Hey, this is the first angst I wrote. I know, my first Todoroki chapter and I did this to him. Sorry y'all

Shouto x Reader : Different Halves (Angst)

You had eye on a particular individual in your class, Shouto Todoroki. But someone actually had the same obession as you do. Sadly, him and that person was much more meant-to-be ...

Shouto Todoroki, son of the second-best pro hero, and a classmate of yours. Normally, he often give people the first impression of some stone-cold, intimidating a person. But for you, you saw him as an exceptionally warm person, who's hiding a lot of pain. The more you know him, the more you felt attracted to the split-colored hair friend. And before you know it, the admiration you had for him changed into something much deeper. Something you would love to gain back from him ...

[...]

It was a beautiful day outside. Birds were singing, flowers were blooming. You happily hummed to yourself while walking to UA, admiring the change spring brought. It was a flawless day alright, but you felt that something could make it even better. It was 14/02, the infamous Valentine Day, and you had decided to confess to Shouto about how you think of him. Yesterday you just had an important meeting with the Dekusquad, the only people who knew about your affection. Deku gave you every observation notes he had, Uraraka helped you with the chocolate while Iida showed you a 134-page-long presentation about how to impress a guy. Honestly, you were grateful. Having friends like that were a blessing to your life, a dream coming true to be exact. As you got near to the gates, you saw Ochaco waving at you. You quickly got by her side and gave her a bright smile.

"Hey Ochaco ! Anything to say to me ?"

"I wish you the best of luck !" - she replied, taking your hands in hers - "Todoroki-kun is super lucky to have you eyeing him. Plenty other guys in the class would die to see your smile !"

"You're flattering me, Ochaco." - you chuckled slightly - "My smile is not that great."

Your quirk, Wolf, has many advantages. When you were in your wolf form, only silver bullets could bring you down. But it affected your looks quite a lot. Wolf ears and sharp fangs were some addings, and it made you look much scarier than other girls. When you smile, your shiny fangs would show and make you look like a Halloween character. In order to look as friendly as possible, you attempted not to smile much, but that changed. You could now be seen smiling a lot, especially when you're near Todoroki or your close friends. Uraraka elbowed you lightly.

"Please, it looks as bright as the moon whenever you smile. We should get to class, shall we ?"

[...]

During that morning, you couldn't concentrate on the lessons at all. Every now and then you found yourself glancing at the split-haired boy, and without noticing, you were chuckling to yourself. Many questioning looks were sent you way, many of them were from a certain person who wore glasses. But like hell you cared ! You were going to confess to the most handsome boy in UA, so nothing was going to bring you down. Well, except for his rejection, for sure.

The bell rang, signaling that it was time for lunch. You dashed out of the classroom the moment Present Mic was gone, heading straight for the cafeteria. You had decided to finish your lunch as fast as possible, return to the classroom, get your chocolate and find Shouto. You looked up from your homemade bento when three of your best friends approached the table, Ochaco wearing a sly grin on her face.

"So, what are you going to do now [Y/N] ?"

"I find him, I tell him. Piece of cake." - you answered her question half-heartedly and return to you bento - "I need to concentrate on eating this."

"But [Y/N]-chan ... W-what if he doesn't like you ?"

Your hand which was holding a sushi roll stopped in midair. Midoriya's question stroked a nerve. You had stopped yourself from thinking about that negative outcome, but Deku had a point. He was very close with Yaoyorozu, and they looked too perfect. Both of them were rich, beautiful and smart. He would definitely choose her over you. You felt your ears droop, a sign of your sadness. Deku realised what he had said and quickly covered his mouth.

"I'm sorry ! I didn't think about it clearly ! Please forgive me !

"It's alright, Deku. I kinda prepared myself for that." - you said, not bothering to show how unprepared you were - "Can't force him into liking me."

"Don't be down [Y/N]-san ! We'll be with you no matter what !"

Iida tried to comfort you, but it didn't help that much. To be honest, you would be crying rivers if he denied you. It's not that you were weak, you just ... put so much affection in him already. Not wanting to let your bitterness took over you, you stood up and said harshly, not really meaning it.

"I'm leaving. Better get this done as fast as possible."

You grabbed your bento and walked away, not wanting to hear Izuku's apologies. You marched through the student-filled hallway without any difficulties since you were giving off an aura so deadly that no one wanted to be near you. You were going to open the door that led to your classroom, but then you saw something that caught your interest. A white and red hair was placed next to one of long, black, silky one. You took less than a second to regconize those belonged to. Shouto and Momo. An uneasy feeling rose from your stomach stopped you from going in. Instead, you decided to activate your quirk, boosting your hearing up so you could hear what was going on behind those doors.

