Feb. 7, 2008

Boy drama. Family drama. Supernatural drama.

It never ends, does it?

Paul likes to come and go from my life as he pleases, and I truthfully no longer know how I feel about the infuriating boy anymore. He tells me that he cares about me, but he doesn't want to; that last part is obvious enough without him saying it out loud. He says that we're friends, but he doesn't act like it. He acts like a jerk, but then leaves me a sweet and thoughtful Christmas gift right after saying that he should keep his distance from me. It'd be easier if he just decided what he wanted and left it at that.

And Elena... Tyler says that there's a cure for vampirism, and it's buried on an island off the coast of Nova Scotia. There was a lot that he didn't tell me about how Jeremy was the key to finding it, and I'm probably glad that he kept the details to himself. But what if Elena gets to be human again, and she no longer has to live her life as a vampire? My family could be semi-normal again.

And then there's the matter of what Paul and Embry are. I'm not stupid, and I'm not clueless. I know the signs well enough to know when things aren't adding up, and the signs might as well be written on a neon billboard. Their strength, the way that they run usually hot, none of them look their age, and they're all so distant and so secretive all of the time.

I suppose the real question isn't — 'What are the boys?' The question is — 'Do I really want to know?'

I left Mystic Falls because I wanted to be rid of the vampire problem. It would be just my luck that all I did was move into a different supernatural population.

Will my life ever be normal again?