EGO POV >>Zhan<<

This evening Yibo and I went for a ride with the horses. We took a break in the forest hut, as we did on our first ride together. Or rather in front of it, on the bench. We again gazed at the clear starry sky while a cool wind blew.

Yibo was quiet the whole time and just before we were about to leave again, he asked me why the curse skipped his brother. He explained his theory by saying that after all, his brother has already had a boyfriend for two or three years and is happy with him. The two of them, apart from Yibo's family rejecting this boyfriend, have no problems at all.

I knew the answer. But I had to think about how to explain this to Yibo. Because his theory is wrong. The curse my father pronounced on Flora Wang and all her descendants had been spoken at a moment when my father felt the utmost despair, anger and grief. He pooled all his power and pronounced the curse. This makes it particularly strong and very malicious at that.

In short words, I told Yibo that his brother is not affected by the curse because his current boyfriend, is not his true love. Because the curse, which is like a love test, only becomes active when a Wang has found his true love. I could not explain more to Yibo, because he would probably not understand, because he is in his own love test right now.

Once the curse becomes active, it begins to confuse the mind. It no longer succeeds in thinking straight or recognizing the simplest paths. Everything seems more complicated than it really is. Suddenly, Wang, who is in love, begins to see problems where there are none. He does not see the simplest solutions. But it is even more malicious because the Wang in love does not even realize that the curse has become active.

Even if you told the Wang in love that all this is because of the curse, he would not understand. It's as if he doesn't hear this information, or we speak two different languages. What is especially malicious is that this curse would be quite easy to break if the Wang in love would stick to one very specific thing and not be confused by his thoughts. It is enough if he sticks to his feelings.

But that is probably the most difficult thing about it. Trusting solely in one's feelings and leaving one's mind aside is probably difficult for everyone. Especially when you are in love and your mind is telling you problems where there are none. In order to be with the person you have fallen in love with, you would do whatever it takes and solve any problem. But in doing so, Wang, who is in love, loses himself more and more in the problems. No sooner has he solved one than two new ones seem to appear.

And in the end, Wang, who is in love, can't see the forest by the trees and loses his love. But the curse does not end there. Nor does it simply pass on to the next generation. Instead, the Wang in love loses the most important person to him, the one he loves so much. And he forgets this person. All this Wang then remembers is the feeling of a great emptiness in his heart.

If Yibo does not succeed in recognizing by himself what really matters, his love test will also end with him forgetting me and only the emptiness in his heart will remain. I can't help him with that either. Because as already explained, he would not understand if I tried to explain to him that all that is going through his mind at the moment seems so hopeless only because it is due to the curse.

However, I must also say that Yibo is not like his ancestors. He is much stronger. First of all, he is very strong-willed. What he has set in his mind, he wants to achieve no matter how. So, maybe he is the Wang who succeeds in breaking the curse. And that even without my father's pendant.

However, I must also say, unlike most people, I cannot see through Yibo. I just can't manage to read him. It should be easy with my well-developed senses. But more than now and then his restless heart, I can not perceive with him. And although there are so many emotions in his eyes, it is impossible for me to tell which emotions they are.

Yibo is like a book with seven seals for me. I am convinced that his feelings are for me. That the curse became active because he fell in love with me. But, it's not visible on him. Especially since I can't read him and he doesn't talk about his feelings or thoughts, somehow it's also hard for me to believe 100% that it's me who reached his heart.

But maybe that is another abnormality of the curse that makes me doubt. Not even my father knows how far the curse goes and who all can be affected by it. So I have no choice but to show Yibo my feelings openly and trust that he is the one who will break the curse. No matter how!

So for now, I should be prepared for ups and downs. With Yibo, but also with me. I should try to always remember whatever lies ahead, whatever problems come our way, that they are caused by the curse.

We now have four weeks together to break the curse. But, will these four weeks be enough? And what will the result really be after these four weeks?

