They all fell into a good long conversation... while Sidharth left to get ready for his shoot and Varun went to Sana's flat...

" Tu yaha ?? " Shehnaaz asked.

" Aapko lene aaya tha... chalo sath me lunch karenge... bag dedo mujhe..  " Varun said taking her bag.

Shehnaaz always finds Varun really cute. He was that small loving kid of the family who was just ready to help out everyone. She doesn't know why but whenever she sees Varun she feels a proud feeling for Sidharth... Knowing that Sidharth played a fatherly role in Varun's life... he was responsible for Varun being how he was... He managed the kid in Varun to remain as it is but taught him the mature aspect of life too in the toughest situations of both of their lives... And then the best of all, these both the men were raised by a women she adore to no end... So they had to be this amazing.

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They all had lunch together... Raghav and Ankita were supposed to leave a little later...

" Bye Shehnaaz !!! Shadi me zaroor aana... " Raghav said smilingly.

" And as my friend... get that fit in your mind... " Ankita warned while hugging her.

Shehnaaz looked at Maa who was still busy in kitchen.

" Maa ye sab kya hai itna ??? " Shehnaaz asked Maa who was coming out of kitchen with packets and boxes.

" Ye sab snacks rakh bag me... aur ye ready-to-eat bhi rakh... khana time pe khana... koi carelessness nahi... aur Woolens liye tune ??? Waha zada thand hai na..  " Maa continued her instructions stacking her bag with food items... "

" Maa sirf 4 din ke liye jaa rahi hu... aur kapde to wahi hai... "

" Aisa lagra hai Maasi vidaai karwa ke bhej rahi hai... " Raghav said jokingly.

" Saale vidaai karwake LAAYENGI " Ankush mumbled standing at the back with Sidharth and Vardaan.

" Patani bhej bhi sakti hai... " Vardaan replied mumbling.

" Hein ?? " Ankush got confused and even Sidharth had to give a reaction and looked at him.

" Dekh ke to aisa hi lag raha hai ki ise damaad banaengi... " Vardaan said turning his face towards Ankush and pointing at Sidharth who was standing between them.

" Ho gayi bakwas ?? Chale ab ?? " Sidharth said to avoid them as he knew he won't be able to control his expressions for long.

" Chale ?? Late hojaega !!! " Sidharth said coming close to her.

" Tu bhaga de mujhe " Shehnaaz scoffed looking at him with scrunched eyes.

" Chal fir vapis andar...nahi jana kahi " Sidharth said pointing inside like ordering a kid.

" Paapi aadmi... " She said moving out twisting her lips in anger making everyone laugh.

" Tum log chalo... mai peeche peeche aata hu... " Ankush said as they stood in front of the lift.

" Kyun ?? " Sidharth asked.

" Tu gaadi se to nahi utar sakta... Use entrance gate tak mai drop kar dunga " Ankush said and Shehnaaz felt awkward that he was troubling himself for her.

" Airport mere raste me hi padega... " Ankush said again before Shehnaaz could say anything.

She screamed a goodbye to everyone standing at the lift door waiting for it to open and it was so amazing that everyone was there to see her off... Everyone was taking extra efforts for her... She could clearly see, she could clearly feel that she mattered to them... that she held a certain place. These little things were making her feel such big emotions with such an intensity that she could feel it's physical impact too..

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They first went to the hospital....

As she entered Misha's room her breath stucked watching Misha with her eyes open after so many days... She goes close to her and couldn't stop herself from crying... Misha was raising fingers constantly...

" Mai Delhi jaa rhi hu... abi kuch din nahi milungi... Tu thoda zada karr.. " Shehnaaz said like a simple demand and nurse, Sidharth and Ankush looked at her unbelievably.

" Aaj Sunflowers !!! " Shehnaaz said quite surprisingly.

" koi visitor rakh ke gaya mam ye bhi... hamne nahi rakha... " Nurse replied immediately defending herself.

" Are nahi... baki kisi flower se koi problem nahi hai... par rakhta kon hai ?? " Shehnaaz asked to which Nurse had no clue.

" Acha... tera samaan yahi le aau ki Nishant ko dedu... teri yaad rahegi kuch uske pas... " Shehnaaz asked Misha to irk her...

