15. Sorted yet messed
They took each other in embrace while sleeping and had a beautiful heavy sleep , it was like warmth of each other was relaxing them and they tried to get it as much as possible even in the sleep.
He woke up to see his dream looking reality , his source of happiness hugging him in her sleep , to see the most novelistic statement ' waking up to see the most beautiful morning ' as his reality .
And he used his early morning just like she used the late night, to adore her , to trace each and every detail of her face , to smile his heart out for no particular reason and just feeling her with him, by his side , this close .
Each morning was like a step - ahead in terms of their comfort physically, mentally, emotionally, in all ways . His attention broke when his phone rang. It was Varun. He got out of the bed slowly not disturbing her sleep and called him back coming out of the room.
" Haa bol " Sidharth said as soon as Varun picked the call.
" Bhai gym sath me chaloge ya baad me aaoge ?? " Varun asked.
" aagaya hu mai vapis , parking me milo mujhe 20 minute me aur mera gym bag lekar aana sath. " he replied thinking that she's sleeping so he can do his gym now.
He goes out locking her apartment . They all came and got seated in the car and left . Everyone had a different look on their faces. They were glancing at him time to time. He noticed this but kept quite.
" Bhai Shehnaaz theek hai ab ?? " Ankush asked who was at front with him.
" Haa... theek hai " he replied with a poker face.
" yaar kya aadmi hai ye .. ham kabse wait kar rahe hai ki kuch bataega hame kuch to details chahiye na ... ye to aise behave kar raha hai ki kuch hai hi nahi" Vardaan said getting impatient with Sidharth's nonchalant attitude.
Sidharth turned his face giving a look.
" kya bolu bey mai ab... tum thake nahi kal se is baare me baat kar karke ??.... Is gadhe ne to extra details de di hongi. " Sidharth said smacking Ankush's head.
" Oye oye oye !! Ek minute theher jaa ... If you remember mere pas bhi koi details nahi hai . kuch hai inke beech... ye bhi mujhe tab confirm hua jab isne khud bola ki aunty ko sab pata hai... isse zada kuch nhi .. " Ankush said giving clarification to Varun and Vardaan.
" Bhai batao naa yaar... matlab dono serious ho... wo bhi industry me hai ??... matlab aisa kya jadoo hogaya bhai ki aap... aaaaaap aise badal gaye " Varun taking out his unending list of questions.
" pehli cheez jo boli tune serious wagerah usse bahaut upar ka matter hai ye... dusri cheez se door door tak lena dena nahi hai uska aur teesri cheez k jawab me bas itna pata hai ki pyaar hogya .. kyu ?? kaise ?? Kuch nahi pata .. " he replied getting soft and slow at the last line.
He wasn't a person who would give details about anything , giving clarifications , explanations was not at all expected with him. They asked him the questions expecting to get atleast a little content ,at least a smile or a blush but they got a whole damn statement and he directly said it that he was in love. They knew it already, but listening it from him was a whole new thing worth celebrating .
" Bhai... to bhabhi bole na ham ?? " Vardaan asked him in a teasing tone.
He stopped the car as they reached. His face got a stern look suddenly and he looked at them . They knew something came in his mind.
" Chup karo .. I haven't said anything to her.. She doesn't know about me being an actor .. nothing about this industry life of mine. " he spoke in a tensed tone.
All of them were quite shocked at first.
" Theek hai to itni badi baat nahi hai... tu pareshan kyu ho raha hai ?? "
" I am scared... for her... for us... you know this industry... the filthy part of this industry... people do anything here ... She is very sensitive... How will I protect her. "
None of them spoke anything for few minutes and let him take out whatever was bothering him.
" Tu bahaut zada soch raha hai Sid !!! Aur trust me ye mai tujhe better feel karane k liye nahi bol raha ... tu waqai bahaut zada soch raha hai .. Maine dekha hai usko ... aur jitna dekha utne me ye samajh gaya ki wo sensitive tere liye hai ... insaan ka bachpana usi k saamne bahar aata hai jispe use bharosa hai ki wo us bachpane ka fayda nahi uthaega, use protect karega. tujhe kya lagta hai baki ki duniya me kuch galat nahi hota ?? .... Yaha bhi galat cheeze hai bas kisi aur ko nahi dikhti .. par handle to karni padti hai na aur wo kar rahi thi na itne saalo se... sab manage karti hai na ??? Agar wo tere liye soft hai to wo tere liye strong to usse bhi zada hogi. " Ankush spoke .
