I want to emphasize that I am not a professional in this field, therefore, do not hold me to any of the below recommendations, as they are specific to the plot I am writing.

Errors, well you know how that goes, 😩.

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The doctor waited patiently for Jin to finish what he was doing on his phone. She saw him smile and relax into the chair after he finished. It was almost as if a considerable weight had been lifted off his shoulders.

"I promise I won't look at it again until I leave here," Jin said, smiling at her as he turned his phone face down and made sure the volume was off since he knew if he heard it, he would be tempted to look at it. He knew he would still be tempted to look even if he couldn't hear, as he worried he might miss something important and time-sensitive. His anxiety increased during times like these, but he needed to focus and appreciate the time Dr. Chye set aside for him.

"It's okay; I am glad you managed to get what you needed to be done. Some things need our immediate attention and are time-sensitive. In the same way as our meeting today, I canceled other appointments and made you a priority because I believe you need my help today."

Jin nodded and smiled, "I really appreciate what you've done for me. The only thing I know is that I want to be better, and do better, for my family, my job, my life, everything I want it all to be better than it is right now."

"I am glad to be able to help you today, and I am glad to be here for you. As I can see, you want better; otherwise, you would not have taken the initiative to be here today. Over the years, I have learned as a professional that there is no point in helping someone who is not interested in receiving help. I have the best success in my job when I meet with a person who acknowledges that they have a problem and need help.

You have come here because you knew something was wrong, and you are at a point where you want to make things right, and I admire your commitment to that goal. Thus, I want you to give yourself credit for wanting better in the first place: giving yourself credit for having the courage to want this."

Jin took a deep breath, but he was silent as he toyed with his fingers; he had so much going on in his head that he didn't know how exactly to respond to Dr. Chye.

As Dr. Chye watched the shift in Jin's body language, the slouch in his shoulders, and the shifting of his eyes away from her, she spoke, not wanting to lose him as he began to internalize everything. Whatever he was holding in, she wanted to bring it out.

"You mentioned something earlier, but I almost missed it since it was so rushed. So this is what I would like to talk about first before talking about anything else. What happened when you said you were sexually assaulted?"

Jin took a deep breath as he shifted uncomfortably in his seat, "t-this new client, he-" closing his eyes, Jin tried to hold back the tears that threatened to fall. As Dr. Chye realized this, she grabbed the box of napkins and gave it to him, "Here, it's okay, take your time." Her encouragement was evident as it was painful for him to explain the situation, but she did not want to overlook what she had learned as he had brushed it off earlier, and she saw that as a warning sign.

Wiping his eyes, Jin kept his head down, he didn't like crying in front of others, but he couldn't help what he was feeling, remembering the night with Namjoon and the questions of what-ifs that surfaced.

"One of my clients attempted to rape me." Jin stops himself in his tracks. He couldn't understand why this had happened to him; taking a deep breath, he spoke again, "I don't know what I did wrong to make him think it was okay. The first thing I told him was that I was married, the second was that I did not like him; maybe I got too personal with him, I don't know.

I was at work today, meeting with clients, and with the entire time being around them, I began to feel paranoid, wondering if they were thinking of me in the same way he was or if I was doing anything to make them want to do what he did to me.

Dr. Chye, I feel powerless and broken, but I am trying to be strong because I have to. My daughter needs me, Jungkook needs me, the company needs me. But I am crashing down right now. I have this pressure in my head, stiffness in my neck, and an ache in my shoulders that won't go away. I don't know what to do."

Dr. Chye leaned over her chair and stared at Jin, "listen to me, I want you to know that you had absolutely nothing to do with that client's behavior. Neither you nor anything you said or did cause him to harm you. He decided to do what he did since that is what he wanted to do. You were a victim of his actions.

It's okay to feel paranoid, to feel hurt, to be concerned about your safety. It would be strange if you didn't feel those things. Having been sexually assaulted, it's not fair that anyone would expect you to feel fine afterward.

However, you should not think that you encouraged this behavior or that you caused it to occur. I assure you that you did not. Although unfortunately, it is impossible to control the actions of others, this client made a horrible choice that now harmed you, and I apologize for what he did."

