She pressed her lips back... harder... making him lost into the moment... Helding each other in every way possible then.. deepening their hold... trying to reach didn't knew where ??? Consuming, feeling, breathing each other... softly yet passionately.... their lips curled up feeling each other's want...and that curve sent content to heart, heat to the body & shivers to the bones.....

They parted and they could feel their cheeks quivering out of heavy blush... They looked at each other sneakily and they looked so damn gorgeous in the dark under that flash light with the content & fidgety at the same time...
She looked around again, she didn't knew why exactly... but even the fact that this place saw a major part of his life, his beautiful giggles, his tantrums, his changes, his happy moments, his mistakes, everything... created a connect to her heart... And also now this place had witnessed their special moment too..

" Abi bhi gussa rehna hai ?? "

" Mai nahi thi !! " she said looking around.

" To wo kya tha ?? "

" Nikal gaya Munh se ... "

His face became straight listening to her. He reacted this much for nothing ?? And this girl didn't even stopped him once... not when he got angry.. not when he took her here... not when he made her enter a place which nobody would even at daytime... not when he kissed her... He felt quite awkward now as he said or better to say 'expressed' a lot more than what he expects from himself... but still he was okay !! He let her knew things which he doubt he would have ever done in a normal situation...

" Chale ?? " he asked.

" Haa " she said still not looking at him and he chuckled at his shy baby.

He held her hand and moved outside ... They came back home and he ordered food as they didn't had dinner... Misha slept already and he left after having dinner with her...

Next day, Shehnaaz and Misha spent the day together and they called Sidharth, Vardaan & Ankush for dinner as Misha would be leaving next day ...

They were having good time at dinner and Ankush's phone was ringing... He kept it on silence quickly but Shehnaaz noticed that...

" To firrr Vardaan teri girlfriend ke kya haal ?? " Shehnaaz asked randomly.

" Hein ?? Thi bhi ?? Kabhi pata nahi chala !!! " Vardaan replied.

" Shrishti Jain ke sath music video aane wala hai na aapka ?? " Misha asked.

" Haaa " he replied casually.

Ankush & Sidharth looked at Vardaan and then at each other.

" Bukhaar to nahi hai isko ?? " Ankush said faking concern.

" Zaroor hoga... dimag me... " Sidharth said.

" Kya matlab ?? " Shehnaaz asked getting confused.

" Matlab jab video offer hua tha na tab balcony to balcony kood raha tha.. " Sidharth said.

" Haa hame to laga shooting ho jaegi to pagal kardega hame kisse suna suna ke " Ankush continued .

" Dekho !! Crush tabhi tak crush rehta hai jab tak aap mile nahi ya aapki baat nahi hui usse " Vardaan started like some spiritual speech.

" Acha... fir ... milke ?? " Shehnaaz asked.

" Milke ya to fir aap hogaye pagal... arey pyaar me... "

" To matlab aapko pyaar hogya ab ?? " Misha asked.

" Arey dusri cheez to suno ... to ya to pyaar me pagal ... ya fir aap khudko asal me pagal maan lete ho...  "

" Mere sath dusra case hua... by god... itna pakaya usne...  listen dear aap na aise mat bolo... I am hurt... " Vardaan started mimicking her.

They all settled on Sofa after dinner.

" How about a game ??? partner !! " Vardaan asked Misha remembering their previous game night and Misha accepted in a proper challenging way.

Shehnaaz gave them all icecream and took Ankush's to the balcony to give him as he was on a call.

" Ha Shrey... aur kal mai aaunga pick karne... I need some time with you... Goddd I'm missing us so much... " Ankush spoke on the phone.

Shehnaaz heard him and was moving back but Ankush realised her presence and turned.

" Sorry !! Galti se ... matlab ye dene aayi thi !! " Shehnaaz said handing him the bowl of icecream and felt awkward.

" Koi nahi ... It's fine... " Ankush said smilingly.