She was constantly talking with her.. and could see Misha's movement in legs...

" Mam inka improvement kaafi acha hai... Normal stimulatus par bhi reactions aa rahe hai... aur inki injuries ki healing bhi kaafi achi hai... will power bahaut bada factor hai... aap log aake milte hai baat karte hai samajhiye isi se theek ho rahi hai itni jaldi... " Nurse told them and they smiled at her.

After sometime, they moved towards Airport....

" Delhi wale flat ka address text kar... " Sidharth said with his focus on road.

She looked up at him once and she didn't knew what exactly but she felt a rush in her mind and heart. She texted him.

" Waha wale office ka number... " He said again as he heard the receiving tone of the previous message and she did it again.

" Kisi neighbor ka number aur flat ke owner ka bhi... " he said again with the other message sound.

She looked up at him... may be again making herself believe that this man exists for real... She wasn't expecting this... She wasn't used to someone thinking 'this' deep to keep a track of her safety. She herself never thinks this much and he as always by doing nothing special... just something natural... proved that he was more true to her soul than she herself was...

" I'm telling you again... agar kuch bhi issue hai to you are going to call me immediately... " He almost warned.

" Sidharth mai jang ladne nahi jaa rahi hu... "

She knew that the day was carrying a lot in itself... He was going to see his old life again... People will see the on-screen Sidharth again... She knew that nervousness at back of his mind was adding up by her going... but It was other way around, her going was added up by that back mind nervousness.

They reached airport. They found it weird that even after knowing that it was a matter of few days, still they were finding it so difficult, they could talk whenever they want, yet they just didn't wanted to leave each other... They had logics but they weren't just working.

Sidharth parked the car at a safe distance and had the windows covered with sun shades...

Shehnaaz turned towards Sidharth and bent to cup his face He was there holding his breath like he was waiting for that only. As soon as he felt her touch, he could feel that magic happening inside... he literally could feel getting calmer like she was some drug.

" Sab theek hoga... par uske liye pehle tu theek ho... " She said like cooing a baby and pressing his cheeks against her palm.

" Tu moon hai na mera... sabse beautiful... sabse bright... " She said again and he just don't understand how it was working on him and he was loving it.. being treated like a baby.

And his mind was replaying the word 'mera'.. He doesn't know if it was actually that beautiful or just felt beautiful to him whenever she would name him as her's... No matter how many times and how many ways, it was only more beautiful each time.

She looked at him filling her eyes with him, already missing his smile which brings one to her face too and not much aware that she was the major source of that.

As the pressure of her palm against his cheek lessened and she distanced a little, he held her wrist pulling her back closer... moved his hand back of her head for support and kissed her forehead as strongly as he could not knowing what he wanted to deliver with that... but whatever it was... was very strong.

That kiss gave her the confidence to do what could help her to step out and she pressed her palms more which were on his cheeks making his lips open a little.. He was looking so adorable that she so wanted to eat him. She planned to give a small peck but his hold on her head let them lingered against each other strongly and quite longer... She came out in an instant leaving him smiling at himself and chuckling at her.

Ankush dropped her till the point he could and came back hugging her.

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As she went inside the Airport, Sidharth left to his set and Ankush moved to the restaurant.

Although he worked in the music video recently but still everything felt quite strange to him. A little anxiety was hitting him with everything... His phone  beeped as he was sitting in the meeting held before to give directions to everyone.

" Oye star !!! Chill maar.... " He saw the message and he smiled faintly controlling it as much possible.

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Few hours later,

He came back giving his last shot for the day and he was feeling good doing what he feels like run in his blood. He checked the time.

" She must have reached by now" he thought and picked up his phone but before that he received a call and the name managed to create a havoc , besides the fact that he met her just a  few hours back...

" Pahauch gayi ?? " he asked as soon as he picked up the call.

" Haa... Ghar pahauch gayi... Airport se call kiya tha par tune uthaya nahi.. "

" Shot thoda extend hogya aur phone yahi rakh diya tha.. Dhyan rakhunga aage par agar na utha paya to kisi ko to kar diya kar.. " He said moving towards his car.

