"started with a little bit, now I don't know how to quit"

the neighbourhood — "void"

"Ryker! If I have to see your ass one more fucking time—!" The loud words come out of my mouth when I open the door to our common room and see Ryker wiggling his ass towards Ada's room. I immediately close my eyes and let out a long sigh when Ada's laugh hit my ears, I look at her on the couch enjoying my annoyance. "What are you laughing at? I don't want to see your boyfriend's ass every time I come from work!" I grab a pillow to throw it at her. Even if I tried my best, she easily dodges it.

"He has a cute ass!" Ada says shrugging her shoulders.

"Yes I do!" Ryker says on the other side of the door. "But I'm sorry!"

"What were you guys doing anyway?" I ask dropping my backpack on the floor to sit down next to Ada. Before my best friend replies, I remember my phone dying while at work so I grab it from my back pocket, turn to the coffee table on the right side of the couch and take away the strange phone charging to immediately plug mine.

"That's Ryker's phone." Ada says by my side. I turn to her, shaking my head.

"I just saw that boy's ass, it's fine."

"He was just changing. He bought new underwear and is very proud of them, wanted to show them to me."

"Proud of them? What, he bought star wars underwear or something?"

"No!" Ada says and I lift an eyebrow. "Alright, yes he bought star wars underwear but just one! And they're really cute, you have to see them."

"Oh, no." I immediately shake my head. "I already saw his ass multiple times in these two weeks you guys have been officially dating, I don't want to see his package right in front of my face, thank you very much."

Ada slaps my arm. "I meant when he's not wearing them!"

"Then be more specific next time! I don't know what you and your boyfriend get up to." Ryker walks out of Ada's room fully clothed and with his backpack in hand, ready to leave. "Your girlfriend just asked me for a threesome." I say jokingly but my serious expression doesn't let Ryker see that. He immediately locks eyes with me surprised, like a bucket of cold water just fell on him.

"What—?" His voice cracks.

This is hilarious.

"Lilith!" Ada grabs a pillow and hits me with it. "I didn't, Ryker. She's just joking like she always does."

I let out laugh. "It's fun!"

"Baby," Ada says getting up from the couch and walks towards Ryker, who just calmed down from my joke "you seriously need to get used to her jokes."

I let out a another laugh.

"I never know when's she's joking! She's so serious about it!" He defends himself.

"I love it when I can make your boyfriends freak out." I rest more comfortably on the couch when both Ada and Ryker walk towards the door.

"Boyfriends?" Ryker asks worried. "With the 's'?" Ada shakes her head. This boy never learns!

"Yeah!" I add. "She has like a hundred numbers on the phone with the name "boyfriend". I think you are boyfriend number 58."

Ryker stays quiet processing my words while Ada doesn't do anything like last time, instead, she's waiting for the big boy to realise I'm joking all to himself.

He stares at me and then at Ada, who innocently lifts her eyebrows. "She's joking isn't she?"

"Yes!" Ada lets out loudly but all I let out is another loud laugh.

"It's never going to get old!"

Suddenly, as Ada turns to face Ryker and lead him to the door, my phone vibrates next to me. I look at it to see the name "poop head" on the screen sending an immediate smile to my face. I grab it to answer the face call and see my brother Teddy with his big brown and thick curls taking half of my phone screen. His glasses shine from the bright light of his phone as well as his skin, which is a little bit more tanner than mine.

"What's up poop head?" I say when he lets out a big smile.

"Oh—" he adds when he goes as serious as ever. He stares at the screen and I furrow my eyebrows confused, what's he looking at? "You got even more uglier."

My little fourteen year old brother, ladies and gentlemen.

"I wasn't gonna say anything," I say "but it looks like you have a bird nest on top of your head. Now that you said that I have to give it back. I'm nice— unlike you."

"Oh, yeah, you being nice. Sure." He says, sarcastically. "Then who was the girl who filled my toothpaste with paint when I was five?"

"Some other girl who also has super cool prank ideas— You need to forget about that."

"I had blue teeth for like a week!"

"Not my fault you don't check your paste before you brush your teeth!"

Ada laughs when I hear her close the door. "You filled his toothpaste with paint?"

I nod as a smile escapes my lips. "Is that Ada?" Teddy asks when I go back to the screen.

"Hi Ted!" Ada says pushing me away from my phone for the camera to show her instead of me.

"Ouch!" I say but neither of them acknowledge it. Instead, the smile on Teddy's face goes even bigger.

"What's up Ada?" He asks. "Are you still dating that boy?"

"Yes!" Ada says with a smile.

"When are you gonna realise that you belong with me Ada?"

"Teddy!" I yell. "She's too old for you, forget about it!"

"I like older women!"

Ada's laughing while I just go back to the screen, ready to stop my little horny brother. "Deal with it, I don't want you flirting around with my friends."

"Friends? You only have one." Ada lets out a laugh at his comment.

"Like I care!"

"Alright—" Ada leaves my side "I have to study. See you, Teddy!" She waves at the camera. Teddy just makes a heart with his two hands.

"See you, beautiful."

I immediately fake gag while Ada just laughs at it to then leave the common room behind.

"Are you going out tonight?"

"No— I don't think so."

"Damn, you're turning into an old lady."

I immediately open my mouth, offended. "What? No I'm not."

"Yes you are. You used to go out every night, I couldn't even call you at night because you were drunk in somebody's couch."

"Damn, I tell you a lot."

"I think even mom is going out more than you." His words take me off guard.

"Wait— what?"

"She's going out with the guy she's seeing. Like, a lot."

"You know about him?"

"Yeah, she told me a couple of days ago."

If Teddy knows... it must be getting serious for her.

Fuck.

"Did you meet him?" I ask, but Teddy shakes his head.

"No— I'm pretty sure mom wants us to meet him together."

I sigh leaves my mouth. "Great."

"Apparently things are getting serious."

I roll my eyes. "Every time she meets a guy it gets serious."

"Yeah, but this one seems weird."

"What do you mean?"

"You're away at college but I'm here, Lil. It's like she's a different person when she comes home after seeing him. Remember the guy she was seeing, huh—" he suddenly stops "what was his name?"

"Paul?"

"No."

"George?"

"Ew— remember him?" How can't I? Every time he walked by my side I had to stop breathing, what's up with some men and not showering?

"Yeah," I nod "I hope he's still using the perfume I gave him for Christmas."

"William!" Teddy says out of the blue.

"William? What about him?"

"Remember that she used to come home worried if he also had a good time like her, stare at her phone hoping that he will call her?" I nod. It was horrible, I remember also trying to sleep but her nervous walk would prevent me from doing so. "Well, with this guy— it doesn't happen. She comes home happy. She doesn't ask herself if he will call because every time she comes home after seeing him, her phone rings and I hear her say 'yes, I'm inside home. Everything's alright' and ends the call right away."

"So he calls her to see if she's home safe? He doesn't bring her?"

"He does—" Teddy nods "I hear his car, even then, he calls her to check if everything inside is alright."

That sounds like a serial killer asking if you're home alone to kill you if you ask me— maybe I do watch crime documentaries to much. "Sounds kinda obsessive, don't you think?"

"No—"

I lift my eyebrow. "No?"

"He knows about us." I can tell that a little smiles escapes his face. And I don't like it, my stomach feels tight.

"So?"

"That call means that he's asking about us, if we're alright. Or at least, me, since you're away."

He's getting his hopes up like he always does. Every time he sees something different in a guy that mom's dating he thinks her unhappy like with no love is gonna end. And that he's gonna have that 'dad' relationship every kid wants, but then, everything breaks down and they both have to pick up every broken dream from the floor.

Every single time.

"Teddy— I don't know."

"You never trust the guys she's dating."

"And you trust to much the guys she's dating." I spit out. "You need to stop trusting men."

I hear a tiny sigh coming from his part. "Anyway—" He immediately wants to change the subject. Teddy always does this, he thinks that I always 'want' to bring their positive thinking down, but is not that I want to, I don't want them to end up with broken hearts. Is that so wrong? "Are you still single?" He asks suddenly that my eyes go wide open.

Huh—?

"What?"

"You heard me. Are you still in that phase 'I hate relationships'?"

"I don't hate relationships, I'm very happy about Ada and Ryker, they're boyfriend and girlfriend."

"Yeah! The one time I need you to be against relationships!"

I roll my eyes. "Give it up!"

"Are you?" He continues.

"Am I what?"

"Dating!"

"Why do you want to know?" I roll my eyes. "Did mom put you up to this?"

"Yes." He doesn't hesitate.

Unbelievable.

"She wants to know if you're dating somebody since Ada has a boyfriend now."

"And what about it?"

He shrugs his shoulders. "You're gonna be lonely since she's your only friend." Alright, for the way that he says it it sounds like he's roasting me or something.

Fourteen year olds are mean.

"Just because Ada has a boyfriend doesn't mean I'm gonna be alone. I like being alone, for the record!"

Teddy lets out a chuckle. "Tell mom that."

"Yeah," I nod "I can't talk with mom about men because the first second I say something she's gonna ask if I'm dating him."

"Are you dating a woman, then?"

"What?"

"You like them too, right?"

"Stop asking, Teddy. Why are you so persistent?"

"Mom said that if I get an answer she will take me out for dinner..." My little brother will do anything for food "and, well—" he stops.

"What?"

"She talked to Ada some weeks ago."

"About what?"

"Don't get mad with Ada, I don't think she meant to tell her."

"What is it, Teddy?" I ask, impatiently.

"I was there. You know how mom calls Ada when she can't find you?" I nod. "She called her and they got talking, they started about her and Ryker. But then when mom said something about how cute it would be if you and Ada went on double dates, Ada replied with 'maybe that's gonna happen sooner than you expect."

My mind goes blank.

Only one thing appears.

Stop, no.

Lucifer.

My heart speeds up.

It's about him.

"What?" I ask almost in a whisper.

