that's not what caused it. I knew that.

     "Oh god, it-it was me and Chris wasn't it! Y-You said not to be all lovey dovey  I didn't li-listen I-I Y-You"Tears streamed down Jer's face as he talked, Goddammit look what you did Michael great going. 

    "No,No,No! Jer it wasn't your fault!" I said pulling him into my lap.He still kept crying though. "I just wasn't in a good head space, ok please stop crying" I begged as I felt tears of my own well in my eyes. I hated seeing Jer cry with all my heart, it was the worst. Jer began calming down and I thanked the heavens.

    "I'm sorry." Jeremy apologized.

    "Why? Don't be, it was never your fault you have nothing to be sorry about." I told him. Jeremy reached and gently grabbed my left arm. it was covered by my hoodie sleeve cuss I don't want any one seeing my scares, so I cover them and bought a long sleeved shirt for swimming.

    "Maybe if I was a better friend you wouldn't have to hide you arm." He mumbled.

    "Jer..." I started gently cupping his cheek and moving his head so he would look at me. "Nothing I do or have ever done to myself in relation to my body is in no way shape or form your fault." I told him gently.

    "But-" He started, I cut him off.

    "It's not your fault." I told him. He looked down, before barring his face in my hoodie.And even though we've been dating for month's I still felt my heart rate pick up.

    "Boy's! Dinner!" We heard being called from the Deck.

     "We'll be down soon!" I yelled back. "Com'on Jer let's get you cleaned up so we can eat dinner." I told him.

    We went to the basement of the boat and I felt really happy to know I was gonna eat on the dock this year. It felt good to get over my trust issues. Me and Jer washed his face and then we went upstairs  and on to the dock this year we just got subway on the way here, and we all just agreed that we would use the stove for breakfast tomorrow. After Jer got the tear streaks off his face and looked like he hadn't just cried we went upstairs.

    "Michael! Take that thing off!Your gonna get heat stroke!" Ina said as we got onto the deck. I didn't want to say no but I also didn't want to take it off then everyone would see my arms.

     "I haven't got heat stroke all day though!" I argued.

    "I don't care, take it off!" Ina said.

    "Com'on Mickey, everyone here knows. And no ones gonna judge!"Jer whispered to me. 

    "I know Jer-bear but I don't wanna bring down the mood." I whispered back.

    "You won't Mike now she's right that thing needs to come off! remember..." He trailed off thinking. "Every summer since I got you that hood!" Jer said remembering what he was gonna say, but accidentally cutting out some of what he was gonna say. I chuckled.

    And as I looked around I found he was right.Everyone here had seen and knew about what happened and were accepting, I wasn't gonna get teased I was fine. After dinner and a lot of getting Evan to come know on top of the boat. Me and Jer found ourselves on top of the boat again.

    "Of My God!!!! I'm not doing that guys!!!" Evan yelled from the deck after a watching me and Jer make our way up.

    "Com'on Ev! You'll be fine!" I yelled down at him.

    "What if I slip!?" He yelled back

    "Con 'ell catch you!" I yelled back. Evan put a leg on the side of the boat Conner following close behind. He shimmied his way up. With Conner and got to the top and he made it to the top we all sat down as the fireworks began and took in the surrounding the waves moving gently and the stars shinning brightly. I looked at Jeremy's face and admired the way the light lite up his freckles on his pale skin and how he smiled softly to nothing in spicfic. I loved him so much. And still love him. After fireworks me and Jer went in to the basement of the boat to sleep.

    "What are you a koala?" I asked him as he straddled me. Hugging me with his arms around my torso.

    "I can be." He replied. I chuckled. I put my arms around him resting them in his lower back. He went quite, as I felt something on my stomach.

    "Oh my god Jer why are you hard!?!?!" I whispered yelled at him. Pissed and surprised at the same time.

    "Maybe?" He replied.

    "Jer how the fuck?-" I started. He cut me off.

    "I don't know ok??? I felt it against your stomach and it gave friction and now we're here." I sighed, I knew this would happen.

"Ok fine, let's go to the bathroom and stay quite. I don't want my moms to here." I said standing up,carrying Jeremy in turn. Jeremy nodded his head.

And in the end, I'm happy I was there.

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AN: I.LOST.ALL.MOTIVATION! Sorry for now short it is. For the people who are wondering where half of prom went, my mom said I can't write smut and tried to find my book and is getting her friends to read it to, so I had to delete It before she could find it.( I would've had to delete It anyway though) so yeah. Also I forgot to update yesterday so that's why it's late.

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