30th January, 2021

Dear Diary,

                  Its been two days now and I've been holding myself pretty good. The kids however are still depressed and angry. They loved their father so much. It must be very hard on them especially at such a young age.

But they still sometimes say to me that they wanna see dad. Why!? That person left us! He threw us away like trash. How could they still think about seeing him.

I strictly told them not to talk to me about him. They mostly stay in their rooms now while I spend my time taking care of Oliver alk day.

I told the kids they don't need to go to school for while. They need some time off. I didn't wanna force them and or overwhelm them at such a critical time.

But I don't understand why they look upset with me. They won't talk to me like we used to. They just stay cooped up in their room. Only when its time to eat do I have to drag them out of their rooms.

Our family is broken into millions of pieces. But I HAVE to try to make my kids feel better. Seeing them in grief makes my heart hurt.

I'll protect you my children. I swear.