"Is it a she?"

"No—"

"He?"

"No—!" I spit out. "There's no one, no one! Tell mom to stop asking about my love life. She has hers to worry about." I sound angry even if I don't want to, but I can't help it.

My heart hasn't reacted like this in weeks.

Suddenly, the image of me and Lucifer arguing in the middle of the dark street comes to my head, like a movie. His messy hair and his shiny eyes, his skin under the poor light and my words— my stupid loud words are all I can hear.

"I can't be your her!" Loud and determined.

That night seems like ages ago. After I walked into my room I made the decision to never think about it again. Put it in a box and close it with the strongest of keys. I have the end of my education to think about, not a strange boy that doesn't mean nothing to me.

"So you're seeing him." Teddy says and I immediately furrow my eyebrows as a response.

"What?!"

"You never get so defensive when she asks you. So, there has to be someone for you to get so angry about." He shrugs his shoulders as I get up from the couch and walk towards my room. Suddenly I feel uncomfortable in my own clothes.

"I'm not angry!" I walk through the door and drop the phone on the bed. "Shut up." I say when I take off my jacket to leave it on the floor.

"You shut up." I hear Teddy saying and I roll my eyes, even though he can't see me since my camera is up to the ceiling.

"Go sleep, is late." I walk towards my mini closet to grab my pijama. "Don't you have school tomorrow?"

Teddy doesn't respond to me. Instead of changing, I drop my pijama and walk closer to the bed to grab my phone. "You have someone!" He says before I can place it on my hand. I instantly do it with speed to see his face show up on my eyes once again. He has a huge smile on his lips. "Who is he? Is it a he?"

"Teddy!" I shake my hand. "No!"

"It is!" He says anyway, nodding. "Mom—!" Yelling as he turns his face to the side, the smile doesn't disappear from his lips. "Lilith is dating someone! Can we go to that restaurant next to the library?!"

"TEDDY!" I slap myself on the forehead and immediately shake my head. This is a nightmare. "I'm ending the call." I say quickly gaining Teddy's eyes on me.

"No— wait!"

"Bye!" I wave at him as my thumb goes to the red button. "Love you poop head!"

"Love yo—!" I cut his words in the middle. And suddenly, my room is surrounded by nothing but deep silence.

I let out a sigh and close my eyes. Why did they have to talk about him? He's just a random boy, nothing special about him. When are they gonna understand that I don't do dates, I don't do the love thing and no one will ever change that! These two weeks had been great, I've been getting a lot of good grades and work was going good. I didn't even thought about him once. If he walked pass me I just focused on my homework and ignored him. I didn't even have to try hard.

Why now? Why him? He's just... Lucifer Donovan— another man that tried to get to me and couldn't. Failed miserably.

I don't do love.

I don't.

Lucifer's face appear in my head and my heart speeds a little bit. I immediately close my eyes but it makes it worst, it becomes even more clearer that I can see his side smile and his tattooed hand taking the cigarette to his mouth.

Fuck—!

I open my eyes to let my head rest on the bed.

I don't do love.

I don't.

Who said it was love?

It's not. That talk with Teddy is just making me remember how his words annoy me, how he made me feel and how much I hate him. I didn't even took me long to forget about the whole thing, the next day I was already focused on my school work, just like that! Teddy's words mean nothing and neither does Ada's, I only know what I feel.

And I don't feel anything about Lucifer Donovan.

My phone vibrates and I let out a another sigh. It better not be Teddy or mom to talk about the whole thing. I lift my head up to see my phone but the screen is black, so I grab it and press the button to unblock it and read the words now in front of my eyes.

New Message from Damian.

Oh— not now.

"Fuck."

I unblock my phone and stare a it while the words "party tonight?" are in the screen, shining under his name. I haven't replied to any of his messages since I last saw him. Besides deciding to forget about Lucifer and the situation, saying yes to Damian was a huge mistake. The second that I read his first message when I got home asking me when he was gonna see me again, I didn't reply. And never did to any of his new messages. Even then, he keeps insisting, texting me almost every other night asking me if I want to go to a party with him and his friends.

He asked me on date. Even me, that I don't do that, know that a party is not a date. The idea of him asking me out just to annoy Lucifer didn't slip away from my mind... but my question is: I haven't seen him or Lucifer in these two weeks, the whole situation with me is done, why does he keep asking me out?

I stare at the message on my screen again and bite the corner of my lower lip. Now that I think about it, maybe getting drunk tonight isn't such a bad idea. Drink and forget about all of these ugly memories tonight seems to want to bring back.

Life has taught me that beer and vodka isn't a good combination, but I get the feeling I'm gonna love it tonight.

"Ada!" I yell walking out of my room and heading towards hers. Her door immediately swings open letting me see an intrigued Ada in front of me. I lift my phone up to her eyes for her to read it, and like I wanted, she reads it furrowing her eyebrows as her eyes move on my phone.

"Damian?" She locks eyes with me. I nod. "Are you gonna go?"

"I don't know. He's been asking me out a lot lately but I never respond."

"Like you should, I don't like him."'

I shrug my shoulders. "He keeps insisting."

She rolls her eyes. "You know better than anyone that boys are stupid, you have to say no again so he understands." My mouth doesn't open to reply to Ada. "Or block him, that's better."

I want to go. Not with him, but I want to go out and end up in somebody's couch. Would it be wrong to say yes just so I can get the address of this party?

"What's on your mind, Lili?" Ada gets my attention.

"I want to go out and get drunk." I finally let out.

"Tomorrow we have an early class."

I shrug my shoulders again. "So?"

Ada immediately gives me a grin and stares into my eyes as they start to shine. "Is the nineteen year old Lilith back or what?"

I quickly nod. "She just woke up and killed the 22 year old Lilith. Literally, she grabbed a knife" I lift my hand pretending I have the weapon "and said oh, you thought you saw the last of me two years ago? wrong, bitch!" I drop my hand. "And stabbed her. It was pretty brutal."

Ada lets out a chuckle. "You and your crime shows." She rests her back on the door. "So?"

"So... I'm gonna go."

Ada quickly straightens and nods. "Where is it? I'm going to." She turns around and opens her closet, looking for something to wear.

"You don't have to if you don't want to." I walk inside her room. She turns to me with her mouth wide open.

"Bitch—! I'm not gonna let you go alone. Besides, I don't like that he's gonna be there. I'm not letting you go alone." She points at me. "And bring a jacket because it's cold!" She turns to the closet again.

"Yes," I nod while turning around to head towards my room "19 year old Lilith is back but at what cost? Mommy Ada is born." I hear Ada letting out a chuckle. "Are you gonna tell Ryker?!"

"He has to work! What are you gonna tell Damian? Because if you say yes, he's gonna think is a date. And we don't want that."

Oh, trust me, no we don't.

I unblock my phone and my thumbs go to the key board, but they don't type anything, instead, I press my lips together as my brain brushes words away while I think what to say.

Suddenly, my thumbs already move without me thinking about it.

"Where?" I type and immediately send it. My eye stare at his name as the word "online" appears under it.

"That's what I like to hear." He quickly replies. "I'll pick you up in 30."

"No." I type with no hesitation. "This is not a date. Tell me where it is and maybe we'll see each other there. I'm going with my friend."

He doesn't reply in seconds like last time. I stare at my words and wait for his impatiently... why is he taking so long? Lucky for me and my impatient self, the bubble with the three dots appear in front of my eyes. "All I want to do tonight is see you, so fair enough. I'll send you the details right away."

I block the phone. "He's gonna send me where it is!" I yell to Ada when I start to walk to my room.

"Alright! Should we dress casual or formal?"

I open my closet and let out a sigh. "I'm gonna be a slut tonight."

"So boobs out?!"

"Out and proud!"

Staring at my clothes I immediately know the dress I'm gonna wear tonight. I grab it to place it in front of my body, the top part is a (kind of) corset that hugs my boobs perfectly. I don't have much, they're there so not a lot of clothing does that. That's why I appreciate it. Makes me feel like a badass when I wear it. The bottom half is tight that goes perfect with the top part, it blends perfectly and you can see a slight cut on the left thigh, allowing the eye to see more higher of my skin.

I fucking love it.

"Lilith?" I hear Ada ask when she walks out of her room.

"Yeah?" I reply leaving the dress on my bed to grab my favorite black boots to go out.

"What are you gonna do if his there?" She asks softly likes she's hesitant to say it. I furrow my eyebrows.

"Who?"

"You know who."

"No, I don't."

She doesn't reply immediately. I see her now on my door, letting her back rest on the door frame. "Lucifer."

My stomach turns hearing his name. I quickly shake my head, grabbing some jewellery from the top drawer of the nightstand. "I don't give a shit if he's there."

Ada lets out a sigh. "You came home pretty bad that night." I turn to face her and see her arms around her chest.

"I was tired. Whatever happened that night is old news." I try to give the situation as little importance as possible, but it seems that Ada doesn't want to let it go. She walks inside my room and sits down on my bed, next to the dress.

"You haven't seen him in these two weeks?" She asks softly.

I shake my head going back the jewellery. "Every time I have to work he's there, but when he walk passes me I just do my homework. We don't even look at each other. And the same thing at class."

"Then how do you know he's walking pass you if you're not looking at him?" I stop. I don't know what to say, honestly, I just shrug my shoulders and let the words out without thinking about them.

"You know, his... presence. It's so annoying that I feel it on my bones." I lock eyes with Ada to find a grin on her lips.

"Or maybe is the fact that you do actually look at him but won't admit it. You know he's around you because you can't help but think about him when he walk passes you, while you pretend to do something else."

My tongue gets frozen. My brain can't even think of a single word to say. Maybe she's right— no, she isn't. She's a hopeless romantic girl who sees everything as love. But I don't. I know that I haven't been thinking about him these two weeks, end of the discussion. "Is this your revenge for Ryker?" I ask.