" Ha Maa ko bata diya tha aur Ankush ka bhi phone aagya tha... Tu free hogya ?? " She asked.

" Haa... Mere sirf 2 hi shots the... ghar ja raha hu.. "

" Kaisa raha sab ?? "

" Bahaut acha... Matlab bata nahi sakta... khudko wo screen pe dekh ke alag sukoon milta hai... " He said getting  excited over her question and stopped to answer standing against the car.

" Bas fir... usse zada kya chahiye... aur sab acha hoga... I believe you my star.. " She said giggling at last.

" Tere belief se mujhe believe hota hai... My Sun... " He said with a wide grin finding himself unbelievable using these cheesy words... God !! If not used with her, he would have killed himself for this.

" Tune us din star bola tha... " she said and he chuckled at her babyish complaint and he could easily imagine the scrunched eyesbrows and that pouty face of her's on the other side.

" Sun bhi to star hai gadhi... biggest star... source of light of the moon... just like you are to me... " he said the romantic words like some scientific theory and vice versa.

He himself frowned at his words. Damn from where these words were coming ?? Does he knew these words ?? Maybe he would have heard them in some movie or something... But how come they exactly fit for them... She was actually what he said she was.

She felt so special... no matter how many times he tells her, her place.. every time it's special and every time it creates the same eruption inside her. .. He was comparing her to such big things... It all felt so unreal that from being nothing to anyone she was made to feel like being everything for him.

" Khana order kardia hai... Fresh hoja tab tak aajaega... "

" Sidharth mai karleti na... "

" Kal se karliyo... "

" Theek hai ghar jaa araam se... bye "

" Bye.. "

They ended the call and Sidharth started to drive towards home with a smile... Day was better than he was expecting... Everything was overall good at work and he got adjusted there soon... The crew was known to him and he was overwhelmed to see their happiness to see him back... He didn't interacted much with the co-stars... just a professional interaction...  Some disturbing faces were there too... Every word they spoke and he would think about how his Naaz's each word felt like reviving him... every fake laugh would remind him how his naaz's cute giggles lit up him and his day... Their tip-top dressings would remind him how his Naaz roam around in pajamas yet he just fall harder for her each second.

But while sharing his day with Shehnaaz when he recalled his time at work, he felt better about it... And sharing his day with her gave a weirdly amazing vibe to him.

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He reached home and went to Maa directly. This was a thing for them even two year ago... So this wasn't going to change... He talked to her about his day for sometime..

" Shreya kaha hai ?? " Sidharth asked coming to the dining table.

" Uske school friend aaye hai koi unko milne gayi hai dinner ke liye.. " Maa replied.

" Gaadi to neeche khadi hai.. wo kaise gayi ?? " Sidharth asked again.

" Uske friends ne hi pick karlia tha... "

" Parr late hogaya hai... vapis kaise aayegi... "

" Bhai mai chala jaunga lene... " Varun said.

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Ankush was in his restaurant going through some files... moving to and fro across his work table...

In a matter of seconds his file was snatched and before he could acknowledge what happened he was turned and pushed making him slump down on the couch.

He would have literally slapped the person if he hadn't seen the face on the right time...

" Wh... what is wrong Shrey ?And what are you doing here at this time ?? "

Shreya was already mad and his question just pushed her again.

" Nahi aana chahiye ?? Very nice !! Khudko to kuch padi nahi hai... aur Mai aagayi to kyu aayi ?? "

" No no no... Shrey... wrong words... I'm sorry... ye matlab nahi tha mera... " He said pulling her on his lap and hugging her.

" But I really think tumko farq nahi padta... I'm getting crazy here... sath hote hue bhi kabhi sath nahi hote... " Shreya complained and her voice was actually heavy now.

Ankush couldn't say anything just tightened his hug. He felt like a coward looking at his girl but what he was supposed to do? ... He could shout in front of the world then only, but his actual world was limited and even the slightest of thought that he may lose anyone of them was not letting him take any step. Shreya got calmed a little later and realized that he wasn't to be blamed for this. She didn't had any fear but Ankush had... she wasn't going to lose anyone but Ankush had a fear of things being changed between him and Sidharth... Not good not bad... just the change was scary however it would be. But it was paining... they can't live like this forever. It was feeling like mocking what they had in between..

