" I want you !! Jussst you . " She replied like a stubborn kid and snuggled into his neck.

He couldn't help but smile contentedly at the emotions and the innocence of his little baby's words and sighed feeling his peace back into his arms. And Just a sweet giggle of her... just a few seconds of her touch and every spoiled cell of his brain was alive and fresh now.

" Acha now listen to me... " He said parting and making her stand straight again.

" You think this was sane ?? Ek time ka samajh aata hai gusse me nahi khaya... 2 din ?? Mai agar aise karu you'll be okay with that ?? Jhagda hua ya gussa kiya to khana nahi khana ye kaha ki samajhdaari hai ??? Jhagde to aage bhi honge... bahaut baar honge... to harr baar aise hi carelessness karegi ?? " He complained.

Her heart thumped with his words... she knew it was a way deep meaning she was taking out but she felt a different emotion when she got a glimpse of future in his words. Even though he mentioned fights only but still it affected her crazily.

" Mai sacchii bolu maine sirf kal nahi khaya mood kharab tha isliye parr raat ko maa ne khilaya tha utha ke kasam se... aur aaj sacchi merese kuch khaya nahi jaa raha... " She swore pinching her throat and pouted disappointingly at the last line.

" Kyu ?? " he asked seriously for her last statement.

" Patani bass bilkul bhi bhook hi nahi lagri... " She told him like a complain.

Out of concern his hand reached her forehead half- mindedly and she could notice the concern turning into a frown and then into a proper glare as his hand reached her throat.

" Siyaaapaaa " she murmured as just now she managed to explain him, her breakup with appetite.

She immediately kept her own hand on her forehead.

" Fever hai kya ??... Ohh... ye kab hua ? " She asked in a ultra innocent voice making him shake his head on her drama.

" Nautankiii... " He murmured and moved out of the car and moved inside the hospital dragging grinning Shehnaaz.

They reached and all the formalities were already done. They reached to the doctor's cabin to ask about the things needed to be taken care of...

" Sab kuch okay hai you don't worry... Abhi wo thodi slow hai with speaking and body movements to 5-6 session rakhe hai physiotherapy ke baki ghar pe light movements karengi to muscles will gain the strength soon... 10-12 din me normal ho jaega with diet and all this ... Hath ka plaster bhi 4 din rehne dete hai physio ke liye aayenge tb hata denge.... stomach weak hai to solids nahi de sakte ek dm se... to stick to diet chart atleast 1 week ... " Doctor explained.

" Wo travel kar sakti hai ?? " Misha's parents asked.

" Vaise wo theek hai parr I am just saying ki completely fit hojae to...uncomfortable hoga you know... That's it... baki I'll keep taking the report and keep telling you "

" Okay doctor thankyou so much !! "

They came out of doctor's cabin. Others move towards Misha's room while Sidharth held Shehnaaz's hand to stop her and she looked back.

He already took the doctor's appointment for her moved towards the room told.

It took them an hour to get done with all this while Vardaan had already moved towards home with Misha and her mother as her father went to pune for some important work.

Sidharth and Shehnaaz reached too sometime later and everyone was already there to meet Misha.

" Hey budddy !! You okay ?? " Sidharth asked Misha giving her a side hug bending to the sofa.

" Yeah... where were you both ?? " Misha asked.

" haa... wo.. kuch kaam tha.. " Sidharth replied.

" Acha mujhe nikalna hoga... You guys carry on... " Sidharth told them looking at the time in his phone.

" Noo... wait yrr bhaii... bs thodi der... " Shreya squealed.

Shreya comes with a cake and kept it on the table. Misha looked at the cake and took a few seconds to register that it was for her... it was the celebration of her wellbeing... she felt so overwhelmed. She felt so good of herself that these many people consider her as their own even when she met most of them for the first time that day. This happiness of acceptance from strangers was very different and very beautiful.

But something striked her mind when Ankush forwarded her knife and everyone got confused as she held Ankush's hand....