"He's too innocent to do it himself, so I'm doing it for him."

I nod. "You're a good girlfriend." I turn to my dress to pick out the multiple hairs of mine in it. "What are you gonna wear?"

She hits me with a pillow that was on my bed. "Don't change the subject!"

"I'm not! I just want to know!"

"What are you gonna do?"

I lift my hands up. "Get fucked up!"

She hits me again. Damn! How many pillows do I have? "About Lucifer!"

"Nothing! He's old news, oooooold I say."

"Are you sure about that?" She asks softly causing me to roll my eyes.

"Why is everyone so persistent about him today?"

Ada lifts an eyebrow. "Everyone?"

I sigh leaves my mouth. I can't tell her I know about her conversation with my mom, it's gonna make the conversation even more serious than Ada thinks it is and I don't want that. "Forget about it." I grab my dress and place it in front of my body once again. "I'm wearing this out."

Ada nods. "And a jacket."

"Fuck the jacket!"

"You'll get a cold!"

I roll my eyes. "Tell mommy Ada she's staying in tonight!" I say and all I hear afterwards is a chuckle from Ada.

The conversation is finally over, thankfully.

Now is time to get fucked. Party, here we come.

[...]

"Fuck!" Ada yells when we both walk close to the house after getting off the taxi.

I lift my hands into the air. "That's the spirit!"

"No," she quickly says. I turn to her to see her staring at her phone vibrating on her hand. "Ryker is calling me."

I give her a thumbs down as I shake my head. "Boooo! Decline!"

"I didn't tell him I was gonna go out."

"And you have to?!" I stop walking to fully turn towards her. "Is he making you say to him everything you do? Do I need to cut his balls off?"

Ada lets out a chuckle. "Believe me, if I have to do that I'm gonna tell you first so we can do it together."

My index and middle finger move together like they're cutting something. "Off with the balls!"

Ada grabs my hand and pushes it down when we start walking again, but then suddenly stop since we both realise we're right in front of the house. "I told him to call me when he got off work."

I give her another thumbs down. "Booooo! Decline!" I yell, even more louder.

"It's just gonna be one second!" She lifts her phone and walks a couple of steps back.

"Alright," I point at her as she takes her phone to her ear "but then it's whore time! Respectfully, because now you have a boyfriend."

Unfortunately.

I hear Ada talk to her phone. I quickly decide to not hear her words, so my head turns down to look at my outfit. The first thing I see are my boobs, they're out there and I'm not used to it since there's no much to be out. I can't help but smile to myself proud of them.

I like my boobies.

My dress is as black as the night. And it makes me like it even more. I don't know, something about wearing black clothes at night, it feels right. My boots are comfortable for me to walk in, a tip I've learned over the past years, rather go comfortable than high heels at parties, as amazing as they look on me, going to class the next day with hurt feet isn't on my agenda for any day. I look up a little more to the right to the see the house filled with lights, music can be heard as more and more people come in and out. It looks like a frat party, but no boys with backwards caps are hanging on the roof like all the hundred frat parties I've been to. This must be some random's house.

Fine by me. If they have alcohol, I'm a happy girl.

"Oh my God! You're so funny!" I hear a familiar girl voice talk. I turn to where it came from to find some blonde shiny hairs more on the left side of the house, on the street.

A couple of people surround a black motorcycle, big and strong, looking faster than any car that are around it... I just know who it belongs to.

It's his motorcycle.

Suddenly, Ruby with a huge happy smile appears on my sight next to it. I follow the group of people around her, Colin and Paul are in front of the motorcycle while exchanging something funny since both of them are laughing. Bobby is on the right side of them, he's talking to Ruby's friend that I remember seeing at Colin's party. Then, I turn to the left side of the motorcycle to see a tall man resting his waist in the motorcycle. I can recognise that wide back and those tattoos anywhere. His blonde hairs get my attention, but then, I see his face when he slightly turns to see Colin.

Oh, it's definitely Lucifer.

My stomach immediately turns when I locate his shining green eyes as he's letting out a smile after taking the cigarette to his mouth. I can hear his laugh from where I'm standing but I try to ignore it by turning away,  looking to Ada who's still talking to Ryker with heart eyes.

"This motorcycle is so cool!" I hear say Ruby in a loud tone. "Can I ride it?" She asks, excitedly.

"If you want to." Lucifer talks. I get goosebumps when I hear his deep and raspy voice for the first time in two weeks. I can't help it, my head turns to them to immediately see Ruby now sitting down on the motorcycle trying to grab the handle while Lucifer just stands by her side, but he isn't looking at her, he's just busy with his cigarette and listening to what Colin is saying to Paul.

"It's so big!" Ruby yells to get his attention. And like she wanted, Lucifer turns to see her. "I can't even reach the handle because I'm so small oh my god!" She lets out a loud laugh that I can't even hear Ada talking a couple of steps away from me. "Lucifer, help me!" She waves her hands close to the handle, but Lucifer quickly grabs them and moves them towards it. It didn't even look hard for her to do so. She lets out another laugh. "You seriously need to take me for a ride, I've been asking you for months!"

"Have you?" Lucifer asks shrugging his shoulders after taking the smoke out of his mouth. "You need to be really special for me to take you on a ride."

Ruby lets out a grin. "Really?" She leans closer to his face. Lucifer takes a small step back away from her. "So how do you know I'm special? Are you gonna test me or something?"

I can see that he lets out a side smile, but quickly erases it. "We'll see."

"Oh— shit." Ada talks by my other side. I turn to see her, she's staring at the group just like I was. "Who's that?" She asks.

I look back at Ruby, now out of the motorcycle. "Her name is Ruby, she cures the guys' wounds after fights."

"So we hate her?"

I turn to Ada quickly, my eyebrows furrowed. "What?" She locks eyes with me.

"You were looking at her like you wanted to kill her."

"That's my every day look with everyone, expect you. I don't want to kill you."

Ada tilts her head to the side. "Aw. I'm honored." I let out a chuckle.

"I only feel sorry for her." I shrug my shoulders.

"Why?"

I'm about to open my mouth, but Ruby's laugh hit my ears again. I turn to see her. "C'mon! Oh, Colin, you're so silly!" She slightly pushes Colin's arm. She looks at Lucifer to then stand by his side, almost resting her head on his arm while looking up at him. But again, his focus is on Colin.

She's way too deep into him.

Poor girl.

"Oh," Ada says "now I see why. She's a little bit annoying." I let out a chuckle turning to her.

"C'mon," I point towards the house "let's get inside."

Wrapping my arms with hers we both start to walk to the door. Before we can make our way inside, I lift my pinky finger first wanting Ada to hold it with hers. "To getting fucked up?" She lets out a smile and holds it.

"To getting fucked up."

"And being a whore?"

She lets out a chuckle. "I can't do that. Remember Ryker? Boyfriend number 58?"

"Just say it for me!" She laughs and holds my pinky finger with more strength.

"To being a whore."

"I love you so much, you know that?" I let out a proud smile ready to leave the street behind.

We walk pass Colin which leads to him immediately turning to see us, happily to see me there at the same party as he is. "Hey beautiful!"

"Hi Colin!" I say back, stopping right in front of him.

"I like that you accepted the nickname!"

"Oh, no! I'm waiting for the perfect opportunity to kick your ass."

He quickly nods. "I'll be waiting!"

Paul and Bobby both wink at me when they see me to say hi, as they like to do. I wink back with a smile.  But when I see Colin's hand grabbing Ada's and leaving a gentle kiss on it, I place my entire focus on them.

"The fuck are you doing?" I ask.

"Aren't you gonna introduce me to this beautiful friend of yours?"

"She's Ryker's girlfriend, dumbass."

"Ada," she says with a smile "nice to meet you."

Colin's smile immediately disappears and I can hear Paul letting out a laugh by his side. "Oh— fuck! Right, I remember you. Never mind! I didn't say anything! I don't want Ryker hating me."

I nod. "Good save, Colin. Good save." I say sarcastically giving him a thumbs up. Before any of us can say something again, another loud laugh hit my ears.

"Lucifer! You need to take me there!" Ruby pushes the side of Lucifer's arm. What gets my attention the longest is the smoke coming out of his mouth.

He's really going hard of that cigarette, isn't he?

Suddenly, Ruby's eyes lay on me. I still didn't forgot about her words to me, her practically being an asshole and treating me like shit. Even then, I let out a smile to greet her.

But, not very surprising, she doesn't do the same. After looking at me up and down, she lets out the biggest chuckle ever as she places her hand on her mouth to prevent anything coming out.

Shit— Ada give me something of your good heart so I don't kill her.

"Oh, Lilith!" She yells shaking her head. I want to keep my eyes on her, but as soon as Lucifer quickly looks up after hearing "Lilith", my eyes go directly to him. As we meet our eyes together my heart speeds up a little bit, his green eyes are staring at me after a long time and I can't help but stare back. His eyes go slowly over my body and I see his jawline clenching and his breathing speeding because of it. His eyes shine as they go down but then travel back to my cleavage. They don't last long there, Lucifer looks away with speed.

I want to smile but I eat it inside. He played with me the last time we saw each other, believing that he had the upper hand. Even with that, he can't help but stare at by body with lust.

Another laugh hits my ears. "You may want to cover a little bit more," Ruby says causing me to turn to see her. She's laughing at my boobs. Do I have a joke written in them or something? "you're showing everything! Do you want that much attention?"

Ada; I'm gonna need your entire heart if I can't kill her. She immediately grabs my arm tightly. For her, that's the equivalent of giving me her heart.

Everyone stops talking to turn and see Ruby, expect for Colin who's excitedly waiting for my response with a smile on his face.

"Oh, oh." Paul says.

"Don't kill her." I hear Ada saying in my ear.

"Oh, please do." Colin says nodding. "Please."

"No, no." I shake my head placing my hands under my boobs, making them have an even bigger cleavage on purpose. My eyes are locked on hers. "I like them like this."