" No one knows !! Please keep it to yourself.. " Ankush said.

" Huh !! ...haaa bilkul... tujhe khud batana chahiye.. par Sidharth ko kyu nahi pata ?? " She said as it was almost impossible for her to believe this ...

" Batana hai bas use khone se darta hu... " Ankush said looking inside at Sidharth but Shehnaaz was getting more confused.

" Itna pyaar karta hai tu usse ??? " Shehnaaz asked smilingly feeling the depth of their bond.

" Jaan se zada "

" Wo jealous nahi hoti ??? " She asked while laughing .

" Apne bhai se kaise hogi ??? " Ankush said looking at Shehnaaz ,clearing all her doubts in a sentence..

Shehnaaz's eyes widened after few seconds as she realized the meaning of his words and looked at him...

" Tu pagal hai... Sidharth se zada khush koi nahi hoga ye jaanke... jis aadmi par sabse zada bharosa karta hai wo use apni behen ke sath dekhke khush nahi hoga to kaha hoga ?? "

Ankush went through her words and he felt them actually giving him confidence... he himself had a sister... he can feel Sidharth's place... and he felt so positive with Shehnaaz's simple words and assurance...

They left bidding Misha a goodbye as she'll be leaving early next morning and may be they won't get to meet ...

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Sidharth & Ankush were back from the gym. They were about to enter the lift  when they saw a guy coming out... Ankush didn't remember exactly but Sidharth remembered him very well... his jaws clenched looking at the guy...

" Hey !! Ankush Right ?? "

" Yeah " Ankush replied in a confusing tone.

" Mai Aman... Shehnaaz ka office friend... hospital me mile the usdin.. "

" Oh haa !! I remember... hiii !! " Ankush replied.

Aman didn't knew Sidharth as he was wearing mask that day...

" Yaha kaise ??? " Ankush asked back.

" Wo Shehnaaz ko milne aaya tha... wo chale jaegi Delhi vapis kuch din me to uske liye special party rakhi hai ham sabne... " Aman replied.

Sidharth looked at Ankush in a jerk with the sudden shock.. and Ankush realized that even he doesn't have any idea about it...

" Chale jaegi matlab ?? " Ankush asked again.

" Haa ... wo ek mahine ke liye hi to aayi thi... jin events ke liye aayi thi wo bhi ho chuke hai... to ab chali jayegi shayad kisi bhi din... " Aman replied.

Sidharth was froze with the sudden revelation...Shehnaaz was going back... She wasn't going to stay here... He couldn't think anything but just that his Naaz was going... far from him... She never said that clearly... he too didn't dug into to get complete information... The first thing going inside him was his fear... his fear of her going away... she made him addicted to her... and then she was leaving... now he didn't knew how to live without her... and he didn't even wanted to learn, then he was angry... angry at her for going away... angry at her for not thinking about him... angry at her for not knowing that he finds it difficult to even breathe without feeling her presence around... angry that he didn't even knew that she was planning something like that...

" Aap bhi friends ho na... please aap bhi aana party me... kuch special surprise bhi plan Kia hai uske liye... " Aman said.

That was it... Sidharth couldn't take it anymore... firstly he hate this man... he knew the thoughts he carry for his girl... and now the biggest fear in front of him wasn't letting him to think soberly and do any calculations and think about other sides... and the little he could... it told him that ofcourse she was going back... her colleague would know the purpose of her being here... she was going back and not temporarily that's why the party was held... He got into the lift and reached to her floor... every moment felt so heavy to him... throughout he was just thinking that he gets to hear that there was nothing like that... she wasn't going anywhere... she will be here... with him...

He unlocked the door with the keys out of habit and got inside... but stopped when he heard her talking on the phone in kitchen...

" Ha Ha mai aa rahi hu... bahaut time hogya hai ab... mai miss karti hu tum logo ko... Delhi ko !! "

He got his answer.... she was actually going back... but why ??? She loves him... how can she think about living away from him... was that so easy for her ??? And she didn't even told him !!

