Seokjin's Pov:

Tears streamed down my face as I stared at Jungkook, waiting for his answer to the questions I had; finding out that my husband had a serious illness that could take him away from me and our daughter was the most devastating news I have ever received.

Jungkook looked at me, "it's in the early stage; I see the best in the field, Dr. Choi, who specializes in this. I have done some radiation sessions already. Right now, I do radiation five times per week. It's not as bad as it sounds. I will be fine, don't worry yourself."

I stared at him in disbelief; he wanted me not to worry; how could I not worry? How could I possibly not worry?! My heart breaks to know he had been withholding this information from me. I know things haven't been great between us, but Jungkook is my everything; he is my entire world, I cannot lose him. And now, he wants me not to worry. That's an unfair request.

"You don't get to tell me not to worry, and this is serious, Jungkook; you can die. I can be alone at any time, and our daughter can have one less parent than she has today, so how could I possibly not worry now, and when were you going to tell me? We are in therapy working on our marriage-" I stopped myself from going any further and wiped away my tears. I was getting too emotional, and I knew I would say things that probably wouldn't be good for me to say to him, but I am hurt. He kept this from me. What was he thinking? Did he think I wouldn't care?

Taking a deep breath, I stared at him, making my tone very stern as I spoke, wanting him to know I was serious, "I need every detail on your appointments, I need the detailed records from this Dr. Choi and all other appointments you have going forward. I need to be there. I am your husband. You do not get to decide this without me, I know I have been selfish, and I have done things maybe I shouldn't have, but I can't have you playing Russian roulette with your life when I am going to be left here as a broken spouse with a broken child."

"Seokjin, you don't need-"

"Don't tell me what I need or don't need, you do not think for me, I think for myself and what you have done hiding this from me is not okay Jungkook, it's not okay. You are selfish!" I screamed at him; how could he think this was okay? I have been accusing him, and I have been thinking all the wrong things while he is in pain. He is suffering without my knowing; how could he keep this from me?

"What if something had happened to you? What if you had one day gone to work and not come home or gone to sleep and not wake up. How would I explain to our daughter that you died of something I didn't even know you had? How would I cope with that Jungkook? Did you think of any of this while playing hide and seek with an illness?"

I'm sorry, but I couldn't stop talking. I was upset, hurt, worried, and scared. I didn't know what this meant, and I felt like I failed him. How little did I know? I am sure he hid from me that he was sick because he believed I wouldn't care and that hurts me. After all, no matter what, I do care. I care about my husband; I love him.

Taking a seat on the bed and pulling me into his lap, Jungkook said, "Seokjin, I am sorry. I was not intentionally hiding things from you when I found out, things were already starting to go downhill between us, and we separated. I didn't want the changing of your mind concerning our marriage because of my illness, and considering it's at the early stage, I figured I could work through it while we work on our marriage, but now hearing you and seeing how hurt and betrayed you feel, I took the wrong approach, and you are right, I was selfish and inconsiderate of how this could impact you and Ae Ri."

As the tears continued to flow, I couldn't understand why everything around me was so bleak. Nothing was holding up, and I had no idea what to do. I leaned my head against his chest without being able to say anything; I wish I could rewind our life some years and undo a lot of things that have caused us to be where we are now.

"I am going to be okay, I promise. I am not going anywhere," he says, leaning down and kissing my forehead, something I had missed him doing, but at this moment, my heart was breaking because I didn't know how valid those words were.

While I hate to take time off from work to get things back to normal, I think I need to take some time to get out of this mess and get my family back in order. If it were me, Jungkook would have been there with me every step of the way, and I need to work on doing the same for him.

Now, this doesn't help that I am pregnant and high risk, and while I was debating whether I should keep this baby or not, now hearing he is sick has me looking at things differently. He will probably hate me if I decide to have another abortion for selfish reasons.

As I take a deep breath, I plan to call Jimin in the morning to inform him of my plans. I may be able to work from home at any time. It's not like I would need time off for too long, but to be home for a couple of days, just to sort through things and figure out where Jungkook is with his treatment.