Ruby lifts an eyebrow. "You do?" She  turns to Lucifer but he isn't staring at anyone, his eyes are glued to the floor while he bites the corner of his lower lip. "That's weird. Kinda slutty if you ask me." She lets out another laugh.

I shake my head again. "It isn't kinda, it is slutty. I'm comfortable with my own body so it is." I let out chuckle waiting for Ruby's response but she doesn't say anything, she just rolls her eyes and turns to see Lucifer once again, hoping to see some support from him. He doesn't move away from the floor, hoping the situation to end. I bite my lower lip, arguing if I should let out the words that are  going through my head..."It's just so your boy over there" I point with my head to Lucifer "can have a better look at them." Immediately Colin places his hand on his mouth to prevent a laugh. I hear a long whistle coming from Bobby, while Paul doesn't care and lets out a loud laugh. I squeeze my boobs even harder while Ruby's smile goes away from her face.

What's the matter, baby? I'm giving you the same attitude back. Can't handle it?

Lucifer looks up and inevitably stares at them, but quickly turns away.

"I know how much he likes them." I let out. Leaning closer to her so my boobs can be more out, I wink at the same time a smile escapes my lips. "Have a good night, I know he will." I walk back and stare at Colin. "See you inside?"

"Yep." He lets out while quickly nodding with a smile. "You will, beautiful."

I turn around with Ada by my side and stare at the house in front of me.

I hear Ada finally letting out a chuckle. "You're cruel." She bites her lips with a smile as she shakes her head. I just shrug my shoulders.

"I know— keeps me hot."

When we both walk inside the party the music becomes louder. People surround us and the smell of alcohol immediately enters my nose. I look around to locate the vodka and I smile immediately, it isn't far from where I'm standing. Without letting go of Ada, I walk us to the left side of the house towards the table where every single bottle full of alcohol is. She grabs the vodka while I just take two glasses of shots for us to pour the alcohol in. I lift both of them and Ada, with a smile, pours the liquid inside.

We're a great team.

"After this some beer?" I can't help but ask.

"Don't mix vodka with beer!"

She knows me too well.

"I told mommy Ada to stay inside!"

"This isn't mommy Ada," she shakes her head "is the Ada that doesn't want you ripping your shirt off because there's more alcohol than water in your body."

I tilt my head to the side, disappointed. "But that's the fun Lilith!" She lets out a chuckle while lifting her shot up to her face, I do the same as we both stare at each other. Big smiles are on our lips.

"Fucked up?" She asks.

I quickly nod. "Fucked up."

I immediately take the shot to my mouth and feel how the liquid goes down my throat, is cold yet sweet, that lovely sensation passing through my body sends a slight shiver down to the pit of my back. I love that. As soon as I feel it burning my insides I shake my head to erase it. Looking down, I find the lemon to put on my mouth and I grab it placing it against my teeth.

"Ugh!" Ada closes her eyes with strength, dropping the lemon to the side.

I take it off as well when the burning slowly fades away. "The first shot is always the worst!"

She nods with a disgusted expression on her face and grabs my cup to leave it together with hers on the table. I want to turn around and see if I can see some familiar faces, but as soon as I see that Ada rolls her eyes after looking to something behind me, I stay with her.

"What?" I ask, intrigued.

"Looking good, Avery." A familiar voice speaks behind me.

Damian. I turn around to see him in a black shirt and some ripped jeans. He looks casual, hate to admit it but, he doesn't look bad.

"I see that you have good taste." I reply with a little smile.

"Oh, I do." He walks closer to me moving his eyes directly to Ada, who's already pouring another shot in our glasses. "And this is?" He asks.

"Ada." She says with the biggest fake smile ever, locking eyes with him.

"Nice to meet." Damian nods, but then hesitates on talking again because of Ada's annoyed eyes.

"I wish I could say the same thing." She said and I immediately eat the smile inside.

When she doesn't like someone, she really doesn't like them.

Damian lets out a chuckle and then turns to face me. "Which one of you two is the sassy best friend again?" He asks and I just shrug my shoulders, not wanting to laugh in front of his face. "Wanna dance?" He asks.

No.

"This isn't a date." I reply, tilting my head to the side.

"And that means you can't dance with me?"

No, it means that I want you to step the fuck away from me, but I don't want to be a bitch, so instead, I say that.

I'm about to open my mouth again but something gets my attention first, my eyes go directly behind him when a see a familiar blonde haired girl walking inside the house. Ruby. Lucifer walks behind her with Colin and Bobby by his sides, nothing seems out of he ordinary. Then, Ruby slightly pushing Bobby away to stand by Lucifer's side and grab his hand, she places it around her shoulders it makes my eyes stay in her a for a couple of seconds.

My stomach feels tight once again.  My eyes follow Colin who immediately rolls his eyes when he looks away to the other side, Paul lifts his hands into the air annoyed while Lucifer just takes another smoke in. He doesn't want to seem rude in front of her, but he clearly, didn't like that.

"Why not?" I say, going back to Damian.

I want to have fun, and dancing always makes me feel good. Damian lets out a grin and grabs my hand to lead us to the dance floor. Ada suddenly stops me by grabbing my arm.

"What are you doing?" She asks leaning closer to my face. I notice the shots on her hands so I grab mine.

I shrug my shoulders. "Dance."

She lets out a sigh and looks to the side, where I know the door is. She goes back to me. "You just want to make Lucifer jealous."

The last thing I want to do right now is think about him.

"No—" I shake my head. "I just want to have a good time." I take the shot to my mouth and immediately feel the cold go down my body and the slightly less annoying burning on my throat. Getting used to it, I let out a smile and wink at Ada after leaving the glass on the table.

As soon as we both make our way towards the crowd the perfect song to dance tightly together comes on. Damian smiles and I give him one back, but soon my heart drops to my stomach and I don't know why. Something feels off.

Even then, I let him grab my waist and pull me closer to him. Our stomachs are touching, my arms go around his neck getting our faces closer. He lets out a grin while his breathing hits my skin, sending a tight wave down to my back. Nothing but my stomach feeling weirded at the touch of Damian on my skin is happening right now inside of me.

I try to let my body follow the music and get lost in it. Damian places his hand on my lower back and moves me on his rhythm causing me to immediately hate it. My body wants to be on full control of my dance but Damian isn't letting me. I've never been uncomfortable while dancing, the sudden wave of walking away hits my skin. But I don't, his hand grabs my waist even more tightly. I hate the touch of his breathing on my skin, wanting it away, I turn around ending my back on his chest.

He likes this, I can tell by his arm wrapping around my waist and pulling us closer. His pelvis brushes against my ass, growing a disgusting and tight feeling on my chest and stomach. I want to push him away, get him far from me, but his grip is so firmly that all I find to do is just close my eyes, preventing to make a horrible situation for what I want to be a fun night.

My elbow on his nose sounds like a great idea right now.

I open my eyes and let out a long sigh, I'm not even enjoying the song at this point. I want to turn around and tell him that I'm thirsty, but before I can, his eyes meet mine.

My breath cuts short for a moment. Lucifer's green eyes are penetrating mine while his jawline is clenched and his breathing slightly speeds. I go down to his body to see the grip on his drink being strong, the veins on his hands showing like they're gonna explode. His eyes meet mine once again but they quickly go down to my body immediately. His breathing goes even quicker when he looks at Damian's arm around my waist.

He clearly doesn't like that I'm with him, dancing and touching each other's bodies.

Now, for some reason, the way Lucifer's feeling... I want to make it worst.

He played with me last time, why can't I play with him now?

My right hand goes towards Damian's neck and I push his head down to my neck. He leaves gentle kisses on my skin and my stomach hates it, but not as much as Lucifer does. His jawlines looks likes it's gonna break but soon covers it by the drink on his lips. He swallows it completely and leaves the drink with strength on the table behind him, without breaking the eye contact with me.

I let out a tiny grin. He definitely knows that I'm doing this on purpose, but still, he can't help but feel that way about what I'm doing.

And I love that.

I caress Damian's hair when places his lips against my ear. His breathing touches my skin, I tilt my head to the side, biting my lips on purpose when I see Lucifer's eyes going directly to the man by my side.

"You're liking this, aren't you sweetheart?"

Sweetheart.

I want to punch this guy on the throat.

But I don't. I simply nod, not wanting to break the eye contact I'm having with Lucifer. He goes down to my body and stays longer this time, he slowly wraps his arm in front of his chest, pressing his hands around his upper arms with strength. I look up again to see his eyes still down on my body, he bites the corner of his lips and furrows his eyebrows as a sigh comes out of his mouth.

What's he thinking about?

I don't want to lose sight of his eyes, keeping them on mine as long as I can. Ruby appears in front of Lucifer breaking my wishes and tearing our eyes apart, causing me to let out a long sigh out of my mouth.

"I'm gonna get a drink!" I yell and Damian leaves another kiss on my neck.

Ew.

I fake smile at him once I turn to see him. "Alright sweetheart!" He says as his eyes go down to my lips. "Don't take long or I'm gonna miss you."

One more time, say it with me, ew.

I smile again but this time I don't let him say anything, instead, I turn back to the same table I was before with Ada. Not finding her there, I look around to see her talking with Paul. They both seem to be getting along pretty well, at least one of us is having a good time.

I grab another shot glass and start to look for a bottle of vodka. They all seem to be empty around me like the universe had a wish to make my moment even worst.

Please, universe. I need some fucking vodka. I swear— if you give me at least one more shot, I'm not gonna drink every again.

A loud noise hits my ears. I open my eyes to see a strange guy leaving a bottle of vodka on the table after taking a shot.

Aha! Bingo!

Universe, you didn't take that seriously, did you? I need my alcohol.

I grab the bottle of vodka and pour a shot on the glass. I look at it already tasting it on my tongue and mouth.  Before I can even lift my hand, a hand touches my shoulder.

