~I never started loving myself because all my life they told me that I am worthless~

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     "Jungkook, you barely passed this test. If you want to pass this course you have to impress me at the upcoming project, y' know that, right?" a man with a black beard and light gray hair says, while the boy with curly hair approves as he looks at the floor.

     His teacher wanted to talk with him after course, that's why he stayed the last. He should have know already what he wants to tell him.

      "I... I know, Mr. Lee. I will try my best." the younger one reply then starts to play with his fingers. "I have a question though." he continues and the professor glance intently at him.

      "Sure, ask me." the older one reply and gives to the younger one his full attention.

      "Ăăm... How many times I can skip the courses before being kicked out from the university?" he manage to asks, while the other one looks at him, eyes full with surprise, yet slightly concerned.

     He knows about Jungkook's problems. He knows he father died, and that his mother is in a bad state as well. That's why he  tried to help him with the university somehow until now, with the others professors when he kept skipping the classes. The curvy haired-boy is someone close to his soul — he remembers  his own son when he looks at him. But he is still a teacher, he can't make difference (or really big difference) between Jungkook and his other students.

      "Jungkook, your situation is not so good for you, to ask that. You really can't afford to skip other classes. " he answers in a finale, then takes a deep breath. "Look, I know you have personal problems, but you have just other three months, then you will graduate. So hang in there a few more weeks." he tells him after in a softer voice, and the younger one nods.

      "For the next project we have to do practically resurse, right?" Jungkook asks again, and the professor nods at his turn.

     "You wasn't at the class when I told you to your classmates about the project." his reprimanding voice makes the curvy haired-boy to moves his head to to floor, because of the embarrassment. "Basically, you have to create your own style, with your own drawings. You must to paint different pictures, that will show different emotions. You can paint a season, a woman or a man, an animal or whatever you want, but you have to put in center a feeling, something that can be easily recognized." he explains and Jungkook thinks a few seconds, then smiles a little.

      "It's almost the same as the last project from first semester." the bunny boy comments excitedly, and the man just smiles subtly.

      "This time you have to be more careful with your choice of colors. Oh, and all of the drawings must to be on canvas, painted."

     The younger one's smiles drops instantly, then swears himself in mind. He shouldn't have been so excited, so fast. He is fucked up. He can't paint really well, or at least, not as good when he does sketches or when he use the pencils. And even on canvas? Those things are fragile as hell.

      "I will try my best." he repeats then sighs. "I will go then, if it's nothing else, sir."  he continues and the professor nods, then moves his attention to some papers, from his desk.

       "Don't skip again, Jungkook." the older one says but the younger one doesn't reply, because yeah, he can't promise anything.

     He goes out after, then takes his phone out from his pocket. It's already after noon, so Yoonhyo is more than sure already at home. He should hurry, because he promised to the little one to go in the park with him, today. Maybe he can go after Taehyung will return, at the hospital, to see his mother— if the visiting hours do not end by then.

     To be honest, the last few days were a little... too much. He had to deal with his university, he tried to raise all of is grades— it has largely succeeded, if we do not take history into account. That object is way too difficult for him.

     He also had to split between his mother (who, to his delight, began to look better) and Yoonhyo, the little angel which makes him to smile even if he is at his work place.

     But above all, he began to feel that it was far too much, especially around Taehyung. Why? Well, first of all because the CEO began to treat him nice, very nice( it's not like before he wasn't treated him like that, but still!), and this made him really self-conscious. The older one began to be very careful when it came to the time when Jungkook had to go home. He always started driving it, and as they sat in the car, the younger one noticed how Taehyung sometimes secretly looked at the him, with a big smile on his face. But this is not all.

     He also began to make sure every time that Jungkook ate before going to his house, and he managed to make him far too many compliments, which made the bunny boy blush every time. In recent days, he has hugged him many times and asked him if he needs anything, if his mother is well or if he can handle both university and work.

     And it's not like is something so-so-sooo weird, but it makes Jungkook to feel... really good, and this thing scares the shit out of him. Because he can't misunderstood Taehyung's kindnesses, or his well-behave attitude. He can't understand the CEO attention and his warm words, in a wrong way.

      Yeah, he is attracted to boys, it's not a thing to be ashamed of. But it's a closed gay, and maybe— no, for sure— Taehyung just looks at him as a friend, nothing more. That's why Jungkook needs to be more careful with his own thoughts, or with his own feelings. He can not risk to look at the CEO, in other way, than just a boss, or the most, as a friend.

      Because he can swear, his heart will be broken even more after that. And he can't afford that.

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      "How was today at university?" Taehyung asks the bunny boy, looking forward at the road in the same time.