" I know wo strong hai... infact bahaut zada hai... mai seekhta usko dekh kar kabhi kabhi to... par uske liye kuch galat mujhse bardasht nahi hota... " Sidharth said.
" Abe ooo !! Agar tum dono partner ho to khushi k sath dukh aur challenges bhi to share karoge... jaise tu use akela nahi chorh sakta kyunki wo teri chinta aur tera haq bhi hai vaise uska bhi haq hai aisi sab cheezo me tere sath hone ka ... faltu tension le raha hai. " Vardaan said in a casual tone and everyone looked at him with an astonished face and then looked at each other and laughed out loud.
" konsi script ka dialogue maara ?? " Varun asked still laughing.
" bhaad me jaao... bhalaai ka zamana hi nahi hai " Vardaan moved out of the car irritated.
"Aee ruk " Sidharth called him.
" Teri baat simple thi ... par meri kayi cheezo ka solution degayi " Sidharth said putting a hand on his shoulder.
He understood his overthinking was causing all these unnecessary issues in his mind . They had to accept every right and wrong of each other's life... If he is happily taking all her bad parts of life , then he can't snatch her rights to take his ... it's better to take things as they came ... excessive planning won't help ... he can't take away her rights to handle his bad parts along with him... he will protect her as much as he can and let her protect him however she want to... and he is not going to let any of his fear or worry spoil the organicity of their relationship... they will face bads of his life, bads of her life, everything together. A part of his mind told him clearly that it was completely stupid, him being this confident is utter stupid , what if all what he thinks from her side was a mere illusion , what if she actually has nothing like that from her side. He was scared with his own confidence... but couldn't help himself from trusting it everytime she says something... as even if she takes his name he can feel all the love in that mere word only.
They came out and were moving inside when his phone rang. They all looked at the phone in his hand reflexively and then looked at Sidharth who had a sweet smile looking at the phone screen. He was getting comfortable now with people watching him smile with her mere name, with him being teased, with him failing badly to control his blush and getting embarrassed with his exposed romantic side.
He picked up the call.
" Uth gayi ?? " he spoke but got no response.
" Naaaz !! " still no response.
" Naaaaaz kya hua ?? Kyu muh fulaya hai baby ??? " he chuckled and spoke softly totally into the call and paying no heed to his surroundings.
Vardaan heard him and looked at Varun and Ankush with wide eyes raising his eyebrows and giving looks as if ' impressed '.
" Tune uthaya kyu nahi ??? bye bolke kyu nahi gaya ??? " she complained frowning.
" Tu soyi thi na... aaj off tha mujhe lga der tak soyegi ... to mai gym aagaya. " he explained.
" Okay " she said disappointingly.
" Mai aaunga na din me " Sidharth spoke convincingly.
" Acha okay bye.. jaa ab mai so rahi hu " she said and he was perplexed at the sudden shift in tone.
They were back after gym and were in lift when she called him again.
" Tu kidhar hai ?? " she asked.
" Lift me ... "
" Ghar aaega ?? "
" I need to take shower baby ... I'm soaked with sweat " he replied in a flow.
" koi baat nahi ... 2 minute aaja bas 2 minute Pakka !! Rukne nahi bol rahi " she asked cutely in a babyish tone.
" Ek minute " he asked her to wait for a minute so that he can think about it.
" okay " she replied and cut the call excitedly thinking that he is coming in a minute.
They came out of the lift reaching their floor and all moved towards their apartment.
" Uhh... tum log chalo mai 2 min. Me aaya kuch samaan bhul gaya gaadi me hi " and he walked back into the lift before anyone could ask anything.
He reached her house .
" kya hua ?? Dekh mai kitna bheega hua hu... " he said holding the hem of his t-shirt making disgusted faces.
She smiled at him as he was looking cute complaining like a kid...
" Ye lekar jaaa ... " she said giving him the tiffin box he came with yesterday.