"Sleeping with the enemy?" Colin asks behind me. I turn to see him and notice another shot on his hand.

"I'm not sleeping with Damian." I tilt  my head to the side while letting out a smile. "And I never will. He's not that lucky."

He lets out a chuckle. "And who is?"

I don't respond. Instead, I take the shot to my mouth without breaking the eye contact with him. Immediately, the liquid enters my body.

He does the same. "You know," he says after the both of us recover from the shot "I said to Lucifer 'Damian is dancing with your girl—"

"I'm not his girl." I cut him off. Colin just lets out a chuckle and a side smile, brushing my annoyance away.

"Funny... he said the same thing. But, here's the thing: the eyes never lie, beautiful."

"Mine do, often. Don't try to read me Colin, you won't be able to." I say grabbing the bottle again. Colin takes it away from my hand.

I'm about to complain but he speaks before me. "Can I try something?"

"What?"

He lifts his arm and points with his head towards my shoulders. "Can I?"

"It's not like you haven't done it before. Why are you asking?"

"I just want to see something." He says softly and walks by my side. He rests his arm around my shoulders and with his other hand touches my chin, slowly lifting it up. I furrow my eyebrows, confused.

"What are you doing?" I ask, but he doesn't respond. He does a quick look to something in front of us, I try to locate whatever he's looking at but nothing gets my attention . "Is this what you do to get girls or something? Like animals do, a mating call?" He lets out a chuckle when I go back to him, still, doesn't respond with his hand still on my chin. His thumb goes over my cheek and caresses it. I'm so confused. I don't open my mouth since he leans closer to my face and lets out a grin.

I look at his eyes. "Are you high?"

He shakes his head while doing the same look as before. Quickly, he finally lets go of me and lets out an even bigger grin.

"The fuck was that about, Colin?"

"I was right." He nods.

"Right about what?"

He leaves my side and places himself in front of me. "Lucifer's been my best friend for over six years now, and still, when I touched you, it looked like he wanted to kill me. Slowly and painfully."

I stay quiet since I don't know what to reply. Why should I believe Colin? It's not like I have my own eyes to prove it, but, why would he lie?

"Maybe he has a crush on you." I say. That's the only thing my tongue found to let out. "Why don't you go over there and do your mating ritual with him?"

He lets out a chuckle. "He's not that lucky."I let out a tiny laugh.

The image of Lucifer's face when I was dancing with Damian appears on my head. His eyes penetrating mine and his jawline clenched, angry at what I was doing.

There's not a single reason that my head can come up why Colin's words wouldn't be true. My heart immediately speeds at the thought of it.

"Damian brought you here just so he can get to Lucifer, Lilith." Colin says gaining my eyes on him once again.

"Damian didn't brought me here, I decided to come all by myself."

He lets out a smile. "You're helping him either way, beautiful."

A long breath comes out of my mouth. I hate to admit it, but, Colin's right and I feel like an idiot. Disgusting inside. Damian wants to use me to get to Lucifer and I fucking let him. I even helped him. I'm not some fucking object that he gets to use to get to another man, I feel so stupid for letting Lucifer get to me again that I want to walk away from this party and never see the light of the outside world ever again.

Fuck— fuck this and everyone.

I need another shot.

"Lilith!" A girl's voice talks behind me. I turn around to find Ruby standing by the side of the beer pong table waving at me, huge smile on her lips and Lucifer behind her. He isn't looking my way, though, his eyes are on the cups as if he looks away, he'd die. When Ruby's hand grabs Lucifer's placing it on her stomach to get closer to him, taking the opportunity that I'm watching her, an even bigger smile appears on Ruby's face. Lucifer is surprised of this little action, he tries to take a setp back without looking rude to her. But she doesn't let go of his hand.

She has to be kidding me.

"Come play with us!"

I roll my eyes going back to Colin. "Of course she wants me to play."

Colin lets out a chuckle while staring at Ruby and Lucifer behind her. "Are you gonna save her from the embarrassment?"

Thinking about it, I really don't want to play right now. Shots of vodka are what's best for me, maybe beer too? I want the alcohol to slap my face and help me forget whatever's happening behind me, when I hear a laugh coming from Ruby.

"Lilith! Are you that big of a chicken!?"

Oh, boy...

Colin rolls his eyes. "Kick her ass."

"Fuck it—" I nod turning around. "Yeah, I'll play. Why not?"

"You need a partner, Lilith!" Ruby says when I arrive on the other side of the table. "I don't want this to be unfair."

"Aw." I tilt my head to the side. "You're cute worrying about me, but I'll be fine. I'll even let you two start."

Ruby grabs the first ball and holds it right in front of her face, she suddenly stops and turns to Lucifer, who's standing by her side with his eyes on the cups and his hands resting on the table. "Lucifer! Help me, I suck at this!"

He just shrugs his shoulders. "Just throw it, Ruby."

She rolls her eyes and lets out a sigh, annoyed that her little plan didn't work. For the first time since I arrived with them, I lock eyes with Lucifer and they stay with me for a while. I try to read him but he isn't giving me much, he's holing back a thought and succeding at it like he doesn't what me to do what I'm goot at. But a grin does escape my lips. It's obvious that Ruby wants me to play against them so I can see them together. She wants to make me jealous. Would it be wrong if I turn her game into my own?

"See?!" Ruby complains and I notice that her ball landed on the side of the cups, ending on the floor after a couple of bounces. "I suck," I grab it and go back to Lucifer, who's eyes don't look away from me "you better help me next time if you want to win."  She says to Lucifer, trying to gain his attention, or at least, his eyes on her. But he doesn't. Instead, he stays with me as if he knows what I'm gonna do next. My next move.

Ruby stares and stares, waiting for something to happen. Since it doesn't, another annoyed sigh follows her.

"Bad luck!" I say and throw the ball that's  in my hand, landing inside the first cup.

My eyes follow Lucifer grab the cup and take the alcohol inside of the cup. He moves to the middle of the table and lifts his hand, ready to throw. Seconds later, the ball lands on the same cup that I did on his side. Just like he wanted.

Stealing my attention on him, Ruby claps excited and hugs his arm. Lucifer just stares right back at me once again reading my moves like I'm a book he's enjoying. I smile making his eyes go directly to my lips like I remember he did almost every time.

I forgot how good this feels.

I drink the liquid and feel the coldness of it go down my throat. Now it's my turn. It doesn't take long since the second that I lift my hand and throw the ball, it lands on another cup making Lucifer have to drink again.

It's Ruby's turn, and just like last time, she first turns to Lucifer.

"C'mon! Help me!" She gives him puppy eyes and I just can't help but roll my eyes.

Lucifer lets out a gentle sigh and grabs Ruby's hand. He doesn't stand right behind her like he did with me a party ago, which causes her to stare at him as the smile goes away from her face, clearly expecting something else.

Let me teach you the trick, Ruby. It's way more fun than this.

Lucifer's hand moves Ruby's to throw the ball and for it to land perfectly on a cup from my side. It leaves her hand and as soon as they make the perfect shot, I smile, nice one. Hate to admit it. She quickly celebrates and hugs him tightly, just like normally.

The game continues and it's immediately down to 2-1 left, me on the lead. If I make this shot I win, if I don't, I give them another opportunity to make me lose.

As I lift my hand and place it right in front of my face, I gently bite my lower lip thinking before making any other move. I don't know what I should do next, play the game like I always do, not miss a single shot? Or, prove to Lucifer that he is just another man that couldn't get to me no matter how much he tries? That he's the one on the palm of my hand and not the other way around? I have to say to him that he's not going to be able to play with me like last time— he's not gonna break me. And I always win.

I slightly tilt my head and move my eyes away from the cup on the other side, I lead them to Lucifer who's eyes are already on me. I let out a tiny grin as I wave my hand slowly to throw the ball. I don't see where it goes, but I know it didn't land on the cup. My grin goes even bigger when I hear Ruby celebrating by hugging Lucifer's arm again.

"We have another shot! You do it!"

Bingo.

I can tell in Lucifer's eyes that he knows I did it on purpose, he knows that I'm playing a game but he doesn't know what it is yet. He grabs another tennis ball and places himself on the middle of the table with the perfect posture to throw the perfect shot. He locks eyes with me and the little grin on my lips. Because of that, he can't go back to the cups on my side. I let out a smile to then trace down to his lips, slowly as I can so it feels like ages to Lucifer. He still doesn't throw the ball, he's not concentrating on what he has to do. He lowers his hand as I go back to his eyes. They're not on mine, instead, they're on my lips. Easier than taking a cookie from a child.

I walk closer to the table and let my hands rest on it, by the side of the two cups. A slight coldness hits the skin of my chest because they're more exposed that before since my back is slightly leaned. His hand doesn't move from where it was and he can't help but stare at my lips... my plan is working. From the place that his hand is in he's not going to make the shot.

He's still not focusing on winning.

But on me.

"Lucifer!" I hear Ruby say impatiently. He doesn't turn around to face her, instead, his eyes meet mine.

I smile. "What's it gonna be Lucifer?" I say moving my lips slowly. "Are you gonna get in or what? A girl won't be waiting all night." As soon as I let out those words he grabs the tennis ball with more strength as he slightly clenches his jawline. I have him right where I want and he still doesn't move his hand to have the perfect shot.

"C'mon!" Ruby yells again.

Finally, without hesitation, he throws it.

I follow it with my eyes as it lands right on the table instead of the cups, losing his opportunity to win against me. Quickly, I don't let the ball fall to the floor by immediately grabbing it as the grin doesn't fade away from my face. I shrug my shoulders gently, looking to the tennis ball in my hand. "Too bad." I lift it and seconds later, it lands on the last cup of his side.

I won.