He couldn't think of anything... he sat there on the sofa calming himself... but looks like things were just making it difficult... He saw an album on the table... yeahhh !! She was missing her friends from Delhi... she just said that... he picked it up.... there was a pinch of jealousy inside him for all those people who would be in the pictures whom she was missing even when he was there...

He opened it and what he saw made his eyes wide.... he lifted the album closer to him to see it clearly... and it made him feel dizzy for few seconds...it was his Naaz dressed up in some slightly heavy dress with a red dupatta on her head sitting with some guy... on a fancy sofa...  someone handing her a covered decorated fancy big plate... which looked like a Shagun... some ritual was going on... He somewhere knew what that was... But he didn't care all that...  what he care was that a guy sitting besides her... probably planning to marry his Naaz was burning his insides... he didn't had any doubt even for a second... he can't do that... it could be past... it could be anything ... all he knew right now that he couldn't live without her... she can't leave... and why Naaz was watching all those pictures... was she missing these people ??

" Sidharth!! " Shehnaaz said slowly getting slightly shocked as she saw him watching the pictures...

He got up and went close to her...

" Tu jaa rahi hai ?? Mujhe chorh kar ... yaha ... akele ?? " he asked pleadingly hoping a negative answer.

" Wo Aman tere liye farewell arrange kar raha hai !!  Invite karta hai !! Aur mujhe pata bhi nahi ki tu jana chahti hai !! Mujhse door ... !! " his own words made him mad.

" Sidharth baat sun mai baat karne wali thi tujhse.. tu uski baat pe dhyan mat de !! " She said trying to calm him.

" To kiski baat pe du ??? Teri ?? Ha suni teri bhi baat ... bahaut miss kar rahi hai na logo ko.... ye isko bhi kar rahi hai na yaad tabhi photo leke baithi thi... jaa iske pas hi... issi se baat kar tu... mai kon hu ?? Akela kardo sala.. jaao ! Koi nahi chahiye... chorh de ... jaa tu jaa... nahi tu to jaa hi rahi hai... abhi to mujhe Jana chahiye..." Sidharth said loudly now...

He was breaking down... he felt like his breath being snatched... and he started moving out.

" Usse baat karu ??? please bata ke jaa kaise baat karu ??? " she shouted making him turn back...

" Ha please tell me !! You must be knowing a way to talk to the dead na !! Please tell me !! " She said almost choking but trying hard to hold herself...

He was shocked with her words.... what she said was completely out of track... he hadn't had a clue of something like that... he suddenly felt immensely guilty of his words even without knowing the whole thing. Both of them knew that not a word out of what he said mean anything... both of them knew he was just taking out his fear and disappointment for something which he felt, could happen... she understood that he got scared to lose her, she understood that he just let out all the negative things out of his mouth so that, if that happens he would be quite used to it.... she knew whatever the situation was, there was no space for him to think other ways...but she got upset because he was hurting himself, she got upset because he thought that others were more important than him... she was upset thinking why it was difficult for him to believe that he was the only one important... he was her life... she forgets herself in front of him because she knew that there was no need for her to look after herself... and he does that in the best possible way...

" Ye album mangwaya tha aaj subah... tujhe sab kuch batane ke liye... sab kuch meri zindagi ke bare me... isliye nahi ki mai kisi ko miss kar rahi thi.. aur phone pe ... ha bol dia ... aur karti  hu miss unlogo ko bhi .. us jagah ko bhi... is ek mahine se pehle poori zindagi waha un logo ke sath nikli hai.... Par fir bhi Sidharth Shukla mai tujhe un logo se upar bina dusri baar soche rakhti hu... aur har baar rakhungi... tu jo hai wo kisi list me nahi aata upar neeche karne ko... tu hissa hai jo hamesha rahega... wahi par.... hissa jo shayad badh hi sakta hai par kam nahi ho sakta... " she said it all being mad at him.