" abe moti baad me lejata na ye "
" maine parathe banaye hai lekar jaa "
" itna kyu kiya ??? Abhi abhi theek hui hai . "
" Sidharth theek hu yaar mai... mera man kia isliye banaya... maa k liye hai tu mat kha . "
" acha beta ... aaja is baat pe to jhappi banti hai "
He moved forward pretending to hug her just to tease her thinking that she'll move away but to his surprise she hugged him back. These hugs were like a tonic to her these days. She couldn't resist a single one of them... She knew it was stupid, she just spoiled a fun moment but she just can't resist any chance of hugging him. His arms around her were like a tranquilizer and stimulus at the same time. His touch made her feel calm and heart race at the same time. He was quietly surprised, she doesn't need to do anything fancy or say anything special, even her simplest of words and actions had a lot for him to absorb. She is ready to take him in embrace with equal enthusiasm even when he himself is feeling disgusted and not touching himself.
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They both didn't have any work for few days and they spent most of the time together. She asked him about his family as she thought she should meet them once, at least his mother as she was giving so much of love to her through him and also she herself was getting so attached to her but he just avoided the topic somehow... he wanted her to meet them when she knows everything about his life and what he has for her in his heart, or better to say , let her know that she has his whole heart.. She had the thoughts that it's weird to not meeting his family even after living in the same building but ofcourse she won't do that herself as she wanted him to take her... Although she didn't pay much heed to these thoughts and shrugged them off as soon as they came.
They even fought for silliest things but couldn't continue it for more than an hour. Sometimes she would be hugging him from behind throughout the time he was doing something in kitchen... and he won't even ask her to move for a second... she would clung onto him whenever she wanted attention... he himself got so used to it .. he always used to pull her in front and give her quick pecks out of habits ... they never get tired of babying each other. Her hands used to automatically reach his hairs moving her fingers through his hairs slightly massaging with her finger tips when they sleep, when they watch movies ,when they talk about things no one could ever imagine... they both got so habitual to this that she would do it sometimes not even realizing and he would put her hand back to his head indicating her to do that whenever she used to pull it back subconsciously. He would be grumpy if she got too busy with her work and couldn't give him attention. They understood each other's way of expressing emotions now...
They were having good night outs and their comfort level with each other was just getting better. They were already having such an unimaginable good time having each other's company. Every nonsense made sense to them, they were so perfectly cocooned in their small world that they almost forgot that they had a completely different life few weeks ago... At that time, she couldn't even imagine that she'll ever have someone who will make her feel complete and he didn't knew that he'll ever have someone without whom he'll feel himself incomplete. But what they got was something even beyond that. They just didn't complete each other, it was like they breathe each other, they let the other one own them, they let the other one possess them... and they were doing it all silently, they are just giving rights to each other but still have to go further to take rights in the same manner.
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He was in her kitchen making tea for her... A sudden smile appeared on his face when he felt her resting her face on his back. He stiffened himself not moving much , so that he doesn't disturb her ... She stayed like that and hugged him a minute later snaking her arms around his waist and nuzzling against his back.
" Neend aarahi hai ?? " he asked her .
" thodi thodi ! Sojau kya ?? "
" Nahi fir raat ko nahi aaegi ... "
" tu mummy kyu banjata hai beech beech me ?? " she scoffed.
He rolled his eyes at her crankiness .
" Acha chal kuch khelte hai " he said trying to entertain her.
" kya ?? "
" Mujhe kahani suna " he said.
" Wo dekh tota " she said looking at the window.
" Pichli baar kauwe ki sunai abi tota ?? " he said not looking at her.
" abe sacchi me hai wo dekh na " she whined.
" Aeee chilla mat... wo darr jaega "
" dekh ye udd nahi raha " she spoke tensely moving towards window.
He went behind to look .
" Ye dukhi hai " she said sadly.
" tujhe kaise pata ?? " he asked.
" shakal dekh k pata chalra hai yaar kya baat kar raha hai " she spoke in a obvious tone.
He looked at her bewildered.
" pakka break-up Hua hai " she said in a confident tone.
She picked up a banana from the basket
" Oye ye le " she said to the bird keeping half banana nearby it.
" Daaru to tujhe pila nahi sakti.. fir tu dolega na.. par tujhe konsa upar traffic milega jo tera accident hoga.. tab to tu pee sakta hai .. par kela party karte hai .. kyuki .. kyuki daaru hai bhi ni mere pas " she said and laughed .
She talked to the bird for good long time.
" Oye tension na le yaaar ... tujhe dusri toti milegi ... achi ... best ekdam ... hamesha sath rahegi .. "
" Chal mai jaa rahi ab ... byeee " she turned waving a proper goodbye to the bird.
Sidharth stood there not sure of himself if he was adoring ,admiring, finding it weird, or what ??