Ruby doesn't move from Lucifer's side while staring at him. I don't know if she understands why they lost or why Lucifer missed his shot, her face doesn't let me read much, but I do notice a little bit of disappointment on her eyes as they shine under the light of the party. I turn to see Lucifer without erasing the grin of my face and my stomach immediately turns at the sigh of his eyes going down my body with a grin. I don't let him see that it affects me, instead, I tilt my head to the side looking for his eyes, and he does look at me. He knows now. He knows what I was trying to do. And for some reason, I see proudness in his eyes.

"You have a lot of things to learn about life, Ruby." I finally say, casually. "Me too. But I will give you one tip that I already know to help you out:" I move my eyes towards her and point with my finger at Lucifer "Men?" I shake my head. "Ain't shit. Remember that."

She doesn't reply, instead, she crosses her arms around her chest and rolls her eyes. I'm trying to prevent you from getting your heartbroken by this guy and you act like that?

Tough break.

"But good game, I had fun." I nod turning to the side to locate Ada and immediately see her now talking to Colin and Bobby, needing to escape this conversation as fast as possible. I turn back to Ruby, not even wanting to know what Lucifer Donovan is doing right now. "We should play again sometime." I wink at her and finally, leave them behind.

A long breath comes out of my mouth as I walk towards Ada. I won but it doesn't feel like I did, my chest speeds a little bit and my throat feels tight like it's about to close up. My breathing is heavier than before and I close my eyes to calm it down, but I open them again to not bump into someone since the party is now fuller.

How I'm feeling right now makes me remember the night I went to Lucifer's apartment, out of place and disoriented. What's happening to me sends little bit of dizziness to my head, so I stop walking to not lose my sight completely and fall to the floor like the alcohol had the best of me. I want to move my body to the side and walk away from the crowd, maybe find some silnce. When out of nowhere, a pair of cold hands grab my arm and pull me away quickly and with strength like I'm a toy they want to play with. I immediately look to the person that's taking me to the left side of the house and see Damian with his jawline clenched and anger in his eyes walking without facing me. I want to let go of his hand but his grip is strong and the dizziness in my head doesn't allow me to move with speed.

As soon as the people around us disappear behind me, he turns around and grabs my shoulders to move me against the wall. Suddenly, as my back hits it, the pain in my bones makes everything become normal around me as I stare at his dark eyes wanting to break me apart.

"What was that?" He asks loudly. My heads takes a couple of seconds to come up with an answer. Is he talking to me like that?

"Excuse me?" I ask lifting my eyebrows.

"Flirting with Lucifer," he leans closer to my face "you're here with me."

I blink in disbelief. "With you?!" With a quick move of my hand I grab his and take them away from my shoulders, but he doesn't seem to mind, his focused is on his anger inside of him.

"Yeah! You don't get to go around and be with other guys like that."

I let out a chuckle. This guy has to be high on stupidity or something— "First of all, you don't talk to me like that. Who the fuck do you think you are? Secondly, I wasn't flirting! If you thought that was, I wonder how you get girls!? Then lastly, I'm not here with you! I wouldn't go with you anywhere, I'm not your little puppy that follows you around. I don't know who you thought I was, but if you think that I'm gonna just shut up and let you do whatever you want with me you're very mistaken." I move one step to the side when Damian grabs my arm once again, but this time, I manage to let go of it.

His eyes grow darkness in them a bit biggner, and a grin doesn't waste time to grow as he steps closer to me. "Didn't you used me too to get Lucifer jealous? You're not so innocent either, sweetheart."

"No I'm not, but if you thought that I was trying to get Lucifer jealous when I was dancing then that's on you, I do things because I want to not because of some stupid guy! Now fuck off and delete me from your fucking life." I take another step, but again, he grabs my arm.

"You're not going anywhere!"

I've had enough.

My other hand quickly slaps Damian's cheek. It doesn't matter that the music is loud, I still hear the sound of it hitting his skin. My arm is free as he grabs his cheek in pain and stares at me, surprised. I lean closer to his face. "Grab me like that again and I'll cut your tiny dick off." I push his shoulders back and don't wait for a response from him, I turn around to leave the situation behind.

I don't even want to see if he's following me, my eyes look around for a room in this house to get inside and ease my mind out of this place for a couple of seconds. My breathing becomes quicker the more steps I take. I walk inside a dark hallway that it's filled with photos on the walls, party nowhere to be seen. Quickly, my eyes locate on the right side two doors, I don't hesitate on walking towards the last one and immediately close the door behind me.

"Fuck—!"

All I wanted for tonight is to have a good time and forget about everything by getting fucked up and ending up in somebody's couch. But now, these boys seem to have decided to make my life a miserable Hell.

You know what? I might take pride of my name and turn into a snake to manipulate these idiots into eating a poisoned apple! Who knows? Maybe that will fix all of my problems!

Maybe? No, surely.

Once my breathing is back to normal and I don't want to slap another boy, I finally take the time to look at the room I'm in. The only light illuminating it is the moonlight and the street light from outside, slipping through the big window on the right side. A bed in the middle of it, all black going perfectly with the color grey of the walls. There isn't much to see, nothing more than a giant TV in front of the bed, a closet on the wall by the left side of the bed and a— pool table?

Not a desk, a computer, a nightstand, but a pool table?

Whoever this person is, they definitely have their priorities right.

I walk towards it to look at it more closely, it's dark green and there's not a single colourful ball on top of it. Not a sign that somebody was playing it. But what gets my attention more, is the mirror on the other side of it, tall that goes from the floor towards the ceiling, so big that covers the entire pool table side by side.

Damn— these people are rich, rich.

I'm about to take a step closer to it when the door opens letting the music from the party enter loudly than before. My heart stops for a bit because the image of Damian appears in my head, even then, without hesitation, I turn to the door.

My heart inevitably speeds like a cartoon being shaken.

Lucifer is standing with his shoulder resting on the frame of the door. He has his arms across his chest while a grin is on his lips. He doesn't say a word and neither do I. We both stay silent with our eyes locked, impatiently waiting for the next step in the situation.

He closes the door as I let my waist rest on the pool table. I get the feeling he's gonna be the one who talks first.

"So," He slowly says going back to me and let his back rest on the now closed door "I ain't shit?"

"You're a man?" I ask, lifting an eyebrow.

"Yeah." His tone is deep.

"Then I'm sorry to break it to you— no wait I'm not sorry, you are."

He lets out a chuckle and I can see that his eyebrows are now lifted. "What are you doing here?"

"Non of your fucking business. What are you doing following me?"

I can hear another chuckle coming from him, but this time, more louder. "What were you doing staring at me while you were dancing with Damian?" He lets out getting closer to me. I roll my eyes and look away from from, trying to ignore the fact that my heart started to speed again once I saw him getting closer. "How is it going with him, by the way?"

"Great—" I turn quickly back to him. I definitely don't want to tell him that it's sucking— even the image of him knowing he's right on my head disgusts me. "I'm having a fantastic time. Im enjoying myself so much right now." I smile crossing my arms on my chest.

"Yeah," he chuckles again "looks like it." I can smell the sarcasm on his words from where I'm standing.

"What about you and Ruby?" I ask making him stop in the middle of his walk towards me. "She seems pretty excited to be here and with you."

"She's not with me." He corrects me quickly.

"You should tell that to her, she doesn't seem to know. Go, now, go tell her. Go tell her that you don't give a fuck about her because you don't give a fuck about anyone. No girl deserves to get her heart broken so you better go and tell her before is too late." I let out and my brain has to stop and think of what I've said, since it didn't even went through my head before letting it out. And I know better than anyone that this is not a good sign.

Lucifer doesn't reply immediately, instead, he keeps his eyes on me as his hands go to his pockets. Leaving them inside he does a couple of simple nods and looks down.

"What are you gonna do now? Go to Damian?"

"Maybe." I shrug my shoulders. "Why not?" That's not true, but he doesn't need to know that.

He stares at me again. "When are you gonna understand that he's dangerous and you shouldn't be hanging out with him?"

I roll my eyes. "There we go again with the I shouldn't. You love that word, don't you? I'm not hanging out, I'm not with him—" I leave the table behind me feeling the anger and annoyance building inside of me, as my veins start to heat up. "Get that very clear in your tiny brain!"

"Then why where you dancing with him?!" He asks matching my tone and taking a couple of steps closer, allowing me to see his green eyes staring at mine.

"Because I fucking wanted to, if I wanted to dance with the guy next to Damian, or the guy behind, in front, left, right I would've done it too! I do whatever the fuck I want!"

"Yeah!" He fake laughs. "Like dancing with guy's that are assholes!"

"I didn't dance with you so there's that!"

He closes his eyes as an annoyed sigh comes out of his mouth. "You can be so stubborn sometimes!"

"I know! And I'm fucking proud of it!"

He stares at me again. His eyes make me want to rip my heart out and go down my stomach to unty the nod in it. "You're so fucking blind! Why can't you see it?"

"Oh," I shake my head with a smile "I'm not the one who's blind! I saw your little trick that you tried to play with me two weeks ago! Pretending that you care about me, about my safety! You're such a fucking asshole with an enormous ego that you were so blind to see I was gonna find out. You're the one who's blind! And tonight, oh, tonight—" a laugh escapes my mouth "one look to the girls down there and you're already on the palm of my hand! You had to wait for me to be lacking of energy to play with me and hope for a win, but me? All I have to do is show a little bit of skin." I finish and take a step back. "You're a man, what did I expect?" I say disgusted.

I turn around and go back to the table, resting the side of my waist in it. My heart speeds and my breathing is heavy, but I try to be as silent as possible, I don't want him seeing me be affected by anything he's saying.

I don't hear anything back from him, not a step, not his breathing, a sigh, not even a laugh, he just stays silent.

I hope he leaves. I don't want to deal with him anymore.

"I wasn't pretending." His soft tone cuts my breath short for a moment but I quickly recover to let a out a laugh.

"Yeah, right."

I hear him getting close to me so I turn to see him, our faces end up real close. "Everything I did that night was genuine and I wasn't playing with you, Lilith. Why is it so hard for you to believe that a guy cares about you?"