Suddenly, Jin broke down in tears, no longer able to hide his feelings; the heavy burden that had been weighing him down fell away as he bawled rather than cry.

Seeing him like that hurt Dr. Chye deeply; she disliked seeing victims suffer because they were mistakenly believed to have done something wrong when it was the perpetrators who hurt them.

Jin wiped his tears from his eyes and blew his nose, then whispered a sorry to Dr. Chye, who shook her head, "I don't want to hear you apologize for crying. I won't judge you for anything you say or do here, and this is a reserved space for you. I am here to help you become the 2.0 version of who you want to be. You are a good person, don't believe anything otherwise."

Hearing her say this made Jin smile, even as tears continued trickling down his cheek, "t-thank you. I feel a bit better after crying."

"It's okay; sometimes we all need a good cry." Dr. Chye responded with a smile, handing Jin another box of napkins, "crying isn't weakness as many think. Crying is such a powerful and liberating experience. Do not consider yourself weak just because you cry. When we suppress our tears, we do more damage than good."

Jin smiled as he sniffled and blew his nose, "thanks, I will have to remember that going forward."

"Good. Please do that. The next thing I want us to discuss is your pregnancy and what you are feeling. In your statement, you said you are uncertain if you want to have this baby, but you also say that you are unsure if you will have another child in the future with your husband facing cancer. Is that correct?"

Shaking his head, Jin nodded, "I do want to have the baby, but with work and the things I have to do, I don't know if it's possible."

"Hmm, okay, I understand. Alright, let's do this. I want you to tell me without giving it any thought if you were to lose your role at your company, or your family, which would be the hardest for you to live without?"

"My family, of course. I can't imagine myself without my husband or my daughter. Jungkook is my rock. He does not know how much I depend on him for strength every day. He has been with me throughout every step I have taken. I don't know how to explain it, Dr. Chye, but there is no one like my husband; he is selfless, I guess that's what makes him such a great doctor, and why I am so hurt that he is now being held back with this illness because he doesn't deserve to be sick if anything that should be me, but not him.

I see so many similarities between him and my daughter: she is intelligent, thoughtful, and compassionate. Since we have spent so much time together in the last month, I've felt furious at myself for taking them for granted."

Dr. Chye took her time to write down some notes, and then she looked back at Jin, "thank you for sharing this with me and responding so honestly. Why don't we do this? When you go home today, I want you to tell your husband and daughter just one thing you appreciate about them and why you are happy that you guys are a family. Do you think you can do that?"

"Yes, of course, I can."

"The next time we meet, let's have that as one task for you as completed. Next, let's take a look at what's happening at work. In addition to family, your job means a lot to you, but I understand that you give more to your job than you do to your family even though, without any hesitation, your family is the most valuable part of your life."

"I am afraid of disappointing my father. Growing up, both my parents were hard workers, and they always believed that you must work hard so that your family can live well. That is why my father didn't give the company to me voluntarily. While I was pregnant with Ae Ri, he characterized me as a reckless idiot and asked me how I would take care of a family and run a company simultaneously. After hearing those words, I pondered whether having Ae Ri was a wise decision, but I followed through regardless since I didn't want to hurt my husband's feelings by deciding what he wasn't happy with.

In actuality, Jungkook and I had planned out our lives before we got married. I remember telling him even before we got married that I wanted two boys and one girl. It's weird, I was the one who wanted kids, but he was just willing to oblige. I expected that we would live a simple, everyday life. In school, I studied business, and he studied medicine; it had always been his dream to become a doctor, especially one in the hospital; however, when I became responsible for the business, he left that dream behind and put it aside.

After a sudden stroke, my father couldn't continue to run the business the same way he did before. Because I am his only child, he handed it to me, and everything in my life changed. It changed my marriage, and it changed my plans with my husband. It shifted a lot, and now that I have said all this, I realize that he made so many compromises to accommodate the changes that happened, and I- gosh, I-I h-have taken him for granted-," Jin couldn't finish as he began to cry again.