Role: nothing left to find

Name: Xavier Damion Jackson

Age: 18

Gender: male

Sexuality: demiromantic pansexual

Grade: senior

Birthday: October 3rd

Looks: Finn Wolfhard

Ethnicity: American

Personality: Xavier is a very depressed boy who really sees absolutely no point in life and is just sick of it. He is a huge pessimist who always thinks negatively about things and doesn't believe anything will get better. He is very quiet and keeps to himself a lot, he doesn't really talk to others unless he has to. Talking to others drains him of energy and quite frankly annoys him. He's very hard to get to know as he doesn't trust others easily or open up easily. He prefers to keep everything to himself and not tell anyone about his personal life or problems because he knows that they can't help any of it, etc. He's very sarcastic too and uses it to try and drive people away from him. He's very rebellious and a huge risk taker who does whatever the hell he wants to. He doesn't care about breaking rules or putting his life in danger. He often breaks laws and will do super dangerous things like train dodging, etc. He's also super protective over those he cares about and will literally kill you if you hurt them, like his siblings and mom. He's overall a pretty cold, depressed anti-social guy but if you're one of the lucky few to get to know him you'll learn that deep down, to the ones he cares about, he is extremely loyal and nice. He is rarely nice to anyone through and he is super blunt so he often ends up hurting others feelings no matter what, friends or not. He also doesn't believe in love that much and therefore sees no harm in sleeping around and constantly getting someone new when he is "with" someone else. He's a completely different person though whenever he's high or drunk, he becomes super outgoing and charismatic and could probably become friends with anyone when he's like that. He's a just a boy that is broken and needs fixed, if that's possible.

Allergies: he is allergic to dogs and quite honestly doesn't mind because he's not the biggest fan of them 

Family:
Amanda Jackson (mother/46/alive)
Howard Jackson (father/47/alive)
Ellie Jackson (older sister/20/alive)
Grayson Jackson (younger brother/15/alive) 
Elliot Jackson (younger brother/deceased/died when he was 16)

Zodiac sign: Libra

Aesthetic:

(I had too much fun making these)

Theme song: luving you by 6lack
new flesh by current joys
young dumb & broke by khalid

Likes staying up late, nighttime, cookie dough, Red Bull, breaking rules, skateboarding, getting high, smoking, drinking, being alone, listening to music, doing crazy things, rainstorms, cats, spiders, reptiles, concerts, abandoned places

Dislikes: crowds, being bothered, mornings, sleeping, being bored, school, reading, hot weather, coffee, dogs, staying in jail, his life, his dad, nightmares, staying at home, talking about his problems/opening up

Hobbies: skateboarding, smoking, getting high, going on adventures, playing drums, doing dangerous things like train dodging, etc. and breaking rules

Strengths: independent, can easily spot lies, smart, protective

Weaknesses: depressed, quiet, emotional, reckless, weak

Background: Xavier's home life isn't pretty at all. Ever since he was little his parents have always been on the brink of a divorce but always decided to stay together for their children. This has caused an unhealthy home environment for him and his siblings as his parents argue all the time and sometimes their dad gets abusive towards their mom. Whenever their mom isn't home their dad will sometimes take his anger out on them as he is a very angry and violent person. His older sister left the house as soon as she could and their parents didn't like that, especially their father. Only a few days after she had left he brought her back forcibly and abused her very badly, threatening he'd kill her if she left again. Xavier had a little brother named Elliot but he died from an overdose last year. Xavier knew why Elliot had overdosed, as he had been depressed just like him and always got the worst beatings from dad so he just wanted it all to be over. Ever since his death the tension in their household has increased rapidly and none of them feel safe with his dad and none of them are happy. Xavier's depression had only gotten worse from Elliot's death as the two of them had been extremely close. He has made an effort to grow close with Ellie and Grayson for help, so they can stick together through this. Xavier has in a way become the protector of the house, always standing up for his siblings or mother whenever his dad gets violent or angry.

Style: black vans, black ripped jeans and hoodies 99% of the time

Other:
- even though he doesn't really believe in love, he needs some very badly :'(
- he has tried to run away several times
- he attempted suicide once but it failed, he has the scars from it (on his wrists)
- he has scars all over his arms from self harm
- he's quite skinny and doesn't eat as much as he should
- he is in poor health and quite weak since he doesn't get enough sleep and doesn't eat enough
- he has very poor school performance, he gets awful grades and gets in trouble a lot
- he has a pet tarantula named Death