~A new face~

Jungkook's gaze was fixed somewhere toward the ceiling as he was laying on his back, on his bed.

He couldn't sleep. He had tried, but the nightmares had woken him up in the middle of the night.
Closing his eyes for a couple of seconds, your voice was all he could hear.

"How does it feels?  I bought this blanket for you. Isn't it fluffy and soft?  And smooth? As soon as I saw it, I thought about you. "

"So this main character is really stupid, don't you think so? How can she act this way? I understand that she likes the guy but... she is literally all over him. Doesn't she feel ashamed of herself? I would have died of embarrassment. And that guy makes fun of her."

Jungkook opened his eyes slowly and stared at the door. He sat up and placed his head against his bending knees. Then he closed his eyes again.

"Should I tell you how my day went? Wonderful of course. Surprised? " Hehehe

"Ok, I am boring. Sorry, Kookie... I guess I am too excited every time I am talking to you."

"I miss you so much."

"Have I told you today how much you mean to me? I can't remember. But I will tell you again, just in case. "

"You are the most wonderful person I've ever met. Don't forget how special you are to me. I don't know what I would do all alone without you. I can't imagine not having you in my life. I guess you are my favorite place to be, I hope you are aware of that."

"But if you will ever feel like leaving, then It's nothing I can do about, right?" *nervous laugh* "Don't feel constrained when it comes to me, promise me. You are free to do whatever you want. You are free to go wherever you want. And be with whoever you want."

"I just wish... To remain somewhere in your heart. Just for a little while. "

"Don't forget about me wherever you will go. "

Suddenly, breathing became something difficult to do. His chest constricted in pain. He felt like he was going to faint.

Ah... Damn it!

"How are you Y/N? You know that if there is something I can help you with  I am right here." He met your eyes.

You smiled at the boy who was standing in front of you with a warm smile plastered onto his face.
"I am alright. I am sorry if I seemed a bit off the past few days, I guess I miss my parents more than I thought I would. It's been so long since we last saw each other. "

"If you need some days off... "

You shook your head.

"No Jinyoung, it's ok really. My parents and I... Let's say we don't share the same beliefs. At the moment, I am not prepared to see them and confront them. "

You missed the presence of your parents, of course, it was the truth. But it wasn't the entire truth. The reason you were feeling down was due to his absence. You got used to his presence in your life. Even if he was unconscious, taking care of him became a part of who you were.

You couldn't say that to Jinyoung. His grandmother you were taking care of, knew about Jungkook, Jinyoung knew about it as well. But they didn't know his situation. You had to keep everything a secret. Because of that,  you felt really lonely sometimes, not having someone to share your fears and anguish with. Sometimes you felt the need to call Mingyu and get this off your chest, as he was the only one who knew everything. But you didn't want to worry him too much. So, instead, you preferred to pretend in front of him as well. Of course, you were happy every time Jungkook was near, but now... Now you couldn't bring yourself to smile anymore. The hole in your chest wouldn't let you.

Opening the door of your house and not seeing him there anymore... Even if you expected that day to come, the pain and loneliness you felt at that moment were more than you were prepared for. Nothing could have prepared you for the turmoil of such painful, strong feelings that assaulted your whole existence.
The first thing you did after grasping the situation - that he was truly gone - was curl up on your bed and silently cried, burying your face into his pillow. Now you could finally cry. Because he wasn't there to see you. Now you could finally let everything out. And you couldn't stop asking yourself where you did wrong, that made him leave like that. Without a word... Without looking back.

You had felt a little relieved that he took the money you had left for him, at least you did not have another reason to worry about. But you couldn't help but feel disappointed. In your heart, you still hoped he would not leave you. You hoped his heart would not let him to. You felt his feelings for you a long time ago, thanks to those two sides of his you came to understand and fell in love with. It has been a long time since then and maybe his feelings changed. If in the past it was hard for him to understand and accept his feelings for you, now you could not even hope to see him again. You were afraid that he didn't want you in his life anymore. That maybe he was sick of you. Remembering how you were talking to him every night after coming back from work, maybe he got tired of you.

"Ah... Why did I talk so much? I am so sorry." You whispered in his pillow as you grabbed it tightly, then pulled it against your chest, breathing in his scent.

Another reason you felt anxious, was knowing that he was in Seoul. You trusted Mingyu but you still couldn't stop yourself from worrying. What if he gets caught? Or worse? Also, you didn't know how his mental state was. What if he hurts himself? What if he hurts someone? You couldn't stop thinking about that as well.
The idea alone of him being hurt made your chest constricted in pain and your body tremble. The police were after him. People have seen his picture on the news and think of him as a filthy criminal. Every time you heard someone talking badly about him, you wanted to yell in their faces that they know nothing about his life, even so, you had to keep your mouth shut and pretend that you don't care. And it was the hardest thing ever.

Remembering how his fingers tightened around your hand every time you held him, your chest hurt even more. Even unconscious, he would hold onto you, like he was afraid he will be left alone.

No one knows how sweet and kind he can be. No one knows how lonely he was and how much he suffered. It's not fair. He isn't the monster everyone thinks he is.

And now you couldn't protect him anymore. Now he was out there by himself. Mingyu had work to do. He couldn't possibly watch Jungkook 24 hours a day. And you were terrified. You were terrified at the idea of receiving a call from Mingyu and him telling you the words you feared most.

"Will you come? "

Mingyu's question lingered in your head. You wanted but you couldn't. You were scared that once he sees you, he will run away. And then where would he go? Out there wasn't a safe place for him.

A few hours later, Mingyu called you just to confirm that Jungkook indeed had come to him.
You smiled and felt a little relieved. But as soon as he mentioned his cousin Jennie, your smile vanished.
Suddenly you started to feel restless, not knowing why. Or maybe you knew.

You remembered that side of his you loved so much, but you couldn't trust. No matter how much you tried, you just couldn't. He was capable of anything.

That side of his who loved to fuck around with people.

As much as you loved him... Inside your heart, you were sure that he would disappoint you.

The next day...

"This is Jennie. " Mingyu let Jungkook know as he held her close to him, one arm wrapped around her shoulders.

Jungkook's eyes darkened as he silently stared at her. The girl suddenly felt flustered.

Jennie couldn't stop herself from running her gaze across every inch of him. And while she continued to analyze him, a knot started to form inside her stomach. He was beautiful. Too beautiful. Fascinating.

Such dark, penetrating, predatory eyes, and something more. She could recognize something dark and powerful, something that truly, deeply frightened her.
For the first time, she experienced this sense of fear, chilling her to the bone. 
But even so, all she could do was get lost in their darkness, their beauty, their mysteries.

And it wasn't only that. The way he looked at her... It was like he was defying her. Jennie had to wrap her arms around herself as she felt her body trembling because of an unknown reason.

Jungkook bit his lip to hide his smirk.
As always, he knew the effect he has on people. It was something he became aware of a long time ago. Even if it wasn't something he wished for, it was happening all the time. But he couldn't deny the urge to possess her. The urge was deep and primal, something that came from inside him.
Something he hated at the same time. Something he couldn't get rid of.

Yeah... Why not?
Let's see what you've got.