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"And what is good, Pheadrus,
And what is not good---
Need we ask anyone to tell us these things?"
~Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert M. Pirsig

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Yoonbi

When the bike is only feet away, my arm gets snatched by someone and we both are pulled back to the pavement just before a catastrophe happens.

The bike passes through a dumbstruck SoMin and strong hands are holding tightly onto both my upper arms.

I grimace down at the steel like grip that's hurting me, I look up to see Jimin looking at me intensely.

His eyes are glittering and there was something in them, something way bigger than what I expect a boy his age could hold.

It just happens and I'm seeing what reels inside his memory.

Jimin stomps his way out of his friend's house. A house where he gets all kinds of illegal substances into his body.

His throat became accustomed to alcohoł, his nose breaths in heroiñ just like it breaths air. His legs forgot how to walk properly.

SoMin tries pulling these things all away, but whom is she kidding. She can't. She's just a ghost who will watch him get himself killed. Just like she did.

But, is this his fate too?

He've been on that for a few months, since SoMin left and Jimin believes he is at fault.

Only if he went with her to that party.
Only if she didn't go alone.
Only if he went to pick her up.
Only if... Only if.
Yet, he can't change anything. Can he?

Jimin walks in the dark streets and his conscious takes him to where SoMin's body was found. He'd always do that, and just stay there waiting for anyone to come.

He wants to know who killed his sister, and why? Why did they kill her of all people?

She didn't do anything!

He bends his knees and rests his back against the wall before he lets his body slowly descend down against it in the dark alley.

"SoMin... SoMin! Where are you." He talks drunkenly, "you didn't really leave right? You are still here right!" He shouts and hits the ground with his feet so hard that a bruise forms under his leather shoes.

Does he feel anything? No.
Even if he does, he believes he deserves it all.

A lonely ghost of a girl cries for him to stop but she can't be heard.

All what he sees is the image of his sister's corpse. Bloody and lifeless. He pictures what could've happened in his head. He did it a billion of times before.

A vehicle hits his sister and runs away just like nothing happened.

A car hits SoMin and chooses leaving the body on the ground instead of having to go through all the police investigations.

A van hits his sisters body to death and run over unmercifully.

And more.

Every time he sees blood, every time he hears her scream. And every time he sees her.

He hates it. Hates it all and wants to redo it. Erase it and repeat that day over again to change it all.

"I want to change it all!" He screams and hits the back of his head harshly against the wall as his cheeks turn wet.

"Get up! You can't change it by doing that!" The ghost of his sister screams at him. But he never listens.

"I want to change it all..." He repeats, crying.

One tear slips out of my eye and I blink. Jimin? Was that him? He looked so... Worn out.

Oh Jimin.

He let's go and pushes me backwards before he takes a tight hold of his hair, he turns in his spot as he breathes heavily.

"Are you serious?" He mutters to me.

I stay quiet.

"You almost died! Just like that, you were almost gone! Just like..." He shouts.

I look at SoMin to see her tear stained face, "you almost died, Yoonbi! Why did you do that!" She shouts at me as well and begins crying like a little girl.

I didn't mean to!

"Don't ever do that again!"

I take a step back because both the Min siblings shout the same thing in sync.

"Calm down!" I tell both of them, "it's not like I did that on purpose!"

SoMin continues crying and Jimin looks at me intensely. He sighs and turns away, silence colors the air.

"What did you want from me?" I ask impatiently, I get it, his sister died in a similar way but hey! I'm a stranger, it's not a big deal! And he saved me, it's over. We're done. Why the drama!

He looks at me incredulously, "should I go?" I ask when he doesn't reply.

"N-no!" He finally replies, "I want to talk to you."

"Okay?" I say, unsure.

"He wants to talk to you? about what?" SoMin asks. Looks like she's done crying. But she's right. "About what?" I repeat.

He sighs, "I will tell you, bubble tea?"

"Bubble tea." I agree.

A walk later, Jimin and I sit on a small table in the small local cafe. Ordering goes on awkwardly and I almost laugh out loud when SoMin orders too but the waitress ignores her.

The same waitress who is checking Jimin out, he was totally oblivious while I had the amusement of my life.

"Huh, I will tell her manager! Is this how you treat your customers!" SoMin shouts. I shake my head and look at Jimin. 

"So, what's it that you want to talk about?" I ask while taking a sip from my tea. Certainly I prefer coffee more.

He puts his mug down soundly and looks at me, I do the same while looking at the warm liquid. My fingers leave the handle in speed much more than that humans could reach. 

I choke and hide my hands under the table, I forgot to drink my potion. SoMin eyes me worriedly just as Jimin asks if I'm okay.

"Do you want water?" As soon as he asks I shake my head and take my small bottle out. No one can really tell what's inside.

I imbibe the anti-power potion and put the bottle back in my bag, "dry cough," I lie and he nods, obviously buying it.

SoMin sighs and nods too.

"So? What was it?" I go on.

"My sister." He replies.     

"SoMin?" I ask.

"Me?" SoMin follows.

We both look at Jimin in confusion.

"There is nothing that she didn't tell me about, and you appearing all of a sudden and just on time with enough money for...." He trails off and holds onto his hot beverage tightly.

"I don't know really, SoMin is a really close friend of mine. I came to give back what's not mine just as I had the chance to." I explain.

"Caught in a lie." SoMin dings into my ears like a freak then starts laughing hysterically. I wave her away like a fly. "But isn't Jimin a cutie! By the way it's true, I always tell him about everything. And if you were my real friend when I was alive I bet you and Jimin would've been an item."

I choke again, my face goes red and I cough erratically.

An item!

"Oh my god, are you okay?" Jimin gets up and pats my back a couple of times as his hand holds my shoulder.

"I'm good," I mutter breathlessly. I lean my body to the side opposite to him when I realize how close he've come.

Just as street smart as his sister, Jimin gets the message and goes back to his seat while SoMin releases a wolf whistle.

We continue talking about SoMin. He asks questions I didn't know the answer of but thankfully SoMin was by my side all along the test I was undertaking.

A test that makes sure I'm his sister's friend? Seriously?

"I admit that I knew things about the Park family that I didn't know before." I tell SoMin as we exit the cafe.

Jimin left a few moments ago when his parents needed him, "you didn't know anything sweetheart." SoMin laughs.

"Yeah right," I roll my eyes.

"But it wasn't only about that by the way, I can see the loneliness in my brother's eyes. He wanted to talk to someone who wouldn't pity him because he lost his only sister. And you were smiling and laughing with him all along. Thank you."

"Aw shut up," I blush, "I'm your only friend, ghost." We laugh.

"Oh! I knew that even when I leave I would still be able to watch over one person from above." SoMin says excitedly.

"Watch over someone from above?"

"Yeah! Anyone, but only one that I could help out thrice. I don't know whom I'll chose." She touches her temple thoughtfully.

"What are you even thinking about, it's Jimin. Who else?" I give her a critical look.

"I'm not sure. There is someone else too. I still have time to chose anyway."

Who are you going to choose, SoMin?

//this quote at the beginning of the chapter is from a book I'm obsessing over these days, it's pretty weird because I don't often read these books BUT THE LOGIC AND IDEAS AND WRITING SEND ME CHILLS ISTG ITS LIT!!

sorry I didn't update tho, I'm so busy with SATs and started attending school yesterday😭 and this chapter doesn't help either, reminds me that SoMin's is leaving soon 😭
She's really nice, awh god *wipes tears*
new people will come in tho😏
I can safely ask you to expect sth👌
This plot is nothing spontaneous, everything is planed. It's a reality in the figment of imagination: The Invincible.