24 august 2022

Several things have taken place these last few months that are leading up to today and my decision
I have decided to end it soon.. I don't know when but I m seeing the end is pretty close. I have thought about it for a while...should I write a suicide note before I finish it? No thats too little to sum up my feelings and I know for sure my parents will tear it apart....maybe video tapes like 13 reasons why? Hahaha no one listens to me when Im alive I bet no one will want to listen to dead me. I decided to write this diary expressing my feelings to the internet because whats the point in writing angry letters complaining to people and them reading it when you are dead. You complain to people because you expect something from them but by the point they are reading it you are gone. I don't want my family or friends to find this, no not because "I dont want them to suffer" or anything like that but because I know for a fact its not gonna change the past and I'll be gone.

I am writing this because I want to leave something to my name in the world..atleast someone who heard my reasons and remembers me even if they are an online stranger.

I'll be writing the diary not regularly but whenever I feel like writing.