She parted and looked at him. He was suffering too. And his face made her forget everything else like everytime and she just wanted to live in that moment just like everytime... He could clearly see that in her eyes and atleast he could give her that,  he thought. He moved forward bringing her closer and closed his eyes to kiss her with all the love he carry for her... Her hands reached to his shoulder inside his shirt breaking the topmost button and her fingers dugged into his shoulders made him lose his mind while they laid back on the couch not even realizing the action. They kissed pouring all the love for each other and anger don't know for whom ?? May be fate !!...

They kissed with all the might but before they could lose their mind more they were brought to senses by her phone call. Ankush realized that they were at a point after what things would've gone out of their control. And as he looked at her phone screen, a pang of guilt hit him... He never wanted to proceed till everyone knows about them. He got up but felt like a stupid and was hell guilty,  his Shrey doesn't deserve this wait and he wanted Sidharth to know about them till the things weren't much advanced...

" Haa Maa.. " Shreya picked up the call looking at Ankush.

" Where are you ?? Aur kitna time lagega ??

" Maa I'm free...Cab se aarahi hu... " Shreya said being hurt the way he got up... She knew the reason but she was still feeling embarrassed with the abruptness and Ankush looked at her suddenly listening to her.

" No.. tell me.. Mai aaraha hu lene.. " Varun said.

" Where are you ??? " Sidharth asked.

" Bh.. Bhai Ankush ke restaurant me.. " 

" Arey to Ankush is there only... vapis nahi aaya abi...tu Mili nahi usko ?? Uske room me jaake dekh.... " Sidharth said.

What was she supposed to say ?? She was in his room only.. lying on his couch... in a compromising position a few minutes back... and feeling like just discarded now. She knew it was not true yet she was feeling like that... It was like she just wanted to reason out her getting hurt to herself... She kept looking at Ankush like she wanted him to tell what she was feeling and she felt awful doing that to him. And he was just feeling helpless standing there.

" Haa bhai... hai yahi pe.. speaker pe hai bolo.. " Shreya said after sometime.

" Haa bhai... " Ankush spoke and his voice cracked which he himself didn't knew was going to happen.

Shreya looked up at him listening to his voice and felt horrible. She was upset for herself, she was upset for him, and nobody was to be blamed was the worst thing...

" Kya hua tujhe ?? Tu theek hai ?? " Sidharth asked concernedly.

" Haaa... Haa... tabiyat theek nahi hai thodi bas... "

" To kya kar raha hai abi tak vaha pe... vapis aa... aur gaadi shreya karlegi drive... " Sidharth ordered.

" Haa.. aa rahe hai... " That's all Ankush could manage to speak.

They got up and were moving outside when Ankush hugged her from back...  more like pleading her to not leave him... not to give up on him, which he knew she wasn't even going to do... but still... they both were trapped with this 'still'.. They both knew the facts still they were thinking about every bad aspect...

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Sidharth was trying to call Shehnaaz walking in the lobby... When he saw Shreya coming and he smiled at her, and Ankush came behind her... Shreya hugged Sidharth and asked him about his day faking her excitement... She obviously was happy for her brother... but how would she show excitement with such a messy state of her's... Ankush hugged him too. As he started talking to Ankush, Shreya moved inside the home and Ankush's eyes fell on her which was noticed by Sidharth.

" Fir se lad liye ?? Wo gusse me bol deti hai kabhi kabhi... Serious mat le.. " Sidharth said in his assumptions and Ankush smiled at him.

" Chal khana kha le... " Sidharth said.

" Nahi kha liya maine wahi... Sone jaa raha hu... " Ankush said.

" Mai aajau sath tere ?? " Sidharth asked.

" Aaja... " He said which was more like a request which Sidharth sensed.

Ankush actually needed Sidharth... he doesn't know for what ?? But he needed him... He didn't knew if he would tell him today... it won't be possible with planning... he would blurt it out just like that some day... He had always said that he knows Sidharth... He knew that Sidharth trust him... But what would he tell if he ask the reason of hiding it for so many days ??... what if he would feel betrayed that all this was happening under the same roof making a fool out of them all ??