And she pulled him to her other side where Shreya was standing and called her close and looked at Vardaan who was in front of her sitting on his knees setting the candles on the cake and smiled at him. Vardaan told her about Ankush & Shreya in the morning and she realized that they must haven't even got time to celebrate so she wanted them to do this for her... She wanted this celebration to be theirs as a gift.

She pulled them down softly with the only strength she could apply then and made them sit. And handed them the knife while Shreya gave her a reluctant look as it all was planned for Misha.

" Pleassseeee !! " Misha pleaded as she genuinely wanted to be a part of their celebration.

Ankush & Shreya cut the cake and fed each other and Shreya was just so overwhelmed not sure for what exact reason... that everyone present here was so happy for them ?? ... that all of their fear was for nothing ?? ... that from this exact moment she could just shout her love ?? Doesn't know for what exactly but she was happy... crazily happy !!

" Oye Monster kabse rone laga ?? " Ankush said playfully wiping the lone tear dropped from her eyes as he fed Shreya and he hugged her from side.

In each celebrations Shreya was the one who would initiate all the crazy stupid stuff and this emotional sight was just rare. Everytime Shreya had the thoughts about when her family would get to know, all she could think about was their reactions so this part was never into her imagination that is why it just felt over the clouds. She just can't thank god enough to bless her with such angelic people and so many of them.

After all the cake programme the ladies were in kitchen and Sidharth moved towards Shehnaaz's room to wash hands.

From the time they met doctor he didn't talked to her much.

As he came into the room, he saw Shehnaaz in the room and he came closer.

" Thak gayi hai ?? Sona hai ?? " He asked softly.

" Nahiii... " She replied slowly.

" Theek hai tu ?? Ya medicine abhi du ?? " he asked again and she nodded in a no.

He waited for her to say something as he knew something was there in her mind.

" Tu gussa nahi hai na... " She asked him  and he exhaled a deep breath to relax his mind and took her hands in his.

" Naaz dekh... Tu mujhse sab share nahi kar sakti ye soch ke mujhe khud pe frustration hota hai.... rakhta hu mai ye expectation ki tu mujhse sab aake share kare.. mujhe nahi pata sahi hai ya nahi parr hai ab kya karu ??? "

" Doctor ne bola tu stress le rahi hai... parr mera tere sath hone ka fayda kya hai jab mujhe ye bhi nahi pata ki tu pareshan hai... I feel like I failed... " He let out his side too.

And her eyes welled up feeling irritated of herself that she made him think that about himself.

" Tchh... Naaaz !! " He sighed and sat down on the bed and made her sit on his lap.

" Sorryyy... " she mumbled.

" Kisliye ?? "

" Tu aise feel mat karr... ye sach nahi hai tu bhi jaanta hai... tu sath hota hai to mujhe lagta hai mai sab jeet gayii to tu kaise fail hogya firr..  " She replied sobbing.

" Parr tujhe pareshan dekh ke normal kaise rahu mai ??? "

" Mai ab pareshan nahi hu sacchii... Tujhe na pata nahi hai ki tune mujhe Misha ke liye kitna strong rakha... sacchi Sidharth parrr mujhe darr lagta tha Sidharth bahaut zada lagta tha... ye sab us vajah se hai... "

" Mujhe pata hai... parr... "

" Sidharth mai jab tak yaha hu na... aise... mujhe aage peeche ka bhi kuch dhyan ni aata to mai pareshan kya hi houngi ?? " She spoke pointing at his arms.

" Mai ye sab janta hu baby... tu mere pas hai tab to mai dekh lunga... par mere peeche kya hota hai ye to tujhe batana padega na mujhko ?? mai bas ye samjhana chahta hu... " He cleared.

" Mai samajh gayi... par abhi sab itna acha chal raha hai... mujhe ye sab khushi apni lag rahi hai... Mujhe ye Khushiyan jeeni hai Sidharth abhi... "

" Fine... Abi baat nahi karni koi ni... bas tu kisi problem... "

" to Rab se pehle tera naam dhyan aayega mujhe... " She said cutting his words and adjusting her face into his neck.

And his breath stucked in the throat with her words. What was this girl ?? How easily she gave away every freaking high to him so casually ?? How come she comes up with such combination of words just like that which manages to shake his heart wilder than ever before .