"... so I wanted to give you this." - a female voice rang in your ears - "And I hope you feel the same way about me too."

"Is Momo confessing to Shouto ?!" - your chest tightened at the thought. Your heart began to beat in at unsteady pace, getting faster and stronger every moment. This was the worst scenario that could happen. You shook your head, trying to get rid of the stupid thought.

"... should be the one to say this, not you." - this time, your fear was confirmed. The other voice spoke softly, but it hurt you worse than Bakugou's explosions - "I like you too."

Tears began to form in your eyes as you deactivated your quirk. You shouldn't have hear that. You didn't wanted to get your hopes crushed before it even began. You held your lunch box tighter to your chest, trying your best to hold back your desperate sobs. You didn't wanted to be there anymore, so you ran. You had no idea where you legs were taking you until you slammed into some random person in the hall. Looking up, it was none other than Ochaco and the gang. She seemed to be suprised at first, but looking at you teary-eyes, she quickly pulled you into a tight hug.

"I'm so sorry, [Y/N]. I should have come with you. "

"N-no, you did nothing." - you said between sobs - "I'll get over it."

[...]

Even though you claimed that you were fine, you didn't. A heartbreak was always hard to get over, and seeing the very boy who made that happened didn't help at all. Since that day, you began to change back to your old self. You hardly smiled or laughed anymore, and if you did, it would be super forced. You stopped having lunch with the Dekusquad, because that's where Shouto usually sat. You burried your head in books and training, just to get rid of him haunting you mind. Everyone saw that you were avoiding Shouto, and it became so obvious that Aizawa had to give you a rather long talk about not letting personal feelings getting into the way.

Things were hard for Todoroki too. He had no idea how you changed from being happy into a quiet, intimidating goth in 24 hours. The fact that you were avoiding him bugged him so much that he had to find a way to confront you. That day was today.

[...]

You went to the roof to enjoy your lonely lunch, the same way that you had for the last three months. Suddenly, the door cracked open. You were now to face with Shouto Todoroki who had a pained expression displayed on his face. But why would he care ? After all, he had Yaoyorozu. You decided to ignore his presence and continue to enjoy your chicken curry. But like hell he's gonna let it continue like that. Shouto sat down next to you and tried to grab your attention.

"What are doing here alone, [Y/N] ?"

"Oh hey Todoroki." - you replied, not bothering to look at his shocked expression. You had went a long way from calling him by his last name - "Just having lunch."

"And why didn't you sit with us like you used to ?"

"Not feeling like it. I wanted peace."

Your lack of affection caused a heavy aura. Shouto was left speechless, not knowing what he did to make you became this mad. On the other side, you were trying not to run away. Not from the boy next to you, but your fear. You were too scared to face him after Valentine's Day, so you thought it was for the best to turn back to being you. Awkward silence filed the gap, but then Todoroki managed to find his voice again.

"What did I do to make you hate me so much ?"

No response. Not that you didn't know what to say, you had so much to tell him in fact. But you chose to stay quiet.

"Please tell me. I couldn't stand being ignored by you anymore. You're my friend."

"Friend" - you thought. So he had no idea. You were always a friend in his eyes, it was stupid of you to think otherwise. Letting out an amused laugh, you began to spill everything.

"I was there that day." - your voice icy cold, it was almost matching temperature of North Pole - "I was just outside the doors."

"What are you tal-"

"I saw the gift she gave you. I heard her confession, and I heard your response too."

Shouto's mismatched eyes widened. Now he knew what day it was. He was so focused on Momo that he didn't notice anyone else outside. But if he just looked, he would have seen a pair of [H/C] ears. His shocked face only made you feel more pain, tears now forming in your [E/C] orbs.

"There's more things you didn't know Todoroki." - your voice began to crack - "That day, there was another present that belonged to you. A box of chocolate hidden in my bag."

"I was on my way to get that present when I heard your conversation. I thought that if you already accept Yaoyorozu's confession, what's the point in trying ?"

Tears were now streaming down your face, as your wound was reopened. Shouto was staring at you in disbelief, never in his widest dreams thought that was the reason. You managed to let our a light-hearted laugh while wiping away your tears.

"I didn't want to be desperate, so I came back to being my old self, the one I was before having a crush on you."

You stood up, taking your tray with you and headed towards the door. Before open it, you turned around and gave Shouto the brightest smile you hadn't had for months.

"And Shouto ?" - his head sprung up at the mentioning of his name - "Don't worry about me too much. After all, we're different halves."

I'm so so sorry. I had no idea what happened to me. Suddenly it all came pouring and I just write. I'm sorry if this was to crappy ! I promise to improve myself !