"Do you feel better now?" Jungkook asked as he wrapped his arms around Jin, pulling him down to sit next to him.

"I do. But what happens if, despite all the treatments, you are not cured? Doesn't it make more sense to do the surgery?" Jin had just received confirmation that his husband was only at stage two, and even though this wasn't great news, it made him feel better knowing they weren't going to have to deal with the worst.

"We will cross that bridge once we get there; however, I think the treatments will work, there have been one or two small improvements, and generally, it will take some months after treatment for me to find out about its effectiveness, and we have to believe that it will work. At the time I learned about surgery, it was not the best option for me. While radiation comes with many risks, it made sense as the better option back then, and it offers a good chance of curing me. Therefore, you need not worry about anything. I have just shown you all the stats, and if you want to call the doctor tomorrow, you can do so at the number I gave you. If you don't have too much on your plate tomorrow, you can come with me and ask all the questions you have, so you can feel more confident knowing that something else can kill me before this does."

"Why didn't you think it was the best option before?" Jin gripped Jungkook's hand, leaning his head against his shoulder. "Yes, I think it would be best if I came with you tomorrow. I need to understand this better. It's not that I don't believe you; I need to know more about this.

Knowing you, you like modifying things and making them sound simple, so I don't get hurt or worried, and I don't want you to do that. I must know the full details of all side effects and what should be expected after this series of treatments. Including the survival rate after treatment and how long it takes for someone to be cured after all of the treatment. I find these things important, and I want to get a better grasp of them.

I don't need a simple answer from you saying you are fine and how many treatments you have done thus far or a chart you could have created. I know you are a doctor, and you are aware of these things, but I want to explore further with your physician the pros and cons of you pushing through this."

Jungkook sighs, "I understand. I encourage you to come tomorrow to ask all your questions, as even if I answer them, you will doubt me. Furthermore, it's not like I'm modifying things for you, but honestly, I don't want you to worry right now, as you are undergoing a high-risk pregnancy. Stress and worrying about things that will be fine should be the least on your mind right now. In response to your question, I chose not to have surgery then because I did not want to give up on the chance of us having another child. This was before the news broke that you are expecting. My decision was based on my concerns about that.

While radiation does not eliminate that risk, there is still a possibility. However, now that you are pregnant, I do not have an interest in that risk. Besides that, I have thought about our future and our sexual life, and I was concerned that I would be the kind of husband who denied you something. Then giving you the chance to leave me-"

After sliding on Jungkook's lap, Jin straddled him, holding Jungkook's face and looking into his eyes; he said, "I understand your concern, but please let me tell you, no matter what happens, I will never leave your side. My relationship with you is not based on sex or because that was all I ever needed. You are my husband, and I cannot imagine my life without you. Jungkook, I am with you because I love you. Further, you have tolerated years of my mess, through and through. I will never leave you when you need me most. It would help if you did not worry about those things. Your primary focus should be on getting better. We are expecting another baby, and I will make sure I do my part not to cause another loss.

As I said, I recognize I have a problem. I know the process of fixing that problem won't be easy, but I plan to stay in therapy until I get it done. After reviewing former performance reports, the decision to promote some individuals who can help me more has already been made. I think this one employee could help out in Jimin's role, so I'm thinking about elevating them to an assistant role. They can build a partnership with him when he returns and help him out with some of the burdensome tasks I have pushed down onto him. I have a lot to think about in terms of restructuring, and I'll work on that later tonight to figure things out."

Grabbing Jin tightly, Jungkook said, "thank you for reminding and reassuring me of this. You were the one I needed to hear it from. I know a lot of what you will be doing won't be easy, but know I am here to help in any way I can. The best part is you realizing this, and in realizing it, I suggest you don't maybe work tonight. With everything your doctor says, and with your therapist's suggestions, why not let us try something else at home instead of you working at night?"

Jin stared at his husband, began chewing on his lips, "Okay, we can do that, but can I check one thing? It's an email I am waiting for a response for and-"

"Let's watch a movie together."

"Jungkook, please, it's only one email I want to check for; you can sit right here and watch me. I won't do anything else if you make me check this one. If I don't, it's going to be on my mind all night, and I won't be able to sleep thinking about it."

Jungkook looked at his husband's pleading eyes and caved, "just one email, that's it."

"Thank you!" When Jin jumped off Jungkook's lap, he found his work phone. Unlocking it, he went straight to his emails. "I knew she had written back. We have a new key client; if I close a ten-year deal with her, that would be a great deal for the company."

