I couldn't update last week because I had very bad connection and it kinda stopped working after I updated STB oop--
✨I'LL DOUBLE UPDATE TODAY THO✨
For now, I miss you so so much and I hope you enjoy reading!
See you at the end💜💜

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"There is a limit to everything, and just like a bottle can burst from being filled by too much of whatever... it feels like someday, my heart will explode from being filled by too much of you."

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Yoonbi

"Enough is enough!" I shout and close the biology book I've been almost reciting to myself for the past two hours. According to my mom, studying is a never-ending duty. So I need to always revise because it'll be a huge problem if I made a mistake with the power of brilliancy.

"I don't get it! Why do I need to study what I know over and over again!" I complain to my dad when I'm beside him on the living room sofa, it's almost midnight and everyone is still awake because I'm having exams next week.

Who even feels exams this early? "So you won't forget what you learned, and your mom is so anxious about it all." My dad whispers then leans into my ear to continue, "she's a drama queen."

I smirk and nod in agreement before I sense the heat of breathing behind my neck, "I heard you both." Venom whispers sound and my dad and I jolt off the couch in a startle.

"Yoonbi yah? Weren't we going to sleep?" My dad turns to me suggestively. I check the time, ten to midnight, and scratch my head.

"Oh!" I fake it, playing along, "yeah oh my god look at the time, it's a Monday tomorrow you know, we need sleep!" I manage to act it out as my dad and I slowly move at a radius away from my mom and run upstairs, "good night!"

"Good night my ladies!" My dad tells my mom and me as he slams his bedroom door just before I do the same and plop down on my bed. Sleep doesn't come to me right away so I'm stuck counting the beds I've ever slept on till 1: 15 AM. My phone is long dead because my chats are on mute and no one calls at this time, making me turn in bed with huffs.

My thoughts take me to Jungkook and I smile, moving sharply on my bed in excitement. My smile drops when I remember how tired and sad he's been this week, "my poor Kookie." I whisper to myself, completely still now.

I feel my face frowning as I start thinking about what made him like this exactly, or what took him back to the pit I thought he escaped. If I could only break my promise and read him, I'll know it all. But can I really? Will I?

I shake my head, knowing I won't dare to do it so I let my eyes slip to sleep as I surrender, just as I'm almost there my phone rings. It takes me a moment to believe someone is calling me at this time, another moment to hold my phone and convince myself it's Jungkook.

Wow, he's creepy. I smile.

"Hey, Yoonbi?" He talks and my smile at his call falls when I hear his thick voice. It's so sad and fatigued, like he've been crying himself to sleep, or at least tried.

"Kookie?" I start, feeling my heart beat faster in concern, "what's wrong?"

He stops breathing heavily for a while then sniffles, "I can't sleep. I keep getting nightmares."

"Just calm down, what happened," I say, feeling my voice shake and my heart compress, failing to sound like I'm asking and end up just telling.

"I need you." This is all it took me to jolt off my bed and sneak out of my house, leaving behind a note for my parents and arriving at Jungkook's location after moments of speeding through the dark streets.

He's at his porch, wearing slacks and a big, striped white shirt under a robe he pulled on to shield him from the cold, and he's looking absolutely beautiful like he always does. But as I stand feet away sideways from him, I don't get to see his stained face and missing smiles till he notices me and lets his eyes widen a little.

He sighs and a ghost of a smile flickers on his lips but all that I feel is his chest and his smell around me when he jogs towards me and hugs me tightly, holding me like I'm crucial to him right now. I hug him back, liking the feeling of being valued and needed by him.

"I'm here now, Kookie." I let my palm slide on the fabric of his clothes, up and down as he breathes in my hair, nodding and tightening his hold on my shoulders.

"You are. Yes, you are." He whispers to himself and pulls away to look at my face and cups it, brushing the hair framing it down and nodding at my being assuringly. Jungkook takes my hand in his and pulls me into his house, through the darkness and into what I'm guessing is his room.

He pulls me to his bed immediately, takes off his robe after he locks the door and tugs me under the covers that surround me with more of him and his scent. He turns to the right side of the bed and holds my hand again, securing his palm around mine so that our thumbs are wrapped around each other.

He pulls my hand to his chest and sinks down so his head is leveled with my chest. And he pushes his head against me, pulling me closer by hugging my waist and making me hug his head to myself with my free arm. He doesn't sleep, he stays still, breathing against my shirt and digging his fingers into my skin through the fabric.

"What happened, Jungkook?"

"I had a nightmare, Jimin was beating me up. And you, you left me. Everyone hated me and I was terrified. It's just a nightmare, right?" He asks me but he doesn't wait for an answer, he just holds me tighter and breathes me in.

