Jennie grabbed Jungkook's arm and forced him to take several steps back before trapping him between the wall and her body.
"Now all I want you to do is to fuck me. This shouldn't be too hard for you, right? After all, you're doing it since you can remember."

"No." Jungkook weakly pushed her away as tears were uncontrollably falling one by one. He couldn't get rid of the images with you and Mark off his head. There was a hole in his heart that could barely let him breathe. He was worried sick about you.

"Tell me that he stopped," Jungkook whispered under his breath. He could barely stand as Jennie pushed her breasts against his chest.

"He will as soon as he sees you fuck me. And of course, be wouldn't be the only one seeing." Jennie chuckled and pointed somewhere behind her where Jungkook noticed something shining just above the bookcase that covered the height of the wall opposite of him. It didn't take long to understand that what he was looking at was a camera. "She will also see who you truly are." she also added.

"So this is your plan? To make sure she sees what I am and run away from me?"

Without any second thought, he grabbed her neck and pinned her against the wall. "So let me understand that you want this. If so then I give it to you and I'll make sure you'll fully regret ever crossing your path with me. Because after I will be done with you, you will end up in a hospital if not in a morgue."

Jungkook ripped her shirt off and pushed her to the floor, thirsty for revenge.

I seem that no matter what I do, there will always be someone reminding me of what I am.

Look at me Y/N. Look at me disappointing you again and again. Maybe it's better that this happened, and for you to see it. Who I truly am.

And you saw them. Mark splashed your face with cold water to wake you up.
And you wished you never did. Witnessing her screams filling the entire room.
You closed your eyes tight but it's not like it made things any better.

Now, do you finally see what kind of monster you love? Did you think he would change for you?" Mark laughed and you opened your eyes to glare at him. The last thing you needed was to hear his annoying voice.

"Look at him how much he enjoys hurting Jennie. He's a beast. This is what he truly is. He tried to hide all this because of you. Until he couldn't anymore. You were only deceiving yourself. " Mark ended as he removed the ropes from your wrists and legs. "I am done here. You'll better realize that I am a better option than him. I could give you anything you want. I could make you happy than he would ever be able to. I never intended to go all the way with this. Just so you know."

"Can I leave now?" You coldly asked messaging your left wrist while trying to ignore the images in front of you. Mark smiled and pointed towards the door. And it was all you needed to flee out of there.

You

As soon as I left that horrible place Mark held me against my will, I wandered the empty street with no idea where I was heading.
My surroundings were unfamiliar, not that I cared. My memories floated at the last moments, my heart was filled with sorrow and pain to give any importance to anything else around me.
I have no idea how much time passed. In no time night fell above me when I arrived at Mingyu's house.

I looked up at the black sky. Once I would see him, I had no idea what to expect. What should I say? What should I do? How would I be able to look into his eyes after what had happened? After what he did.
After what I saw.

What did I feel?

What did I feel?

I felt unusually empty.

I couldn't even cry.

I pushed the door open and got inside. The first person I saw was Mingyu, sitting at the dining table waiting for some news regarding me, I assumed.

"Where is he?" It was the first thing that left my mouth as I got rid of my shoes and my jacket.
Once my voice reached Mingyu, he quickly stood up. "I don't know. He just called me from Jennie's phone to let me know he won't come back for... a while."

I pressed my lips in frustration. I wanted to be angry at him. To scream at him. To curse him. I was fully aware that what he did was because of me. But even so, that didn't mean I was ok with it. I had no idea if I should curse him or the universe which stubbornly made sure to push us back into deep shit each time we were a little happy.

Mingyu threw me a sympathetic look. "Are you alright? What happened to you Y/N? Jungkook seemed weirder than ever. Without any word, he walked away and disappeared together with Jennie God knows where doing God knows what.

"I ended up at Mark's place after he constantly threaten me to reveal everything about Jungkook to the police.
I tried to come to an agreement but he clearly had other plans on his mind. As you know Jungkook and I... Well, we kinda broke up these last few days as he needs time for himself after the sudden appearance of his mother. I couldn't talk to him about Mark. He already had so many things to grasp. I didn't want to bring him more worry and anxiety. So I tried to take care of things on my own, obviously an awful decision." I sat on the couch and massaged my temples as I inhaled several times to not burst into tears in front of Mungyu. "Because of me, he was forced to... To... With Jennie. I guess all they wanted was to break us apart. And I think they succeeded.

"When Jungkook and Jennie left together, I knew that nothing good will come of it. I am so sorry. I can't understand why Jennie would do all this. She wasn't like this or at least she always gave us the impression that she was a good, mannered girl. If I would have known... All this happened because of me."
"Stop blaming yourself Mingyu, we can never know the outcome of our actions especially when it comes to other people. What is done is done, we can't turn back time."

We talked a little longer. Mingyu told me that he had found a good lawyer. In fact, the lawyer was one of his old friends. He had no problem helping us out after Mingyu showed him the material we have against Jin. The videotapes and most importantly, his diary.
In fact, the lawyer promised to try and find someone from Jungkook's middle school. In his opinion, someone must have seen the bruises on Jungkook's skin left by his stepfather. He promised he will take care of everything.

