So finally I could resume this and here's the new part with a big thank you for all the patience and support.

Also, This part got extended unexpectedly and immensely long in terms of words. So it is getting difficult to arrange the sequence of events and edit on phone as you all know I'm not home and I'm also not carrying laptop. So I have to split it in parts.

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" Do minute chalte hai... Comfortable hua to rukte hai nahi vapis aajayenge.. Jaisa tu chahe, poore haq se bol dena mujhe acha lagega.. " Sidharth said in a tone which held something very different.

A tint of his wish with an assurance that she was free to decide.

" Meko apne se zada tere chune raste par bharosa hai pata hai na tujhe ?? Hath pakad aur jaha marzi leja... parr.... Haq Se !!!! " She confessed and ordered altogether as an answer to the doubtfulness of his tone.

Damn again !! She put him again so high that it scares him sometimes if he failed her ever. How come every freaking time she's so cool with him deciding anything for her. She just never thinks, never questions !!

" Chalee ?? " She asked and he smiled lostly at her effort to encourage him in his attempt.

His heart felt like screaming and shouting with the emotions weighing down his heart.

He cupped her face and came ahead but stopped himself just on the verge.. he rested his forehead against her, calming the little storm inside and kissed her forehead and looked at her making her read his insides through his eyes.

He parted a little and then held her hand and walked ahead.

After a walk of few minutes they reached a place within the forest which was something unknown for Shehnaaz making her doubtful if she was understanding it correct ??

Whatever it was, it was a whole new concept for her. He himself didn't knew how confident he should feel ?? It was the first time he took such an advancement which made him doubtful for her comfort. Although unknowingly he knew that he shouldn't be, but maybe just because in ideal condition one would be nervous so he was being.

She now knew from where the doubtfulness of his tone was coming. This was ofcourse unusual.. uncommon.. new.. and a lot.. but not uncomfortable !! Not a bit !!
And being there, she just realised the fact that there was nothing and there could be nothing.. literally 'nothing'.. with him.. that would be uncomfortable for her.

" Ye kya hai ?? Idhar kyu hai ?? " She said forcing playfulness in her tone.

" Relax karne... " Now he replied forcing casualness.

She forced the casualness and he tried clearing the purpose, with the only intention of easing each other out but couldn't realize that they were easing themselves only.

" Aiseeee ?? " She asked pointing at themselves.

The mere reason for this was to make him free of his doubtfulness. She was absolutely hating it but simultaneously was wondering at the confidence she was in, with her words right then. Maybe because that urge and the wish to feel and to be his righteous person was that much strong.

He kept looking at her. Was she for real ?? He himself was not able to normalise this and he knew she wouldn't be able to too. But she was doing it to give him assurance... assurance that he was free to take steps ahead and lead them together there. And with the realization yet again and absorbing the feeling of what treasure he has got, for life !

He smiled lostly and pointed towards a small cabin there. Watching his smile she was glad to have him back the way she wants but then got all shy again with the thought of the next thing and went quickly inside the cabin as if trying to hide herself even after knowing that she has to be back here only. A little later he came behind, following her. The cabin had two smaller cabins inside. She was in one already and he went to another and came out within minutes. She was still in and he came out giving her all the time.

And after sometime she came out too wrapped in a soft, big, furry bathrobe covering her completely yet she was all red shying heavily, or maybe the unprocessed fact that what she was wearing, wasn't something that covers, but serves a sole purpose of obstruction in exposure and that unacknowledged difference was making her mousy.

She came out and looked around, maybe consciously. Conscious of being out in open this way. And her eyes fell on him who was sitting on the edge of a tub, probably a hot tub watching the hot vapours rising up the surface. His hands rested besides on the edges with his legs straightened into the small tub, submerged into it wearing the same and talking !!... How come people find him everywhere ?? And by people she meant girls.

She went closer looking around in the meantime. The dense forest around at a distance which were covering them all around like some walls ensuring them that that was Their Little World for the time being, the trees coloured all white, the snow carpet all around, the beautiful dark sky looking darker with no stars and no traces of lights. That little cabin besides and the lights coming out of it getting reflected and giving a beautiful appearance and filter to everything around...