He just came forward
" Hai kya bey tu " he said holding her face with both his hands and shaking her head slightly and kissing her cheeks out of adoration.
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He was in his room going through some files when his mother was passing through his room and stopped at the door to talk to him but his phone rang. He picked it up still looking at the file.
" Hello " he said but got no reply.
By now he had got to knew all her ways of showing anger but still he looked at the phone to check the name and smiled shaking his head at her childishness.
" Abi kya Kia maine ??? " he chuckled constantly smiling.
" Haaye tu kitna paapi hai !! "
" kya paap kardiye Maine baby !! "
His mother smiled at his soft tone, at his way of handling his girl like a baby.
" Tu kal party me jaaraha hai bataya bhi nahi na tune .. "
" tujhe kisne bola ?? "
" Ankush ne abhi lift me mila "
" Yaaar mai nahi Jane wala tha isliye nahi bola par ab Jaana padega "
It was the party of the 2 year celebration of a music company , he thought he would come up with something to avoid going there... he hadn't been part of any party since two years... he didn't wanted to be now also , he knew he had to meet the hypocrite faces of the industry, people who stoop lower than one can imagine , people who tried every possible bad they could , people who call themselves friends as per convenience ... But ofcourse like every place there are good people also, like the owner of the company who started his career with acting . Sidharth knew him from long time and had seen his struggles & failures while setting up this company .The boy was very good with him when they were doing a show together, Sidharth had faith in his talent and he himself prayed for his success .. that's why he couldn't deny when he personally asked him to come.
" jab jana hi hai to khushi khushi jaa na aise munh mat sada " she said.
" Maine munh nahi sadaya bey ... aur abhi to gussa thi mere Jaane se "
" haaye rabba .. jaane se nahi thi .. na batane se thi... "
He had a peaceful smile on his face ... This girl could be a child in a second and could make him understand like a child in another second. She understood him like anything. And this was something natural in them... she understood his words through his eyes and could trace his eyes through his words. She didn't knew that this was not less than a task for him, to do things which was against his will but she unknowingly gave him the strength just with her few words...
" Okay !! To ham kal ka plan parso shift kare ?? " he asked.
" Haa theek hai ... sun to fir mai kal wale event ko haa bol rahi hu ... Maine ghar baithe bore hona hai... zada bada event nahi hai par unhe replacement chahiye Kisi emergency ki vajah se... bas last moment cheeze dekhni hai . "
" Haaa theek hai dekh le jaise tujhe theek lage .. par pichli baar wali gadhapanthi kari na to wahi aake utha k phekungaaa " he said warning her.
" haaye tu ek hi cheez k peeche pad gaya hai ... jaa yaar dafa hoja Maine ni karni baat jab dekho daant-ta rehta hai" she said in a crying tone.
" Mai daant nahi raha baby... theek hai abi relax kar. "
" hmmm "
" Aeeee theek se bol .. 'haaaa' aise Munh kholke " he said lightening her mood and she giggled.
He turned and saw his mother standing at the door and smiling at him. She was almost lost concluding the conversation just listening to his side. She came back to senses when he looked at her and she signalled him to continue and meet her later smiling widely .
He blushed and nodded.
" Chal meri ek meeting hai thodi der me mai raat ko milta hu "
" Okay bye "
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" Maa "
" Haa ?? ... aagaya ?? ... kab nikalna hai meeting k liye ?? "
" 1 ghante me .. "
" kal Party me jaa raha hai ?? "
" Haa ... sirf Ankush ko lekar jaa raha hu .. Vardaan ko vaise hi invitation aaya hai ... "
" tu itne time se in sab cheezo se door tha... abi bhi tu completely comeback nahi kar raha hai... party wagerah se news banegi... Shehnaaz ko kuch bhi is tarah pata lagna sahi nahi hai.. "
Sidharth got shocked suddenly with this thought and how come it didn't crossed his mind till now. He felt it so stupid of himself and looked up at maa.
" Maa mera dimag hi kharab hai ... mujhe usse kuch nahi chupana hai ... kabhi nahi chupana tha ... ye chupane wali cheez bhi nahi hai ... ek baar yaad aaya tha pr tab ye soch k nahi bola ki jab bataunga tab sab kuch bataunga waqt se ... par phir jab bhi uske sath hota tha ... ye sab kuch kabhi dhyan hi nhi aaya ... ye jaan k nahi kiya sach me kabhi mind me aaya hi nahi ye thought par ab aisa lag raha hai kitna galat kiya hai maine ."
