~When everything feels too good, something bad lurks in the shadows~

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     "Woah, you're really talented at everything, Jungkook! I'm usually not easy to impress, but you really know how!" Joshua says excitedly, looking at the photos again, in the bunny boy's photo camera.

    Jungkook smiles shyly, then looks at his turn, in in Joshua's camera. After taking more than twenty pictures, they managed to choose ten made by each, and then delete the rest, so as not to get confused. The project was about "The soul that lives in nature", about the portrayal of a human soul, in the image created by nature. So they both began to take pictures of the sky, the clouds, the sun, trees, leaves, grass, but also of animals, children and many other elements closely related to the natural landscape. And as they are at the beginning of the autumn season, they managed to capture wonderfully everything they were looking for. "The soul of their landscape" cries out in despair, melancholy, but also joy. And that's what both boys liked. They were able to report their feelings very well.

     "Your pictures are extremely successful as well. Especially the ones with the sky and the stones near the fountain. I really like the light, but also the shadows, I can see very easy that you have a lot of talent. " Jungkook says later, and the other just smiles, then carefully place the bunny boy's camera on the bench.

      "Yeah, well... the truth is that I wanted to be more successful on the photography side, not the drawing side. However, I couldn't afford to take any extra courses for photography, and because I also have some talent in drawing, I think it prompted me to choose the other option." the older one admits, and the younger one looks at him amazed, yet in the same time, somehow sad, because yeah, Joshua is really a good guy, and now, one of his friends.

     They only had the project from four days ago, but they managed to finish it almost. The practical part is already completed, and now they just have to draw up a report about each picture in the part, to complete the theoretical part. It is said that friends come really hard, but Jungkook does not agree, at least not after spending some days with Joshua. He knew him beforehand, heck, they've been classmates for more than two years, but they didn't talk much, at least not until they started working on the project together. He's really nice, he knows how to joke and how to cheer you up, and the bunny boy doesn't understand why Taehyung always seems irritated when it comes to him.

     "Seriously? But your parents ... couldn't help you? " Jungkook asks in a lower voice, but hopes he didn't say something completely wrong.

     Joshua seems to become a little more stiff, but he doesn't lose his smile. Then he slowly looks at Jungkook, and the bunny boy leaves the camera on the bench, next to his own. A few seconds pass, and then the older boy decides to talk.

      "I... I am gay." he says and expects Jungkook to change his expression, but he remains as interested as before. "Ăăm... I've had to support myself for about four years. It was very hard at first, but I got used to it quickly. I found a lot of jobs, and I tried to save money too, and then I managed to get back into college. That's why I'm a year older than most of our classmates. I had to take a break for a year, but I didn't want to give up altogether. " he finishes and notices that Jungkook is looking at him with sad eyes.

      "I am so sorry, Joshua hyung. I shouldn't have asked that. " the other says, just giggle, because the bunny boy looks even cuter when he panics.

     "Don't worry, I'm not too upset talking about this now. Although I have to admit, you are one of the few people who know this. " he says and the younger boy smiles weakly, then touches his shoulder in a friendly way.

    Joshua is surprised by his gesture, but tries to stay as relaxed as possible.

     "You are really strong. I understand how hard it was for you, and I'm glad you told me that. " he says then smiles a little more this time. "It is not wrong to have your own sexual inclinations, your parents should support you. I'm gay too, if it makes you to feel better." he continues, and Joshua looks at him carefully, trying to understand if he had heard correctly.

      Jungkook is gay as well? Really? The older boy doesn't understand why he feels the need to smile, or why he feels so happy after he heard that.

      "I guess is nice to have parents that support you, right?" Joshua tries to snap away his weird thoughts, then he sees how Jungkook takes his hand off from his shoulder, while his pretty bunny smile fades a little.

     "Yeah, well... my mom really supports me. My father died before I could talk to him about it. " he says and the other remains unresponsive, while an unpleasant feeling and creeps into his stomach.

     Joshua told him about his parents, so the bunny boy could tell him something about him. It may seem strange that they've only been talking for a few days, and now they've started talking about things like that. But sometimes you can feel that you can trust a person you barely know.

     "Oh, Jungkook, I'm so sorry! I really didn't know, I- "

      "Calm down Joshua hyung, it's ok. I don't mind talking about it anymore. I just want to tell you one thing that was told to me by someone. " the younger one cuts off the other's line, and Joshua listens intently. "In life, every person faces many obstacles and difficulties, but the way we overcome them says how strong we are. I want to believe that I am strong, and you are certainly as strong as I am. " he finishes and the older boy discovers him in silence, because damn, he has nothing more to say.