They got into Ankush's room and laid down.

Ankush was weirdly silent today. Sidharth could notice easily that something is there he wants to say or ask. But he was feeling upset that Ankush was feeling this difficult to talk to him which was happening for the first time in life. This distance was felt for the first time and it pinched him.

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Shreya reached her room and was going crazy... In a moment she would feel like it wasn't that a big deal and they could talk to their family... But the next moment she would be scared for the same reason... Not in her wildest dreams she could see any differences between her love and her brother... She knew Sidharth would always support her but she doesn't want him to think of it any other way... how would she explain hiding all this... and she knew she won't lose anything but Ankush would be affected badly if things got misunderstood...

Not understanding anything she picked up her phone...

" Hello " Shreya said almost crying voice.

" Aap kab vapis aaoge ?? " Shreya asked again.

Shehnaaz who almost slept got up in a jerk listening to her voice.

" Shreya !! Kya hua ?? Sab theek hai na waha ?? "

" Haa... sab theek hai... "

" To ro kyu rahi hai ?? "

Shreya stopped herself from blurting anything. It immediately hit her mind that how stupid it was to first, talk about this on phone and second, when Shehnaaz was so far and alone...

" Naaa.... Mai roti hu kya ?? ... bas yaad aarahi thi isliye call kiya... "

Although, Shehnaaz was not convinced but she felt like if it's bothering enough  that Shreya was thinking this much before sharing then she thought not to dig now and talk in person.

They both didn't got to know when their bond became so special and strong. Shehnaaz felt good that she remembered her in weak times... She felt good that at least she was able to do this much for these angelic people of her life.

Shreya didn't knew why exactly but Shehnaaz was the first name she remembered to talk about her situation... She needed a sisterly love and someone who could understand her at that moment... Although Niti was there too, but in the past few years, a distance developed between them because of Niti being busy all the time and their minimal talks over phone reduced the comfort they share...

They talked for sometime, and slept wishing each other a good night.

Shehnaaz saw Sidharth's missed calls and texted him that she slept that why didn't picked up the call.

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It was wee hours in the morning when Sidharth woke up, he saw besides him.. Ankush was lying with eyes closed holding his forehead which he knew was because of deep thinking.

" Kuch problem hai to bol kyu nahi raha ?? " Sidharth said making him startle in the hush of early dawn.

He noticed his fingers on his forehead and removed it immediately.

" Nahi bey... Sardard hai thoda... medicine li hai... theek hojaega... "  Ankush said.

" Tujhe bhi pata hai...ki mujhe samajh aaraha hai ki baat kuch aur bhi hai... Par tujhe mujhse kuch bolne ke liye itna sochna pad raha hai to fir... " Sidharth said and was cut by Ankush.

" Zada mat soch... Jo bhi jab bhi hoga.. sabse pehle tujhe hi pata hoga.. " Ankush replied and Sidharth fell silent.

" Aaj neend nahi aarahi ?? " Ankush asked a little later.

" So to liya thodi der... par ab patani kyu nahi aarahi.. " Sidharth replied.

" kilo bhar pillows le rakhe hai usi se samajh aarha hai kyu nahi aa rahi... " Ankush teased and Sidharth registered the meaning a few seconds later which resulted in a good pillow hit over Ankush's face.

" You love her a lot !! " Ankush said not sure why?? Definitely not asking... May be just letting him know how it sounds.

" Madly " Sidharth blurted as a shocker to himself making Ankush smile.

" How does it feel ?? " Ankush asked  and Sidharth felt the question new.

He stopped for few seconds...

" I actually never thought about that... How does that feel !!! I never got the time to think about how I was feeling. "
Sidharth said in a lost tone getting amused over the fact.

" But it's like every freaking thing changed... I am what I never thought I could be ever... " Sidharth continued now when he realized these things.

" How do you manage to never disappoint her ?? " Ankush asked actually as a help for himself.

" Who said that to you ?? Tu hi tha na mere sath jab kuch nahi kar paa raha tha mai and she was just getting hurt again and again... " Sidharth replied remembering the party night.