      "Ăăm... Fine, I guess? One of my profesor gave us a final project to raise our grades on his class." the curvy haired-boy answers and the CEO smiles a little.

      "A project? What project?" the older one asks, really interesting in what the younger one will say.

     "He said we need to paint on canvas different pictures, with a lot of emotions in them." the bunny boy explains not-so-happy, and the other one raise his left eyebrow, at the younger one's tone.

     "Something is wrong? You don't seems so excited." Taehyung says and Jungkook blush a little.

    Another thing that the CEO began to do: understanding Jungkook way too well. Kinda dangerous for the bunny boy's heart, if you ask him.

      "It's just... I rather choose the pencil and the papers, not the watercolors and the canvases. I'm not so good with those." the curvy haired-boy comments and the older one giggles subtly.

      "I bet you are as talented as usually, Jungkook. I already see an A+ for your assignment! Believe me!" Taehyung says cheerfully, and the younger one just shows his bunny teeth.

      "How can you be so confident in my talent?" Jungkook asks after, then notices how the older one stops the car, then turns his attention to him.

      "How can you not be confident about your own talent? You are briliant Jungkook, and I barely saw one of yours drawings!" the older one reply then gets up from the car, while the younger one does the same.

    Jungkook looks around and even though it is quite late in the evening, he can notice a bank and a lake. The stars and the moon can be seen extremely well, and the air is quite warm.

    "Ăăm... Where are we?" the bunny boy's voice makes the older one to move his glance from the sky, then to looks at him.

     The older one  takes a sit on the bank, and the other one follows his example.

      Taehyung smiles a little, then straights his voice. Why he brought Jungkook here? To be honest, he doesn't know for sure either. This place is one of the most important for the CEO. Is his "safe place" if can be called this way. Even Yoonhyo doesn't know about it.

      "This is where I used to come, whenever I felt sad or whenever I felt like giving up." he starts and the younger one looks at him intently, eyes focused on the CEO. "Nobody is born without problems, everybody have to deal with some of them at a point. But we must to bring ourselves and fight. We have to be there, mind and heart focused at the mission, at the problem. And doesn't matter how many times we will be down, if we can't get up by ourselves, then someone else will be there, for us."  hs continues and Jungkook looks silently at the sky, while a sad smile appears on his face.

     "But what if some problems are way too difficult to solve them?" the curvy haired-boy's whisper makes the older one to turns his gaze to him.

     He can admit easily. Jungkook is even more gorgeous like this. The moon's light makes him to look exactly like an angel, how his son is used to call him.

      "Then we must to be strong enough to recognize our defeated." the older one reply, then the other one glance at him, in his turn.

     Nobody says anything anymore. All that can be seen is just the moon and the stars. The silence of the night darkened all the bad thoughts Jungkook had these days. Taehyung looks at him as if he had found what he had been looking for from a while, and the younger one feels his cheeks ready to take fire. Good it's kinda dark.

      "Ta... Taehyung, why you-"

      "Jungkook." the older one intervenes and th curvy haired-boy gulps. "How can your eyes be so beautiful? How can they have even more stars than are on the sky?" those  questions catches the bunny boy under guard, making him to forget all he thought about a few seconds before.
 
      He is suprised? Hell yeah! Even if Taehyung he has complimented him many times before, tonight his tone sounds more... serious.

     The younger one moves his eyes at the ground, then starts to play with his fingers. He tries to smile a little, because yeah, the air is really awkward at the moment. But before do have time, Taehyung touches his right hand and makes him flinch. His gaze returns to the CEO again, while the older one doesn't look bother at all, more than that, he looks kinda... confident?

     "Taehyung, what's happening?" this time Jungkook doesn't stutters, but the next thing that the older does, leaves him completely speechless. 

     He approaches him slowly and leanes down a little, then looks into his eyes for a few seconds. He says nothing and when he notices that Jungkook is not retiring, he does it. He sticks his lips over his, while the bunny boy feels that he doesn't have much until he faints from astonishment. Blood gathers in his cheeks, his heart begins to beat faster than it would if he ran ten marathons, while Taehyung hopes he wasn't too fast with all this thing.

     Yes, he didn't talked properly with Jungkook about this subject, but he's been gave him clues lately that he likes him. And now... He just couldn't resist, not matter how hard he tried. Jungkook just looks at the moment way too ethereal.

      He breaks the kiss and then glance it directly into his eyes. He has no idea where he suddenly gets so much courage, but he feels he doesn't want to back down.

       "Jungkook... I like you."

     This is the last sentence that he tell, before seeing how Jungkook gets up from the bank, then goes away.

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Woah, new chapter:) I thought I will not be able to update again:)

I hope u liked even a little bit and see u at the next one!!