"Hold on! I already know what you're going to say next, I'm not like the other guys, I'm a nice guy, I wouldn't treat you like that. Is that it?! Is that fucking it?!" A shake my head letting out a smile. He goes down to my lips as his breath is heavy, but I don't do the same this time, instead, I tip my head to the side looking for his eyes. "Get the fuck away from here." I say softly yet firmly. He doesn't do what I told him, instead, he goes back to my eyes.

"Are you gonna go out with him?" He asks firmly, with his jawline now clenching.

"Oh my God, I hate you so fucking much!" I spit out. "You're so annoying! Why are you persistent?!"

"He's not good news!"

"And you are?! Why are you saying this to me if I don't mean shit to you?!"

"Because... fuck!" He yells so loud and then turns around, leaving my eyes behind.

"What?! What is it?!" I insist.

"You shouldn't! That's it!"

"My life is non of your fucking business!"

"Don't do it!" He still doesn't turn to around to see me, so I insist even more.

"Why?!"

He finally meets my eyes. I can see the frustration in them, but I'm not gonna give up. "Just because!" He yells again.

"Yeah!" I give him a thumbs up while a laugh comes out of my mouth. "Great response, from a college students level!"

"Fuck Lilith!" He's so frustrated and he's eating so many words that I can tell all of that in just he's eyes. I lean closer to him.

"Why do you give a shit if I go out with him or not?!" I yell again. I'm not gonna give up until I get an answer. But his response surprises me, he closes his eyes and lets his hands go to his waist. A long breath from his nose can be heard from where I'm standing and I stare at him confused, I don't know what he's doing but so I'm intrigued I don't open my mouth.

He opens his eyes and stares at my eyes, but they don't last long there, they go down to my lips as my heart speeds at the sight of his heavy breathing and his eyes shining by seeing my thick lips.

"Fuck it." He says in a loud whisper and before I can think of something else, my eyes follow him get closer to grab both of my cheeks with his hands and pull me closer, finally, uniting his lips with mine.

I stay put surprised at his action, my lips don't move while he's taking control of the kiss fitting them together perfectly, tasting mine like it's the last kiss he's ever gonna give.

My body is frozen. I don't know why I'm not pulling away, my head is screaming at me to let go but my body isn't listening, even worst, it wants more.

His left hand goes over my waist to pull me closer to the point that I feel his pelvis hitting my skin, and that's when I regain control of my body. I respond to the kiss so we both start to taste each other while my heart speeds. He's the one that is still in control of the kiss making my lips follow his movements.

My body is getting warmer and it doesn't help that the hand that's on my cheek slowly goes down to the side of my neck. He lets his thumb wrap around it to give it a little squeeze while I just let out a tiny moan out from my throat. He lets go of it and I hate that he did, he takes it to my waist and with both of his hands gently pushes me back until my waist meet the pool table.

He breaks the kiss but I don't open my eyes enjoying his heavy breathing on my skin. Our foreheads are touching, allowing us to enjoy what just happened in silence. Either way, it doesn't matter if I try to say something, my head can't come up with anything to say.

I've had a lot of kisses in my life, but this one, can't compare to anything.

"Am I annoying you now?" He asks in a whisper trying to prevent breathing from troubling his words.

I open my eyes to see his staring down at my lips. His hand goes to my cheek again for his thumb to caress my lips gently. The shine and lust that those green eyes have is nothing that I've ever seen before, and I know mine have the same thing since when I do the same and stare down, my chest and body scream for more.

"Do you want me right now, Avery?" He asks more loudly as he grabs the end of my ass and pulls me up for me to sit on the pool table. I open my legs so he can stand right in between them. His eyes meet mine. "I need you to tell me that you want me."

My heart feels like it's gonna jump out of my chest.

I do want him. My body screams for more. It's starting to annoy me the fact that I don't have him right against my skin, and I can tell that between my legs when I feel it getting wet on my underwear.

Fuck—

His hands leave my body for them to rest by my side on the pool table. Now, his face is on my level. "Do you want me yes or no, Avery?"

My tongue isn't speaking. It's like it doesn't want to let out what my body desires. It can't wait for more, but my mouth still doesn't open. Thinking it's a last cause, I decide to let him know without my words. I grab his waist to pull him closer and feel his lips on the edge of mine without breaking the eye contact with him.

But his hands are still not touching me.

It's not enough.

It's like he's waiting for my full permission to start.

"Use your words, Avery." Lucifer says in a whisper.

Finally, I can feel my tongue giving up. "Are you gonna get in or what? I'm not gonna be waiting all night." I joke, teasing him. He soon lets out a grin liking my words, and without giving me the opportunity to do anything else, he crashes his lips into mine like he's ready to go forward.

Unlike before, it's not only our lips moving with each other, his mouth opens up more and I do the same already knowing what he wants to do. His tongue immediately touches mine and swings around it, plays with it so fast that for a moment I can't keep up, but it doesn't matter, for the first time in my life my body lets the other one have the control.

His hand goes to my neck while his other one suddenly touches my inner thigh. I can feel it slowly tracing it up towards my underwear. Wearing a dress, it's already out in the open, he doesn't need to take anything off my body and Lucifer likes that, I can tell by the smile he grows against our kiss. His tongue goes away from my mouth and mine already misses it, but as soon as the the tip of his index finger touches my wet underwear, my mind can't help but put its all attention towards it.

I feel the little pleasure on my folds immediately. While a little breath escapes my lips when he breaks the kiss, I don't open my eyes, instead, I tilt my head a little bit backwards and rest my hands behind me to hold my body up, waiting for more as I enjoy his hand on my neck holding my head up.

His fingertip goes down, tracing my folds and teasing them by not doing it with pressure, instead, gently and softly. My body screams for him to start on me, begging for more, I move my hips closer to him asking for it, but the hand that's on my neck quickly prevents me from doing so by grabbing the side of my waist with strength.

I hear a chuckle coming from Lucifer. "You want more?" He asks, softly.

He wants to tease the fuck out of me.

I open my eyes to meet his. He has a grin on his face while his index finger is still moving softly against my folds, my chest it's eating my words inside. He leans closer to my face and leaves another kiss on my lips, to then move his fingertip towards my clit and start rubbing it softly and around. I break the kiss finally feeling the pleasure hit my body, I tilt my head backwards and let out a long breath out. But the hand that's on my waist moves to the back of my head and makes me look at him in the eyes. Immediately, with a quick movement he moves the lower side of my underwear to the side and changes his index finger with his thumb against my clit to start doing circles with it. My body is slowly getting filled with pleasure that I can't help but let out another long breath. I open my legs more to the side to feel his thumb even more deeper on my clit, causing me to feel my chest tightening at the touch of it.

"Should I get used to you asking for more with your body, Avery?" Lucifer teases me with a grin.

My eyes go down to his hand between my legs and the sight of his tattooed hand moving against me arouses me even more, he notices this and moves his thumb with more speed on my clit, making a little moan escape my lips.

"Avery—" He says calling my name so I look at his eyes to find a side smile on his face. "I'm gonna love getting used to that." He leans closer to my lips and gives another kiss, then he proceeds with his middle finger to tease my entrance. Without giving me a warning with his words he slowly sinks his finger inside of me. A low gasp leaves my mouth while my walls immediately start to pound around his finger.

My body wants him so desperately that anything he does, little or big, it breaks under him.

Lucifer ends the kiss to stare at my eyes with lust. "Fuck." He whispers darkly doing a quick look to his hand between my legs. He goes back to my eyes as a grin escapes his lips. "You're so fucking wet for me, Avery. I thought you hated me." His grin becomes bigger and immediately moves his finger inside of me, slowly and with the determination. I bite my lower lip not wanting a moan to come out, because I know, one is ready to be free.

My breathing starts to be more heavy when he moves it with more speed. I want to tilt my head back and enjoy it more, but he doesn't give me the opportunity since his ring finger quickly sinks into me joining his middle one, holding my head tighter in place. He doesn't slow down, instead, he speeds it up and moves his thumb once again on my clit, making my body slightly shiver under the combination of those actions.

My hands giving up on me make me rest my back on the pool table. Lucifer takes his free hand and moves my waist down more towards him so his fingers sink inside of me even deeper. A moan escapes my mouth before I can prevent it and I arch my back when my walls start to pound even stronger, my pelvis getting filled with a familiar warmth tightening my skin.

Another moan shakes out of me. "What?" I hear Lucifer ask. "Say it again, Avery." He moves his thumb with more speed. "What did you say?"

"Lucifer—" my back arches once again. My insides start to feel tighter and my eyes close, it's coming and I know it, Lucifer knows it too. He moves his thumb and fingers inside of me with more determination and knowledge of my own body like he was the one who crafted it. The heat becomes even more tighter that another moan leaves my mouth. "Don't stop.." I manage to let out in a whisper.

"Avery— say my name." He says when my legs start to slightly shake by the side of his waist. "Scream it. I want everyone hearing how good the guy that you hate makes you feel."

My walls are pounding so roughly that I can't even stop any sound from coming out. My clit is about to come as the fire grows even more the second passes. "Please..."

"Say my name, Lilith."

"Lucifer." I whimper out and immediately try to close my legs on his waist as the wave of electricity hits my body. But he doesn't stop. My orgasm is becoming bigger and bigger as more he moves against my clit, while my legs can't stop closing in on him.

His other hand goes towards my throat and presses it down with enough strength for me to feel it with my orgasm. "My full name, Avery."

"Lucifer fucking Donovan..." I let it out as the orgasm finally starts to fade away from my body.

My chest is going up and down, breathing trying to calm my body. Lucifer takes his fingers out of me and his thumb starts to softly caress my clit, helping me get there.