She reached closer looking around while he kept looking at her. He was wondering that how many beautiful scenarios he came across till date but none felt this soothing. He wondered how come she makes everything beautiful in folds by doing literally nothing but just being there. He so wanted to fill in even this view but he can't let her stand like that.

" Aaja... " He said ever so softly forwarding his hand trying to keep his tone normal to not let her feel that anything was unusual.

Only if he knew that right then she remembered no consciousness, no shyness but only this girl who was constantly smiling and adding to that, the sneaky glances over her man was erupting something in Shehnaaz which she never knew. Shehnaaz herself didn't realized that that girl's sneaky gaze has turned her's into a deadly one.

And she felt no less than a queen that moment. Holding his hand she literally  stepped up the podium like surface like a queen and then stepped into the tub and stood in front of Sidharth in between his legs holding him with shoulders. He couldn't understand this sudden boldness of this shy baby but then that's the only thing he was wishing for right then. Her comfort !!

Okay !! It would be a lie to say that she didn't wanted to show him off. Not completely but still. She found it weird and unbelievable to accept. She was never this way. Like how stupid it sounds. But then it wasn't the first thing she was doing she never knew. These stupid emptions makes you do a lot many of weird things.

And he took her hands in his from his shoulders and kissed them softly,  smiling blissfully.

" Sir would you like to order the drinks now ?? " The girl asked gaining his attention.

" Naaz you'll take a drink ?? "

" Na baba sirr dukhta hai.. " She replied remembering the last time.

" Bhand nahii hona hai.. Thoda thoda. "

" Hot chocolate milega ?? " She asked out of nowhere puckering her lips in curiosity making him smile at his kiddo.

And then whatever his baby wishes !!He ordered and that girl just couldn't control her blush on anything Sidharth would say to her but looking at Shehnaaz's gaze, her face straightened she put the music on and she left quickly.

As she left, Shehnaaz put the music off she played. She couldn't even acknowledge what exactly was making her behave like that. She never thought like that, she never felt like that, she never knew this way to react. But may be it just comes in naturally with these crazy stupid feelings.

" Band kyu kiya ?? " Sidharth asked gaining her attention.

" Tujhko sunna hai ye ?? " She scoffed making him actually nervous.

" Nahiii... " He replied nervously knowing that that was the right answer then.

" Haa to mujhe nahi sunna ye.. apne chala. " She said in a tone which was foreign but what was amazing that this big tough rough man was actually getting nervous watching her mood.

A while later the girl came back with their order and kept it beside.

" Is there anything else I can do for you Sir ?? " The girl asked looking at Sidharth who was engrossed in checking his own playlist.

And before Sidharth could reply, Shehnaaz interrupted getting irritated of her teeth show now.

" Nooo... " Shehnaaz said quite sternly faking a smiley face shocking Sidharth and the girl's face straightened on her tone.

" Alright mam !! ...  Our services are done here !! If you need something, please make a call. Hope you like the arrangements.. Have a nice time !! " She left wishing them.

As she left, Shehnaaz kept watching her going. And Sidharth kept looking at Shehnaaz. He so well know the tone even not having much experience with that. And keeping himself on her place helped him more to understand what was that. And it just felt so.. so special. He knew already but feeling the fact that she doesn't want to share even a splitsecond of his, made him feel so precious.

" Usko bura lag gaya ?? .. maine bahaut rude bola ?? " She asked breaking his trance still looking at the girl's retreating figure.

What was this girl ?? He could just never define her. A minute ago she was like she would kill her and now feeling bad over the tone she used for her. She holds every freaking shade. Or maybe her every shade comes out for him only !!

" Bola kyu firr ?? " He asked teasingly just to dig in.

" Ab wo bole jaegi to mai..  " She said like a baby who was guilty yet justifying her side.

" Mai.. ?? " He indicated to complete.