" Then how did you made up to her ?? "

" I never did actually... and she didn't even asked me to... Use nahi chahiye hota kabhi ki galti kiya to fine bharo... All she needs is that assurance ki I'll be with her... always... I wonder over the way she trusts.. it's crazy.... "

Sidharth was answering Ankush's question but he himself just discovered these answers... He never got the time to think all this stuff... And now when he thought many unacknowledged actions , words made sense and he was just falling more, loving her even more and missing her the most...

" Parr tu ye sab kyu puch raha hai ?? Bolega ab... " Sidharth said finally questioning him.

" Aise hi sawaal aaye yaar dimag me... " and they fell silent again.

" Have I ever disappointed you ?? " Ankush asked after sometime.

" Tu konsa nasha karke aaya hai pehle ye bata ?? Chal kya raha hai... tu seedhe seedhe bolega.. " Sidharth said now getting really tensed for him.

" Neend nahi aarahi thi na tujhe to khel lia KBC... soja ab.. " Ankush replied dismissing him again.

Sidharth very well knew that there is something which he needs to know.. but he can't force him... he wanted to give Ankush his own time.

They slept for few hours and got up with Sidharth's ringtone. Maa was calling them to ask about Ankush's health and to call them for breakfast. 

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Sidharth talked to her a little in the morning and was busy with work the whole day. The need to wrap up soon wasn't giving anyone any freetime... He was so busy that he could not even text her in between.

Shehnaaz decided to complete her office formalities that day and she was free by half of the day but her colleagues insisted her to spend the rest of the day with them... Throughout the time, she was busy with them but not for a second her mind skipped Sidharth's thoughts. She wondered how come she wasn't feeling that bad as she should while leaving this place where she spent whole of her childhood, teenage years and part of adulthood... All these years she never realized that her home is far away from this place... And now when she found it, even a day was difficult to be away from it.

Sidharth called Shehnaaz in the break and felt like talking about every freaking thing around. It was like compensating for all the hours they didn't talk. This urge to speak this much was crazy and unbelievable for him.

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It's been third day she left and they weren't getting much time to talk during his break and at night when she wouldn't stretch much considering he must be tired... He was already feeling like just calling her back and crushing her into his arms. Being away and not being able to even talk properly was killing him. Even if they don't get to talk much, he was wishing that if she had been in his arms while sleeping, it would have worked for him... God knows how he got this much addicted... but he wasn't even minding it.

Shehnaaz was already missing him a lot... She spent the first day at office, then next day she went to do some shopping, and this third day she spent in packing their stuff. She thanked God that they both weren't that crazy for shopping and their stuff was manageable... She was not calling him or texting him much as she doesn't even know much about his work and she doesn't know when he would be free... She doesn't want to stress him out giving the responsibility of entertaining her..

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" Bhai... Meri morning ki flight hai kal aur 3 hour ka workshop...mai 1 baje tak free ho jaunga... " Varun told Sidharth at dinner.

" Her flat is not very far from there... "

Sidharth gave address and other details to Varun and went to Maa's room after dinner.

" Aaja baith " Maa said calling him close to her while talking on the phone.

He moved towards bed resting his head on her lap and he could heard the dim voice from the other side but clear enough for him to know who it was and it brought a smile on his face. After the call...

" Mujhe lagta hai... use zada pyaar karne lage ho aap.. " he complained looking super adorable making Maa laugh.

After spending some time with Maa... He went to his room mad laid on the bed... For the first time after meeting her, his days felt empty to him...

He didn't wanted to go towards the balcony.. He was already occupied with her thoughts so badly, going to balcony would just add up to it crazily. But as if it helped !! The thought of not going to the balcony only reminded him of their balcony moments. Damn he never knew his mind, his heart could behave this crazily... What was this crazy addiction ??? Just not feeling someone around could make you go crazy was a new thing for him to experience. Damn he was missing her so bloody much and he never knew missing someone could be this intensive and torturous...

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Here's the new update.... I am really really sorry for being late. It's just really difficult to take time out these days...  But I'll try to manage better from next time...

It might not be up to the mark this time. Please bear it... I'll try better next time...

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