My eyes are still closed and all I can feel is my body getting tired because of what happened. Lucifer thumb leaves my clit stopping me from feeling his touch against my body. Missing it. I quickly open my eyes and sit down on the table to find his staring right at me, like he's trying to sink in my face in this moment of desire. Without hesitating, his hands go to my cheeks to make my lips end up right on the edge of his. As soon as he kisses me, his tongue reaches out to my mouth and I quickly open it for him to move his tongue around mine like last time.

This one doesn't last long as he breaks the kiss almost immediately to move his hand towards my neck and wrap his thumb around it. I stare at his eyes but they don't look back, they're slowly admiring my face and everything it has to offer. He lets out a grin as he goes back to my eyes and nods, while his thumb caresses my lips. "Yeah, this is the look of someone's who's enjoying themselves."

My brain wants to look for something to say back at him but he doesn't let me, instead, he moves my head towards him and unites his lips with mine once again.

No matter how much I meant my words earlier, I'm the one on the palm of his hand right now. My body can't help but think about what he just did to me and how I gave in, without asking questions or even pulling away for a second. It was so quick but my body was immediately ready to welcome him, wanting more every single second that passed. He's in control. And it's all new to me.

I can't let him be the one that wins tonight, the last one to get the word. I slowly take my hand towards his belt without breaking the kiss, grab it and pull him closer to me opening my legs even wider. Both of his hands go towards my waist to start caressing it up and down. My hand reaches down further on his pants until they touch the crotch area of his pants. I give it a little squeeze making Lucifer have trouble following the kiss. Seconds later, I feel a bulge growing on my hand.

I break the kiss to stare at his eyes as a little smile is on my lips. "Oh," I whisper "this fast? For me, Donovan?"

Another squeeze and he grabs my waist with even more strength as a long breath comes out of his mouth. "You need me to do something to help you?" I tease him.

Lucifer looks down as my hand goes to the button of his jeans to undone it and remove his pants away from his body. I don't even have to look down for it to be successful, seconds later, both of his hands go towards the edge of it to pull it down. He doesn't even hesitate on helping me to be more quick about it, he leaves his hands resting on the table on the side of my body once he's over. Not knowing if he also took his underwear since I removed my hands away from him when he took it upon himself to remove his clothing is killing me. I want to see, the intrigue rushes down my veins. I want to see his erection because of my actions with my own eyes, but first, my hand goes towards it when he locks eyes with me again. His green eyes are shining under the light of the moonlight and I can see an enormous amount of lust and desire in them.

When my hand feels it I immediately wrap it around my hand. A low gasp leaves his mouth. My hand isn't big, but it isn't that small either, still, my fingers slightly touch my thumb on the other side.

I quickly spit on my free hand like I usually do to take my hands around it, and slowly trace it up and down. He teased me before, I'm gonna do the fucking same thing.

Lucifer closes his eyes as he tilts his head back and I smile. His neck filled with veins and his thick lips are all my eyes can see but it still fills me with much desire seeing him like this under my touch. I want to go to the tip of it even though I don't know how long it's gonna take me, either way, my hands start to go towards me since his erection is in front of my pelvis. I immediately see how his mouth goes slightly open as a long breath comes out.

It doesn't stop— my hand is still going. I lean a little bit closer to him to surprise myself and feel it right on the edge of my clit.

Well...— damn.

His waist is a couple of centimetres away from the table and still, it touches me.

Compose yourself Lilith, this isn't the time.

I slowly shake my head as my thumb starts to slowly caress the top. I don't give him the time to think of something else, I change the position of my hand a stroke it to go up and down slowly. My other hand grabs his neck to pull him towards me, I want to see those green eyes breaking under my touch. I start to move my hand with more speed and around as his eyes meet mine.

Long breaths are coming out of his mouth but when I stop to stroke with strength and move my index fingers around, a low moan leaves his throat. I let out a little laugh leaning my face closer to his. "Say it again, that sounded good."

I don't give him the opportunity to give me a response since I start to work on his dick like before, going forward and back. Another moan shakes out of his mouth. I love to hear that sound, music to my ears when a man is telling me how good I'm making them feel. I speed my movement on it. His body slightly shivers as he rests his forehead on my shoulders, leaving him closer to mine with his tip touching my clit, making a low gasp leave my mouth.

"What's it gonna be, Donovan?" I ask in a whisper. Another moan hits my ear and I can feel my insides getting wet again because of it. "Tell me how much I annoy you." I say as my hands go faster. My arm is getting tired but I don't give up, I push it until I know his orgasm is getting closer.

He leaves my shoulder to grab my neck and bring me against his lips, but he can't take control of the situation since his body shakes in front of me, enabling him to unite his lips with me. He leaves them right on the edge as another deep moan comes from the inside of his mouth.

Lucifer opens his eyes and with a quick movement pushes my shoulders back, making my back rest on the table and for my hand to leave his dick. His action surprises me, but I don't say anything, I notice his eyes going directly between my legs and as he grabs his dick I know what he's about to do. I close my eyes waiting to feel him inside of me, and he doesn't disappoint. His hand grabs my waist to hold me still while his other one places his thumb over my clit, I immediately feel him sinking into me slowly.

"Fuck— Avery." He murmures out. "Still wet for me?"

Both of my hands go towards his wrist to hold them and wrap around digging my fingertips into his skin. When he's fully inside, I feel my insides getting softly warm around his dick, it's big in between my walls and I have to let out a long breath to fully get used to it. He doesn't move immediately, instead, he reaches down with his face towards my chest, and leaves a gentle kiss in between my breasts. His lips are warm and it gives me some shivers flying down my spine.

One of his hands lets go of my waist and I immediately let go of his wrist because of it, but my hand can't go far since his grabs it and places it up top of my head, holding it right against the table. He goes away from my chest as he starts to move. Slightly pulling in and out of me, both of us let out a tiny moan at the same time making our eyes connect as he moves quicker. I breath shakily for a moment when he starts to grind against my waist instead. The pleasure now surrounding me makes me let out a another deeply breath out.

A grin escapes his lips as the hand that's on top of my hand goes towards my clit to start caressing it with his thumb. "Fuck." I murmur out and my hips go up to feel him deeper between my legs. His dick moves now in and out quicker as well as his thumb on my clit, the combination make my eyes dizzy. I close them and take my hand towards his laying on my waist, holding me tight on place.

A shaky moan leaves Lucifer's mouth and that makes the heat on my pelvis stronger, tightening my thighs and waist. His skin is now hitting mine as he moves quicker and the fire slowly grows. I want to let out another moan but I bite my lip with strength because I know it's going to be loud.

The hand that's on my waist leaves it so I open my eyes to see where it go, Lucifer is holding himself up by placing it on the side of my stomach on the table. He's looking down in between my legs as he doesn't slow down. His curls move on top of me, gently brushing my skin, I grab them with my hand and wrap them around my fingers. He immediately looks at my eyes and I can't see that he's about to cum in his eyes, they're shining and getting filled with lust. Another tiny moan leaves his mouth as his arms and waist slight shiver against me. "Shit, Avery."

I want him to enjoy the orgasm on its fullest. I move my hand on his hair towards my clit to make the orgasm with my own and take away from him the full control, but he doesn't let go, instead, he speeds up making my back arch and for my head to tilt back as my mouth goes wide open shaking another moan out, without making it possible to prevent it.

He shakes more as his face goes down to my chest, my pelvis is even more tense than before and the familiar wave of electricity and heat appear as a loud moan leaves my mouth. This time, Lucifer lets go after I try to close my legs on him and the orgasm quickly fades away.

He suddenly stops inside of me, shaking once again making me feel his cum fills my insides. His arms shivering causes him to bend down his elbows even more, allowing them to hold him up on top of me. My hands go towards his hair to caress it while my breathing is still trying to go back to normal. With his forehead, he touches my chest to leave another gentle kiss against it, to then move up and see me laying down in front of him, tired and filled with pleasure after what we just did.

Both is his hands go towards my waist to caress them as we both stare into each other's eyes.

Fuck.

I hate this.

My chest hates this.

Turns out, there's not way of winning this game. We both somehow always end up on the other's palm no matter how much we both try to prevent it or say to ourselves that's not gonna happen. I've never been the one to let the other take control, but tonight, I did, and what's worst is that I liked it and I would do it again.

My heart immediately speeds as his eyes don't stop staring at me, caressing my skin like he's taking care of me, sending a weird feeling on my stomach that I've never felt before with someone. It's so strange that I see right in this second my escape to leave the position I'm in, and move my legs aside with the intention to leave the room and Lucifer behind. Almost immediatly.

What's the point of continuing this if no one's gonna win?

Hit it then quit it, right?

That's me.

I get up from the table and place my dress correctly on my body, dropping it on my thighs like it's supposed to go. I know that Lucifer's eyes are on me but I don't want to see him to prevent that same feeling appearing on me again, hating it even now that is gone.

"It's over." I say finally grabbing my phone to text Ada from the pocket of my dress.

"What?" He asks still with a little bit of heavy breathing.

"We fucked." I unlock my phone, uninterested. "Isn't that the reason we started it all? The game. So, now you go your way and I go my way, deal?"

"No—" He says quickly. Finally, I lock eyes with him.

"What do you mean no?"

"We were fucking two seconds ago and you're already gonna leave?"

That's not what he wants?

"What?" I ask, but my phone immediately vibrates on my hand. I look at it, the name of my mom appears on my screen.

Celia.

I read the time, confused: it's 2:45 in the morning.

My heart drops to my stomach once I press the answer button.

"Hello?"

"Lilith?!" I hear my mom yelling on the other side, she seems agitated.

"Mom? Are you alright?!"

"No—, baby.." She stops, I hear a sob leave her nose.

Lucifer takes a step closer to me, leaning closer to my face worriedly.

"Mom?! Talk, what's going on?"

Her heavy breathing hits my ears, but nothing else. When the sound of her car starts, she takes a deep breath in after another shakily sobs leaves her. "It's your brother, Lilith. He's in the hospital."

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