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LANCE'S POV

"What the fuck are you laughing at?!"

"PFFT HAHAHAHAHA TAKTE! Ang bobo mo sa parteng inisulto mo ang tao, Lance. Pota dami ng tawa ko," Ken is laughing his ass out after I told him what happened.

"Pfftt! Haha! Teka, lalabas na lang ako." This fucker won't seriously stop.

I am facing a moral dilemma right now. Damn! I was just so mad that time; I don't know what had gotten in me. Fuck, I was so used in women throwing them at me, now I'm on my own with this shit.

Tangina, ang bobo ko nga. Ang tanga mo Zapanta! You are a goddamn disgrace in mankind. Pota kabayaran ko na to sa lahat ng babaeng pinaglaruan ko. I know I was an asshole but I am willing to change.

I'm willing to change for my brat.

What am I gonna do now? Think Zapanta! Think! I don't have any fucking idea kung paano mangligaw or chase someone. I have a fair share, well, let's be honest a lot of shares in bedding woman after woman but that was in the past. I'm willing to be serious. I am serious! I am serious in courting Ace.

I always get what I want and something in me is challenged. If this is the egotistic side of me, then fuck it. I'm more than willing to bruise my ego for ace. That person made me see a new perspective of liking someone. This time no playing. I will show it to everyone else that I'm serious.

I'm serious in having that romantic story with my brat. Damn, motherfucking cliché. Liking and chasing someone sure is not easy. Ginawa ko ang hindi ko aakalaing gagawin with thid lifetime. I searched online kung paano mangligaw sa isang tao at kung paano paamuhin ang taong galit sa'yo. Natatawa ako sa salitang paamuhin. My brat surely doesn't give up without a fight.

My 'Brat' that name suits his personality well. It's not something fancy but it's special to me. I will surely fuck up the person who will call my brat with the same pet name. I am the only person allowed to call him that. Great, now I'm becoming possessive on someone I couldn't hold.

A list and a lot of websites showed up on my research and the first thing I've noticed is the thought of; give your special someone a red rose. Red rose defines passion, love and beauty. For forgiveness give your beloved a purple hyacinth as it defines for asking forgiveness.

This is it. I don't have any idea on how to do it my way so maybe in the mere future I'll figure his likes and liking. I know I am being cliché as fuck but who gives a damn if your baby is mad? Men out there, you know the feeling.

"Ken! Get your ass in here!"

"Hey, fucker. What can I do for you?" I glared at my ass secretary. The motherfucker won't quit holding his laughter.

"Buy me a bouquet of red roses and purple hyacinth, a grand one. Also buy all the branded chocolates out there." I dismissed him by waving my hands. Fuck, that request was too simple, should I buy him a sports car instead? Or yacht? Damn, I sounded like a sugar daddy.

I opened my phone with him as my wallpaper. Fuck, now, I sounded like a creep. Anyhow, hindi ko pa man alam ang mga gusto mo but I will patiently wait for you to open up. I will have you in my arms sooner, Angel. I will win your heart, Ace. You're mine. I am rooting for that, Mrs. Zapanta.

Mrs. Angel 'ACE' Villamayor-Zapanta, a perfect name.

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ACE'S POV

"Bang bang into the room (I know you want it)

Bang bang all over you (I'll let you have it)

Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)

Wait a minute 'til you (ah, hey!)

Bang bang there goes your heart (I know you want it)

Back, back seat of my car (I'll let you have it)

Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)

Wait a minute 'til you (ah, hey!)

Napa-irap na lang ako sa hangin ng marinig ko ang kanta. The song was the exact music playing when that time na first time ko siyang makilala.

When I knew about the fact that I'm the only eligible in the family to take part of the arrange marriage na sinasabi ni Mom and Dad ay hindi ko mapigilang malungkot. Pansin man ni Mom at Dad na hindi ko masiyadong ini-isip ang engagement ko sa kabilang pamilya, but deep inside ay nasasaktan ako. I was bound to someone at an early age. Pakiramdam ko sa mga panahong 'yun ay pinaparusahan ako.

Isang sixteen year old na sobrang napakayaman ay ikakasal lang ng ganoon kasi baka mawala ang yaman nila? This world surely is shit! Ng malaman ko ay ngumiti lang ako kina mom and dad and nagpanggap na masaya at least sa balita na lalaki ang mapapangasawa ko. Pero pagka-sirado ko sa pinto ay napaiyak na lang ako. Sa dami ng yaman namin ay wala talagang magagawa?

It's true, money can't buy your happiness.

I fought the battle inside my head. I was stressed and depressed but I made sure that no one will know. I kept crying the pain. Sooner, I learned to accept the fact that not every bird in the sky is free. Some are killed and abducted.

"Ace naman eh, mapapagalitan tayo sa ginagawa natin." Si Miles ang nag-iisang kasama ko tonight and she's looking worried and stressed at our situation.

What is there to be stressed at?

"Ano kaba Gwin Miles, don't be a kill joy! Enjoy the party, the music and the people around!" Sabi ko sa kaniya at nag-order muli ng isang drink.

Dahil sa mapera ako ay ipanahalungkat ko ang profile ng mapapangasaw ko kuno. I was shock ng malaman kung isa pala siya sa mga kaibigan ni kuya Silver. Nakita ko rin sa profile niya kung gaano siya kababaero.