" Fir tu kya usse baat karne aaya hai kya ?? " She said again as a justification.

" To kya karne aaya hu ?? " He asked just to hear what he believes would sound equally beautiful as it felt but she took it other ways and got hyper in no time.

" Rukk firr use hi bulati hu.. Oyee heloo.. Sunn.. " She screamed calling him and he stood up in urgency.

" Ae baaiii... " He blurted holding her from waist and putting a palm on her mouth to stop her from screaming

( bai - women is the exact word but here, if you consider emotions behind calling this way then it is somewhat like when we say crazy woman, like said in a situation where woman is being difficult. )

She kept speaking.. no screaming in muffled voice owing to his palm on her mouth obstructing her voice.

" Izzat ka sab bhaji-pala !!! .. Jungle hai meri maa.. Awaaz sach me jayegi " 

" Mai tujhse pooch raha hu kya karne aaya hu usko kaha ghusa rahi hai ?? " He said clearing his point with his palm still on her mouth and holding her from waist.

And the next moment they both realized where they were !! ... They looked around and it just felt so... weird !! awkward !! .... In between that serene, beautiful surroundings, standing into a hot tub, such banter was the first thing that came out of them ??  Who would have imagined such a playschool scene at such a place and in such an experience which makes one go speechless if tried to define.  But then that's the most lively thing, the spine of their relationship. Why would place and time ever matter for that ??

And just as they realized, he released his hold but found her gaze consciously looking around.

" Koi nahi hai idharr...... Sivaaye mere !! .... " He said gaining her attention still holding a hand.

And then she got slightly baffled thinking now what ??  Obviously it was something new, something which needed a whole new level of comfort and it wasn't like they didn't had this comfort, it was just that they weren't in a situation ever before for this to be tested. She was lot more than just comfortable. Infact she was unknowingly happy with this constant escalation of the zone they were sharing but that's just not a thing to even mention how blushy and shy she was being.

" Wo dusra robe rakha hai.. " He informed indirectly that she can sit with the robe and she need not do anything that she wasn't okay with.. atleast now !!

And she didn't knew why but him doubting her comfort with him, his place for her, affects her crazily. It was like nothing matters in front of that but he should always know what spot he holds. And to be exact, no spot but he holds whole of her. Some of those comforts might be difficult to put in words but he should know.. and how was that even difficult ?? As she has devoted all of her to him. And because she has devoted herself to him in a way she never knew she could and she didn't knew was even possible so he should know this. But then, she never put all that in words for her ownself ever, as she was experiencing every escalation, it all was just happening unknowingly. So it was natural for him to be reluctant about that consideration even after knowing the truth somewhere. And maybe that's what makes firsts always special.

And that strong affect and urge just made her do something which was putting her in a zone simultaneously where she was doubting over herself doing that. She slided the robe down under a confidence that was so unreal for her to believe and he kept looking straight to avoid the consciousness she could have as much as he could but as her robe got collected on their entwined hands he looked at her and just her eyes were enough to put him at a place where he could think nothing but could just feel that the meaning of holding rights was way beyond what he knew till then.

And that's when he realized that he was giving random attempts to avoid her getting conscious. There are no ideal way to give comfort. There are just ideal reactions.. which completely depend on the action. Being in that situation he realized that it was equally, infact even more needed that if she was trying to push things ahead then he should try to push their normal, usual zone. If things were going level up, then he was supposed to make it look normal until they actually become normal.

And he looked at her rightfully, filling her in his eyes who looked super adorable in that knitted woollen cami top and shorts hugging her. But technically how was that a new thing. It felt so different like first time. Maybe just because of the surroundings !! She was already used to be like that in front of him. If not exactly still almost like that. And she kept replaying the fact to herself.

" Ye mujhe de aur Use le.. aur neeche baith pehle to.... nahi tere hot chocolate ke sath tune bhi jam jana hai.. " He said in playfulness taking the robe and pointing at flask mugs kept besides.

And his words helped her more like always !! And she bent down to take the flask mug.

