Siya's POV:

I don't know what am I doing...

Where am I going...

I didn't want to go anywhere...see anyone...talk to anyone...

I wanted to cry...

Cry loudly...

I needed to be alone...

This rain is a blessing...I can cry and no one will know...

I was blamed of a murder??

That I was a mistake???

I tried to kill his grandfather...

That very thought filled my eyes with fresh tears flowing non stop from my eyes...

I can't...

Why will I ...

I may not have grandparents and that's why i know their value the most...

Wasn't I craving that love when my cousin's granny pampered them...though Yashwanti Bapama (my cousin's grandma) always loved me... But my cousin was pampered most...she always got to sleep on her lap...
I craved that care...

I was blessed when I got to know about Raghav's Ajjo...

These few days I and Ajjo ate lunch together... I worked in afternoon while he slept...we took evening walks, laughed out loud, went holding hands to the rose garden in our backyard..

I asked Ajjo to tell me stories and Ajjo narrated me stories of Ramayana...last 4 days were my best...I got something that I always craved for.. Basically everything I wanted my grandparents to do to me since childhood...

Just when I thought this will be my routine...And I will get this love and care permanently...

I was blamed to kill him...

That too my very own husband blamed me of the same...

That thought brought more pain to my heart and made me sob in pain...

I thought of going to bakery as I didn't want to go home...just then I realized I didn't have the keys...

I continued walking towards the park nearby and sat there...

It was still dark and the sky was still pouring heavily...I didn't care anymore cause I was already drenched...

Huh....life is drowning... Who cares about clothes...

I sat on that bench...I was blank...

I didn't know for how long I sat there..

I cried my heart out...I cried till my eyes gave up...I tried till my heart felt better...

But no...

The blame was such a big one that my tears didn't have the capability to cover it ..

I kept on crying....

Just then I felt a hand on my shoulder and I was shocked...

I was scared ..

That's when I heard 'Siya'

It can't be HIM...

I thought...

And I looked up...

Raghav was standing in front of me...

I was shocked...

I didn't want to see him...

I wanted to leave... I got up while he held my hand and stopped me...

Raghav's POV:

I know I hurt her but I have to talk to her...

I must apologize...

I called her out...she was obviously shocked to see me there...

She got up to leave...

But I couldn't let her go...

She was important to me...

Very important to me...

I couldn't let her go...just couldn't...

'Siya please' I pleaded her...

'Let me go Raghav....' she said in a heavy voice...

I understood she cried a lot as she had a sore throat already ...to add on to it...rain was pouring non stop...

'Please Siya...I'm sorry... Please come with me...'

She turned around and looked at me in absolute shock and disgust...

'Come with you??? Do you invite strangers home at this odd hour Mr Prabhu??? Please don't bother ' she said...

I understood she was very angry at me...

And I deserved every bit of it...

Suddenly I saw her walking away...

I went behind her...

'Im sorry Siya...once listen...I'm sorry please...just once... I know I messed up...I'm sorry...'

'Huhh...sorry??? You called me a murderer Raghav... You thought I tried to kill Ajjo...how could you' she continued walking...

I held her hand and said...

'Look Siya...I know am an idiot...I should not have said all that...I hurt you...'

'You hurt me??? You questioned my morals Raghav??? What do you think I was pretending about my emotions about Ajjo... for your family??? I...am not.......I...I.... I don't wanna explain it Raghav...let me go...'

'Siya please... One chance please... Just... once... I can't live without you' I said and collapsed......i was on my knees now...

She stopped...

There was silence....

She turned around and looked at me...

Though it was raining..I noticed tears flowing from her eyes..

'Raghav...It's too much for me...I can't take it...' She broke down...

I got up and ran to her holding her by her shoulder while she literally cried out...

The next minute she pushed me...

'We can't do this Raghav....A marriage could have still survived without love..but not without trust... And without respect...'

I rubbed the temple of my forehead and said

'Siya please.... Please listen...let me explain... I'm sorry...I...

'No Raghav...we are not good enough for each other...and I'm glad we realized it soon...the last few days...I thought maybe... maybe there was something between us...I felt it and I knew you felt it too... physical attraction... We were moving ahead... I was contemplating that may be....just maybe we could...we might...we....we...we had some hope...'

'Siya...' I held her hand..

She jerked off my hand and continued...

'No listen ... please listen Mr Raghav Prabhu...I knew I wasn't your dream girl...I'm not like Aditi...she's beautiful..she is intelligent...she is smart...she has always been that... And I have always been an average girl... looks, studies or for that matter everything...I accepted it...I was asked to marry you...I accepted it....we slowly started understanding each other...But no...I believe...it was too early for me to think of us...and you blamed me to kill Ajjo...I know I have never had Ajjo bapama in my life...but I value relationships..you called me an outsider...I thought we are a family...'

