Hey my potatoes! Well I've been sorting out stuff on my iPod to make it organized. I'm just kinda bored and there is a ton of stuff that's like junk!

I came across some sad stories on my notes that my sister, Ashley (you probably know her), emailed me. She found them online because then we were in the mood for reading sad love stories.

I thought of sharing them to you guys. It makes me cry like when I'm reading After. Some are real some are not. I'll say if they are. To make it ok for this Directioners Diary, I'll change the names to one of the boys. :)

Here's the first one! It's not real and let's say the boy is Liam!

IT'S 7TH GRADE..

I stared at the girl next to me... She was my so called "best friend"... I stared at her... Long, silky hair... And I wished she was mine... But she didn't notice me like that... I knew it... After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before... And I handed them to her... She said "thanks"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...

IT'S JUNIOR YEAR..

My phone rang... On the other end it was her... She was in tears... Mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart... She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone... So I did... As I sat next to her on the sofa... I stared at her soft eyes... Wishing she was mine... After 2 hours... I Drew Barrymore movie... And 3 bags of chips... She decided to go to sleep... She looked at me.. Said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...

IT'S SENIOR YEAR..

The day before prom... She walked to my locker... "My date is sick" she said... He's not going to go... Well... I didn't have a date and in 7th grade... We made a promise that if neither of us had dates... We'd go together just as "best friends"... And so we did...

IT'S PROM NIGHT..

After everything was over with... I was standing at her front door step... I stared at her ... She smiled at me... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me like that... And I know it... Then she said "I had the best time... Thanks!"... And she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wanted her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...

IT'S GRADUATION DAY..

A day passed... And then a week... And then a month... Before I could blink... It was graduation day... I watched her... Perfect body... Floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me that way... And I know it... Before everyone went home... She came to me in her smock and hat... And cried as I hugged her... Then she lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend"... "Thanks!"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her.. I wanted to know that I wanted to be more than "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy... And I don't know why...

IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER..

Now I sit in the pews of the church... A church that she is getting married in now... I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life... Married to another man... I wanted her to be mine... But she didn't see me like that... And I knew it... But before she drove away... She came to me and said "You came!... Thanks!"... And she kissed me on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wantd her to know that I didn't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...

YEARS PASSED..

I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend"... At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years... This is what it said... "I stare at him... Wishing he was mine... But he doesn't notice me like that... And I know it... I wanted to tell him... I wanted him to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love him but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me"... I wish I did too... I thought to myself and I cried...

rest in peace my Love.

Here's a real sad love story that's so emotional it made me cry. If it's not real I wouldn't cry that much, but real stories happened you know? So this really happened! Well the boy we're gonna use is Niall. I thought of Harry, but Niall seems perfect. The guy's real name is Jin. If you want, try reading it instead of saying Niall's name say Jin.

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Niall. I always thought of him as a friend

until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that

trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of

lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by

his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...

"Niall, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.

"I can't"

"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.

"No... I am going to meet a friend..."

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days...200days... Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...

Then one day...

Me: Um, Niall, I ...

Niall: What...don't drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Niall: ......you....um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many...

Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But... lunch passed, dinner passed... and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Niall..

Niall: Here...take this...

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What's this?

Niall: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?

Niall: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted... "Wait..."

Niall: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...

Niall: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.

"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."

That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb... and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily... How could he.... I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me...

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday.

After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street... with another girl... He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll... I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell... Why did he gave these to me... Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that... it's going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Niall: Jo, I thought you were mad, you really came?

I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual...

Me: I don't need it.

Niall: What....why...

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.

Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.

"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...

Me: Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then...

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"Niall! Move! Move away!" I shouted... But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.

"Niall, move!"

HONK~!!

"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.

That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him... And after spending two months like a crazy person... I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...

"One...two... three..." That was how... I started to count the dolls...

"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..." It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...

"I love you~, I love you~" I dropped the dolls, shocked

"I....lo..ve...you??" I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

"I love you~ I love you~" It can't be! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

Those words came out non-stop. I...love you... Why didn't I realize that....That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn't I realize that he love me this much... I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much.

"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? Why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...

For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life ..

I just read it again and now my crying has gotten worse! It always makes me cry! I promise, next I'm going to post something funny and happy. I hope you guys liked these sad stories! In the meantime,

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