Jungkook looked at his husband and said, "You will do it."

While he was typing on his phone, Jin glanced at him, "you think so?"

"I am sure of that, Seokjin. You do an excellent job at what you do."

Jin smiled as he finished his response to the email and sent it before putting his phone on the table and walking over to Jungkook, "come take a shower with me."

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Jimin stared at his best friend in disbelief, "Seokjin, you waited until now to tell me this? I would not have taken time off had I known-"

"Jimin, stop, that's why I didn't tell you and why all the time we have spoken, I kept it away. I didn't want to share until after you had your baby. This time off was necessary for you, and you deserve it. I'm fine, trust me. I've been working on some restructuring. I even hired a company that specializes in helping businesses with restructuring to help me. They've helped me a lot, and I am working on a few promotions based on some of the previous recommendations that you had given. Things are going fine; no need for you to worry."

"You are pregnant at high risk; Jungkook has cancer, Seokjin there is a lot for me to worry about. I cannot believe you waited so long to let me know this? Seokjin, I can work. I'm just at home trying to parent, and that's not fun. It's a lot more exhausting than work, especially with a newborn. I regret all the times I yelled at Yoongi because, to be honest, I am not sure how he did it. It's so hard. There are always a lot of needs, and then everyone wants something different for dinner. The truth is, I'm terrible at home. I am a rock star at work, but I'm an idiot at home. We were in the ER two nights ago because of my fuckup, and they have allergies I didn't know they had. Yoongi was actually calm about it. He didn't throw it in my face. Seeing his reaction made me feel less like a horrible parent."

As Jin reached out to hold Jimin's hand, he said, "I am sorry I kept this from you, but I didn't want you to worry, especially with your stuff going on. Your words make me realize that this was the best choice you ever made. Like me, you've lost touch with your family, the things you should know about them, you don't know, especially about the kids. I realize how much I failed Ae Ri, and it's a mess. Therefore, please take this opportunity to address your relationship with them and with your husband wholeheartedly.

My goal is to do that, and I am learning that it is okay to make mistakes because I am not perfect. However, I need to be careful not to think that my apologies will solve everything, especially when putting my work before them. Yoongi probably kept a cool head with you since he sees how hard you are trying and, for once, you placed your family's needs first. That's what he appreciates, and as your husband, he deserves the best you can give him."

Tears fell from Jimin's eyes, and he nodded, "you are right, you are right. He has told me this too, I want to mend what I have destroyed between us, and I am sorry about what went down with Namjoon, I-"

"Jimin, please, don't hold yourself to that; I am okay. Namjoon was sick; you can't fix that." Leaning forward, he wiped away Jimin's tears, "you are forever my best friend; nothing can change that."

With a smile, Jimin wiped his eyes, "thank you, so tell me truthfully, how are you holding up with everything? No pretense, please."

Jin's eyes filled with tears as he replied, "It's hard; there's nothing easy about it. However, things are getting better with therapy and stuff, along with Jungkook and me working on us. Jungkook seems to be doing okay, and the doctors' words were reassuring when I met with them some months ago, but I have no idea. All this restructuring and stuff need to be completed by next month as my doctor has threatened to admit me to the hospital for the rest of my pregnancy. The doctor said there is a strong possibility I will lose this child. I simply cannot lose another, not after listening to Jungkook on some things he had to say and his concerns on why he didn't get surgery. Right now, I do want us to have this baby. I have already started bonding with him, and Ae Ri is excited too. We did his nursery last weekend, and it was a lot of fun for all of us.

In the next month, I'll stop going into the office. I think I found an interim CEO that will work well until I can return. Before I decide, I wanted to ask if you could interview her and provide your thoughts. You won't have to come into the office; a virtual interview is fine. In addition to all this, I have been getting headaches and dizziness. Sometimes to the point of feeling as if I am going to fall over while walking."

Jimin stared at his friend, concerned, "have you spoken to Jungkook or your doctor about this? And of course, I can interview her, that's fine. I believe you are making the right decision here. It does not make sense for you to come so far in your pregnancy to lose another baby, so you should follow the doctor's advice."

"I don't want to worry Jungkook; I'm sure it's nothing, my doctor monitors me too, so it's fine. Thank you for agreeing to meet with her; I'll set that up, and don't worry, I'll follow the doctor's advice."