Will people continue to misunderstand an introvert? Can an introvert never live his/her life merrily? I wish I could. Is being an introvert a sin? Does accepting my introversion and being content with it make me a criminal? For how long is the society going to see introversion as a thing to be fixed and for how long do the introverts have to raise their voices against this misfortune? Will it ever end ,This fight for acceptance? How long will the general public take to understand that not all people like to hang out, chatter continuously and be the centre of attention? Will it remain unresolved? Will people continue to see introversion as an 'issue to be fixed'? Will these questions remain forever unanswered? Next you will go and publish a book named 'The conspiracy of Introverts'.

Ok fine you don't have to accept me. But who gave you the right to mock me for being myself? You say you want to involve everyone and that includes me too, fine. But what about what I want? I am not against you. Its a good thing that you want everybody's participation. But it's just not me. Don't you get it? I feel anxious and awkward around people. You say you are my friend but at the same time you are mocking me and calling me crazy just for being myself. Just because I am not like others you call me abnormal. It feels bad you know, maybe you don't because others may not be affected by such small things but it affects me. I feel bad. Yes I don't tell you that to your face because I don't want you to see that your words affect me.

Some say that it gets better with time. But I don't want it to get better. I want a fair acceptance- be it introverts or extroverts. I don't have any sense of belonging now. I feel like I am from another planet. I feel alienated. Most of the times its okay to me as I don't want to fit in. But in some of my darker days I feel lonely. During those days I cry and keep on asking God why didn't he make me as others. It would have been easier to fit in. Then I would not had to battle with the whole lot of people. Its like I am on one side and the whole world is on the opposite side and there's no one by my side. So it's obvious that I feel lonely.

At every moment I am battling with myself, my emotions. So you see I have too much going on wih myself and you say I have no idea of the outside world and what goes on beyond my circle. Oh boy! You have no idea. Even when I am trying to make you understand my perspective, you are there with only your ears open; your mind and heart shut down and you are like " what the hell is she talking about?" Maybe I am too complex for you to understand. You like the shallow end I like the deep one. I had so much to say only if you had understood. Maybe my words are beyond your understanding.......afterall.

To some this writing may seem as a pathetic one but you have no idea how hard it was for me. After writing this i feel so weary. I feel like i have lost all my energg. Too much socialising I guess! Lastly, I would say this I don't think that an extrovert will ever be able to understand an introvert the way another introvert will understand. But I really feel good when I get to connect with all the other innies out there! Social media has its advantages afterall. So yeah 'It's okay to be an introvert' and you people have no idea about 'the mind of an introvert'.

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Happy to be an introvert. Post your comments below. Happy reading!