We've reached the end of the story, and all I can do is say thank you. I appreciate your support so much. I actually did get some questions (yay), so below are some of the things that people asked!

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How old are you?
I'm 22, and I'll be 23 in November.

Is there anything that inspires your writing or helps the process?

I'm constantly on the internet (via Facebook, Twitter or YouTube) and I see a lot of things. Usually I'll read an article or watch a video and if it impacts me enough, I write it down somewhere, and let the idea sit there for a while. If what I saw impacts me enough, I think of a basic plot line and then let the idea sit for awhile before coming back to it. It also helped that throughout this process, I was talking to multiple authors, and I was telling them ideas (without giving anything away).

It really helps to have people you trust on here to give you advice on stories. Without certain people I wouldn't have taken as many chances with this story as I did. Their input helped a lot, more than they'll know. I also used voice text to write the majority of the chapters and then I'd go back and edit. I also always have something on in the background while I write. It's never music, it's usually the news or a YouTube video. Letting an idea sit for a few days or weeks is the best thing you can do, in all honesty. It helps you figure out if you truly want to write something/if you're serious about it.

I also rarely ever plan out my stories. Typically, I know how the story begins and ends, but the chapters in between are me winging it. I don't necessarily recommend this method of writing because it doesn't work for everyone. It happens to work for me because I don't like being 'tied down' to the plot. I like keeping the story unpredictable for me when I write it. I'm not sure if that makes sense but that method seems to work for me.

Do you want to be a writer or is just a hobby?

This is just a fun thing I like to do in my free time. I don't think I'll ever be good enough to be published and I'm fine with that. I like doing this for fun.

What made you start writing fanfiction?

I'm not really sure. I started off writing this story about my friends and I being trapped in this government experiment when I was still in middle school (that was almost ten years ago for me). I stopped writing that story and then I found One Direction my freshmen year of high school and I wrote this shitty Niall fanfiction (it was poorly written and horribly cliché). I took like three years off Wattpad after that because I was like "this website is weird". Then I came back and here I am.

Why do you write so beautifully?

I'm not really sure, in all honesty. I just write shit down and people seem to like it.

Where did this story idea come from?

I was on Facebook and saw this video that talked about a husband cheating on his wife with his assistant or whatever. The wife set the rules (almost the same as the rules set by Aurelia), and she ends up dying from cancer. The man ends up falling back in love and he broke things off and was going to tell his wife of his love for her but she dies before this happens. If you look up 'story about wife with cancer and husband wants divorce', you should find multiple articles about it. I'm not sure if it actually happened but it inspired me weeks after watching the video to write this. I also added my own twists on the story.

Are you pissed off as much as we are when writing such a bitch fuckin MF character like Harry?

It was pretty hard to write Harry this way because he's very obviously not a dick. I've always wanted to write him as an ass, but every time I tried, he ends up being super sweet and nice. So, I forced myself to write the story because I needed to write him in a bad light if that makes any sense. I wanted to challenge myself with the story, and I think I pulled it off pretty well.

What was the actual cause for Harry falling out of love with Aurelia?

There isn't a good reason/cause. I made it kind of ambiguous as to why he did because you never really know. It's a shitty fact of life that someone will fall out of love with their SO. For Harry in this story, I like to imagine that he never actually fell out of love with Aurelia, but he got so caught up with his lust for Celia that he forgot how to love. He never loved Celia (as most of you knew), he really only liked her body. He was bored one day and wanted to try something new, especially since his wife was sick and couldn't do much for him. She was losing her memory, getting sick more and more, and they didn't know why until it was too late.

What's your favourite song by Harry?

Ever Since New York because it's such a beautiful song. It's sad/nostalgic and I adore it because it makes me feel so many emotions.

What song do you listen to when you're feeling down?

Okay hear me out.

'All Star' by Smash Mouth never fails to get me in a good mood. The song is such a meme and my love for it has gone from an ironic one to a serious one. I will legitimately listen to it by choice. I know, I know.

Another one is 'Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go'. It never fails to make me smile and it's just a good song.

'Woman' by Kesha. Every time I hear it, I feel so empowered. It's one of her new songs and I love it so much.

'Mr. Blue Sky' by Electric Light Orchestra. I saw this song performed in this show called 'Our Ladies of Perpetual Succour' and it was so good. I was shook. Nothing will ever be as good as that cover, but this song also always makes me smile.

'The Poke-Rap' by Starbomb. I just love this because I love Danny and Arin (from Game Grumps/NSP).

I have a lot more too, but those are some good ones that I like.

What's your Spotify?

I prefer Apple Music lmao.

What are your favourite movies?

I have a lot that. My favourite Harry Potter will always be 'The Prisoner of Azkaban'. Favourite romantic comedy is probably something like 'The Notebook', and animated is really hard. I'm a sucker for 'My Neighbor Totoro' or 'Howl's Moving Castle'. There are a lot of movies that I'm forgetting but those are the first ones that come to mind.

What's your favourite Disney movie?

I'm not sure if it's my favorite movie, but I will always love Disney's animated version of Robin Hood. I will always be a sucker for the old animated cartoons. 

Favourite Drag Queen of all time?

Trixie Mattel or Sasha Velour.

Favourite quote from RuPaul's Drag Race?

"If you can't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an amen?"

How are you able to write such a sad/depressing story?

Honestly, I have no clue. I'm pretty sure that I'm incapable of writing a happy story. I usually try to write one and then my brain is like "nOPE, you GOTTA make this SAD AF".

What is your career choice?

I really want to work in entertainment. I'm a theatre major with a focus in production and I want to work backstage in a theatre somewhere, or work in film/television.

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That's the end of the Q&A, and before I end things, there are few things I want to address before I end this.

The first thing being Celia.

It was so hard for me to write her character because I knew she would be getting a lot of hate. I knew that people would be calling her names calling like slut, whore, etc.. The feminist inside me was screaming at me because I wrote such a despicable person who was also a woman. For me, I thought that the name calling was a little contradictory because those that were calling her a whore or slut are usually against putting women down.

Don't get me wrong, what she did was despicable but no matter what, I wouldn't call her those names. I hate those words I cringed every time I read them. I'm not trying to scold any of you/tell any of you off for commenting what you did. I feel like I'm rambling at this point, but I just wanted to get that off my chest. Writing Celia the way I had was hard for me and it made me kinda sad to see some of those words. This is just my opinion and you don't need to agree, I just wanted to let you all know what I was thinking. I know I am no saint; I'm sure that I've commented 'whore', 'slut', or something similar but I've really grown to dislike those words.

Another thing I want to talk about was how I've always wanted to kill off the main character in one of my stories. I've rarely ever read a story where that happens, and I wanted mine to be different. Sometimes stories will have a plot twist where the character comes back to life and I didn't want that. I was pretty close to not actually killing Aurelia but I needed to do it. I think it was an interesting thing for me to try, and I like how it turned out. I felt bad for her, I felt sad, but I feel as if this version of events is better because it kind of shows the sad reality of life. This was also an interesting little challenge for me. I hope you guys liked what I had, even if you're not necessarily happy with how things ended.

My goal with this story was to create a story that felt real/raw. I wanted people to feel strong emotions and I wanted to make it something that feels human. Hopefully I pulled that off. I prefer reading books that make me feel something, and that's why I read darker stories. I love connecting with characters on a human level, and I feel like there aren't enough books like that on Wattpad, or if there are, they don't get the recognition that they deserve. Anyways, I'll leave it at that because I could go in depth with that, but I won't for your sales.

Thank you so much for reading the story, for giving it a chance, and for being on this journey with me. Your support has meant the world and I am forever grateful.

-bea