Oh yes, I just remembered that I noticed a very strange behavior on homunculus Maxi number 17 today. She was always near Yibo and me today. She even dared to sit next to him at dinner. This is despite the fact that she has very clear orders to sit at the end of the table with Terry number 4. I should keep an eye on her. If I notice anything like that again, I'll have to talk to my father about it.

Our homunculus are magical helpers who only act on orders and have no will of their own. Maxi number 17, however, seems to be different. I don't like that.

I also received another threatening letter. Yibo wanted to read it through. But because it is written in the old vampire language, he couldn't read it. So I read him what it said. "I'm coming at a late hour and in the end only one of us will be alive. Be ready!"

Yibo's reaction to this was to sharpen the blades of his knives and grin, explaining that he should just come, he was ready. He doesn't seem to be afraid. Whoever that is threatening me, he's a vampire. But still, Yibo is not afraid. He's just amazing. And that's exactly why I love him.

Even when I first saw Yibo in the cave, saw him kill those two men, I was impressed by him. I guess it's the vampire in me that was particularly impressed by his cold-blooded way of killing those two men. Very smoothly, in one fluid motion, with only a single twist, he killed the two men and waited calmly until both men slumped lifeless to the ground.

I admired his ability to completely shut off his emotions and just do what assassins do best. To kill! Assassins are not simple serial killers who kill many people in the most cruel way. Like artists, they kill in their own unique way. But never in such a way that a human being dies agonizingly!

When I watched Yibo training, it seemed to me as if he was dancing. His movements were so smooth, so fluid and beautiful that you completely forget that he uses this kind of movements to kill people.

I don't think it's necessary to say that I fell completely and totally in love with Yibo. With a human being! And I have always sworn to myself that if I ever let someone get close to me again, it will certainly not be a human. And then I fall in love with a human of all things. Well, I have to say, I don't mind. Because my human is an absolutely great handsome smart assassin!

At this point I would like to explain something about vampires. We love sex! We are not picky about choosing partners for sex either and can sleep with both men and women. Many vampires even have sex with several at the same time. However, all this has nothing to do with feelings. It's more like a way to let off steam and have fun.

I am 200 years old, so yes, before Yibo I also had my experiences. I also had such a phase where I loved to have sex with other vampires. I confessed this to Yibo earlier, but he told me that it would have been strange for him if it had been otherwise. Besides, he said that he could have guessed it.

My phase ended at the age of 80, when I went on a trip around the world with Yanli and Cheng. In Italy, we met a vampire who joined us. We got closer and closer during our journey together. And after 4 months, we became a couple.

I admit, at that time I believed he could be my life partner. He made me feel that he loved me. He even lived with my parents and me in the castle. But after 10 years of relationship, he was still not ready for the next step of making the mating official. Instead, he became more and more withdrawn at that time.

He often went out alone in the evening and stayed out all day. When he came back, he was tired and never wanted to say where he was or what he was doing. So one evening I followed him and saw him going to a bar for vampires and drinking blood mixed with alcohol. He was making out with several vampires at the same time in the bar. This is normal in such bars, just by the way.

I thought it had to hurt me to see him making out with others. That it would have to hurt me. But it didn't. It even left me cold. Then I realized that I never loved him. I just got lost in wanting to be loved and wanting to love. I also wanted to finally have a partner and be happy, like my parents. When I met him, I was already 80 years old.

The next day when he came to the castle, I broke up with him. He didn't even try to change my mind, but packed his things and left. And I swore to myself that one day I would find the right one. I stayed alone and waited patiently for the day when the right one for me would finally appear.

And although I thought I was prepared for that day, it hit me like a bomb when I saw Yibo in the cave! I finally understood what love really felt like. And that with a human of all things! But this human, my Yibo, is definitely worth loving! He is so wonderful, so perfect for me, like no one else could ever be. I love Yibo and I want to be with him!

I will do everything I can to not lose this person. My Yibo who made my stunted heart beat faster. I would even go so far as to say Yibo is someone I would die for! That's how much I love him. And that's why I hope he finally manages to break this curse. So that we can be together.