" Baith ja pehle tasalli se... gir jayega na..  " He said scoldingly.

She sat down on her knees with legs folded back and she looked up making faces.

" Actor kyu ban gaya tu ?? Principal banta kahii ka.. Kasam se bacche aana hi band kardete... " She said like some genuine suggestion but god knows how got hyper the next moment.

" Maa - baap alag khush.. bhagwan jaane teacher strict hai sunke konsi khushi milti hai inko... aur baap ka to pata nahi.. maa to saari vaise hi khush chahe aap principal ho ya actor ya dhobi ho ya mochi ho..   " She kept on going looking at front as if there was literally someone she was talking to. 

This way of being talked was so different... so new !!   He was just finding it so cute. God knows if anyone in life has even believed of having this much authority over him, forget practicing. Nobody was even close to that ever. But here, in her case, he has given it all and more than that he was loving it absolutely. It just felt crazy. And he couldn't understand how that unknown or newly known mischievous side of him made him do something under that urge of giving her back over the level.

" Basss jaha jayegaa titliyan ready hi baithi hai.. ek ye hi akela hot bach gya hai na dunnn.....iyamm.. " Her words stucked in her throat the next moment as he held her arm and raising her up a little he yanked her towards him in a go.

And her heart throbbed escalating her beats like never before in no time. Maybe his action, maybe his eyes or maybe that bare form of him which was too much for her to even see for the first time and she was touching it already. She could already feel the tingles of the goosebumps and the intensity in his eyes was adding upto it, making it difficult for her to match but wasn't even allowing her to turn her eyes away.

His gaze even being so focused at her eyes, noticed the twitchings of her lips and her quivering cheeks which looked more puffed and each minute response of her body was making him lose track of every sane thought. And even though he only was responsible for the way her body was behaving, he was feeling a protective urge here.. an urge to comfort her here too. And with the urge he wrapped his hands along her waist as tight as he could but just not getting enough of the closeness and with those intense urges he pulled her shamelessly against his bare chest erupting volcanoes with the colliding bodies.

He was feeling a weird content jump inside watching her like this. Watching how he affects her was something which he could never explain to himself but would felt like he earned something really precious.. or maybe he actually did !! Only if he would be able to put it in words that he earned his girl in every possible way.. and that was the victory he was feeling.. That very moment his doubtfulness was vanished replacing and adding up to the authority.

And his arm around her waist pulled her closer screaming possession and he tilted her face a little more up to look deeper into her eyes and more to make her read his, to show that indication,  that suggestion, that request and the demand.. to take a step.. an advancement and come close.

And not able to hold that gaze she just hugged him while adjusting properly on his lap with a leg folded and other one wrapped around. She just doesn't know what to call what she was feeling ??.... The proximity wasn't new.. the touches weren't new.. the emotions weren't new.. but may be the intensity was !! May be the back thoughts were !! And maybe the possibility of them losing themselves in all ways were !!!

And she just snuggled into him and he smiled heartily at these antics of his shy baby, watching her being herself. And they stayed like that breathing in the their moment silently letting their audible breaths talk in that weird silence of the night which could be felt even through that soft music.

" Comfortable ?? " He asked caressing her hair holding back of her head against his chest

And she tilted her head a little back, making his already wild heart burst with her breaths falling on his lips.

" Baar baar ek hi cheez samjhaau mai ?? " She complained in a authoritative, warning tone in a low voice and the role reversal was not helping his already bursting heart.

This was the first time she used such tone.. such dominance in her tone made him feel something that was yet not much felt by him... feeling that he was owned... she barely ever showed that authority yet... and call crazy or whatever these mere glimpses of being owned make his insides up and down. Never in his life he even gave a thought that he would be owned... And here he was absolutely loving it. Love it is !!

And he just couldn't stop peeking deep into her eyes as they spoke volumes then, and she snuggled back demandingly. The demand was so clear. In her hold.. In her eyes !! Demand to hold her !! An attempt unsaid to herself, for her ownself to calm that heart by bringing him close, which was going wild only because he was close !!   