Later that night, when Jungkook and I laid in bed and I cuddled up next to him as he slept, I didn't. I could not sleep. It all came flooding back to my mind; everything that'd happened recently, the sexual assault, being pregnant, Jungkook's illness, Ae Ri's well-being, work, it all clouded my mind. I had a terrible headache, and I felt so overwhelmed. I was lying next to him, trying to figure out how I would get through it all. I had an important meeting tomorrow, one where I could do via video or go in just for the meeting time. Then, I had to have appointments with the doctor to monitor the baby, and then Jungkook, finding out where he is at with his treatments. Furthermore, I have to continue working on my relationship with Ae Ri; thinking about everything I wanted to scream, I felt like I would explode.

I began wondering if the therapist we started seeing for our marriage counseling could see me alone, for a one-on-one. I can't function like this.

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As soon as Jimin saw me, he rushed over to me and hugged me, "I am so sorry, I tried calling you, I-"

"It's okay Jimin, please don't stress yourself." I tried assuring him, returning his hug as he cried.

"I got so caught up at the office that-"

"Jimin, seriously, it's fine. I am not concerned about that, there is something else I want to talk to you about, but I understand you want to talk to me too from your text this morning, is everything okay?" Jimin had sent me a text before me driving saying he needed to talk to me, but I figure it was relating to the incident with Namjoon.

He pulled away from me and looked down at his feet, "this might come off as sudden, but it's something I have given a lot of thought to, and Yoongi, he and I have been talking as well, and he has made some changes. He has been making a lot of changes, and we have decided it's best until after the baby is born, I take some time off from work. I know we are in a busy season right now, and I have many clients that I have been working with, but I have been working very closely with Jihyun, and she understands a lot of what I have been doing.

The heavier clients, of course, I would transition back to you, just until I return. I thought of taking my leave starting next month to allow for a smooth transition of duties and returning perhaps four months after I have the baby. Still, I am open to your input too, as I know it's all subjected to your approval, except for what I am already allotted per the company's policy."

My heart dropped as I looked at Jimin in confusion; this was not what I had hoped for, I was hoping to lean on him for a month or two while I worked things out in my house, but that hope is gone now. No one else besides Jimin was trusted with my company and for being in charge when I wasn't around.

Taking a deep breath, I smiled at him, "I am happy you are taking time off. I am sure if you are requesting this, it's because you need it. Working while pregnant can be an exhausting and challenging time for us, so I understand why you would need a break. A company like this takes so much from us, we sometimes need a break to make ourselves stronger again, so I am supportive of your decision to take time off.

Please let's work closely together in the next few weeks, so I know how you are doing with clients, and I can make sure work is distributed evenly among the directors. Key clients will be retained with me while I evaluate Jihyun's suitability to fill in."

Jimin smiled happily and hugged me, "oh my gosh, thank you so much. I thought you would be taken back by my request."

He was right; I was taken back, but not for the reason he thought. However, at this moment, I was unable to be selfish. Rather than operating with emotion, I needed to think strategically. It is in times like these where my father's lessons will help.

"I am surprised, but I am happy you are doing what you want for you. I am sure this wasn't easy."

"It wasn't, but I have thought about what you have said, and I want to work on my marriage. I don't want because of my career I lose out on my family. It's not fair to the kids, and it's not fair to Yoongi. He is going to start working, actually got a producer offer, with HYPE-"

"Wow, congrats to him, that's amazing!"

"I know, I know, I am proud of him too. But know this even though I am taking time, if I need to log in from home to help, I can-"

"Jimin, don't. I want you to take this time as you have requested. I will be fine here, and I got this." I smiled at him assuringly. I don't know how I was going to do it. I could already feel myself crashing.

Jimin smiled, "I know you do, but how are you feeling? I know it's probably hard to talk about what happened, but are you okay? Is everything okay? Sorry, I bombarded you with nonsense; I should have asked about your well-being before doing that."

It's okay, don't worry about it. It hasn't been an easy couple of days with what has happened, but I am fine, and later today, I am meeting with my marriage counselor for a one-on-one session just to help me with this. "Everything's fine, and I'm doing my best to navigate through life." But nothing is fine, and I fail miserably at everything. It seems impossible to go on bed rest with this kind of news.

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Apologies for the errors you had to endure while reading, it's late, but this chapter was pressing on me so had to get it out.