" Ab sun lia na .... kya maanna hai kya nhi teri marzi... ab jaa... " she said heavily frustrated and moved inside her room.

He moved to go behind her but stopped himself... he was so irritated with himself right then... he didn't had a moment of doubt over her even after watching those pictures which looked like some roka ceremony... but his fear that she will go away... his possessiveness on watching someone else's name connected to her... his insecurity by thinking that he couldn't fill all the places in her life.... made him tell her to leave him... he never knew the existence of any place for someone in his life before she came... but now if she lefts he wouldn't be able to live with that void... and now when she got angry he was calm... it was so stupid... if he would have been able to subside this anger a few moments back... he wouldn't have messed all this so much... She still hadn't cleared anything about her going back to Delhi... but now he wasn't much worried about that... strange !! For some unknown reasons he got a positive feeling...

It was an anxiety out of a mere thought of living away from her... but it came out in a way that it made him say so many meaningless things and made her assume so many things out of his words... He knew this wasn't the right time... and more than that he was guilty...  immensely guilty... his guilt was paining him in the chest... and he moved out and went to his house...

He went inside his house and loud noises of chattering were there....

Maa was back early and he felt such an instant feeling of relief as an ice over a burn... He almost ran towards her and hugged her tightly... Everyone would always be in awww of their bond... He kissed her cheeks and hugged again... His mother could easily sense his restlessness inside... and she rubbed his back and arm...

" Kya hua ?? " she asked.

" I missed you " he replied smilingly.

She felt that there was something but still she decided not to dig more...

Shehnaaz somewhere felt amazement of his trust into her even after looking at the pictures... but then why couldn't he just simply ask once about the news of her leaving by trusting her in that way too... She knew his fear was way more stronger than the sanity of his mind at that time... she couldn't even blame him... they were still on a path where they were discovering about the extent of each other's actions for each other... The only thing which hurted her was that how dare he tell her to leave him... how dare he say that he'll go... Even if in anger... but that statement pinched like hell... even that thought brought anxiety to her and she reacted in a way she never did... She didn't went out and sat there only to calm herself...

He sat there with all for sometime and talked to them ... tried to be normal ... and then he suddenly realized that he had these people with him.. who were unknowingly helping him to get relax... but his Naaz was alone... he left her there alone... how couldn't he think of this then ??? .... He felt so ashamed of himself... His guilt just kept increasing and he made himself understood ... that it was a normal thing... he overreacted which made her react like this... things turned rough out of nothing but that doesn't mean that they can't sort it in a simple way... anyways she was his Naaz... who understands him better than himself... she would have understood by now that his words meant nothing...

He moved towards his room and called her... But she didn't picked... he tried again but the results were same...

" I'm sorry Naaaz !! Please talk to me once please !! " he texted her..

The words felt quietly strange to him... Never ever in his life he was in such a desperate situation of seeking apology... and he didn't even... ever... used the word 'sorry' so heartily....

He was waiting but she didn't even checked the message... He was very sure that just like him she was in temporary fit of rage then... and they would sort... the only thing which was troubling him was that he was responsible, his words were responsible for all that...

It's been already evening... almost 6 hours passed and she didn't called nor replied... He was getting impatient now... she could fight with him... hit him... but not this silence... he couldn't bear that... He came down and was going out to her when his mother called and asked him to sit with everyone and have tea... They were all already excited while discussing about Niti's birthday plan... He didn't wanted to ruin anything for anyone... He sat there but he kept calling Shehnaaz and kept looking at the screen if she picks up.... He tried his best but everyone noticed the tension on his face...

" Varun ka phone aaya Sidharth ?? " S.M asked.

" Nahi uthaya " He said absentmindedly still looking at the screen.

" Huh "

" Nahi matlab aaya tha wo ruk gaya tha wahi hotel me shoot extend hua tha.. to.. aaj aaega subah bola tha... to aata hoga. " he replied.

But his heavy & slightly choking voice which he tried to normalize his best was making everyone worried about him..