I can only imagine kung ano ang buhay ko kasama siya. Will I end up as the original but not the first? Will I end up as the husband na nagiging martyr dahil sa rason na alam kung hindi ako mamahalin ng napangasawa ko? I don't want that! I don't want an inconvenience marriage.

Even if bakla lang ako, pinangarap ko rin na mahalin eh. 'Yung mahalin ng buong-buo ng hindi dahil sa kung ano ang kaya at meron ako. I envision myself with someone who willll treat me as I am and because of who I am!

"Ace, it's so late and meron ka pang appointment para sa birthday mo." Hinahagod-hagod niya ang likuran ko and doon ko lang napansin na umiiyak na pala ako.

I looked up to her with a tear-streak face. I am so down at this moment and all I want to do is fuck this life! I hate this life! I hate Lance for being so rude, I hate him for insulting me, and I hate him.

"I hate my life. I hate myself! I hate that conceited jerk! I hate him!"

"Don't say that, Ace. Lasing ka lang kaya nasasabi mo 'yan. Hindi mo dapat sinasabi 'yan sa sarili mo dahil ikaw ang pinakabusilak ang puso na nakilala ko. Alam mo 'yan. Don't feed lies to your own mind, ikaw mismo ang malalason d'yan."

I never truly appreciated someone's presence in this kind of moment but I'm happy I have Miles with me to share my pain. Itinaas niya sa ere ang isang shot ng tequila at ininom 'yun.

"Ano ba ang kulang sa'kin, Miles? Mayaman naman ako. Maganda din naman ang katawan ko. Ano ba ang labanan ngayon? Palakihan naba ng suso, paramihay ng naikakama? I'm so full of love and I'm very willing to give it. Ano ba ang kulang sa akin Miles?" I can feel the alcohol seeping in my mind state.

Ng maalala ko na sa mismong club na'to nakilala ko si Lance ay natawa naman ako. Para na akong sira-ulo na nag mo-mood swing.

"Wala, Ace. Nasa sa'yo na lahat at kung hindi niya 'yun makita ay kawalan na niya 'yun." Na-upo na rin si Miles sa giliran ko. I'm grateful at least sa pagkakataong ito ay may kasama ako.

"Makati ba ako? Am I a slut? Am I a bitch? Do I look disgusting ha, Gwen?"

"No, of course not! Don't compare yourself to those lowly-people, Ace. You're more than what you think of. Mas malaki ang puso mo keysa sa naglalakihang suso ng iba d'yan."

"Then bakit niya nasabi 'yun? B-Bakit niya nasabi 'yun?!"

Hindi ako mahilig uminom pero ang alcohol na lang yata ang loyal sa feelings ko. I drink to drown my problems but fucking problems ang galing lumangoy! Naka swimming vest ang tangina!

"Alam mo, Gwen?" I asked her, drunk.

"Ha? Hoi! Hala naloko na! Ace, bumalik ka dito!"

"Sayaw na lang tayo!"

Tinakbo ko na ang dance floor at nagpagiya sa musikang tumutogtog. Lasing na kung lasing. Wala na akong paki! I wan't to forget who I am for this night! Gusto kong makalimutan ang mapagpanggap na ako! I want to have the moment na malaya ako sa mga pisteng obligations ko.

Dahil rin sa mga obligasyon na 'yan, I experienced my first heartbreak. I was so willing to do anything at that time na makuha ang loob ni Lance dahil sa mga nalaman ko. I've heard na ayaw niya raw magpakasal kasi ayaw niyang matali at hindi man lang pomerma sa kasunduan. Okay lang sana kung ganoon lang, pero ang makita mong iba't-iba ang babae na nalalasap niya ay nakakahina ng self-esteem. He was enjoying the moment as long as it last.

Walang alam ang kuya kasi tinago ko'to. I decided na hindi ito ipaalam pero ng dahil sa insidente ay nalaman rin niya. I was so set on making him realize na may ikabubuga rin ako kaya nagawa ko ang mga 'yun.

The heartbreaking part was he promised. He promised not to forget about me pero pagka-umagahan ay umalis lang siya na parang walang nangyari. It was so heartbreaking! Doon ko napagtanto na wala. That I don't stand a chance between all those women he bedded.

Simula noong panahon na 'yun. I wear a mask na tinatago ang totoong ako. I pretended to be someone na hindi ako. Nagbait-baitan, donating, charities and all para lang mapansin at mapakita sa kanila na wala na ang vulnerable side ko. Pero kahit na anong pagpapangap ko, I can't help it. I was still pained. My core was obstructed!

Nabalik lang ako sa pagbabalik tanaw ko ng may humawak sa beywang ko as he sensually grind his body on me. Gone the perfect image, let's do some shit! Humarap ako sa kasayaw ko and I was stunned for a moment kasi may alindog rin 'tong lalaking sumasayaw sa akin.

"Hi beautiful," I giggled at his words and sumabay na rin sa ritmo ng kanyang sayaw. His looks are built and big, a long set of trunk legs, and a set of hard toned upper torso.

"Hey handsome," He smirked at me kaya alam kong gusto niya rin ang ginagawa ko.

"Want to continue this somewhere else?" He whispers near my ear and soon he was kissing his way down my collar area.

"Sure!"

Hindi lang ikaw ang kayang mag-enjoy sa buhay, Lance. Kaya ko rin. Tumingkayad ako at walang pag-aalinlangan na hinuli ang mapupulang labi ng lalaking kasayaw. Fuck, I'm getting ripped tonight!