December 28

This is the last time. I will be writing in this diary. There is a lot I have to say. So this one will be longer than others. I'm not aware if I would live or not after the operation. So this is my only chance to say something to you.

Jimin, thank you so much for appearing in my life. I used to think of myself as just a boring nobody until I met you. You showed me a new phase. The phase of being in love. You made me feel spring despite the season. I cherished every little moment I spent with you. The happiness you brought me, it was something I never experienced so before. Thank you Jimin, I don't regret falling for you.

We aren't going to together. That's what fate wants. But whoever your special someone will be. They better treat to with all the love you deserve. And you too, work hard and achieve your dream. I couldn't mine.
I might sound selfish now, but I can't bare to fade away without being noticed. I do want you to acknowledge me. Not as someone special but as the person who was head over heels for you. The person who's mind would cheer up just by seeing you smile. The person who's ultimate cause of happiness were you. The person who used to watch you from afar. The only place I deserved to be. Afar.

So please don't ignore this and give me a tiny space in your big heart. Remember me as a fragmant of memory from your glorious university days. I will ask my friend to drop this diary in your bag today. No matter where you go, with whom you go, or what you achieve, please don't forget me. This diary may be nothing to you, but it's my life to me.

I'm admitted in the Seoul National Hospital. If I survive, we'll meet again.
I love you Jimin.

Yoongi

The final page stained of drops of tears. Old dried ones, as well as fresh wet ones that are flowing down Jimin's cheeks now.

He glances at the calender in his room. December 29.