" haaa .. karde ab apni overthinking ki dukaan chaalu !! ... kuch bigda nahi hai na abi ?? to fir ?? ... abi baat karlena ... jo tujhe samjha sakti hai wo khud kitni samajhdaar hogi vaise bhi " maa said and chuckled.
" aapko kaise pata ?? "
" uski baat nahi suni par teri to suni na ... andaaza lag gya " and they both laughed.
" Ye party utni badi nahi hai ... to itna kuch nahi hoga... kal use kaam hai to parso sab bataunga "
" Itna kuch nahi hai .. tu tension mat le .. " S.M said avoiding him to think much..
" kuch gadbad hui to aap ho na... aapke pas bhejunga usko... sambhaal lena " He said getting up and chuckled.
" Tu bol to sahi pehle " his mother said patting on his arm.
He kissed her and moved out of the house.
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Sana was getting bored at home so she called S.M . They had formed good bond in all these days . Even if they don't met daily, they talk, Sana tell her everything from her work details to what she had for her meals. She didn't discussed about Sidharth ever , but sometimes she mentioned going out with a friend, the places they went, some little things which she didn't knew will make out meanings but maa with her experience understood that the guy is special, his actions which she used to tell amongst her blabberings were caught by maa and she sensed the purity and thoughtfulness the guy had towards her. Maa used to smile unknowingly when Sana used to talk about him as maa could easily sense her feelings, all her respect, adoration, admiration, love which were laced in her voice. Maa was happy for her having such a guy as this pure soul deserve all the happiness of world but little did she knew it was her son only who was the source of the happiness of Sana's voice and the fulfiller of her wishes for Sana.
"Aunty aap ghar pe ho ?? " Sana asked her.
" Haa Bacche mai to ghar pe hi hu .. tu kaha hai ?? "
" mai bhi ghar pe hi hu .. mai soch rhi thi aapko milu . "
" to sochegi isme ?? aaja jaldi neeche mai gate khol rahi hu. "
"Haa... aayi.. "
Rita ji (S.M) was so excited to see her that she opened the gate already and was standing at the door . Sana reached at her floor in no time and saw rita ji standing and she rushed to hug her. She took her inside excitedly.
S.M - kabka bola tha maine tujhe ... aaj aai hai
Sana - time nahi mila aunty
S.M - acha bata kya khaegi ??
Sana - kuch nahi .. baat Karo bas
S.M - aise kaise ?? Mai khud banaungi ... Chal kitchen me baithte hai ... banate hue baat karenge ...
Sana - Ghar bahaut pyara hai aapka
S.M - haaa ?? ... mere bade bete ne design krwaya h mostly to
Sana - ghar pe koi nahi hai ??
S.M - nahi .. Bacche sab bahar gaye hai kaam se
Sana - Sarita aunty ??
S.M - abhi thodi der pehle hi unke ghar se aayi hu mai .
They talked for long and Sana soon felt like home , she already got some connected vibe from the home but of course there was no particular reason for her to think about this, S.M's affection towards her was no less than a mother's to her , Sana could tell her anything, ask her anything.
" haaye aapko pata hai sar itna dukh raha tha mera dopeher se to socha bahar nikalti hu " Sana said.
" bola kyu nahi pehle ... ruk tu aai mai "
S.M got up and came back with a bottle of hair oil.
" Aaja baith idhar " S.M said .
" haaye ... aap karoge sacchi " sana said excitedly getting up from the sofa .
She got up and kissed S.M on the cheek before sitting down on the floor, all in a second grinning widely . S.M smiled at her childishness and remembered Sidharth's similar habit of giving quick pecks. S.M massaged her head and Sana gave every possible relaxing expression making S.M laugh at her. She started messaging her temples which reminds her that it was always the starting point of massage whenever her mother used to do it for her.
" Mummy yaha se kyu beech se shuru karo naaa "
" Chup kar tu yaha se pehle sardard door hota hai "
" par aise kon shuru karta hai ?? "
" teri maaa "
She remembered this conversation which happened n number of times but still there was no change in the massage pattern , she secretly never even wanted it to change as it was her mother's special way , only she would do it this way. She was lost and S.M noticed her sudden silence. She bent slightly to sideways and noticed a tear rolling down from the corner of Sana's eyes.