Her such demands were something which Sidharth felt like were enough to name one life for... They just make him feel like he got the best purpose for living. But like everytime, in attempt of calming her's she always leave his heart wild.

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They were sitting there silently. She kept hugging with her cheek pressed against his bare chest and he kept hiding her more and more,
gripping possessively, wrapping protectively and resting his cheeks against her head. He kept kissing her hair as if making her sleep and himself breathing in the moment closing his eyes and just not getting enough of pampering her.

" Meko samajh nahii aaraha hai.. "  She said suddenly.

" Kyaa ?? "

" Gaana.. "

" Acha....  Marathi hai.. kaise samajh aayega ?? "

" To samjhaa.. "

" Ha Isi liye to laya tha !! Yaha baith ke tuitions dene..  " He said mockingly.

" Gadha.. " She scoffed sitting straight and making faces.

" Acha.. aurr ?? " He said showing ineffectiveness crossing his arms.

" Pagal.. Idiot.. stupid.. mental.. " She continued to irritate him but instead getting herself.

" Acha.... Sab alag the ?? " He continued in a playful tone.

" Khadooos " She said like giving up on her attempts.

She said like accusing him.. Accusing for what ?? For not getting irritated when she was trying to !! Such a baby she was and he so wanted to eat her up and why would he not ??

He held her again crushing her against him.

" Tera khadoos " He said and took her cheek in between his teeth just a little less to call it eating her.

And he never ever saw himself doing something like that.. he never learnt these ways of cooeing. But does he even know what he considers that he doesn't know, he's best in doing that only. Or maybe just the knowledge of the fact that he do what he doesn't know for her only makes it beautiful beyond anything. Just two words and all the drama was out of the window. She looked at him grinning like a baby. And anything more doesn't even strikes to him as he just doesn't gets enough of this grinning baby at the first place.

Cooeing her more he pressed her cheeks inside with his palms.

" Yad laun thevlay " He cooed like a baby not sure whether complaining or confessing.
(Trans. - You have turned me crazy. )

It came out under the effect of language running back of the mind after listening to the song playing behind but didn't realized that it might have not reached where it was supposed to which got very clear the next second as her scrunched eyes dragged his attention. And that confused adorable being made him chuckle and he kissed her forehead out of adoration.

" Samajh nahii aaya parr sunke acha laga.. " She said giggling making him chuckle.

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Maa and Aunty were resting and Misha having no idea what to do came out of her room confusedly expecting to find Niti but didn't . But as she saw soft snowfall from the window she came out of the house in the little open platform in front and stood against the wooden railing facing the dense forest and the pine trees wrapping up in snow slowly and slowly. Even that slow process seemed interesting and soothing to her. May be compensating for the mind pacing showing no mercy. She tried engrossing her in that to divert her mind atleast for a while and was successful too after a while, that much that she failed to notice the faded sounds getting louder until the next words sounded clearer and alerted her.

She was already out of the tree house and saw Vardaan sitting on the stairs outside on a call unaware of her presence. And then heart has it's own wishes and own ways. She didn't even realized that in between those calculations and recalling, she was feeding her heart with what it wanted and already took few steps ahead towards him. But his next words fell louder in her ears or maybe they just sounded clearer and alerted her more.

" Yeahh sweety I'll be there by next morning... What are you worrying for ?? " She heard Vardaan speaking in a sweet promising tone who was coming up the stairs unaware of her presence.

" Damn why did I even waited this much.. I should have married you already !! " He said again sinking her already peirced heart.

" Whatt ?? This is no joke. Okayyy !! "

As the context kept getting clearer she just didn't wanted to hear anymore. She herself was surprised as she was the person who always wanted to know it all, however and whatever it is... She never thought herself to be in a situation where she would prefer ignorance more than truth.. where she would be so scared to get hurt. And hurt from what ?? Just hearing and with approval of what she has already assumed to be a truth.

She turned around to go back but he sensed her desperate attempt which was unsaid to herself of protecting her own heart.