I stayed up all night waiting for him. When I started to lose my hope, I heard the front door opening and footsteps coming towards my way. I jumped off the couch and hurried after him the second he ignored my presence as he went straight to his bedroom.

I grabbed his arm and stopped him. The moment he turned his face toward me I took in his appearance. His dark brown hair was damp and messy because of the rain and hung down over his deep black eyes. His face was expressionless as if there was no recognition of my presence.

I breathed slowly. "Why are you avoiding me?"

"Because there is nothing to say," he said without looking at me.

"Look at me."

"I know that what you did was because of me. It was all my fault." I continued seeing that his eyes were still avoiding me. My fingers instinctively tightened around his wrist.

"You don't understand do you?" Jungkook made direct eye contact with me like he wanted to let me know he was serious.

My body felt suddenly numb and slowly grew colder each second. "What are you trying to say?" His voice sounded foreign in my ears. It brought uneasiness to my heart.

"Let's end this Y/N. It was all a mistake in the first place anyway."

His words pierced me, making my breath hitch and my lungs complain for air. I released his wrist as if I was burned.

"You can't say this to me."

Not this way. Not after what I went through. He can't be this cruel. No. This isn't the one I fell in love with.
The boy I ended up loving more than anything would never say that everything we went through was a slip.

"But I just did say.
Let's stop lying to ourselves. What you saw there is also a part of me, Y/N. This is reality."

"No. You are so kind and so much more than you could possibly understand."

"This is what you want to believe, what makes you feel better.
I also tried to believe that. To believe you.
I tried to pretend that that part of me doesn't exist. But it's not like that at all. Deep down, I am that. Deep down I wanna hurt people and it feels good.
If I was good to you. If I... If I acted differently with you it's because... It's because..." He stopped as his eyes traveled over my face. He seemed troubled. He seemed unsure of what to say.

"Because you were always there for me."

"That's all?" A shiver rippled through me and I bit my lip.

"I thought that I was more than that. You told me that I was more. You said that... You love me."I trailed off, a knot growing at the back of my throat. I could feel my body shivering, hot tears building. If I were to keep on talking, I was sure I would break into tears. Maybe his mother was right. Maybe indeed he thought he loved me as I was the only one who truly accepted him. It just happened to be me.

"I don't want to hurt you." This time his voice was gentle and it caused more pain.

"I swallowed fighting back tears. I struggled to not cry even if I wanted to do just that. To break down right there.

"Say you don't love me and I will understand. " I looked straight into his eyes.

"It was all a mistake. " Jungkook said.

"Sau you don't love me. That you never felt that way."

"Y/N..."

"Just fucking say it!" I burst.

"I can't! Alright? I can't fucking say that! Because I fucking love you! I don't know what type of love is this! I can't understand it! All I know is that you are my home! All I know is that I wanna be with you! All I know is that I can't see you hurting, especially because of me!"

So this was it? He, once again, will come up with the same shitty excuse for why he's leaving me? Because he doesn't want to hurt me?
I am sick of this shit. I won't believe this bullshit again. I was ready to go to any length to understand what is all this about.

"It's because you feel safe with me? That's why you stayed beside me? Because my feelings reached you? Because I took care of you? Or is it because you want me for who I am?"

"I am grateful for everything you have done for me."

"Jungkook, I don't want you to be grateful for anything. Just answer my question."

"Dammit Y/N! Fucking dammit!
I can't do this anymore! I can't do this to you. I really don't want to hurt you."

"You will not hurt me if you tell me what you really feel."

"I told you! I don't fucking know! But right now all I want is to know you as far as possible away from me. I am breaking up with you." He harshly let out looking straight into my eyes.

My lips trembled. I couldn't believe that everything was over. I couldn't believe that in the end, he was choosing to leave me. Not after he said that he wanted to be with me for the rest of his life.
So easy... Why did it have to be so easy for him? To say those words.

"Alright. Was all I could say, my voice barely heard. I felt suddenly tired.
"If this is what you want then who am I to stop you?"

Maybe in my heart, I understood him. Maybe I knew exactly what was he doing. Especially after he said he can't see me hurting because of him. Yet I ignored it. So many things happened in such a short period. I started to feel overwhelmed and I couldn't keep up with his moods.

All I wanted was to feel his arms around me. I needed his hugs more than anything, more than ever. Every second I was held prisoner by Mark, I thought of him. It helped me stay strong because I kept on gripping onto the hope that at the end of it all, he will be there waiting for me to hold me in the safety and warmth of his embrace.

But instead, he was breaking up with me.

I turned around and walked away to my bedroom without looking back once.
I should have stayed and talked more about it. Even if deep down I knew I should have done that, I still couldn't do it. I didn't want to cry in front of him. I didn't want to pressure him.
I had no idea that because I left instead of talking it out... Everything will go haywire.