" Sana !!! Bacche kya hua ??? Ro kyu rahi hai ?? " S.M asked her concernedly.
She came out of her thoughts and she felt like her mother is asking her why she is crying, the concern in S.M's voice was same. She didn't knew what came to her mind , actually nothing came to her mind she just turned facing her and looked upwards at S.M.
" Mummy ki yaad aagayi "
" to baat karle na Bacche " she said cupping her face.
Tears started flowing like a river, no sobs , no voice , just silent tears .
" wo phone nahi uthaengi... naraaz hai "
" koi baat nahi Bacche... maa-baap naraaz bhi hote hai tab bhi unka pyaar kam nhi hota... aur tu to itni pyaari hai tujhse kaise koi pyaar nahi karega. "
Her words gave her a slight hope. She believed S.M's words because she herself was a mother, Sana could trust with what she said but still , whatever Sana had felt in all these years didn't let her to hold on this hope for long.
" Pata nahi " she sighed and was about to keep her head on her lap but stopped herself.
" Zada mat soch... sab theek hojaega aur tab tak mai hu naa... mujhe maa samajh ... kuch bhi ho , kabhi bhi mummy ki yaad aaegi mere pas aana " S.M comforted her with her words and kept her head on her lap.
" oil lagega kapdo pe " Sana screeched.
" maa ko sikhaegi ?? " S.M said in a stern voice and she laughed.
" Sorry Sorry !! I love you ..... maa " Sana said giggling and digging her face in her lap and hugging her from waist.
" haaye mai chalti hu mujhe nahake fir kuch samaan lene jana hai ... late jaungi akele to fir meri band bajaega " she was blabbering finding her phone under the cushions.
S.M heard her and smiled .
" tu pyaar karti hai usko?? "
She startled at the sudden statement.
" hein ?? Kya bol rahe ho " Sana replied totally baffled.
" chal ab drame mat kar sab samajh aata hai " S.M laughed patting her cheek.
Sana kissed her and ran out of the house shouting bye to her all blushing and leaving S.M smiling at her.
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Shehnaaz reached her home, took shower and texted Sidharth that she was going out to the nearby mall to buy something for the next day's event. Sidharth told her to go with Ankush. Ankush reached her flat to pick her up.
" tujhe faltu jana pad raha hai meri vajah se " she said in a sad tone making a pout.
" are nahi re .. mujhe bhi mere kapde pick karne the ... "
" aisa hai .. fir koi chakkar nhi " she giggled.
She was highly confused what to buy and then picked up something not even thinking properly .. something in her, made her go with that attire only. She bonded with Ankush really well this time as they didn't got much to talk last time they met in hospital. She was happy to find people who she can call her friends here. Ankush was already getting the family vibe from her. He had already considered her a part. They came back , parked and just entered the lift.
She was moving inside when she felt someone holding her from shoulders . She was shocked for a nano-second but sensed who it was soon. Before she could react he bent forward snaking his arms around her neck and bit her cheeks. It looked a cute moment but only they knew what effect that every inch of touch had inside them even if it was just for seconds.
" Aaaah kutte ... " she winced rubbing her cheeks.
Sidharth and Ankush chuckled at the funny face she made. Ankush like last time felt being in an apparent world where this cute-romantic side of Sidharth , which nobody knew about was present in abundance. He didn't even bothered about Ankush watching them.
She was half turned when they heard a loud scream.
" heyyy Sid !! " the girl screamed.
Sidharth turned and the girl literally jumped over him. He was startled but balanced himself , he didn't liked it at all. Neither the action, nor the girl. He was a dignified man, and he neither shows nor accepts any unnecessary and inconsequential excitement or affection or closeness.
" How are you sweetheart !! " the girl asked keeping a hand on his shoulder.
" Uhhhh Arti please !! We can talk normally okay !! " Sidharth said removing her hand .
He didn't liked her getting close, he was not at fault but he still felt guilty of someone else touching him, he felt like he was responsible for not giving that right to anybody except his 'Naaz' and he didn't felt a bit bothered to not giving a damn if Arti gets offended, but he knew she won't. Because pretending was a part of people like her , pretending that they care, pretending that they are close to you.. and the funniest part is that both the sides know reality but still the pretending game is always on.