" Misha !!! " Vardaan called her immediately and himself wondered at the urgency in his tone.

And she never knew that her own name could affect her like this. But right then it was a weird stinging she was feeling and there was no single reason behind.

He ended the call in the next second still looking at her.

She didn't had it in her to go to him. She just couldn't face him since she recalled with a sane mind that how she behaved. And above all, a super stupid attempt was going on of not going closer to him just to keep those emotions which she thinks she has subsided hidden, from no one but herself first. The desperation to stop that crazy heart from expecting unwantedly and protecting it from getting crushed later by that stupid mind was making her do every attempt even if she already knows that it was a failed one.

But then heart has it's own wishes and own ways. She didn't even realized that in between those calculations and recalling, she was feeding her heart with what it wanted and already took few steps ahead towards him. But his next words fell louder in her ears breaking her trance.

" Sit !! " He asked her and she sat down too.

They were sitting there silently, Vardaan confused with what to say and Misha nervous with what he would say ?? He called her.. he stopped her.. but why ?? He didn't knew. It just happened. Weird to say but his heart just didn't felt good watching her leave.. watching her going away.. Be it any way. But what he clearly knows to say was that he was absolutely hating her this way. This embarrassment, awkwardness is just not something Vardaan can relate her with.

" Can you stop stressing this much ?? " Vardaan said quite sternly just to pull her out of that embarrassment zone.

She looked at him and a mere look on his face made her realized how weirdly she was behaving to come out of another weird zone. And processing nothing, she started another attempt to show herself normal.

" Y.. yaha kyu baithe ho ?? " She asked just not getting any other words or maybe just fooling herself and gambling over the chances that he would tell her about the conversation.

" Acha lag raha hai bas... " He replied resting back on his elbows and looking up straight and she didn't knew what to say further.

" Yaha pe Northern lights ka view bahaut amazing hai. " Vardaan said just wishing to have a normal conversation with her.

She looked up too and nodded and realized in the next moment that how was he supposed to see that .

" You've been here earlier ?? " She said with a weird questionable tone making him look at her.

" Yeahh !! Once... But Lights nahi dekhi thi.. Alice ne pictures dikhaye the.. "

" Hmmm... " She was feeling horrible with the way her mind and heart was behaving on mere name of the girl who did nothing but just helped her like no one does.

" Andarr chale ??.. It's been whole day you are out. Rest for a while !! " He almost ordered.

He was affecting her in a way she never thought she would ever get and that too by doing nothing. Then how was she supposed to subside those eruptions when he would cosset her like this ??

And just feeling that particular moment, that particular moment which she felt like belongs to her, she obeyed him and held his hand which he was offering and got up and went inside while he was leading her.

" Wo... you have recent pictures of Alice na ?? " He asked just when she was about to enter her room breaking 'her' moment.

" Haa.. "

" Send me some good ones..." He asked and she didn't felt good first for this but felt worse for feeling that way..

" H.. haa... here.. " She said handing her phone opening the pictures.

Vardaan was selecting the pictures from Misha's phone unaware of her gaze on him. God knows what she was trying to find there. May be just an affirmation... for her heart... to affirm what her mind was screaming and get free of those expectations which still somewhere disgusts her.

" Yeah done... " She heard Vardaan who was forwarding her phone still looking at his own.

He didn't locked it and the picture was still being displayed. It had Shreya and Varun too but her eyes stucked only at the two it shouldn't. It was like another wicked attempt of her mind.

" You guys look good together !! " She blurted thoughtlessly and her voiced choked already with the crossing of words only.

It took sometime for her out of the blue words to get registered by his mind. And once getting it, Vardaan stood still trying to perceive the exact meaning of her words. It wasn't a thing he heard for the first time. But it was definitely the first time that it affected him. Such acknowledgements were very common where he work but it didn't felt like everytime. Anyone could say anything.. assume anything.. but she wasn't supposed to have any wrong idea. It just felt so wrong. But why did she said that ? How could she consider him with someone else so casually ?? Was his heart assuming it all wrong ?? Does it not matter to her ??

