Today, I'm at a different coffee shop. Now I can say I'm addicted to this beverage, as I gaze at the plastic renewable cup in my hand. It is warm, but I think I love the warmth.

I'm in a navy green top, sleeves only reaching my elbow and dark blue jeans tucked into oxblood boots. This shop, although local, was better organized than the last one. Rectangular wooden tables situated at strategic points of the room, with customers around each of them.

Today I am not reading a book. After what happened the other day, I've been freaked out.

I ran after Jay, rather with Jay. We ran until I was out of breath; we ran for twenty minutes, I think. Jay kept saying to go to a safe place, where he could tell me everything. He told me everyone had the ability to read the thoughts of other people, if you're unable to shut them out. That wasn't the problem, but the fact that he too read thoughts. I was angry. I was so pissed, he had been invading my privacy for, what, years now.

I didn't remember everything I did, but I recall screaming at him, I remember tears spilling from my eyes. I had never felt so betrayed in my life. He tried to hold me but I pulled away; he looked hurt, but I didn't care. I wasn't thinking at that point. I wonder if he was reading my thoughts even then. He knew I was crushing on him all these years, yet he chose to say nothing about it. He went ahead to date Abigail. Not just this, many more secret I kept to myself, he knew them. But just chose to say nothing. I've never felt so vulnerable in my life.

Maybe he had always known I didn't see other people's minds,  in fact,  he did know. I thought he was my friend, he only mocked me. Mocked my intelligence. Mocked our friendship and whatever value I stood for.

Knowing that I can't ever have privacy ever made me even weak. I just tried to think less around people. Ama said to meet here, she knew a few people like me, and how they have been surviving. That's why I am sitting at yet another coffee shop.

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More things are beginning to go down for Lara girlie.

What do y'all think?
I'm anxious just as well!

Bring in your thoughts. I love y'all so much!

What will Ama tell Lara? We'll get to know about this tomorrow, right? Yes!

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Ally