Dearest Readers,

No I haven't changed my schedule. I still won't update on Sundays!!! But this is because I couldn't update yesterday as my parents are travelling on their holiday trip, so had to help them in packing and then had to drop them to airport and if you know Bangalore traffic (😒🙄🫡) then you know how much planning is needed to avoid traffic. (Ofcourse thanks to our early morning travels n my husband's plan to take the village route we made it on time.
Phewwww for once we escaped the traffic. I feel proud 🤭...

Anyways...I knew where I left you hanging and my phone hasn't stopped ringing since the cliffhanger.

So....

This is your compensatory update. Enjooooy 😉

✨

PRAKRUTHI
✨

My hands automatically reached his bearded cheeks as I tilted his head slightly in an angle to relish those pairs of rough thick lips that had been the cause for my impatience since I felt them the first time.

I looked at his face which was rather expressionless even when I had finally kissed him.

The first time!!! Last time was just brushing of lips!!!

I thought he would enjoy the kiss but to my ultimate surprise he stood there without even uttering a word.

Well how can he Pakku? When his lips are inside your mouth you dumbhead!!!

Ohhh!!! Right!!! But then atleast the Tatya Vichu who teased me on and off about the kiss could have atleast smiled through the sudden kiss in Wattpad novels but this one is indeed a ravenbird for a reason.

I slowly let go off his lips halfheartedly to look at his face which was still void of any expression. Damn it!!! I was expecting him to lift me up and respond back to my kiss like they do in Bollywood movies. I mean the heroine initiating a kiss is a big deal dude!!!

Remember when Geet kissed Aditya in 'Jab we Met' they had a happy beginning...but this one is still an evil doll. What can I expect from a Tatya Vichu after all? Huhh!!! Be glad he didn't suck onto your blood!!!

I looked at him and slowly bit my lip whispering 'Ummm I...I am sorry Kedar...I misunderstood you!!!' I finally confessed still holding his face in both my palms...well... atleast tried to!!!

This man is a giant!!! No...A beast!!!

He slowly removed my hands off his face and said
'Ohhh!!! So you thought you could first slap me? And then kiss me?... without my consent?' and I was shocked.

'Ked... Kedar...No...you were angry and I didn't know how to-'

'So you kissed me??? To shut me up??? And that's valid??? Because I'm a man I will like it??? Correct??? Because I'm a man you...kissing me becomes cool and if I did the same then it would question my integrity...be the reason for what a chauvanist I am and you can just kiss me??? Just because I'm of a different gender you slapping me or kissing me without my consent doesn't become cool Prakruthi!!! Just because you are a woman you cannot do this to me!!!' he shouted and that's when I was shocked.

Although he was right. I felt guilty for behaving so immature.

'I....I didn't mean to...I....I am sorry!!!' I whispered putting my head down when he climbed two steps of the staircase and stood infront of me and said

'I won't say I didn't like the kiss Prakruthi. I have always dreamt of doing this since that kiss we shared with each other back in my office. I relished it when you weren't even ready to acknowledge it as a kiss.

Let be...I thought you are shy and you maybe need time but this certainly isn't the answer to it. You can't kiss me for escapism Prakruthi. This isn't right! A kiss is a passionate moment that two people share between each other to acknowledge, convey and appreciate their emotions and merely not to shutup someone. Atleast not for me.

If I wanted kisses or more from women I would have had that easily. I am rich, successful and kind of handsome too is what I believe. I don't think women would have issues in getting physical with me but I have never ever done things for the sake of it.

I know you must be thinking I'm so old fashioned. But that's what I am. I don't believe in flings. I believe in commitment... attraction... teasing...and slowly getting involved. I had always barred my heart from moving in this direction but ever since the moment we shared two days ago a lot changed in my mind. I have slowly gone back to believe that maybe giving relationship a chance isn't so bad after all but you certainly aren't on the same boat!!!

Are you???

Tell me Prakruthi...If I say I want more in this relationship. I want the kiss to be meaningful. I want to hold you only for myself. I want to pluck Karthik, Dharam, Amit....any and everyone's eyes who looks at my wife will you still be ok with it???' and I was left stumped.

I closed and opened my mouth a couple of times but nothing ever left my mouth. Commitments are beautiful but expectations in a relationship is scary. I have wanted commitment from Karthik never got it and the reason for that stupidity was expectations..

Silly stupid expectation to have a love life. Guess I watched too much of teen romance movies in childhood. See this is why I love Bollywood. We only have one Rockford where as Hollywood has a couple of them to screw your head. It's all their fault.

Kedar's chuckle brought me out of my thoughts and I tried to explain him but he simply spoke up saying
'Its fine!!! I don't need explanations. I already got my answer Prakruthi. And you know what? I understand!!! I don't expect you to jump my bones just because I'm your husband. No!!! Life isn't a 2.5 hr bollywood movie. It's beyond that. In your movies it's only one kiss and then they lived happily ever after.

No one ever tells you about the fights, concerns, issues that come along with that happily ever after.

At times please try to come out of your strawberry land sweetheart. Life's a tough game. You think yours was tough you have no idea what I had seen on my side. If you had a heartbreak I also had one. If you were pushed into this marriage, I also didn't decide upon this marriage with a plan.

It's Destiny's Exchange Offer and honestly after being with you I don't regret it. You aren't the perfect girl I wanted for me but you certainly are the crazy kind who matches my sanity.

Your madness drives me crazy Prakruthi. I can't see you crying...I want to destroy the world if I see you in tears...I can see you laughing for hours together. It's like a sight to my sore heart I'd rather say...And last night when you wore that jeans and the top tied up exposing your cute little stomach... I found you sexier than any woman on earth. Right now...you are merely in these pajamas and tshirt look so damn attractive that I would love to make our babies who just look absolutely like you just that I want them to carry my surname...I know I sound crazy...you might even think I'm some stalker or a psycho but this is what I am.

I don't know what these emotions are...
I like you...I lust you...I have a huge crush on you or maybe I lov-'

'Kedarrrrr.... please...' my heart was in my mouth at his confession which suddenly was too overwhelming. I kept a hand on my chest to calm down my racing heart. My stomach was churning. I didn't know there was so much running in his head. I mean it was just a kiss and here he...Gosh!!!

He smiled and said
'You dont even want me to discuss it Prakruthi. This is exactly what I meant. You really need to be sure before you do such things. Anyways... Please go to Nayak Nivas. You can stay there.'

'And you??? You wont-'

'This is my house Prakruthi. I will stay here and above all I don't want you to be teased and made fun by my cousins who think you and I have a thing going on.'

'So there isn't something going on between us???' I asked biting my lower lip.

He smiled saying 'Ask that to yourself. You don't want to even talk about it...I can't help it Prakruthi. I don't want it to be odd for you. This is an arranged marriage and it means compromising. But you don't have to do it. Remember my mother gave you a word. No one will force you for anything.

Just because I have these things running in my head...you don't need to force yourself. But there's one small request.

Don't ever initiate something which has no meaning to you.

Because you may not have any feelings in there but on the other side here... something definitely has ignited... something which I can't confess and you don't want to hear. So you know what...

Let it be...let it go...

Nothing happened here...just go back to Nayak Nivas and go shopping with my Vannis...go meet your father and your brother. Enjoy yourself.' he said at once as my eyes met his eyes which were slightly teary yet he maintained his strong aura. He walked upstairs and I heard a loud thud of doot closing.

I stood there speechless for I don't know how long.

I hated to see him like this. Why did I even initiate the kiss if I wasn't sure...

Why?