Feeling her breath he closed his eyes breathing deep because his heart was so swelled with her words already that the normal breathing was just not possible and her lips on his neck were making it more difficult. He unknowingly tilted his head a little back a little later and opened his eyes to see her face. She looked at him and the intensity of his eyes was enough for making her view dizzy except him.

His other hand which subconsciously was at a side moved up to cup her face properly to hide her as much as possible. As his palm reached her jaw his eyes fell on his fingers filled with cake and with no proper thought... no further intention he just rubbed his fingers down her cheek while his thumb brushed her lower lip. Moving closer he kept his parted lips on her cheek and then closed them giving a slight tease of his tongue which happend naturally and took her cheek in between his teeth pulling it softly. He moved back to see her eyes closed, a cheek wet with a slight tint of redness and her quivering chin and lower lip
He just realized his ignorance towards his first favourite of her's ... that mole on that chin... where all these darings and mischiefs started...

He again moved ahead while his fingers pressing her cheeks inside and he pecked the mole on chin softly as if apologizing for the ignorance and with no proper thought, he moved a little up to her open lips due to cheeks pressed inside and took her lower lip in a go, pressing it hard with his own and pulled it sucking it clean... Now this part was completely out of syllabus for both of them right then... He doesn't think it was even there on any part of his brain... And within those few seconds she just collected what happened and he just couldn't understand whether to wonder or appreciate his mind ?? What creative urges he was even getting ??

Before she could give him any look he got up still holding her with waist and as soon as she stood on floor he moved out with a stupid smile. And she could feel the heat on her face and her facial muscles which were officially in his control now.

She came out too in a few minutes and looked around reflexively to see what everyone was doing. Maa, Sarita Aunty and Misha's Mom were in kitchen, Rest of the gang was sitting on the sofa talking... And thumpings of her heart felt a little better only to get more wild finding Vardaan just besides giving them a grinning look. Shehnaaz looked away getting nervous with his looks while Sidharth looked at him questionably...

" Whattt ?? " Sidharth asked a little annoyed with his expressions.

" Nothing.... Hand wash karne gaya tha na tu ??? par shayad paani nahi aa raha hoga !!.. " Vardaan faked wonder pointing at Sidharth's fingers and handing him the tissue paper and he cleaned his hand.

" Bhai cake idhar bhi lag gaya hai... Sana saaf karna zara... " Vardaan said handing her the tissue paper while Sidharth frowned that what's wrong with him as he clearly remembers that the room's door was locked when they were inside.

Shehnaaz confusedly and hesitantly took the tissue and looked where Vardaan was pointing. And as her eyes fell she just felt like finding a place to hide herself. Reflexively, she rubbed his neck so harsh like she would peel it off. Her baffled face and nervous actions made Sidharth confused and his eyes fell on the tissue paper... The red-pinkish god knows what colour on the tissue paper. The similar one to... to... Yes... the one on her lips... How ?? When she hugged !! ... And he just didn't wanted to turn now... just didn't wanted to see anyone... But he had to... and he turned his face as if so what ? That's normal !!

But for his goodluck... no one else except Vardaan atleast saw what actually was there on his neck. Although they had idea but benefit of doubt he would thank to... And before Vardaan would say a word further he smacked his head.

" Badi achiii si smell aari hai... phooool wagerah rakhe hai kya koi ?? " Sidharth asked dramatically looking around putting an arm around Vardaan's shoulders.

" Nahii too... " Shreya answered seriously looking around.

" Nahiii ??? achaaa... patani firrr... " Sidharth again spoke dramatically and Vardaan just pleaded him with eyes to shut up and Sidharth moved away giving a smirk.

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" Maa... " Sidharth called entering into the kitchen.

" Haa bacche "

" Mai nikalta hu ye lo... " Sidharth said handing her a packet.

" kya ?? "

" Medicines hai aapki laadli ki... wo khud dhyan ni degi aap dekh lena.. "

Sidharth told which one to give after dinner and came out of kitchen bidding a bye to the ladies and came near the door and stopped again.