" Arey ruk kyu gaye bolo fir kya-kya final kiya ?? Aur Niti kaha hai ??" Sidharth said trying to divert them from him.

" Bas aa rahi hai.. aur Varun bhi lift me hai... " Ankush said and doorbell rang.

" Lo aagaye " S.M said and got up to open the door.

She opened it a little and stood there quite shocked... Everyone looked there thinking what was taking so long for them to come there... The door was still open and they were confused looking at S.M's expressions... She was standing there holding the door and they just couldn't understood what made her so shock... They couldn't see them across the door. They stood up now getting tensed...

Their heart thumped thinking was Varun okay ??... he was coming back on bike... it was drizzling outside since morning... All sorts of bad thoughts came to their mind... Sidharth moved slowly... till the point he reached where he could see across the door & his heart thumped wildly... but just when he saw he felt like his heart just shrinked into a ball and was struggling to come out of his throat...

Niti & Varun were there and they got inside... but a voice made their heart flinch...

" Aapne kaha tha na jab mummy ki zarurat hogi to aapke pas aau !! " the face was straight but the choking- heavy voice displayed pain so clearly.

" Aa Bacche.. "  Maa said lovingly.

Others didn't heard them as they were quite away... but the tension was very clear to them too... even they slightly moved forward... but were confused should they go or wait a little...

Maa pulled her into a hug and Maa felt the pain in the soul whereas her body felt physically lifeless... She didn't bothered to take her to the sofa and sat there only... on the floor hugging her... Maa didn't knew anything... what happened to her... why she was so broken... she couldn't understood what to say... she wasn't even crying now... she was already calm... dangerously calm... she had no expressions on her face...

" Sab chorh dete hai !! " that's all she spoke in a low plane straight voice.

" Aap bhi baat nahi karoge ?? " she spoke again.

" Chup !! Pagal hai, kya bol rahi hai ?? " Maa said patting her back of the head.

Maa felt slightly scared for her. Her cold, expressionless reactions were too much for that delicate soul... She should cry, complain, shout and do anything but not this... it felt like she was losing hope on life... like she didn't expect a bit that whatever was bothering her could get better .

" Kya hua hai baccha ?? Maa ko nahi bataegi ??? " Maa spoke softly.

She parted a little to look up at her and eyes stopped on Sidharth who was  sitting besides Maa... Maa noticed her gaze and looked besides her to see Sidharth. She didn't realized when he came there... Maa felt may be she would feel uncomfortable from showing this vulnerable side of her's so she thought of sending everyone inside but then she noticed Sidharth... he was so much in pain, his reddened eyes were brimmed with tears now... she had rarely seen her son crying... and then she looked at this sweet girl who was holding her finger like a little kid, her face which was still a few seconds ago, suddenly showed a wave of emotions... tears started flowing vigorously and all the expressions could be seen on her face... expression of pain, anger, hurt, fear, demand and more of all a plead... but Maa couldn't understood what was she  pleading for ??.. Before she could think further...

" Shehnaaz !!! " Sidharth whispered gasping.

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       As he came forward slowly and looked across the door... his Naaz was there...  Varun & Niti came just behind her and as Maa hugged her they got confused but didn't asked anything and got inside...

She looked so tired... physically & mentally... he felt like a hate was growing within him for himself... considering himself responsible for her condition... She looked so pale... her eyes clearly told how much she had cried... yet they look dry now... her clothes & hair were damp... but he knew the hair stucked on the side of her face were due to the her heavy tears... her face showed no expressions... it was still.... it looked like she had no energy left to hold herself...
He didn't realized when he moved towards her and sat besides Maa...