She just doesn't know why was she causing herself this pain. She was scared to hear from him but then she herself was making him someone else's with her words. Like preparing herself with an unapproved apparent truth to make herself understand that it wasn't her place which she unwantedly was expecting. And before he could even react she came into her room finding herself failing at her stupid attempt of showing indifference and maybe showing to no one but herself.

And then it striked that it was good if they let, one being fool at a time. Her choked voice, her slumped down energy, her not-meeting eyes, and then her leaving like this !!  Wasn't all this more than enough for him to pass what his heart was saying with distinction ??

He went to his room getting enough of this silence now. Enough of giving Misha her time to overcome that mess in her head. And she needs to be confronted now.
Whereas Misha stuffed herself into the quilts as if creating walls around, but how would it help when mess was still with her... in there !!!

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Lost in soaking in yet again a view to never forget, Sidharth and Shehnaaz were sitting there silently the same way.
She kept snuggling into him lazily like a baby just not getting enough and he rested his chin on her head holding her tight and covering her as much as he could.

And an unknown restlessness erupted inside her. Maybe because her subconscious mind reminded her of the churns she was feeling a while back owing to listening to the reason itself in the lyrics running behind. Those words were for her only.. that's exactly she expects and doesn't even know.. that was what exactly her unsaid wish was !!

And realizing that, her hold around him tightened. He absolutely love her as closer as possible.. but he didn't failed to notice that her hold was different. Same flesh yet the difference in touch was so clear to understand. It was something more than he could define. There was a lot more than just demand. She was hiding in him like a baby.. a baby seeking protectiveness and demanding some assurances which felt a lot to her to ask yet she wanted that as it felt like a necessity.

The churns in her weren't just settling. She knew all this was a lot. And all this was just so new for her to understand how to feel and how to make herself react ?? .... There was just no reason to have that sinking feeling. But may be just because everything was too good to even put in words, too dreamy, with just no faults was a reason enough to be scared.

And he couldn't understood her behaviour right then but like it was programmed in him, he kept rubbing his thumb over her waist he was holding and kept pressing her arm softly, being silent letting their audible breaths talk and comforting her as his priority.

And while pressing her arm he reached near shoulder but she felt a slight pain there which she didn't knew erupted when ??

She parted a bit and he opened his eyes too sensing her movement. She moved her arm, inspecting the pain confusing her.

" Kya hua ?? " He asked holding her shoulder somewhere understanding.

She unable to know herself started poking her own finger to know the exact place and he patiently waited. She registered his words seconds later.

" Pata.. nii.. " She replied.

" Dikhaa.. rukk.. " He said pulling her close softly removing her hand from her shoulder.

He took a closer look and he couldn't see properly but he could notice the slight different shade of the skin and he assumed it bluish in that doubtful darkness and he poked a finger softly inspecting it.

" Haa idharrr.. " She told as she felt the pain again.

" Kitna lagta hai bey tujhe !! Ek chot se pehle dusri tayyar hoti hai.. "

" Aisa hi hota hai.. ache logo ke hi peeche padte hai.. " She said becoming a victim while Sidharth just gave her an
' Are you for real ' look. Just a minute ago how he was assuming her silence. And in a minute she's back to herself. Only if he remembered then, that that's the magic he do to her.

" Kuch laga tha ?? "

" Subah paani se bahar aate hue lagi to thi barrff.. wo side wali.. parr halki si lagii thi yrr.... " She told like a kid looking at how much it hurted.

" Tabhi bola kyu nahi ?? " He scolded softly still looking at it.

" Tab to pata bhi nahi chala.. " She told in wonder.

" Thandii hai na.. ab pata chal raha hai barabarr ?? " He spoke being all focused on that mark only.

She was sitting on his lap with a leg folded and one strangling him. He held her close and taking a little bit of hot water he was massaging it softly rubbing his fingers, pouring hot water in between. And god knows what exactly made her shudder  ??  The hot comfort  ??  The cold waves  ??  His hold  ??  Or the way they were there, just the way...    