" Naaaz.. " he called and rest everyone looked at him. They were actually getting amazed as even now they hadn't noticed them clearly expressive or even talking much in front of others but it was a good growth.

Shehnaaz reached near the door where he was peeking inside like a kid waiting for her to come.

" Mai samajh gayi hu Sidharth... tu tension mat le... aur meko koi stress bhi nahi hai.. teri kasam... " She said as soon as she reached the door.

He smiled as he found the words genuine.

" Abi man nahi bhi kare to bhi khana thoda please... Aur medicines dhyan se... please take care of your health baby... "

" Okay... " she smiled cheekily and he kissed her forehead adoring his cute panda.

He turned to go and found Niti standing there smilingly.

" Are tune aana tha to hamare sath aajati na... " Sidharth asked her as she also came from the hospital.

" Nahii wo kal jiski shift hai use kal off chahiye tha to exchange karlia... aapke jate hi bola usne mujhe... "

" Acha... jaa andar sab yahi hai... Mujhe jana hai kaam hai... " Sidharth told hugging her and moved towards the lift while Shehnaaz get her inside.

" Guyss.. I think we should come later... Misha needs to rest. " Vardaan suggested.

" Noo... I mean agar kaam nahi ho ro ruk jao... Acha lag raha hai... " Misha requested them.

" Fine then... Bedroom me chalte hai... You lay down comfortably and baatein bhi ho jaengi... " Vardaan suggested again and helped Misha to get up and took her slowly to the room.

They all had dinner together as Misha insisted and they all were enjoying the company... and Maa made Shehnaaz eat in front of her and then gave her medicines.

" Sana... Are you okay !! " Niti asked quite confusedly.

" Haa... bss halka fever.. " Shehnaaz replied.

Shehnaaz said that she'll take care of Misha at night while both the mother's clearly denied.

" Bilkul nahi... ye sath me rahi to bas so lia in dono ne... teri bhi tabiyat theek nahi hai na... Mai ruk jaungi Misha ke pas... " Misha's mom said.

" Mummy prr... " Misha tried to argue.

" Sahi bol rhi hai wo... Apni health theek karo pehle aur tu... chal mere sath soyegi... " Maa almost ordered.

And took her with them and others almost laughed looking at them as it looked like kids being dragged to home forcefully while playing.

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Sidharth reached home in the early hours of morning and as per his habit he went to Maa's room. He saw his lifelines sleeping hugging each other. And the pillow crushing between them which Shehnaaz was hugging as life. He wasn't sure if he wanted to curse the pillow more to be there or wanted to feel pity more looking at how it was crushed. But he smiled realizing what she was trying to find in sleep... the peace... which she doesn't look for other days... maybe because it was already present... in him... just like he finds his in her.

He bent down and pecked Maa's forehead who was sleeping on the side he was standing and then Shehnaaz's forehead, keeping a knee on the bed and then pulled up the quilt covering her as she likes and patted her head softly as that was the most he could do to make her comfortable at that time. He felt some movement by Maa and caressed her hair with other hand lovingly and then he came out.

Maa opened her glistening eyes as he left and looked towards the door and then at Shehnaaz and just couldn't form any prayer, any blessing, any gratitude or appreciation. She already knew he was the best son... infact he was best in any relation... but watching him feel so much for his girl was something beyond words and amazingly she was more happy than scared at his emotional investment as she trusts that he invested those feelings where he would get it back in folds.

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Next morning was sunday. Sidharth woke up late and Shehnaaz, Shreya and Niti went to shopping for Raghav's wedding. Sidharth called Shehnaaz when he woke up, not getting any response he called Shreya and then finally Niti.

" Yeah bhai ??? Niti answered.

" Ye dono mental kidhar hai ?? Phone uthane ko nahi hota inse ?? "

" Bhai they are trying dresses. "

" Okay kitna time lagega tumko ?? " He asked.

" Abi to aaye hai bhai... "

" Okay Uhh... Niti ek kaam karegi.. "

" Haa bolo.. "

" Woo check that Shehnaaz doesn't exhaust herself... wo excitement me bhul jati hai tu please thoda dhyan dena.. remind her of medicines... " Sidharth asked her.