"Of course. I told you Jungkook, I would never leave you. Ever." I tell him, taking my hand out of his and holding his head against me with both my arms, brushing my fingers through his hair.

"I wish."

"And your wish is granted, my Kook." I smile and my heart flutters when he chuckles against my chest. "Why Jimin though? Why was he beating you up?"

I regret my question when his fingers twitch and he stays quiet, I hug him letting him know that he doesn't need to answer. Jungkook latches onto the chance and falls completely silent, taking down with him the growing tension in the air. He plants a kiss on my clothed shoulder and I shiver, staying by his side as he fades into sleepiness and I wish it'll be peaceful this time.

But Jungkook whispers something in his head before he sleeps, making my mind load many other questions I can't find answers to. "Jimin knew what I did... He's going to hate me when he knows what I did, then he'll hate me more when he knows what I did- to his sister..."

Why did I hear it? I only hear things he wants to tell me... What did my Jungkook do to SoMin? What the hèck is going on. I hug him in his sleep all night, easing the frowns he gets and patting him when his breath starts to heave. I keep comforting him like my life depends on it, like I am comforting myself too. Maybe I am.

I get less to no sleep but being by his side makes up for it, I need to get back home to change for school. I nod to myself, deciding that I'll stay till Jungkook wakes up with me by his side and speed back to and from home to school. I'll be on time like that, but there is one problem. Won't Jungkook think this is a little puzzling?

I shake my head discreetly so he won't wake up, the sunlight from his window illuminates his face as I trace his features in admiration. "Aren't you just a jewel Jungkook. A true J for your initial, Kookie."

I keep on touching him and his hair for minutes after that, my hand hesitates when he shuffles a bit and eyes me with one eye half-open. His small smiles, in his sleepy state, make me continue to touch him, failing to hold my hand back.

His morning voice blesses me when he says something I don't focus on but very much hear, "freeze."

I smile at him.

"Shouldn't you start getting ready now?" I lean down and brush my nose against his, feeling like I'm on cloud nine when a big smile crinkles his eyes, showing all his teeth. "I love your smile," I admit, not giving it too much thought and just blurting it out.

"And I love you." Jungkook retorts but as soon as I decipher the words I freeze in place, feeling like time stopped as I gawk down at him.

"Did you just--"

"I'll let you go back home now," he kisses me on the nose and shuffles on his bed so he's hovering over me, his hand feeling my face, "but I'll see you at school, don't be late."

I lean up and pull his head down, giving him a real kiss and marveling at the alright taste of his mouth although he just woke up. Jungkook's hands wander down to my hip as I kiss him and I start to notice how his hands started itching to touch my skin whenever we kiss lately.

When his hands slip under my tee, I break the kiss and look at him. Feeling his nails rub against the skin of my side and trace it with his hand, "beautiful. Time stops when I'm with you." He says with an unwavering, toothless smile and glowing eyes.

Jungkook gets off the bed after that, almost too soon, pulling me up as he comically sneaks me out of the house and waves me away, warning me not to be late one more time. "Well, I'll try." I laugh and run off, not so fast, only till he can't see me anymore then hide behind a corner and storm off from there.

When I reach home, I vibrate through the door and run to the unread note, cutting it to piece and throwing it away to avoid a pointless interrogation. Then I get ready quickly, leaving my mom to oversleep for the second time and smiling excitedly at my trick.

I storm to school, ditching my coffee and stopping behind another corner to guarantee my safety. It's different now, I can't change cities anymore, not only because of Law #22 but also because of the people I have now. I doubt I'd be able to live with being wiped out of Jikook's memory and the rest of the humans in their group. My SMG won't forget me, nor will Suga or Hyunwoo, but Law #22 does more than just wiping memories of us off the ones we love.

I shiver at its context that drills into my mind, my steps falter once but I shudder and continue my steps till I'm through the gates of the crowded school. I check the time to see that it's ten minutes for first class and I need to hurry, I gulp and feel the taste of my coffee missing from my mouth.

I'm sure I'd prefer it over toothpaste. I roll my eyes and walk to the building, ignoring all the students hanging around in the field. Someone puts a hand over my mouth and pulls me to the side as I attempt to climb the staircase to the seniors' floor.

//ding donggg
this chapter ends here, honestly I'm not too thrilled with it and I think you guys deserve more so that's another reason I'm surely updating again today.

my sleep is a disturbing mess (my mom's words) so I'll probably update right before I sleep... like in a couple of hours? Yep.

Tell me what you think so far! I like the chemistry yoonkook have, but this chapter still feels short meah.

I really did miss you.
SEE YOU SOON, REALLY SOON💜✨

with wishes for a clearer future for everyone,
Kaye 💜💜