     He just looks at Jungkook softly, and when he sees his cute bunny smile, he feels a strange feeling in his stomach again. But he must admit, not a bad one.

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     "Again that Joshua guy?" Taehyung asks, voice visible annnoyed, as the younger one looks at him intently.

    "Can you tell me what do you have against him? He is really a nice friend, Tae. I really can not understand why you act like that." Jungkook revolts, then rolls his eyes, while the other one just sighs. 

     Taehyung came from the company earlier because he wanted to have a date with Jungkook. He even took Yoonhyo to Namjoon's house. Why? To be able to spend time alone with his boyfriend. He made a reservation the day before at one of his favorite restaurants (not the one the waiter was looking at too much at Jungkook of course). But when Taehyung asked what he did today, the bunny boy told him that he had spent some time with Joshua again during class. Yes, they both skipped the courses, and it's not the first time. And the older one didn't like it. He doesn't understand why it takes them so long to finish that project. He just doesn't like that Joshua. Jungkook started talking about him quite a bit. And if at first he didn't mind, if at first he said it was a good thing that his boyfriend had other friends, now he starts not liking it at all.

      Why? One word: jealousy. An tormenting and obsessive feeling caused by the suspicion or certainty that the loved one is unfaithful- this is how we can find it in dictionaries. But no, Taehyung doesn't think Jungkook is cheating on him, damn it, he knows he's not this kind os person. He's just jealous of that Joshua, because he doesn't trust him at all. Especially after seeing him a few days ago while walking with Jungkook to college - the CEO saw them unwittingly as he headed for the company. Joshua looked at his boyfriend with a big smile, while he talked with him like it was no tomorrow. But he didn't want to stop the car so as not to embarrass the bunny boy.

      "It's not that I have anything against him, it just seems to me that he is not as good a boy as you think. " the older man says in the end, and the other only looks at him intently.

     "Tae, he had an extremely hard life. Do you know he was kicked out of the house when his parents found out he was gay? He had to work in several places at the same time, just to keep himself alive. " Jungkook says and the other feels guilty immediately.

    No, he didn't know that. He can only imagine how hard it is without the support of your parents. Even if he doesn't keep in touch with his parents, he knows he can count on them. He would not have thought that Joshua was unlucky enough to have such parents. What parents do not sit next to their children, especially at such times? The boy was probably confused then, when he discovered that he was not attracted to girls, but instead of being able to talk to his parents, he was kicked out, thrown like someone unimportant. He's a parent too, that's why his heart hurts so much, just with the thought. He wouldn't be able do to this to Yoonhyo under any circumstances. Even if he was not bisexual and his son came out gay one day, he would still support him unconditionally.

      "I did not know that." the older man says, the voice lower than usual. "The truth is ... I'm a little jealous, okay?" he admits and the other looks at him without reply, a few moments. "I mean, look at you!" Whoever can fall in love with you, I don't want anyone to steal you from me." he continues, and Jungkook glance at him amused, his cheeks a little red.

     The younger one starts to giggle a little, then straights his voice. Taehyung is jealous? This is why he acts so weird when he talks about Joshua? This is the first time this has happened to him, but the bunny has no idea why he is feeling so well. Maybe because he can figure out how much his boyfriend cares about him.

      "I didn't know you could behave so childishly. " Jungkook says jokingly, but the other one doesn't look amused at all. "Tae, he is just a classmate, a friend. I don't understand why you have such thoughts, you know all too well that I only love you. " he mumbles, and this time, the older man checks him carefully, trying to hide his smile and looking as serious as possible.

     "You... you what? Sorry, I couldn't hear you very well. Can you say that again? " the CEO pretends and the other just rolls his eyes, amused.

     "I said I'm hungry! When the food comes? We have been waiting for more than half an hour! " Jungkook jokes too, and the older man just exhales in frustration.

      Even though he doesn't want to repeats anymore, Taehyung has already heard it. " I don't understand why you have such thoughts, you know all too well that I only love you."  It feels good? Oh yeah, he feels damn good, even though he told him that he loves him even before. But this time is a little different.

     And yeah, the younger one has right. He really behaves childishly. Jungkook loves him, and that should be enough to cover up all the stupid feelings of jealousy. He should not behave like a teenager, he is a man. 

     "I love you too." the CEO whispers at his turn, and the younger one bites his lower lip, then starts to play with his fingers, with a smile on his face.

     He just hopes these moments will not be over. He hopes that the whole sun will not leave them, and then that some dark clouds will cover them. Because he knows all too well how the silence feels before the storm.

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Hello angels:) New chapter, even if it is not so intense:) I hope u liked even a little bit, and I wait for your opinions^^