" Haa mai dhyan rakhungi.. "

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They shopped and get back home in the evening. The first thing she wanted was her Sidharth's arm around her but he was not home. He went to some nearby cafe for a meeting for the promotional events to be conducted.

She was sad but a sudden idea of cooking for him popped out of nowhere... The thought was sudden and this urge was new too... She had cooked earlier... he had food cooked by her many times but this was intentional.

After convincing Niti and Shreya they agreed on the condition that they will help. They chatted and cooked and then went to Shreya's room to discuss about Raghav's wedding.

They were discussing and having good time but Shehnaaz's half mind was counting every second. And she couldn't even call it a wait as she didn't even knew when he was going to be back. She was used to be in this house with him all the time and his absence was constantly reminding that she wanted to hug him so bad.

Maa came to Shreya's room...

" Tum log kab aaye ?? " Maa asked.

" Kab ke aa rakhe hai... koi tha hi ni ghar pe... " Shreya replied.

" Tune medicine li dopeher ko ?? " Maa asked Shehnaaz.

" Haa maa leli thi.. "

" Sidharth ke sath kuch guests aa rahe hai !! " Maa told them.

" Hein !! Bhai to kabhi nahi laate... " Shreya wondered.

" Haa... unhone khud hi invite karlia khudko to ab mana thodi karega... "

" Mai ghar jaati hu " Shehnaaz said getting up hurriedly.

" Aap ghar me hi ho... " Shreya said not liking Shehnaaz's words.

" Shreya !!.. Sourav bhi co-producer hai.. usdin ki party me se koi hua to pehchan bhi lenge... meko Sidharth ke liye koi panga nahi karna.. " Shehnaaz tried to explain her.

None of them felt good with this but they knew this was needed. Regardless of how impractical the attempt may sound but the reason behind it was totally valid and they all knew and agree.

Before she could move out doorbell rang and guessing who it could be they all looked at each other.

" Mai yahi room me baithi hu... aap log jao... " Shehnaaz said and they moved out having no option.

Pintu had already opened the door and Sidharth was in with Sourav Dixit, who met Shehnaaz in the party of his Company's anniversary and was the co-producer of Sidharth's web series, the director and some co-actors were there too.

They already settled in the living room... They chatted and discussed while Sidharth's eyes crave for a single look of her. Even though he knows that he doesn't want her to be there right then but what could he do to his heart's cravings ??

They were having dinner when Sidharth not very sure but still got the idea that this was a third taste of food in his house. He knows Pintu's and Maa's taste in almost every dish but still whether the assumption is correct or not he ate just for name sake with others.

" You have got a great cook Sid !! " One of the guest said as a compliment but Sidharth even he wasn't sure yet but he didn't liked that.

" Khana meri beti ne banaya hai... " Maa answered and Sidharth looked up at Maa as he knew Shreya never cooked all these dishes ever so this much perfection in first attempt was difficult to believe.

Everyone else looked at Shreya in appreciation while Shreya just doesn't know what to say so she smiled awkwardly.

Everyone was done with dinner while Sidharth did the formality to eat and the guests left. Sidharth first reached to Shreya's room as he saw Pintu taking a plate there but he saw Shehnaaz sleeping and the food kept there as it is.

Everyone else left to their rooms and Sidharth woke her up to take her to his room and told Pintu to bring the food to his room.

Sidharth was restless inside. This was not liked by him. She doesn't deserve this hiding game but he was saving her from worse. He can't trust anyone with personal information... He knew how vulnerable she would be to the filth as soon as she comes in everyone's eyes. He know how much hate even his co-actresses gets just because his every supporter wants him to share screen with someone of their choice. And here, he was sharing his life with her. He knows how many people will make assumptions on their relationship a part of their business by judging on every least factor. It's not that he fear them but what's wrong if he doesn't want her to be exposed to that negativity unnecessarily ??

She was walking holding his hand with closed eyes with her swinging body which he noticed and chuckled unknowingly and realized that he wasn't wrong. This innocence shouldn't be tempered. What they have in between, they are enough to cherish it. The world doesn't needs to know... at least now.