She was on and on...she had opened that shell she was in ...she was pouring her heart out... I was having a slight headache now...she was talking unstoppable and was pushing me away...she wasn't listening...I knew I hurt her but I didn't want her to give up on this marriage...not because of my stupidity atleast...

I didn't know how to make her stop...

So I just...

Pulled her hard upon my chest and burried my face in the crook of her neck....

I hugged her ❤️

For the next few minutes...I heard only rain drops falling on the ground and on our body...

She stopped talking...

Obviously she was shocked by my step...but I couldn't let her go...

Moving my hand on her back and shoulder...I tightened my grip on her...I literally felt her front melting into my chest...The squeeze I pulled her into my chest...she literally shrunk into me... her frame was exactly into my chest...her hands were hanging down helplessly...she didn't hold me... maybe it was way too shocking for her...she didn't expect me to pull her in like this...but I was left with no choice...

And it worked...

Now I spoke softly while my lips were still on the crook of her neck...

'Please Siya....I'm sorry...Don't leave me...I know it's my fault..I know I behaved like an idiot... Please forgive me'

I didn't hear her speak...

'Siya...I called her...' there was no reaction from her...

I pulled back to look into her face and I noticed her eyes were closed...

'Siya...Siya???' I called her out but there was no reaction...

Just then I heard a car horn and noticed Shilpa had reached...

I called out again 'Siya...open your eyes Siya...please'

But she wasn't opening her eyes...

I called Shilpa for help...

Shilpa came with her umbrella...

She was shocked to see Siya like that...

'What happened to her' she asked angrily...

'I have no idea...she was fine few minutes ago' I tried to explain...

Shilpa asked me to take her into her car...

Thankfully Shilpa was a doctor...

Orthopedic...but yup... Every doctor can check on these basics...

'She's fainted... We'll have to take her to hospital...Did she eat her dinner???' she asked...

I said nodded a yes...

Shilpa did basic checkup and told that 'She should be ok...let's take her to hospital...Don't worry'

Shilpa told she'll drive...I sat behind with Siya lean in my arms... Her innocent unconscious face made me curse myself...I wouldn't be able to forgive myself for causing this pain to Siya... She was so innocent...I hated myself to have put her in this mess...

Shilpa asked me about my car.

I told Shilpa I'll ask dad's driver to collect my car...

Soon we reach the hospital...

Doctor checked upon Siya and like Shilpa said....she was fine...

'She looks a bit weak... I hope she ate well...any kind of stress???'

Doctor asked...

'Ummm... I... Ahhh'

'Sir...she recently got married...her business, new house, new responsibilities together must have got a bit too much' Shilpa covered up while her eyes shot me and looked down in guilt.

'Anything to worry Sir???' she asked...

'Oh. Ummm nothing... she's fine..Just that she's been through a bit too much I guess...must be a sensitive child... anyways... I have given injection...let she sleep well... She should be ok for a discharge in a day's time...' doctor said...

'Right Sir... thanks' Shilpa concluded...

'Ummm Doctor...can we take her home .. I will make sure she gets enough rest' I insisted...

Shilpa was shooting fire at me from her eyes... I knew she just hated me for what I did...

'Well... You can Mr Prabhu...but I'll insist you let her rest...it's just a few hours..once she'll get up and we check upon...you can take her...I'm just concerned because her bp had gone low...so we must keep a check' doctor said...

I nodded a ok and didn't want to argue any further. Anyways Ajjo is also here...so I can handle both well...

I walked out of the room and Shilpa warned me

'This is first and last Raghav...Siya is like my sister... You have seen my jovial side...I swear you'll see a demon in me if she is ever hurt by you again!!!' Shilpa was real angry...

'Are you threatening my brother Dr Shilpa?' I heard a voice from behind me...it was Naman. He looked pretty serious and pissed.

'Nope...I'm warning him. Siya is an innocent soul... She is too good for your egoistic brother...no wonder Aditi didn't wanna Marry him' She said...

It hurt...but it was true...

Naman tried to shut Shilpa saying it's a family matter...

Shilpa warned Naman saying 'Siya is her priceless possession...and if his brother (that's me!!! Yup me the jerk) hurt her in any which way... she'll make sure to take this to Siya's family and that Vitthal uncle at any cost would not let his darling daughter come back to me!!!'

Naman tried to protect me but was also helpless as he knew Siya ended up like this because of me.

He stopped arguing with Shilpa and Shilpa let from there giving a killing stare...I saw her wipe her cheeks...

I had caused her immense grief... Siya was her bestie... I disappointed so many people.

Naman told me he informed mom dad about Ajjo and that they will be reaching by today evening.

I was now thinking how to answer mom dad...they told me Siya was my responsibility. And I failed them.

I failed everyone.

I failed Siya.

I will ask her forgiveness once she's awake.

I could still feel her body in my chest...

Her tears ..her pain...