~ His weakness ~

Mingyu gave Jungkook some privacy to get used to his new room and his new life. Even if he had so many things to talk about with him, for now, he thought that it would be better if he kept his distance.

But after two hours of walking around the house... he couldn't wait any longer.

Jungkook was sitting at the edge of his new bed, looking at nothing. He felt Mingyu though, and how the guy was staring at him from behind the half-opened door, probably in a dilemma if he should enter or not. Or maybe because of another reason?

Jungkook sighed as he lifted his arms. "See?  No knife." He rolled his eyes with another sigh the moment Mingyu entered with a troubled smile the room.

"But in your place, I would make sure to get rid of anything sharp I have in the house. "

Mingyu grinned at that.

Jungkook raised an eyebrow. "Or I guess you already took care of that. "

"Now... " Mingyu started as he picked a chair and placed it in front of Jungkook, then he sat on it with a wide smile.

"You are creepier than me. " Jungkook stated.

Mingyu pouted. "I am still waiting for an apology, you know? "

"And you're not gonna get any. From where I stand, you still owe me. And don't you dare become a victim all of the sudden."

"Did you really want to kill me? "

"No... " Jungkook said as he stood up, suddenly heading towards the bookcase placed somewhere in the corner of the room, close to the window.

Mingyu raised his eyebrows, eyeing him running his fingers across the books.

"I am sorry... " Mingyu whispered. "I tried to be there for you even if it was probably too late. "

"I have to do something and earn some money. " Mingyu heard the boy saying, changing the subject.

"Money? For what?" Mingyu asked confused.

"When I left... I took... her money. I couldn't have gotten here otherwise. So I need to give it back. She works so hard and I can't live knowing..."

"There's no need. " Mingyu said quickly as he stood up.

Jungkook turned around confused.

"Didn't you ask yourself why the money was placed next to your clothes in the first place? That money was for you. Y/N knew you would leave sooner or later. She would never accept money from you. What she did until now was all from her heart. This means that if you would try to pay her kindness with money, she will feel hurt and offended."

Jungkook took a step back like he just had been slapped.
"She knew that... I would leave her? " He bit his trembling lip.

"How long were you conscious? "

Jungkook stared back at Mingyu. "I guess... Two years? I somehow knew she was there. I also could hear her talking to me. But only the last three weeks I was completely awake."

"How did you know how long it had been?  How did you manage to keep track of the time? "

"Because of her. She would talk to me and make sure that I was aware of everything that was happening around me.  Like she knew that I could hear her. She liked to tell stories and... "

Mingyu raised an eyebrow at his sudden silence.

"You don't like her, Jungkook? Is that why you ran away? "

"We are not talking about this. I don't want to talk about her. "

"Why? Because you already miss her? Because hearing her name, hurts you? It has only been a day. " Mingyu teased him.

Jungkook threw him an annoyed look. "Stop trying to get inside my head."

"I mean... after all she was talking to you every night, two years in a row. I am sure you somehow got used to her voice. "

"Stop talking. " Jungkook threatened.

"Why did you pretend for 3 weeks?  Why didn't you show her that you woke up? "

"I couldn't. I... I couldn't take seeing the disappointment in her eyes." Jungkook closed his eyes tightly, his breathing suddenly becoming uneven.

"Stop thinking in her place. Don't you think you deserve to stay in a place you feel at home? Stop running away and search for something you don't even know what. Stop thinking too much and let yourself hope. People can genuinely care for you, do you know that? No one forced her to take care of you. No one is forcing me to accept you into my house. Your illness will never be a barrier. She will never be disappointed in you."

"The police are on my trail. I have to hide my face so no one can recognize me. How do you think I felt seeing my face on the news? How do you think I feel, forced to hide my face all the time? They want me dead or alive. For them, I am a criminal, a psychopath who needs to be imprisoned, or even better... Killed. Everyone who keeps me hidden and helps me could end up in prison."

Mingyu grinned. Jungkook frowned.

"So you actually care about Y/N and about little me. "

"Actually I don't care what may happen to you, that's why I am here. "
Jungkook raised an eyebrow. Mingyu wrapped his arms around his form as he felt suddenly cold.