As she looked up and her eyes fell on Sidharth... she felt like the losing hope coming back...  She suddenly felt like she got the place where she could hide herself... she demanded and pleaded him to take her into his arms... her heaven... her paradise...                  
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And she moved herself a little and he understood her... she threw herself a little just like a child demanding to hold and he pulled her into himself just like a mother would do... he held her so tightly trying if his hold could shrug out everything which was troubling her... he put her head just below his chin hiding her from all sides with his arms patting her head softly like a child... she clutched on his shirt at arm and collar tightly trying to stop her sobs...

He couldn't understood why she was crying this much... she knew it was anger... it was so clear that he was scared to lose her that's why he got angry... then why ?? ... Even after when he took her in his embrace... still there was any doubt left ?? ...

" I'm sorry Naaz !! Pleassse !! " he said pleadingly to which she nodded her head in no against his chest and a loud sob left her mouth.

" Is it because of me ?? Maine gusse me bola.. I don't mean anything... you know me... pleasee!! " he kept kissing her head...trying everything he thought would clear her fear or pain...

" Tu chorh ke kyu aaya ?? " She said amongst sobs and hiccups.

Her voice got muffled as she shoved her head into his chest as much as possible and only he understood her words.

" Sorry. Sorry. Sorry Naaaz. pleasee... Sorrryyyyyy.. I can't see you like this... " he said in a low voice and tears started flowing through his eyes too.

He was constantly kissing her on her hair... and his hold almost hid her completely... this Sidharth was totally unknown to all of them... he didn't care at that moment that his family was there... no embarrassment, nothing.... all he knew that his baby had to be fine...

Everyone stood there rooted watching them... None of them knew the matter but their pain could be felt by each one of them... They themselves didn't realized when their eyes got filled up..

Maa was shocked... Her Sana was Sidharth's Shehnaaz... She was secretly blessing her son only when she blessed  Sana's source of happiness and she was secretly loving Shehnaaz only when she felt an attachment with the reason of colours in her son's life... She had already witnessed their side of love individually... and she couldn't be happy anymore... She knew this wasn't the time... But till the date, she saw how happy they used be because of each other... although individually... but she can't think of any happy moment pure than that... But for the first time when she witnessed them together... she saw them crying... crying for each other... feeling pain of each other... their vulnerabilities for each other... and this... this was something which made her feel like her kids got their life in true sense... that they had a permanent source of happiness now amongst any situation throughout their lives...

Shreya,Varun & Niti never saw Sidharth expressing much... Even if he does... which would be a little bit... it would be for someone amongst them... watching him like this... crying... felt painful to them... it was already difficult for them to believe Sidharth involved with a girl... but watching this... made them realize that being involved... relationship... were little words in front of that... they had something which wasn't in everyone's fate... and they felt blessed even to witness such a love ... well 'love' because there wasn't a better word...

Ankush & Vardaan had saw him... they had saw them... but what they felt till date was nothing in front of this... it was very difficult to imagine their Sidharth like this... they knew Shehnaaz and had saw her chirping, giggling & laughing everytime... Vardaan didn't realized when tears started falling from his eyes too and he hugged Ankush... As much he was jolly... he was a lot more emotional than that... while Ankush could feel Shreya holding his Shirt from behind... He understood her feelings... The support her brother was giving to his girl right then... Shreya seek that support from her man... Ankush moved his hand behind and held her hand tightly assuring her that he would always be there for her...

" Naaaaz !! Kyu ro rahi hai baby !! Mai tere Jaane pe hi to lada na... to jaa sakta hu kya mai kahi ?? Kyu kar rahi hai aise ?? pleaseee chupp .. !! " he said hardly controlling his own voice.

" Mi...Mish.. " she spoke and couldn't complete due to her sobs...

" Misha gayi isliye ?? Delhi hi gayi hai na !! Tu chale jana usko milne !!! Haa baby !! " he explained her like a child.

" Nahiiii gayiii... wo.. " she said shrieking against his chest.

He couldn't understood what she said... what does that mean...

" Hospital me hai... mujhse baat bhi nahi karri... mujhse baat nahi ki usne Sidharth... " She said looking up at him and he just looked at her with shocked still face not able to understood anything...

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