He looked around and no one was there... Everyone was in their rooms and Pintu left keeping the plate in his room. He bent down and picked her up in his arms and her eyes snapped open with no trace of sleep anymore. She was about to speak but her mind reminded her to look around first and then she looked around and huffed in relief.

" Kya karra hai tu uthaya kyu ?? " She whispered subconsciously sensing the silence of night.

" Jis speed se tu chal rahi thi... pahauchne se pehle vapis aana padta breakfast ke liye... " He said playfully sounding like a complaint.

" Acha abi utaar... koi dekhega to... "

He heard but chose to ignore... he was liking it... no loving it... he was loving every possible thing which escalates his emotions in no time.

They reached and he removed his hand which was holding her thighs in a go scaring her and she screamed with the fear of falling down and he laughed maniacally looking at her scared face annoying her more and she pushed him showing her anger and moved towards 'their' corner of the room stamping her feet making him laugh more.

He went behind taking the plate and saw her lying on the balcony bed poking her face into the pillow. Damn she was such a kid sometimes. He bent down and held her through waist and picked her up horizontally like she was weightless keeping her against his waist for a support but looked funny as her head and and legs hung down loosely.

" Ahhahaa... Sidharth kyu kar raha hai ?? " She whined.

He held her tight and pulled down from the bed and made her stand on the floor and himself sat down on the bed but before she could say anything he pulled her and made her sit on his lap and the anger or better to say fake anger... grumpiness.. all replaced within seconds with a blush which needed her to bit her own cheeks insides to control.

" Khana tune banaya tha ?? " He asked making a morsel keeping the plate besides him.

She just looked at him as she herself forgot that she prepared food for him but now she wanted to know if he liked or not .

He looked up at her questioning eyes and smiled understanding her question.

" Khud banaya aur bina kha ke so rahi thi ?? " He asked putting the bite in her mouth.

And put the next one in his own.

" Tune khaya nahi ??? " She asked him finding him eating.

" Dobara khana hai... itna tasty hai.. tujhe dikkat hai ?? " he complained like a kid.

She smiled listening to him... No not the compliment...but the part where he lied ... she knew the tone when he try to hide his thoughtful gestures... She understood that he wanted to eat with her.

After eating they were laying silently looking up to the hanging illuminating stars on the ceiling.

" Kya soch raha hai ?? " She asked as she sensed that his silence wasn't peaceful but thoughtful.

" Kuch nahi... " he replied in a straight tone.

She raised her head turning herself towards him and looked at him to speak up as she somewhere knew what it was related to...

" Tujhe shikayat nahi hai mujhse ?? " He asked finally as even if he tried to avoid but he needed answers to these questions.

" Shikayat ?? Tujhse ?? " She asked getting genuinely wondered.

" Aaj sabko milwaya... tujhe nahi !! " he tried to make her understand the subject.

Resting on her forearm, she cupped his face with other hand making him look towards her.

" Pehli baat ye ki mujhe pata hai tu jo karega usse behtar mere liye kuch nahi hoga... to isse aage MUJHE sochna hi kyu hai... aur aakhri baat ye ki mujhe kon kaise jaanta hai isse ghanta farq nahi padta mujhe... tu kya chahta hai ?? tu kya maanta hai isse farq padta hai mujhe.... to iske aage TUJHE sochna hi kyu hai ??? " She explained him with utter soft voice filled with love as she still wonders that men like him exists.

Men like him who just don't decide and throw their decisions... Who are strong to decide and soft to considers others too...

She cleared his guilt within seconds and he just couldn't think how to thank his stars enough for giving her to him. This woman just don't want anything except him. He knows the trend of showing off of even relationships whereas this pure soul doesn't even ask for what's her right.

This immense trust makes him think as what exactly he did to get this ???

" Tujhe sabse chupa ke rakhna chahta hu... apne pas... idharrr... hamesha... Ye chahta hu... "  He said pointing at his heart and pulled her softly to him resting her head on his chest making her feel his thumping heart " Aur iska haq sirf tera hai ye maanta hu mai... " He spoke pointing to his heart in a voice which thumped her heart .

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