"How are you feeling?  How... "

"We're not talking about my condition. I do not need to be examined. " Jungkook became restless and Mingyu was aware of that and he didn't want to taste his luck.

"Ok. For now, we will not talk about it. But I have to know. Y/N told me how those two sides of yours disappeared at the same time with your awakening. "

Jungkook kept silent. He really didn't feel like talking about his illness. Just for a moment, he wanted to forget that he wasn't normal. To stop feeling like a freak and just breathe normally without feeling that too familiar fear invading every inch of his being, or darkness enveloping his mind.

"Nothing changed, isn't that right?  No self-love, no self-acceptance. No trace of it from what I can see. That's why you left. " Mingyu tilted his head and frowned noticing Jungkook's lost expression. "You do know that everything that had happened wasn't your fault? "

"I don't need words of encouragement and pity coming from you. Don't waste your time with these kinds of unnecessary things, because it would be for nothing. Those therapies... save them for someone else. On me, it will not work. "

"Let me hypnotise you. "

Jungkook's eyes widened at Mingyu's sudden suggestion.
"I tried to do that with one of them. But he had no clue what had happened on the night your parents were killed. I tried to catch the other one, but he always hid from me. Later, Y/N told me that he couldn't remember anything as well. So, you are my only hope. You were drugged, yes, but under hypnosis maybe... "

"No!" Jungkook yelled at Mingyu. He clenched his trembling fingers around the hem of his shirt. Before Mingyu could say anything, Jungkook already locked himself in the bathroom and sat on the floor, lowering his head in between his bent knees as his heart pounded furiously. He felt repulse, shame, fear, and not in the last hate.

I don't want to know. Please... Leave me alone.

"Jungkook? Please open the door. I promise that I will not do anything you are against. I am worried...  Please. "

Flashback

"Baby boy, are you in there? Open the door honey or I swear I will give it to you twice as hard. "

End of flashback

"I thought it would help you. Bringing you back into your past, I thought that maybe it will be a progress. Only this way you will confront your fears and move on. If you can't accept what has happened to you. If you can't embrace your hurtful past, you will always be trapped in this stage. You will never be able to move on and actually, live a life."

"You will never grow, Jungkook. Is this really alright for you? "

"Don't you want to fight a little? If not for you... Then for her. "

"Why do you think I would do anything for her? Stop bringing her up all the time. " Jungkook yelled frustrated.

"Because she is your weakness. "

"It's not true. She is nothing. She is just pissing me off all the time with her stupid existence. "

Mingyu let out a groan. "Stop pretending in front of me. Stop lying to yourself. You actually care about that girl. For the first time in your life, you feel frustrated and hate yourself because you don't feel worthy of someone you want to be with. For the first time, you fell in love. And this scares the heck out of you. This new, strong feeling, scares you so much that you actually begged her to sedate you so you could stop feeling, you little coward. She told me how you reacted because of that guy who you had seen as a threat. And you do know why you acted like that. You do know that the way you acted was because of jealousy. "

Jungkook groaned in frustration before getting up.

"You know nothing about me. " Jungkook opened the door as he glared at Mingyu. "It's so easy for you to talk and pretend that you know what the fuck I feel or think. But the truth is that you are just one ignorant little being who had a boring, pathetic life just like the majority of this stupid planet. I hate all of you. Stupid people who think they know the right answer for everything.
Leave me the fuck alone. If you won't, then I will leave your house and never come back. "

Mingyu sighed. It's no use. He doesn't let me in. Then his eyes suddenly light up.

"How's your relationship with people? "

Jungkook raised an eyebrow, not understanding what this weird guy in front of him was referring to.

"Not too good, right? At least with me, it seems that way. "

"What the fuck are you saying? "

"What am I trying to say is that I forgot to tell you something important."

Jungkook tilted his head at that.

"Tomorrow my cousin will come and live with us for a couple of weeks. Please take good care of her. She is the same age as you. "

Mingyu grinned.

Jungkook blinked two times as the new information sunk into his brain.
Then he smirks.

"I will so kill her. "