" Abhii theek hai.. " She told him after a while holding his hand which was rubbing her shoulder looking up at him lovingly.

Just watching them in their own moment was like looking at the whole purpose of their lives altogether. The purpose which puts her over the clouds and could push her beneath the ground if gets lost.

" Tu itna pyaar kaise karleta hai ?? " She asked lostly in amazement.

" Maii kartaa hu ?? " He asked back confirming her and she nodded in a  yess.

" Firrr bhi tera darr nahii jata... ?? " He said disappointingly.

She thought he was talking about the mess happened before coming here and they didn't even talked about it even once. She couldn't realized that he has sensed her anxiousness of a few minutes back too.

" To tu kitna gussa hua tha usdin.. sara din ni aaya... darr nahi lagega kya ?? " She replied justifying herself.

" Yaha aane ke liye kaam nipta raha tha isliye nahi aa paya tha... "

" Phone bhi nahii uthaya.. "

" Kyunki gussa tha mai !! Aurr tujhe dekh ke nahi reh paunga ye bhi pata tha mujhe.. "

" To kyu raha ?? " She asked stubbornly making him shut.

" Tu door jata hai to.. achaa.. nahiii lagta hai.. " She complained with a choking throat almost on the verge of crying with a bad attempt of battling the tears.

" You are still not confident for what I have for you... Tujhe lagta hai mai door jaa sakta hu ?? " He said quite disappointingly.

" Maine aisa nahii kaha... " She answered shrieking a little.

" Firr.. "

" Usdin dimag kharab ho rakha tha na "

He soon realized that he needed to had a grip as even after knowing nothing he knows that her unsaid life, her family issues were now troubling her and maybe the only thing troubling her. Big or not !! Bad or worst !! Whatever it was... Abandonment by parents was a reason enough to shake anyone's confidence in any good. And he didn't wished to ask her but he wanted to convey that they were above any judgements for the day whenever she wishes to talk about that.     

He cupped her face and bent down a little coming closer.

" You know I am not a lovey dovey person... parr ban jata hu na tere sath... infact kya ban gaya hu tere sath tujhe to pata bhi nahi hai..  "

" And why do you think I did this ?? Koi tag milne wala tha ya mahaan banna tha mujhe ??... Tu yaha aayi, mai jaanta tha ki do din me tere pas hounga... but still I felt failed to be not there when you were going... kyu ?? Itna impractical hu mai ?? Haa ??... Hu kya ?? . " She nodded in a no absentmindedly.

" Nahi naa ??  "

" But I got to know that I can be.. and that happens with. you. only... It would happen for you only.. now and ever !! "

" I feel beyond this bloody world when you have even a slightest smile because of me... because that freaking smile, that happy mood of yours feels like my necessity... I earn all this for myself... Every freaking thing matters in your case... I have lost myself that much. Do you understand that ?? "  He confessed.

And she just got lost. Just few words from him and every fear, every insecurity and every thought became senseless. It felt like why did they even came to her mind at the first place.

" Sab kuch khone ke liye nahi milta.. " He said rubbing her cheeks softly with his thumb and came more closer.

" Tujhe mai kahi jane nahi jane de raha.. jane de hi nahi sakta.. Ek teri duniya thi.. ek meri duniya thi.. ab ek hi duniya hai.. aur hamari hai !!   " He said with a dominance enough to shudder her but helping her simultaneously to believe that he won't let anything go wrong.

And no matter what agitation his words carry, it only calmed her heart like a cold wave of breeze. And she strangled him tight snuggling into him like he was her blanket.

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So this was it !! This part is way too deep and I got confused with so many ideas but finally I framed it. But this part will be continued in the next one. So you need to tell if I should keep it the same way ( Asking just for the continuity of this part not the story. ) ?? Then I'll edit it that way.

Also, I can only thank you guys for all the patience. But I am glad I chose that break. Although, it wasn't a choice but.. still.

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