Shehnaaz who was standing behind him was shocked with the hug itself and then the girl calling him sweetheart, so that she didn't even heard further. It was weird for her mind to feel like what she felt, ofcourse he may have people in his life, some may be close, may be they call each other with sweet names. It was normal, she wasn't able to understand herself. Was she being orthodox?? But she didn't wanted to !!! But she wasn't able to tolerate anyone doing things which she felt special doing to him. She wasn't even getting good vibes from the girl.
" Aurrr aunty kaise hai ??? Aur Varun ?? Gayab hi hogaya yaar tu ... Vardaan k sath to hoga hi par contact me ... and he is your friend too .. right ?? " Arti asked questions with a weird authority in her tone and pointing at Ankush.
Ankush just smiled at her .
" Hii !! She's Shehnaaz .. a friend " Ankush played smart so that Shehnaaz could be introduced without letting Sidharth's name involved.
Ankush decided not to speak anything else as he didn't knew what Sidharth wanted .. that he wanted Shehnaaz to be introduced or not ??... Sidharth's mind was on Shehnaaz only. As what she would be thinking .. he felt ashamed of himself to not be able to do what he should have .. but he stopped himself for her only .. he can't do it now... not in front of this woman. atleast not before letting Shehnaaz know everything about his life.
Shehnaaz heard the girl asking about his family. She asked about people whom Shehnaaz knows by names only till now. She just felt it pinching the heart that he didn't made her meet his family even once but here this girl knows all about them. Does she hold a better place than her in his life ?? She didn't knew what to call this exact feeling. She felt bad for sure but she was angry too, but she has no right to be angry on him, as he never told her anything , maybe it was just her expectations.. She felt herself being selfish too.. just because she feels for him, she is feeling angry ... on whom she herself didn't knew , she is feeling angry for her own stupid expectations... She felt out of the place in their conversation.. like she doesn't fits in here.. She was so involved in her own thoughts and overthinking and imagining all the negatives possible outcomes of this situation that she didn't even noticed Sidharth wasn't even the part of conversation properly and was just replying for the sake of replying.
" Tumhe kaha jaana hai ??? " Ankush asked Arti.
" 9th floor .. Agnihotri's hai na ... dinner k liye ... kaafi tym se bula rahe the par mai busy hi itna hu kya karu " Arti replied bragging herself.
" kuch mat kar bass nikal " Ankush mumbled.
" haaa ?? Kya bola ?? " Arti asked confusedly.
" kuch nahi !! Floor aagaya aapka " Ankush replied faking a smile.
" Oh byee ... bye Sid ... Mai milke jaungi aunty ko okay agar late nahi hua to "
Ankush huffed as she left .
" Kitna pakati hai yaar " Ankush said to lighten Shehnaaz's mood but she didn't reacted.
He started moving out on next floor when Shehnaaz and Sidharth looked at him.
" Oye ye 10th hai itna asar hogaya kya dimag pe uski bakwas ka " Sana said trying to show that she was fine.
" Mai 2 floor chalke jaunga ... health conscious you know " Ankush replied winking at Sidharth.
Sidharth turned at Shehnaaz to take bags from her , she was looking down as not wanting to meet his eyes , she was feeling weird and more frustrated because she couldn't understand herself.. An unknown fear has raised inside her watching someone else with him but she felt herself stupid for that.
He tried to take away the bags when his phone rang in his other hand , they both saw the screen. His mom was calling him.
" Tu jaa abhi ghar late hogaya hai.. maa wait kar rahi hongi naa.. mai le jaungi ye to... koi chakkar nahi hai " she said still looking down where his hand holded her's.
She tried her best to behave sober but she couldn't control, her vision became blurry and a big tear drop fell down on his hand . He felt it and he wasn't shocked. He somehow knew that she might be hurt. But didn't knew what exact thing was making her cry. He couldn't see her in tears , his heart pained more than her's watching her like that..
He held her face and made her look up, her jawlines completely covered under his big palms . He looked at her eyes , left one then the right one , her eyelashes holding tiny drops of tears , her eyes and nose slightly red. Her eyes not looking at him first, but then met and then didn't even blinked. He couldn't think anything, no words came to his mind ... He didn't knew what exactly made her cry ... did something happened when he was not with her ... or she felt bad because of Arti , somewhere he had the idea of her possessiveness also ... this was a new situation for both of them and he had never seen how her possessiveness looks like ... but he never wanted it to be like this ... not in the form of her tears ...
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Here's the new update ... sorry for being late with this one ... my mind was messed up just like the title... but compensating it by making a long one ...
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