Broken and beaten

Bruised and battered

Sorry to break a promise

When my heart just shattered

I try so hard

I really really do

I can't help but bleed

Every time I think of you

I want this to stop

I wanna push you away

You could be the death of me

And yet I still stay

Don't tell me you love

I should do the same

sometimes I can't tell if it's true

Or if this is just a game

I'm so confused

My mind is in shambles

Love isn't a game

But we're both taking a gamble

If only you could see

The things I keep hidden

You'd know why my secrets

Are absolutely forbidden

Do you trust me enough

Not to break and not leave

If I walked away right now

Would your heart start to bleed

I know mine would

If you ever left

It would be the end of me

It would be my death

I hate my heart

That gives you so much control

You have my heart

In a strong death hold

I don't like this

I hate it so much

And I've tried to pull away

But I never have any luck

The past three nights

When the moon was up high and stars came out

I sat all alone outside

With a knife, some pills, and my doubt

How are you so sure

That you won't find someone else

I've let you in after years

Of being alone and by myself

And sometimes I feel

As though you don't care

But I don't blame you

It'll just be more pain to bare

Don't say I didn't warn you

Because I'm warning you now

I'm unstable as fuck

And I'll only bring you down

All the doubt and insecurities

Will make me rash and foolish

It's just fear

That makes me blind and stupid

If you are reading this

I hope you take the hint

Yes I do love you

So please don't take offense

If you can't promise

To be mine and only mine

Then leave now

Please don't waste our time

If you you can promise

Then I'll trust your word is true

I'll promise the same

And it'll just be me and you

forever